Thread 40981446

QOTT: Do you have a pet?

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>>40981446 (OP)
>Do you have a pet?
Not since my cat died, no.

>>40981446 (OP)
yeah, I have to stay alive so my cat doesn't get lonely with nobody to wait on him

sitting here dizzy reminds me of the last qott: does obsessing over my eating disorder count as a "stereotypical female interest"
>>40981446 (OP)
qott: nah my parents never let me have one as a kid and now I feel like I'd do a really shit job of taking care of one

>>40981446 (OP)
my son

I was molested by my male cousin multiple times when I was a kid. Is this common for people like us? Is that the reason I feel this way?

>>40981496
F.

>>40982561
Probably.

>>40982060
he has that repper stare :( neuter him

Did you try being "just gay"?

>>40982060
He is very very adorable. Youre lucky anon

Good morning guys, Im signing up for a job training course that is tailored for people with mental health problems. Right now I'm playing symphony of the night on a retroid handheld.

>>40982561
Might be why im here. Nothing as bad as you though.
>>40983500
Not gay. Gay people disgust me

>>40983776
giwtwm I'm dreading having to look for work again when my savings run out

>qott: do you have a pet?
Cat. He's getting old now, bless him

Some charity dude just asked me if he minded asking me how old I am so I could donate. Said to him "are you serious? im clearly not under 18", and he replies "Well, i thought you was around 19 and didn't want to be rude thinking you're older than you are"
Yea, I'm 39.and norwood to fuck,and he's clearly just trying to be nice to get me to donate. Then my mum starts talking about how "well everyone around where we live thinks you're young too" -- and now im going to spend rest of the day crying and drinking myself into a coma because this used to be true until my early 30s, but it very clearly isn't anymore and didn't want a reminder of that when I'm just trying to do my shopping.

cant make this up. my drug dealer sent me pick uparcel. driggos hiddwn in food and girl shirt. waaaaah. for fucks sake...
>>40981446 (OP)
yep. miniature pinscher
>>40983786
depends on your job. being physio is so so

babydollanon

>>40984697
I miss her so much ;__;

>>40984697
>>40984721
>babydollanon
literally who

need to groom a repper incel into my trans gf

>>40984763
missed it. was away from here. i know Wheel, Vampchan, Cafebeef, Boris, Terje, Emilia, Kayla, Xenia... were crazierbtimes on here back then but its more comfy now. less hot takes thatvwould not be accepted by either chuds or redittors

i have issues but i dont have time for that i need to get a job at the amazon fulfilment center

>>40984816
theres a very good reason some of us rep and it's the same reason you wouldn't want to groom us

eeh too big. xxl shit man

i'm a chaser for the cutest bi boy who is right on the verge of realizing she's trans. like anytime now she'll start soft-launching the he/she/they in her bio.

>>40981446 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40985286
>become a hon, retards

>>40985286
I wish HRT was enough on its own.

>>40984970
BVILT

>>40985286
hrt ruined my life

>>40985295
you can take hrt without honmoding

>>40985396
most hon creating shit is stubble, uneven skin tone and being big as in fat/muscle..mostly torso fat

>>40985408
Torso fat is a masc thing, taking hrt should be shifting your fat storage a little bit more to your lower body instead.

It is impossibly to become a woman
Yes done amabs transition but their were already women
Other amabs are male and transition is impossible

>>40984970
If I saw you on the street I would clock you immediately

>>40984970
girly hands/wrists

salty literal cow harassing me lmao

>>40985512
well no hrt

>>40984858
worried the boys at the amazon fulfilment sever can clock me by how I bend my knees when I piss myself

>>40984970
post ass

>>40985657
um. no. maybe later if i get high enouh hihi

>>40984970
how come even the reppers pass but i'm forced to be an orgerapehon for the rest of time

>>40985695
dw i'm sure i look worse :)

>>40985695
ikr what a retard
at least I repress for a legitimate reason and hell I even tried to transition years ago

agp schizo has officially replaced babydollanon as my waifu

>>40985783
come on no way i could in poland, esoecually around family... need to flee for real. not muchbdebt anymore but fucking where? shits scary.

>>40985807
can't you go anywhere in the EU?

>>40985870
maybe? but i only know english... bong islands left eu... somehow things got better lately... easier familywise and financially... is ireland in eu?

>>40985806
finally free
>>40985897
don't come to bongland there's literally nothing for anyone here

>>40985897
you can make do with english in many places

>>40985897
Ireland is in the eu and outside of Dublin they are very kind people. Don't go to Dublin though

>>40986061
heard bad stories about irish threating poles badly but these were construction workers...

Are most of you chasers become reppers because it's is a more realistic dream to fantasise about becoming a pretty trans girl than it is to find one, given irl statistics?

>>40983500
Yes. One of the problems I've run into is that my attraction to males didn't really "age with me" so to speak. I'm just attracted to androgyny

>>40986106
tbhon I've seen a lot of vile racism previously but not so much nowadays. I think Ukrainians normalised Eastern European migrants, but Indians and Arabs get a lot of flack

giwtwm

im so jealous of women

how is it that they get to look like fucking goddesses and the average man looks like a basedjak, what did god mean by this?

Describe your dream life.

I cant
I have no dreams
I have loving parents
They help me through school
I have nice lifelong friends and pets
I go into a nice uni and become smart
I find a girl to marry
I go to the ISS once
I die in my wifes arms
Is this a dream? Or a template

afab
programming career
have friends

spent several hours staring in the mirror again award

>>40986839
why would you ever do that?

>>40986852
meant to post that in mmg

wasted the last 10 years

will waste the next 10 years

gonna be a homeless 40 year old man begging for money on the streets i just know it

>>40986880
same though I hope to turn my life around, but I'm already homeless

>>40986784
somehow losing my consciousness entirely, but still being useful for those around me
i would do almost anything to become a soulless automaton, it'd be something i'd become in a heartbeat - far more so than transitioning even
>oh well you're faketrans then
maybe
i just want to be useful

>>40982561
Yes. Maybe.

how to cut ties with trannies & their enablers?

advice?
im tired of listening to stalkers & weirdo chaser faggots

I've burnt every bridge
disowned every person
& yet
they're fucking annoying

:p

the tranny enablers are gangstalking me

:p

tranny enabler fatigue

>>40986926
I was previously a homeless addict and managed to make it out, it's possible <3
>>40987131
dat goal of losing my consciousness so I can drown out the dysphoria while not being mentally ill and capable of functioning at maybe even succeeding at bettering my life professionally / career wise

name five things you going for/against you when it comes to trooning out
>very short
>...
>...
>...
>passive?

>broad shoulders
>narrow hips
>unapproachable autistic male soul
>big lightbulb head
>balding

>>40988228
>Nice hair
>feminine digit/hip ratio
>good control of my voice
>bisexual gf
>liberal family

>unapproachable autistic male soul
>6ft tall
>receding hairline
>masculine job
>no longer in my early 20s

get 'pilled

>>40988354
GIWTWM

I wish I could just transition but I’m too male

>>40988655
same

>>40985286
too scary

why didn't you groom me when i was younger

>>40985286
HRT won't make me Xenopavilia women real.

>>40989080
>Xenopavilia women
god i need them so bad

>>40989080
what

set me free...

>>40981446 (OP)
only plants. still end up killing them half the time

what's repgen listening to / watching?
https://soundcloud.com/clubheartbroken/diffrent-a-little-closer-oppidan-remix

i hung out around trannies online when i was 14-17 hoping they would groom me and buy me hrt but i was too ugly and manly so they werent interested

>>40988954
why wasn't I groomed at all, wouldn't take much

I hate waking up
why can't I just die in my sleep

i wish i could be a twinkhon transbian

>>40988228
>good hair
>wide hips
>
>
>

>6'2
>shoulders wider than any man i've ever met
>(former) autist
>schizoid
>agp curls

I wish I could go back in time and do things differently

>>40991750
same, I would not have transitioned and persisted in repping

need to groom a repper with a micropenis

I can barely even handle reading through these /rep/gen threads, the self loathing is just too depressing. I don't care if you call me a groomer or a "hon-enabler" or whatever other brainwormed buzzwords you can think of, everyone needs to post their address in this thread immediatley so I can come and personally inject every single one of you loser girls with e and give you a band-aid and a little kissy.
And don't pretend like you don't want me to, why else are you even here? Just to doom-enable yourselves? Some real crabgirl bucket mentality shit going on in these threads.

>>40991927
yeah sorry let me transition and become a honbeast of such proportions that i make jessica yaniv look like a youngshit and become the reason trans people get put in camps

>>40991927
you don't look like that

mommy is here to groom her little sweeties! stop hating yourself and give me your address so I can give you a euphoric injection of estrogen and a little kiss too

>>40991941
Stop blaming "hons" for the western descent into fascism like some kind of proto tranny uncle tom, and take control of your life for once. Would you rather spend the rest of your days rotting on 4chan, amidst people who either hate you or hate themselves, and patting yourself on your slowly balding head while assuring yourself that at least you were 'one of the good ones' that never had the nerve to try and self-actualize? You may have been psyoped into believing transitioning after puberty is some kind of embarresement by your 4chan peers, but I can assure you that whatever the hell you are doing in these threads is 100 times more embarressing and pathetic.

I'm sorry for sounding mean anon, I'm just trying to match your tone in an attempt to get through to you. This is a bad place, you are stuck, and it's not going to get better, but you know that already, don't you? Tgirls older, fatter, and sadder than you have made the leap before and have regained their lust for life. Trust me.

>>40992020
She's smiling anon. Do you remember the last time you did?

>>40992045
Is this you anon? You really don't look bad. Especially if you aren't even on hormones yet. There is hope for you.

>>40992070
what a brutal fucking lie lmaooo

>>40992070
this attitude kills people

>>40991927
i hate niggers like you

>>40992084
>>40992086
Why? Because she has a long face, strong chin, and a subpar wig?
Who gives a shit?
You've just become so brain-blasted by looking at tiktok and instagram filter girls, you don't even know what average people look like anymore. You've saved so many "hon" pictures to your harddrive, to study them, pick them apart and internalize your own trabsphobia and self-loathing, you've created a pavlovian, clock-work orange disgust response every time you see a homely trans woman.
And the hours, days, weeks, years tick away, as you yank another of your closeted sisters back into the bucket of shame with you.

only way for me to have a successful transition: in a laboratory setting completely naked with srs turning around slowly where heterosexual men rate my looks and if I'm bellow the cis female average for my country and age then im a hon and its over

i think i'd be able to pass if i had one of my hands amputated and 3/4ths of my face covered in 3rd degree burns

>>40992086
You are dying, and you haven't even realized it yet.
>>40992151
She gets it

>>40991927
Funnily my male aura would give you such whiplash youd change toon just taking ot me once
it happened to other people it will happen to you too
Some people are born to be girls and women
Some are born to be male like me
your genes or sex doesnt matter
And you cannot change this fate
Im born to be male and you cannot change that
I try but it is useless

>>40992070
lmfao post yourself hon

I feel like a girl sometimes but I feel mostly like a dude that is transitioning as a hobby

I am literally a man why am I trooning
why am I risking my life with gray market hormones
Why am I doing this
Why am i obsessing over it
why am I such a fucking idiot?
I can just live as a man
go to a bar and learn to make drinks
or coffee and grow old doing that in my small apartment
I was never a girl growing up
just porn addicted
I was never a girl as an adult just porn addicted
I was never a girl
and thats ok
I need to accept it

>>40992196
you are not even a repper if you take hormones you dumb faggot

pinkpillers + hrt ‘reppers’ gtfo

>>40988228
>parents don't give a shit
>I'm not going to get married and have kids anyway
>
>
>

>poor and living in the third world
>5'11
>broad shoulders
>huge ribcage
>(other things that could be fixed if I weren't poor)

>>40992196
Why not just by them the normal way?

>>40992206
hrt reppers are just coping. ngl I prefer how I feel on hrt though I haven't taken it in years

>>40992174
>aura
Talking about auras and crystal magic and shit is one of the most "fem-brained" things I can think of anon. Do you also listen to Enya in a bubblebath while you tell yourself this? You aren't destined to be a man, I don't even believe in that sort of fatalistic nonsense. Everyone has the capacity to self-actualize and become the person they want to be. It takes work, but it is within your reach.
>>40992175
I already post myself in the passgen threads occasionally. And yeah I get on those girls' nerves too by telling them passing isn't as integral as they make it out to be.
Read Whipping Girl, in it, "Julia Serano proposes that we drop "passing" as a term. Instead of passing or not passing, we are either correctly gendered or misgendered. This is to de-artificialize our genders, after all, am I a man trying to pass myself off as a woman? Or am I just a woman who cis people, due to their own prejudice, look at and assume is a man? Of course, it is the latter."
I would definitley recommend the book. Hell a lot of you girls would benefit from reading some trans literature, It's certainly more educational and informative than reading the latest chud report on X or whatever thread some transmisogynist false-flagger gay boy pretending to be a tgirl makes on here.
If you're looking for another trans book to read, I would also highly recommend Woodworking by Emily St. James. It's fairly new and just came out last year I believe.
Also Nevada by Imogen Binnie. This one is short.
The latter two are fiction, but deal heavily with themes of repression, so I think everyone in this thread could benefit from them.

>>40992196
>I can just live as a man
Can you?
>I was never a girl as an adult just porn addicted
Girls also look at, film, and draw porn anon. There is nothing inherently masculine about pornography despite what the "porn-reformed" tradcaths on twitter will tell you.

>>40992253
>Julia Serano
lmfao isn't that the same guy that came up with a different term for agp because he was butthurt by it

>>40992253
Ugh you pass, we get it. Stop rubbing it in

>>40992307
I like the term autogynophile, It rolls off the tongue nicely, and it's affirming too, since most cis women are also turned on by the thought of being women and hot. It's why we usually aren't in the mood for sex if we aren't feeling sexy, or think we look like shit.

>>40992253
I think passing is overstated but I felt really uncomfortable with not even remotely passing when I was trans so now I repress. I don't care about others' opinions but it was crippling to be aware of myself

>>40992266
Do they look Tay feminization furry hentai? Do they listen to Tranny hypno joi?
Yeah
W/e
>>40992206
This is the only place for a faketroon mske like me
>>40992253
Then I must not want it enough
I must be a sort of male porn addict that just confused himself
I barely shower
I do nothing but work all day every day
On Sundays I stay in my bed and force myself to be quiet
Nobody taught me this
My family were kind
I’m just a guy with mental illnesses
I’ll die alone.
Every trans person. I came close to KNEW I wasnt like them and avoided me.
I’m not a woman or a girl
I can’t even pretend I am. It’s all so fake.
I’m glad at least hrt killed my libido somewhat. So much guilt and shame from being what I am
Just a faggot sissy mef agp
A moid. A man. And it’s ok. They get to fap too right? In their little faggot fantasies.

Now you’ll tell me to see therapy or try more drugs

>broccoli haired job interviewer asks if I'd cut my hair for the position
brutal

>>40992339
this. it does not please me to dress in women's clothing without looking like a woman. i would rather be a man than a man in a dress.

>>40992328
I'm "correctly gendered" from day to day, but thanks, and you will be too.
JUST
FUCKING
START

>>40992362
I was trans for 5~ years, now I'm a detrans repper

>>40992345
You are just depressed anon. I get it. I was too. I holed up in my apartment all day every day, collecting mold and dust. Transitioning is what broke the seal for me.
>>40992339
Are you still on hormones? Or are you just boymoding? If you stopped hrt entirely I'm sorry to say but it is highly likely you are going to wind up regretting it later in life. If you are just presenting more masculine...that's fine. Your presentation is totally up to you, and you can always experiment with different styles later, if you are feeling more confident.
>>40992353
Yes that's body dysphoria, not to be confused with gender dysphoria. I had bad body dysphoria too, both hormones and surgery helped with that immensely. I know some trans women just have gender dysphoria, and are totally content with dressing femme and not even taking HRT. Your dreaded "hons". But that is their prerogative. I don't relate to it, or fully understand it, but I also don't hate them for it. And I certainly don't pin all of the maledictions of society against trans women on their backs, and neither should you.

>>40992410
I AM ON HRT
WGEN IS THE “transitioning makes it better” happening?

>>40992333
>since most cis women are also turned on by the thought of being women and hot
incorrect. unless most cis men also get horny from being manly and hot too, which they like being manly because it attracts women and they get social validation for it, and the opposite is true for women.

>>40992427
How long? It takes time anon.
Also, are you hanging out with other trans women IRL too? I can't stress enough how important this is in order to not feel alienated and alone.

>>40992427
Never, this is a hon cope for being hedonistic. Transition is for the strong, only. You will not feel better than repping.

>>40992438
trans women are really rare

>>40992438
nta but 3 years, and all the trans women ive met have been literal pedophiles and rapists. its looking grim out here.

>>40992438
Over a year and a half
Did you even read my posts? They shunned me

>>40992435
>unless most cis men also get horny from being manly and hot too
They do
>>40992448
Not really, not anymore. Especially if you are in a more metropolitan area. You have to make an effort to find them. Find support groups, go to dyke bars.
>>40992441
>get mocked and disregarded before picture for being a hon
>get mocked and disregarded after picture for being a passer
I can't win can I?

>>40992478
>straight men get horny about being men because... THEY JUST DO OKAY

I would've stayed trans if I had a support group probably but I was only isolated after transitioning, because most people don't want anything to do with troons

>>40992485
anglefraud final boss

>>40992485
I looked like this and did this before becoming self aware

Bored tranny got bored

>>40992515
fatigued

>>40992515
I'm going to sleep. I'll post more tomorrow if i'm not too busy, and if you girls even want me here.

need to become a t4t transbian with another fatigued repper

>>40992556
Was it entertaining at least?

>>40991927
>>40992025
Thank you for posting, I wish this board had much more understanding and balanced messages like this rather than the purely hateful depressed shitposting desu.

I really came to terms with my dysphoria too late (I know, it's never 'too late'), after many years of unintentional denial and repression due to other factors. Now I feel old, balding, aging, masculine, work a labor job, etc. I wish I had your optimism, maybe one day. Take care <3

>>40992566
Maybe for one or two posts, then it was exhausting and draining. I want to help everyone here, since I empathize with you all, but I'm not sure if I can. I don't know if it's 4chan culture that has its hooks in you, or if this place just magnetizes depressed reppers. Maybe it's both.
Do you at least feel you are helping each other in some twisted way? Having a community to languish and doom post together? Maybe I should just give up and leave you to it if so.

>>40991927
I come here when im having a tough time, and I don't want to be a burden on my friends. I came back after being more or less ok for 4 years. A whole lot of moving parts in my life trooning would complicate
>>40992168
This is a fucking crazy thing to say dude you should probably get help
>>40992352
I would fucking kill him
>>40992485
They do, sometimes I do. Dude in the pic would pass in a rough Boston neighborhood

>>40992682
> A whole lot of moving parts in my life trooning would complicate
It always does. There is really no way around that. Sorry to hear about you having a hard time, you should still try to lean on your friends a little though, they'll help support you, if they are real ones.
>>40992629
Your welcome anon. And your right, it *is* never too late. I'm sure you aren't as old as you feel, and I hope you keep an open mind about the possibility of transition and a better life. Try reading some of those books I recommended, they are good, I swear. I think Woodworking you would especially get a lot out of if you're older.
Good luck.

>>40992652
I don’t know
I wish there was a solution but there never is
I enjoyed your posts if that’s what’s your after. I’m just tired

I will never look, smell, act or sound female ever.

>>40992753
Forgot to add think
I’ll never think like a female either.

>>40992682
>This is a fucking crazy thing to say
is it? i mean tons of passoids on this very board do all sorts of shit to distract from the male looking parts of their bodies to pass even better, so i don't see how becoming disfigured would be any different.
plus, they'd be more sympathetic and less likely to clock me if they thought i had gone through some horrific accident

had kinda wacky rough night, after coke did ket and fuck. fuckity fuck. brought back memories stuck deeper in mind... like troonshit i forgotten. as in weird fasciantion when male characters had darker eyelids. obviously looking kind of like eyeshadow. but would not want tonwear ot back then cause its bad. you know shaming. but if it became fine ivwould love to. back to kids mindset. and from prepubery shit like feelimg sisgusted at idea of growung beard, but it being natural so must been... um "okay", "proper" or whatever shite... games too like dino chrisis or syphon filter enjoying more playing girl. fuckity fuck. cant even go back into some sort of denial. and worst fucky shit. ketted looked into mirror. horror. inhuman beast. sentinel. tormentor gawking at me. mocking me. demiurgic abomination. man outside. hollow shell encapsulating me. the fuck. strong arms like choking me.mine. not in literal sense. but had two shirts. good put on girl shirt, angled, squezed squinted... saw myself. bit then he comes again. run... fuckity, almost had to go ton sleep in drag wearing too big shirt of someones mom or grandma, still smelling of women perfumes. not end of bad.so fucked that almost had to go on all fours to bed... felt alien shit in body. like glued on. shoulders, skull, feet. normally it feels like moving puppet or videogame character, "telling" body to move foward, nit very unlike joystic. but then felt trapped. the fuck? isnt it supposed to be dissociative? but remember similar shit from past... intense feels of being trapped, freakout. cant live like that. fuck this. either i am zombified having hard time to even bathe and swipe floor or i have this shit. fuckfuck. get it why ket and frocks did it to Wachowskis. also Musk is suspucious too in this regard...
>>40992253
>Enya
hah. good taste. loved when mom listened to it. in a way i still feel trapped in some way in early 90s... where i love it had lots from 80s and even 70s if we use america as standard.

>>40992757
rep some more without being too spaced out and you will see.

i wont kms because i deserve to suffer as long as possible

>>40984816
god i wish that were me

>>40992987
im just too cowardly, though at this point I feel like I'm just wasting away. It's hard to enjoy anything

how can you confidently say gender dysphoria is the reason you are so sad when you haven't been diagnosed?

>>40992737
I will keep the book in mind! I remember hearing about it from NPR or something at one point. I'm early 30's, but yeah, horribly convinced to never take any steps to actually transitioning at all ever for the most part / probably entirely. You seem honest and normal, any recommendations online for where to meet similar people? Is frengen any good? Feels weird to post discord there. I don't know anyone understanding, I'm also banned from Reddit for being regarded. Wish I knew more LGBT / trans friendly people, live in some stupid right wing town and family etc
>>40992753
My default thoughts in between not wanting to be male on top of the fml dysphoria to repper whiplash

>>40992792
Cisf lurker but when i did ket i felt similarly about my body even though i have no gd. We are all animals. I looked at pics of a supermodel and felt the same repulsion even. Its not just bc youre amab thats just what ket does. Ygmi anon but i want for you to get your drug use under control and ideally be sober

>>40993291
I have a diagnosis, visited a GIC five times tbf

>living vicariously via lurking in trans discord servers
>therapist starts advertising in the self promo channel
FUCK i thought i was safe from pink pillers

>>40993503
oh no the sympathetic pro trans people have invaded the... trans discord servers

I think I'll just take hrt next year, things aren't getting better

>>40993596
more power to you but what makes you so sure it won't just give you a bunch of more problems

I will never be a woman
I will never be a tranny
I’m a fake and a fraud

tfw i got on hrt just to realize the reppers were right

Injected again yesterday :(

groping hrt reppers

Hrt makes me sick

>>40993826
hrt is the cure (provided you can pass)

>>40993858
hang all pinkpillers in the streets

:p

how would you even pinkpill a repper? lovebombing only works if they're an incel or something

>>40994074
It’s not possible
Tbh I’m only on hrt cause a friend said they’d leave me otherwise

>>40994074
i need a bf who beats me until i transition

:p

>>40994207
:p

>3/4ths of the year already gone by
>did absolutely nothing noteworthy during that time
is time actually speeding up? or am i just getting older and jaded and the days are starting to blur together

>>40994290
It's been like this for me for 14 years.

do most reppers look like tristan from twitter or is he in the minority?

i'm curious what will be the next cope for hrt reppers?
breast augmentation repping? facial feminization surgery repping?

>>40994149
I would but I think I'd transition too

>>40994290
rip van winkle maxing for me, just napping through to an early grave

>>40994362
Passrepping.

>>40981446 (OP)
>qott
yes, one of them went in for emergency surgery recently :(

>>40986784
>dream life
afab, musician, bf, friends, acceptance
instead ill just pass off my leftover hrt boobs as gyno and be a gay guy

>>40994362
lol i've seen people post about getting ffs and still manmoding. what are we doing
>>40994371
on the one hand would no longer have a bf (bad) but i'd bet you'd be a lot meaner about it which might be cool

the only people who transition should be those who already look androgynous

>>40994451
lots of trans women go for multiple rounds of FFS before they're happy tbf

>>40994463
not necessarily but yeah. lots of timelines are puzzling but if you try to take care of yourself and prep before transitioning you'd probably know

fatigue

fatigue :p

tfw ywn do cute cosplay for a halloween party
being a repper's rough

i feel so much shame about being a submissive male

>>40994647
BVILT for grooming

repper fatigue

:p

>>40994665
yeah its all boring now, the pain is boring, either kill me or make me work my life away or get addicted to drugs i dont know which. i just want my mind to shut the fuck up now

>>40994362
i will become an ffs repper

>>40994645
tfw ywn do cute cosplay and go to a convention with your friends

tfw ywn go for a night out in a cute outfit

tfw ywn put makeup on and feel pretty

tfw

>>40994815
booze you drown but can be absolutely extatic (alkie genetix i have)
opiates. bohemian. pure souls coping with evil world. artistic. sensitive. but expensive. physically addictive. if you dose just in evening youbwait whole day and it saps energy... sacred evening. ritual. doing it from morning increases tolerance rapidly. best high is poppies. then codeine or oxy. morphinebis drowsy as it relases less histamine and does not have thebainish strychnine like action. advised to add caffeine, cocaine, nep or 3cmc. not speed as it will fuck your dream and opuates are best for supper.
dissos too wacky. road to looneybin but you feel like seer. unveiling. behind curtain.
stims. only shorter acting one and not pyros as they are deliriant lite. avoid amphetamine and flakka for such reason. coke is overhyped and onlyvworjs well with booze cause cocathylene
t. druggie since 2004

>>40994957
nta but this seems really complicated so will probably just stick with booze and weed

When will I be given a chance to become a cis woman?

I hope ydays passoid comes back
I thought she’d pinkpill me…

whatever you do do not attempt to look at your profile in the mirror. my browbone looks so fucking gigantic holy shit

I’m glad I figured it out
Bye

i alternate between wanting to be a based miserable lonely doomer who smokes and a cute femboy with a mommy gf but im just a gross estrogenized neet so im neither

tfw you look at r/transtimelines and see all the 40 year old hons who look like balding truck drivers

im genuinely so fucking crushed. how is it that i used to be some faggot emo teenage boy and now im going to end up like that. why couldnt i just have been normal

>>40995261
so trannybangs heh

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>>40995474
felt, at least some older ones are okay

>>40995488
it looks ok because shes anglefrauding hard. some of them arent even trying and i dont know why they would do this, what is going on in their minds.

>>40995435
What is this /meal/?

>>40995499
lonely men, they get compliments regardless because hugboxing

>>40995519
It’s truth

>>40995558
>truth is some 4chan post telling you how to live your life

the only truth is this, people who are secure in their identity dont go looking for validation online to tell them who they are. they just fucking do it. they just start taking hormones because they feel like they have to, they get all the surgeries no matter what because they have to. i wont even bother digging into my own psychology besides that. either you have the courage to choose it for yourself or you dont deserve it. we're cowards

>>40995576
Worse than a coward I’m male
I feel male
I male
There is nothing else but an obsession with the Other
But there is nothing to change
To mold
I’m me
Nothing else
And I’m a man
Need to better that

>>40994647
it's worse when your main kink is being a dommy mommy and you're a brick of a man

>>40995608
horrible isnt it, to realise that the thing that makes you so disgusted isnt something that can be washed off. the thing that is disgusting is YOU

>>40995619
Yes
Correct
I’m immutable and awful

>>40995558
Youre acting like there's some kind of objective truth or rules to mentall illness. Have you ever left home?

>>40995664
I have a job

>have mental breakdown
>order HRT
>panic
>throw it away
>Rinse repeat

I wish I were a woman

>>40994109
god that's so hot

tfw i know all my trans friends secretly pity me because they know i have no chance and they think im kind of a pathetic loser but they have to include me because they dont want to be hypocrites

>>40995729
me (I look like george costanza)

>>40995435
too bad take it anyway

it's getting to a point

idk if i can rep any longer, but suicide sounds like a more appealing option than transition because i'm a 6'2" blocky capital m Male. my chances of passing are zero. i have not since middle school and will not for the rest of my days have a connection with someone genuine enough for us to be equals, rather than it being emotionally distant or as me as the clearly lesser person.

>>40995760
i feel much the same way. i know a couple bubbly, extroverted trans men through a friend of mine from high school who have made attempts to include me and get me out of my shell, but it just doesn't seem right. i know the effect i have on people (repulsion), and as much as i wish i could, i can't accept that they are talking with me for any reason other than pity and social obligation. for years, i've felt as though the only reason i have friends is that in the web of people i know, nobody wants to be the one to cut me off, but nobody actually sees me as an equal either

i exist in a sort of limbo -- i'm friends with at least 7 people, but also none at all. not a single one of them speaks with me directly when not in group settings, at least not more frequently than once every 3-4 months.

parrots :>

>>40995748
How?
>>40995760
Tbh this
At least they didn’t abandon you because you creeped them out by standing in a corner every time drinking

:p

>>40995481
>so trannybangs heh
My hair is thinning and I can't do that anymore it's fucking OGRE for me.

>>40995830
Take what

>>40995882
in an exploitative way

>>40995987
Why is it exploitive

i am serious about it

i just need to find a way to deal with all the material bullshit i have before i do it

after that, i'll be free. the world from me, and me from it

i'm looking forward to breathing easy again, albeit for the last time

>>40996000
you're doing it so they won't leave you? presumably it's against your will as a repper

>>40996012
>material bullshit i have
i am happy to take any money you have leftover sir

>>40996143
sex with larry

looked at myself in a car's side mirror and over the course of about a second i saw myself age into an old man and then into a skull. i'm not speaking metaphorically i literally saw this