Thread 40983513

/adv/ ignored me; this is on-topic bc i am trans
i got a degree in a field which is completely incompatible with my personality. and it cost too much money.
i am especially bad at talking to people and i'm like borderline bradypsychic and have not been good at any job i have ever had before.
at this point i just want a job i can do without having to really be a person at all. like literally a computer-in-a-cubicle gray-walls-and-floor water-cooler-having office job. but i can't find those. anything that works would be okay i guess but it's the figuring out what works that is hard.
what do you do when you're inept? the libraries aren't hiring clerks right now but i thought about being a library clerk, even though they have to answer questions and do everything. i just thought i would try, since it's quiet. it doesn't pay anything, though, and neither does mail-carrying, which i also thought about.
what can i do to justify the space i occupy? i would an hero but my parents had to co-sign on my loans so i want to pay them off before i do that

Have you thought about museums or archives. A lot of institutions have them and they need specialists from fields other than their focus sometimes.
It will not fix the feeling of wanting to disappear, that's more of an anonymous, do once get payed thing. Maybe talk to a temp agency, that dishes out short term work or a closed shop union and go through a bunch of different workplaces and tasks, till you know better.
>i am especially bad at talking to people and i'm like borderline bradypsychic and have not been good at any job i have ever had before.
Does stuff never turn out like you intend to? Did you go through a chain of jobs, keep messing up your tasks, grow contempt and can't get to fit in the workplace? You can't see a future for yourself, but also don't really have a visual image of how the finished task looks like?
Your writing screams YOU HAVE ADHD and only Adderall will fix your emotions.

>>40983788
i have thought about museums and archives both, actually, though not in recent times. i don't know where those ideas left my head for. some more pleasant locale, surely. thank you, nonny :) i will look into that again. are you sure those sorts of jobs are attainable without a relevant degree, though? i am certainly not a specialist in anything; i got an elementary education degree.
i had never considered temp agencies, so i will look into that, as well. although the issue is not so much that i want to disappear as it is i feel my personality is incompatible with general human society. which is a sentence you could cut yourself on, probably, but it's just about the ineptitude. i thought about working as a park ranger, too, but you need some sort of environmentalism degree for that, understandably.
the entire latter half of your post reads like a nightmare infomercial rant directed only and specifically at me; i have, actually, had a diagnosis of ADHD for most of my life, but i've never tried Adderall. I have considered it recently, though. i'll bring it up to my therapist. i didn't know my writing came off that way but i suspect it may just be that i was trying to be short. usually i find my writing to be obnoxiously prolix and convoluted. although in reviewing this post, i haven't really done that here, either.
thank you much again nonny. i really appreciate the thoughtful answer.

>>40984146
I was gonna say too, I imagine you would have to compete with ppl trained in art history and archival sciences and so on
you could always try selling things like on etsy to supplement income and do volunteering?

>>40984171
unfortunate...but i will try anyways, since i have not yet.
>try selling things like on etsy
as if i have the talent to create; i said "worthless", nonny...i am awaiting induction into a local volunteer firehouse, so i do have that, soon, but i really need to make money. unfortunately none of the firehouses around here are funded, else i would do that. i've been applying to a bunch of places for minimum-wage stuff recently just to have something for the moment but nobody's gotten back to me yet.

>>40984171
>>40984190
i'm sorry, as i read this back it seems sort of hostile which i did not intend. i just don't think selling things would work very well at all for me. i do appreciate the suggestions, really. thank you