>>40990476
voice training just feels fake to me. like its an act i would be putting on. if my voice was naturally feminine, i wouldnt have a problem with it. i just want to be me, not some sort of act i have to keep up every day. i dont want to perform anything.

/adv/ ignored me; this is on-topic bc i am trans
i got a degree in a field which is completely incompatible with my personality. and it cost too much money.
i am especially bad at talking to people and i'm like borderline bradypsychic and have not been good at any job i have ever had before.
at this point i just want a job i can do without having to really be a person at all. like literally a computer-in-a-cubicle gray-walls-and-floor water-cooler-having office job. but i can't find those. anything that works would be okay i guess but it's the figuring out what works that is hard.
what do you do when you're inept? the libraries aren't hiring clerks right now but i thought about being a library clerk, even though they have to answer questions and do everything. i just thought i would try, since it's quiet. it doesn't pay anything, though, and neither does mail-carrying, which i also thought about.
what can i do to justify the space i occupy? i would an hero but my parents had to co-sign on my loans so i want to pay them off before i do that