>>41106891 (OP)
opiates. but i dont touch them.
but if i could i would just smoke opium all day.
i have no problem taking low doses of mushrooms and will any time theyre around.
(theyre around all the time)
i'll smoke like 1-3 hits of pot and chill.
or mix it into a spliff and smoke it that way.
i cant smoke weed anymore or alot of it.
i prefer to eat it or drink it now. i dont like to use pot around people.
alcohol...
i love having a couple drinks me for socializing.
but i dont like losing reaction time.
then i also like
>>41106903
but thats something different. but yeah something about dopamine things lights up my sex drive.
i want to do drugs tonight.
but im scared too.i got bad news yesterday and i need to spiral even further now.
like i am okay dying. by this weekend. 100.
im ready to fucking go. so fucking lets go!!!!!!!!
if i have to i'll smoke a ball of crack to my face and pray there is some nasty ass fent in it so i can fucking LEAVE
my social workers fucked up some paperwork last month and they fucked me.
and i'm really down and out now.
so ive given up.
he winter is here, i needed that part in play to save me, they fucked it up. i dont have that in play.
i'm not going to make it. i can take the hint, and go find some fucking fent and bounce.