>be me
>dumbass kid built like a shitty ps2 rpg npc
>end up messing with some girls at 18 and lose my virginity with one of them at a party
>it leads to nothing and we both move on
>years pass, im 20 now
>im failing my studies so what better way of using my time that go out and date some ppl
>meet some girl orline and start dating a couple of weeks later
>we stay together for a month but again it goes nowhere and we break up soon after starting
>a year passes, im 21
>i begin to work at a shitty mall to make some money to pay my rent since i am a certified fuckup now
>a girl i work with invites me to go out with some of her friends and end up at her house with them
>one of the friends is a tranny (her voice gives her out)
>we end up talking about dumb shit to get angry at and end up connecting
>im a bit scared of going out with a tranny but she seems to be comfortable around me (somehow)
>we end up meeting more frequently for the next 2 months and i finally admit to myself i like her and propose a date
>she says yes
>we end up on a relationship for the next year and a half and i share with her some of the best moments of my life
>im still a fuckup tho, and im struggling to finish my studies while she finishes and finds a job short after
>we end up in a bad state of mind because of that and we end up breaking up
>years pass, im 25
>i try to date more cis women but its the same shit, i cannot conect with them at all
>i miss my tranny gf

its never been more over for me, im doomed and there is no way out