Thread 41317857

Well Ive lost everything to being trans, and Ive spent years of my life on it and I still feel crippling dysphoria but Ive still decided Im going to detransition.
There's no point. If I dont pass I dont pass. A fat Italian mobster and a twink are both men, and I dont care what variety of man I want to be a woman but because of my hulking hon body I can't be.
Ive lost everything for no reason. I lost my family, my inheritence, my housing, what was going to be my college education, even the side of the damn country I lived on. I came out at 8 and trooned at 18 and my body was already too destroyed to be salvaged. Fuck my life. Fuck testosterone.

i bet you look fine retard

>>41317868
I have not been gendered female in 2 years. I used to pass but anorexia took that and Im done trying to get it back. I cant.

>>41317857 (OP)
How does a girl decide she wants to be a man at 8? Who put this idea in your head?

picrel is what OP looks like

>>41317938
I was a boy and I wanted to be a girl. I saw a documentary about a trans murderer who killed her husband for the SRS money which was my first introduction to the concept of being trans.
Not exactly the nicest way for it to happen but it did. The way they talked about her was really fucked up but it made me realize that it is possible to try to be a girl.
Well I try to come out to my parents about a year after seeing that and they just flat out deny it. I do it again in middle school, and in highschool I had to come out I think 7 times in a month before theyd even aknowledge that I said a single thing.

>>41317949
Anon Im 6'2 and have size 11 womens feet with a 17in bicromial. Ive been able to grow a full beard since late middle school and have been 6'2 since I was 13.

>>41317960
I feel for your parents but I also feel for you. It is normal to sit down and lament your lot whether you did it to yourself or not. But at some point you have to pick yourself up and think to yourself "where do I go from now". Shoulda, coulda and woulda don't really contribute to the future.

>The way they talked about her was really fucked up
Killing your husband for srs money is fucked up.

>>41318024
"Where do I go from now" I've been asking myself that for nearly 3 years. The only answer I've gotten is just shut up and suffer for the rest of your life or kys

>>41318024
I dont feel sorry for my parents and never will. There is no reason on this earth that justifies throwing a 19 year old to the streetside in the middle of a rainstorm.

>>41318042
Most people don't know what they want. I think that envy identifies for us what we don't know we wanted. First you must make sure that you have your basic needs covered. Food and shelter. Then you could pursue things you are envious of or amazed by.

>>41318051
I have suffered and been abused by my family as well. They tried to throw me away and I was almost murdersuicided as a child.

>>41317960
I'm grown up now and a woman but i remember in middle school i told my parents i needed to become a girl and they now pretend that conversation never happened

>>41318115
I have my basic needs covered. I'm only envious of women and mtfs with a decent hair line which I can never have unless some magic new treatment becomes available. And as far as partners/friends/family the only thing that would make me fell loved is for someone to find the courage to put me out of my misery.

>>41317857 (OP)
womp womp

>>41318250
I have nothing else to add, but I have a feeling I should suggest you read the original Elfquest run. It might take your mind off of things.
Goodnight.

Apparently I lost my job today too.
Nice.

>>41317968
I have size 13 womens feet and I get gendered female sometimes