Thread 41417420

I so deeply regret trooning out. I've ruined my body chasing an escapist delusion and even though I can sorta see through it its far too late. I've been transitioning for 5 going on 6 years now, and I regret every second of it. I have no idea what to do, my body disgusts me, i hate almost all the people I've met since transitioning. I've been raped on multiple occasions, I can't maintain any friendships, other trannies only seem to care about me if I'm willing to have sex with them. The people who do stick around make me sick, and as my hate for myself grows it's harder to go along with their delusions.I feel so incredibly alone and alienated. I wish I could go back to being a regular guy but I don't think I could cope with the tranny thoughts. Plus my body is too mutilated for anyone other than transbians to want me. Even if I could find a girl who'd look past this, I've been on hrt too long to have kids. I'll never get to be a father, to see my likeness in a childs face. I wish someone would have tried to stop me, I wish I knew it wouldn't make me happy. I feel so guilty for what I've done to the person I once was. I feel like I've failed him. idk how to live with this shame

>>41417420 (OP)
repping ruined mine
can we trade?

>>41417447
I wish we could, but I know repping again would be just as miserable. Every option just seems to suck

>>41417420 (OP)
>ruined my body chasing an escapist delusion
>transitioning for 5 going on 6 years now

Wholey fucking larp batman. Swear this is TERF bait trying to smear trans people

99% of all de-trans people will happen within 6 month! not years. you're the 0.1% of a group that's 0.1% of the population

how do you go through 6 years of this and only realise now. not only that, no trans person is going to call it a delusion.

>I've been on hrt too long to have kids.

You show a clear lack of understanding of biology as well. HRT isnt birth control, it reduces function, but there is no guarantee that it will stop sperm production. Come off your hon dose and you been shooting ropes in 6 months.

>I wish someone would have tried to stop me

This is why I think you are a TERF. How the fuck have you gone 6 years trooning out and not ONE person said to stop. This is just so wrong. I had family, friends, people online, doctors doubt me at every single turn. You are seriously telling me not one person told you "are you sure about this"

I honestly want to call you retarded. 6 years and you still are unhappy with your appearance? You were shallow enough to transition because you wanted to look better. Get for real, if your intention was be a smol cute bean, you were in it for the wrong reasons and clearly are talking about it like its just a fetish.

Again this is why this larp. You have hit every single TERF talking point.

You are not beyond transitioning back. The changes are not irreversible. Go get a double mastectomy to remove your boobs, get off estrogen and start working out. T is strong and you'll look like a man again in a few months.

Im sorry if you were raped tho. Having been Sexually abused by my brother, his friend, my friends sister, a co-worker... I can relate. But why TF are you adding that in randomly like you are trying to gain sympathy from anyone here?

You made the choice! Stop blaming everyone else for your bad decision making. Faggot

>>41417420 (OP)
Nobody that unironically says they're trooning out or calls themselves a troon is actually trans. You're just an incel that wanted to turn into a porn futa. That's why people treat you like that, why you think everyone else is disgusting actually, and how you ended up like this.