I hate you all nigga

It's going to be worse wish

>born a guy
>majority of men don’t like me and treat me like shit

I so deeply regret trooning out. I've ruined my body chasing an escapist delusion and even though I can sorta see through it its far too late. I've been transitioning for 5 going on 6 years now, and I regret every second of it. I have no idea what to do, my body disgusts me, i hate almost all the people I've met since transitioning. I've been raped on multiple occasions, I can't maintain any friendships, other trannies only seem to care about me if I'm willing to have sex with them. The people who do stick around make me sick, and as my hate for myself grows it's harder to go along with their delusions.I feel so incredibly alone and alienated. I wish I could go back to being a regular guy but I don't think I could cope with the tranny thoughts. Plus my body is too mutilated for anyone other than transbians to want me. Even if I could find a girl who'd look past this, I've been on hrt too long to have kids. I'll never get to be a father, to see my likeness in a childs face. I wish someone would have tried to stop me, I wish I knew it wouldn't make me happy. I feel so guilty for what I've done to the person I once was. I feel like I've failed him. idk how to live with this shame

Being born as a moid is a cruel punishment and I don't understand what did I do to deserve it.

I miss Charlie

i will never be out of the closet. i have been transitioning for 2 1/2 years and have lived as a woman for 0 days. Every time i get close to coming out something happens and i dint feel safe anymore. i want to be a professor and im entering grad school just like i cant stand up in front of a bunch of hungover college kids talking to them about politics while being a man in a dress. The woman i was supposed to be is in all practicality, dead. nobody malefails me i occasionally get clocked and i always tell them im a guy because i dont need the weird looks. its over. i give up.

i think im losing hair too
i dont know if im paranoic rn bc of what happened or its true
im not built for that i iwll never be a woman why do i htought i could make it i started too late i had no strenght to fight my parents when i was like 17y and they took me to psychiatrists that called trans people aberrations i knew what diy were i shouldve stole money from them and bought it anyway i couldve been a youngshit i was too weak i will leave now ill be back later if im better sorry for being that pic of im a loser lonely faggot and this is my vent post bye

>>40056099
i have a party and im not out to my friends and the shirt i have to wear is not baggy or large so if you look close you can see my tits its over its over my plushies cant help me today