Thread 41556327

>Early 2020
>Find FTM on Grindr. Meetup for sex
>I'm their first.
> Have sex. Wonderful. Meet up again following day.
> Get food. Have sex.
> Tell them I think I love them. They love me.
> Date for year. The most blissful experience I've ever had.
>Break up Late 2020 because I am a faggot who is insecure about being with a man.
>5 years later
>still into them.Miss them. Still friends.
>tell them I have feelings for them still.
> They tell me the feelings they have are dead, and they moved on.
> I THREW AWAY THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME BECAUSE I AM INSECURE ABOUT BEING A STUPID FUCKING FAGGOT FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Why am I such a stupid retarded faggot /lgbt/?

>>41556327 (OP)
>threw away first love, aka the only actual love in a human’s life where anything after is a pale imitation
You’re fucked man.

>insecure about being with a man

Then why the fuck were you on Grindr in the first place? All things considered it sounds like you struck gold

>>41556363
>the only actual love in a human’s life where anything after is a pale imitation
not op but is this true?

>>41556327 (OP)
>local AMaB loses his only chance at an AFaB wife and realizes how sexually unworthy he is of love

>>41556464
No

>>41556464
yes

>>41556484
there is nobody more persecuted by society than the neurodivergent trucel

>>41556464
yes

>>41556327 (OP)
Damn, you fumbled. I hope you at least told him the true reason why.
Similar reason why my last relationship slowly crumbled. He got cold feet after coming out as gay to his friends and coworkers, but became self conscious after getting a taste of hate, then gradually stopped counting on me as a potential future and started focusing on sex even though previously he was planning our future together. The way it hurt during breakup was terrible and it never left me. So I understand why he didn't give you the answer you wished for.

>>41556464
Yeah

if you didn't do it, then eventually he would have
nothing lasts forever anon
find a way to release your grief so that you can begin to finally move on
4t4 captcha

>>41556406
BECAUSE I JUST WANTED TO FUCK A MAN, NOT FIND THE LOVE MY LIFE
>>41556464
OP here. I pray the god it isn't or I might KMS.
>>41556655
I did tell him the truth and he accepted it. God I'm a stupid fucking faggot.
>>41556703
Talking to my sis in law helped. Posting this helped. Writing in my journal helped.

>pic of an old message

>>41556327 (OP)
Bro sorry to hear that but I hate closet cases and they're hard to deal with so good for that guy for moving on
>>41556464
I hope not but I haven't fallen in love properly yet
>>41557498
>pic
I hope this kind of love finds you again now that you're more ready

>>41557537
>I hope this kind of love finds you again now that you're more ready
Me too. Honestly , I just .... we had sex twice. I said I love them. They love me. And then we just talked about our future for like 6 hours.

God wtf do I do with myself. I'm talking to this cis woman but idk if she even gives a fuck about me.

I had pure love in my hands and I threw it away for some CIS FOID PUSSY GOD DAMMIT.

>>41557750
>cis woman
she does not give a single fuck about you

>>41556464
Yes

>>41557763
How do you know that?

>>41558039
Yeah I can see that

Looking at old messages. I sent him this awhile back. Will I ever have this love again?

>>41558054
it is so fucking over for us, twin

>>41558054
Only person I've ever felt this way about traumatized me what if I killed myself
>>41558081
Suicide pact triplet?

>>41558081
It so is
>>41558103
I'm sorry you were traumatized. You didn't deserve that

>>41557660
>them
>they
Sounds like you really respect him.

>>41556327 (OP)
same anon

>>41558148
I don't see how those pronouns would suggest otherwise. I do recognize them as male since day one.
>>41558196
Any coping tips?

Well I'm going to bed LGBT . Another pic as a reminder to not let the best thing that happened to you slip out your grasp

>>41557498
>BECAUSE I JUST WANTED TO FUCK A MAN, NOT FIND THE LOVE MY LIFE
He really did the thing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zd8vzIRQLLM