Thread 41616790

I'm a straight cis male yet I cannot stop fetishizing the idea of me being a girl. I ordered a pink polo, a white skirt, long leggings and a long blonde wig. That said, I know that this is just some form of AGP; back when I could pull girls every now and then, shit like this wouldn't happen. I also think transgenderism is a mental illness and my family is too good to let down for this secret to destroy my relation with them. Is it okay if I just secretly dress like this in private or would the long term effects fuck me up?

>>41616790 (OP)
Might be. I used to do it and now I've got tranny thoughts.

Unless you're weak willed or genuinely feel like a woman, no. You see a lot of femboy ecelebs hopping on hrt and calling themselves girls but that's just to keep their image up and keep donations coming in. There's many men who love crossdressing and never change their identity or get on hrt. Wearing womens clothing in private is a completely fine thing to do, don't worry about it.

>>41616846
Alright. Does anyone have some recommendations? I wanna look feminine but not do any drugs or shit for it

>>41616790 (OP)
When I was coping as a repper I crossdressed once "as a joke" and the minute I saw myself in the mirror I unexpectedly broke down in tears because it just looked right

>>41617005
Are you MTF now?

>>41616790 (OP)
It can be, if you let it. I still consider myself gender fluid because like I quite like being a dude. But at the same time, I want to be girly.
So like for me, I just chased the pear shape by dropping my calories in down so I'd lose weight, and then focused basically entirely on working out my glutes to get a better ass and hips.
Genetics must have been on my side, because I look pretty damn good, and I have achieved a pretty healthy middle ground between both ideals.
Even if I were to transition, I don't really find dudes attractive anyway. I only really look for female presenting individuals who I find cute, and proceed to get them to top me every now and then.
AFABs give the best dick, because they are less selfish and are doing it for the love of the game.

For reference I did try it with two dudes when I had just turned 18 - both times the experience was awful (turns out it was because I wasn't gay!)

>>41616790 (OP)
doesn't have to be.
I've been crossdressing for 20 years and never got on the trans train.

>>41617200
Do you get girls? I think this shit would disappear if I got laid. I've noticed in my crossdressing fetishizing, I try to dress like girls I've wanted to but failed to get with

>>41617301
Not really, but that's because I'm ugly as a man too and have a crap personality.
Strangely, I HAVE done better with girls when I am femmed up then when I'm going just as a man. As a man, I'm just another boring guy with little that's interesting about me. When I'm all femmed up, girls have wanted to dance with me and make out with me and whatnot, because I'm suddenly interesting and exotic.

>>41617380
Do you have any recommendations on how to make myself feminine? What should I do about my face? Chest hair? I'm not committed enough to shave my leg hairs so I just got long leggings

>>41617524
shave your legs and arms. now

>>41616790 (OP)
no. been cross dressing since I was 9. im old now. still not a tranny

>>41616790 (OP)
it's just that you were always a tranny and were coping

>>41617531
I'm not gonna do my legs. Arms though, sure. Makes wearing watches easier anyways

>>41617086
Yeah I am, still manmoding for a bit though but ive started malefailing so ill probably have to come out

>>41617524
you have to shave. I shave everything except my arms, and those I always cover those with elbow length sleeves of some kind.

I don't know how to do makeup on the level of the real female impersonators. They know how to emphasize and de-emphasize parts of their face with different shades of makeup, but it's involved and expensive since you have to buy a lot of different makeup and trial and error your way to see what works for you.
You should definitely get some kind of concealer for you face though. No matter how thoroughly you shave, stubble will still show up unless you cover it. Beyond that, I use basic makeup: eyeliner, lipstick, blush.

I don't try to look convincing as a woman because I know I can't pull that off. I go for a more androgynous route, leotard like bodysuits, fishnets or tights. I used to wear wigs, but I favor hats now. The point is to just hide the male hairline.

I use a waist cincher, gaff, and breast forms to help my figure. The gaff isn't really that important. You could probably get away with having the bulge and that can look sexy. You don't want everything popping out. The is idea is to look sexy but not degenerate. A lot of me is actually covered, just my legs and butt are usually revealed. Sort of how singers like Lady gaga dress.

>>41617672
I'm not actually interested in looking sexy personally, just cute. Whenever I fetishize myself as a girl, I imagine myself in pink clothing but nothing slutty like a bikini suit. I'll pick up makeup though, probably gonna stick to lipstick and eyeliner

>>41617672
Also, is removing makeup easy? I don't want it to look noticeable, I am only going to be doing this in my room

>>41616790 (OP)
it 100% is, I think crossdressing gave me dysphoria bc I didn’t really realize how masculine my body looked before it

>>41617909
Yes its easy just buy a makeup remover and some cotton pads.

Removing nail polish can be tricky though as the paint can remain on the cuticles even after removing and will be noticeable if its an unnatural color

>>41616950
get a good diet...makeup does not look good on unhealthy skin. work out your lower body if you are lean, and have a clear image of the woman you want to be. I'd recommend imagining yourself as your ideal, rather than as yourself in makeup.

>>41617909
buy some cotton towels and cotton swabs. rub your face thoroughly with miscellar water, cold cream, or an oil, depending on what feels best. clear your eyes with the cotton swabs...along the water line, in-between your lashes, and on your lid. be thorough, people can tell better than you can. lastly, wipe your face with a dry towel, rinse both with water, then wipe once more. check your hairline, ears, under and around your chin, and the insides of your lips. after, use moisturizer and lip balm.

>>41616790 (OP)
we have this thread every day

>>41617380

Unironically this has been my experience too

>>41617005
A certified Arin Hanson moment. Wonder how many others have broken down and transitioned because of it.

only if you genuinely wish to be a woman or have a sissy fetish

>>41617883
>I'm not actually interested in looking sexy personally, just cute.
I wish I looked like a fucking Anasui when crossdressing

>>41620103
Arin Hanson is trans?

Also, OP here
>went over a week without fapping
>got consumed by horniness and the thought of crossdressing
>finally fapped to the thought of me crossdressing
>right after I nut, guilt and disgust wash over me
>clothing hasn't come in yet but I got makeup and eyeliner
>spent over 100 dollars on this
>suddenly no interest in crossdressing, just feel grossed out by myself
Fuck fuck fuck HOW DO I BEAT HORNINESS

>>41620298
you can't. just learn to compartmentalize.
the crossdressing goes with the horniness. keep it in its own box, do what you have to to get by and then forget about it.

>>41620298
post nut clarity is the biggest liar. you can't listen to it.

>>41617005
>looked right
Fake news.
When I was repping nothing was more painful or dysphoria inducing than seeing womens clothing hanging incorrectly on my masculine frame

>>41620298
Good news: You will eventually want to be female all the time
Bad news: You will eventually want to be female all the time

>>41620298
stop fapping they said
it will make you more masculine, they said

>>41617380
>When I'm all femmed up, girls have wanted to dance with me and make out with me and whatnot,
big if true

>>41616790 (OP)
I look at cute girls clothed, I long to go outside looking like them
I crossdressed frequently and frenzied when I was 20-30 to make up for the pain of not getting to grow up as a girl. It was intense
I'm a hon. I don't do it as much anymore. I bought a sex doll to dress up and it unironically helps a lot I think.
But I'm a sexual deviant because of the repression. I never got to have girl experiences. That will haunt me forever and I'm sure I'll crack

>>41616790 (OP)
Sometimes yes sometimes no. I fuck a lot of crossdressers and trannies and you can tell the difference between the repping crossdressers and the normal ones.

>>41616790 (OP)
it's the other way around: people who have the trannybrain disease are very likely to crossdress with effort during their younger years.
Males who aren't cursed by the trannybrain disease crossdress as a joke, usually as a grossout joke - it's quite different. The trannybrain crossdressers actually wish to resemble women and feel bad when they fail to do so (it's called dysphoria).
>Is it okay if I just secretly dress like this in private or would the long term effects fuck me up?
Actually, refraining from crossdressing will make it worse for you in the long run, because this fascination with feminine clothing and looking like a girl is a fundamental part of you, and repressing parts of yourself doesn't lead anywhere good.

>>41617301
NTA but I crossdress just because it turns me on (and turns men (and some women) on), my interest doesn't go away even when I have a gf.

>>41624713
what's the difference?

>>41616950
research the effects of lavender tea~

>>41616790 (OP)
>I'm a straight cis male yet I cannot stop fetishizing the idea of me being a girl.
you are not a real crossdresser. Please leave us out of this

>>41616790 (OP)
yeah that's what i did at first and now i've had my penis inverted into a vagina

>>41629658
why doesn't he count?