DongHun Choi edition.

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I discovered a comic book YouTuber yesterday and he just seems so cool, chill, and pure. He's really into multiple things that I'm into, and we seem to have similar senses of humour. This is, like, the second time I've ever seen a content creator and wanted to be real friends with them. It's really rare for me to find someone, content creator or not, who I actually want to be friends with.

fuck shit up and start a riot

Trump rapes kids

>>24594881
Well, I doubt he does anymore, but he probably has in the past.

>>24594880
Glad to see you're still around.

>>24594553
Thank you, I'll do my best.
>>24594700
I don't really know what to take away from this but thank you too.

I'm the most mentally ill person I've ever heard of or seen. If my mind keeps attacking me with memories I think I'm going to just end it. How are you supposed to live when every 10 minutes or so you get fucking electric shocked with terrible memories. How. It's like I'm in a jail cell with a torturer who attacks me at random. And I can't get out because the torturer is my own mind. Just now before I wrote this I was literlaly knocked to the floor by my memories. Like I've been tazed. And it will never get better. No matter what I do or accomplish in life it will never ever get better my memories will destroy me. God help me.

IRL, I keep getting the advice to just be myself. But I'm already being myself.

>>24595000
youre too content with who you think you are and not brave enough to imagine who you could be

if holden caulifield were real he'd be a mall santa or work at a record store

>>24594881
I don't mind people keep bringing it up, but I hate how they do it. Sentences like,
>Trump was distracted by the thought of fucking underage 13-year-old teens
is so lewd

>>24595146
This is a joke, right?

>>24595169
?

You don't find seeing variations of that sentence over and over vulgar and obscene?

>>24595146
kek

>>24595178
No, because I'm an adult. Also, you can't complain "Muh vulgarity" and "Muh obscenity" when the subject matter is inherently vulgar and obscene.

American tomboys.

>>24595213
Well, different strokes I guess. All I know is when I'm trying to read the news and comments on that news, I find seeing,
>Trump was too busy fantasizing about the mouth of the blonde, preteen daughter of the Prime Minister to listen to what he was saying
pornographic and distracting.

>>24595224
But it's realistic and it's honest. It describes exactly what he did without sugar-coating it or putting it softly. If anything, it should be put in more graphic detail so it can really be drilled into peoples heads what he did, so people have no choice but to remember it.

I really really really want to get a hellcat and run from the cops like those guys on YouTube do. And im gonna keep doing it until I smash into a wall and die.

>>24595223
Subtle light of my life

>>24595252
I think I know too many motorsports people because my immediate thoughts were
>If the wall kills you, you were not going fast enough

I wonder what my face wouldve looked like if I didnt have braces in my teens or if I wasnt raised vegetarian.

>>24595250
That's a fair point. But surely you can understand why I find caustic jokes with phrases like,
>topless preteens
>sexy high schoolers
when I'm just trying to read about national and international news so disconcerting

>>24594857 (OP)
If I was a Jew I'd hate the goyim too, desu.

I no longer desire justice but fire and death.

i had one of the best holidays of my life with her. we spent every night together, sleeping under the stars, fucking on riverbeds, waking up in eachothers' arms - grateful to have eachother and ready to do it all again. we shared it all so profoundly it felt like something similar to love. but now we're off again in different directions. i'm up a mountain for a two week summer job, and she just left with her male best friend for another roadtrip.
i know that in the past they used to have quite a lot of sex, and that they'd stopped recently. i know that he was very jealous of me at first and they sorted it out by setting some boundaries. in theory, i don't even want to care much if they do end up fucking. i've been with other girls since this all started, and all i really want is to not lose her. but it hurts. i'm alone up here, busy and tired, and i miss her. how do i deal with this jealousy i don't want.

>>24595399
Spending a thousand years beholden to the neuroses of foreigners that you have very little input in must fuck you up.

>>24594857 (OP)
I wanna write a VN with 7 overlapping chapters of different char perspectives, with different methods to achieve their "paradise/golden land"
>violence
>kindness
>service/faith
>solitude
>investigation
>intuition
>Normalcy

>>24594996
I "have" "PTSD". The pain is real and justified. The fear is real and justified. You just have to counter it with good. Not that it gets rid of the bad. Sorry hopefully this image helps you laugh.
>>24595000
Just being yourself is the fairest thing you can do for yourself, but not the best for material success and that advice works only materially for normalnigs.

>>24595252
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fbpv5TIVKg8
nothing like death to make you feel alive
or conquest of what would be death for your normal life
privilege to enjoy experiences and thrills and survive

>>24595541
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4cYjCbEE6lU

>>24595224
Where are you reading this shit

>>24595561
>a two week summer job
Fake

>>24595610
Bro I watch this video like once a week it's awesome lol

>>24595634
>Where are you reading this shit
comments on /r/worldnews and such

>>24595610
this shit is boring as hell, I'm sure it's exhilarating in person but who would watch this

>>24595634
>Fake
ye i'm teaching English to kids at a summer camp in italy

>>24595643
Not to be that guy but that's what you get for using reddit

>>24594857 (OP)
I like playing games with non-human MCs and temporarily forgetting I'm human because I'm a misanthrope. Who knows? Maybe a few of these are evolutionarily possible. I wish I were a bird and not a corporate slave.

Of course, I have a lot more to play, and my list is more extensive than this. At this point, I prefer games with a "sublime sense of the Other."

>>24595651
I don't watch it weekly like the other guy but i got immersed the first few times, feeling the air and knowing my own experiences in tight motor crises.

>>24595658
It's better than /pol/, even with all the Israelis and Indians and far-left dominance

How do i get more at ease being creative?I always felt my brothers, cousins and parents had insanely high standards for creative outputs and Im always afraid to show my creations if im not sure theyre100% good. Still Im scared theyll just scoff at me and dismiss whatever I make. Maybe its all in my head. My mom often praises other people that do the same thing as me except better though.

>>24595683
I can empathize, and while i have gotten over PURE misanthropy (clearly there are many things we love and enjoy from human causation, such as those games), i cant imagine my perfect wife as anything but an artificial life form of some sort with the best parts chosen from human influence, but a part of me hopes even my perfect companion with its non-human competence finds new forms of beauty and purpose and discards me if its necessary to the pursuit.

>>24595697
the most important thing, after achieving material stability, is that what you create makes YOU Happy, then the one you love most happy, then the rest.

>>24595683
I like KeeperRL. You play as the monsters and kill the humans.

>>24594878
Comictropes? I like him
>>24595683
You play that game stray where you play as a cat exploring a world without any humans? It’s fun. Or why not destroy all humans? I mean you literally play as an alien killing human beings

I don't understand feet

>>24595756
I think beauty can be found in many things, the feet are a part of the human body (can appear especially healthy, smooth, clean), and can be a part of your lover, both things that in itself provide an essence of lust/attraction

>>24595756
They help you stand up and walk

>>24595762
I was watching feet videos on YouTube trying to get turned on by them, but I felt nothing. But when I watch videos of a girl spreading her pussy I get turned on.

>>24595784
If you want to enjoy more pleasures, I recommend roleplay where your partner who you wish to please wishes you do something with her feet. it has to play into something you already feel.

>>24595784
>>24595792
to add, i also get no pleasure from random 3dpd feet normally. but i find most things tied to good things can be erotic.

sometimes I inadvertently give my dog a little static shock and I'm worried that he thinks I do it on purpose

when they trauma dump on you and it's the third time you've heard the story and they still haven't watched that movie you recommended

>>24595843
What's the movie?

>>24595843
>did you know ted bundy had a dog named lassie?
>who?
> : (
very real feeling. that being said they have other things on their mind probably, sorry anonsan

Hear a godless man speak
the desire to pray for insight
and to be shown the way
The thoughts of a desperate man
Abandoning NotGod, or himself

>>24595843
kek

>>24595902
yeah, becoming god is the only real way to happiness. lets hope theres a way. I wont make it so bad for nice people. better than it is now, i hope.
any tips?

>>24595911
There are no tips
There are no ways
There is only submission to existence
To kowtow before reality

>>24595932
such doesn't make me happy, is a lotta suffering. if its suffering either way, I figure trying or wanting is better than nothing
just the same
>show me the way
my way

>>24595932
There is no reality
No up, no down,
No sideways promotion into
Obsolescence but with full retirement
No train or light
Or even tunnel
There's not even a name
Or a number to call
In case of panic
Where they keep you
On hold
Listening to muzak
There's not even an ending
Not even a french movie
Or the pregnancy
Or death of your interpretation
There's no (You)
And not even a
There
there
It'll be all right
Because there's no right
Or left left
Not even nothing

>>24595697
They have high standards, but do they have good taste?

Every single male needs to be castrated (me included). Reproduction will be artificial

I want to be a dictator when I grow up.

>go to restaurant and order to some really nice bread as side dish
>post insta story of photo of bread with the word 'bread" repeated over and over across image (yes I know I'm a faggot)
>girl I like sarcastically responds "is this bread?"
>totally miss the sarcasm and explain to her what kind of bread it is
>she hasn't responded
I'm usually quite good at detecting sarcasm online, don't know what came over me.

>>24596281
maybe we can work together and be dictators in our own spaces. people are stronger together and there are a lotta people to beat.

>>24596282
if missing sarcasm is enough to end affection, she isnt worth, and neither are you if bagging is all that matters 2 u. no ffense.

>>24596282
Ask her if it was sarcasm. The most important way to avoid misinformation is further conversation. People die from miscommunication.

>>24596282
Girls have this uncanny ability to make your IQ drop to room temperature (Celsius).

>>24596297
True. I'm going to read Mein Kampf for insights. What did this guy say to get everyone to like him? I don't know yet.

I just had sexual

>>24596326
pics?

>>24596300
You jest but it's crazy how easy it is to be misconstrued. Even endeavouring to speak plainly can backfire on you.

If you're a prospective employer, do yourself a favor and do not call me after 6 to 7 PM without asking me first.

I was batting my eyelashes at myself in the mirror.

>>24596345
i was in the gender-neutral bathroom practicing my kubrick stare in the mirror and a girl i saw at my uni course workshop walked in.

>>24596360
I hoped you tried to hustle her in chess on the bathroom tile floor

>>24596368
what else can you do caught mid-kubrick stare? i followed her into the stall

>>24596466
Alpha.

>>24594857 (OP)
I argued with a logical positivist today. he ended up calling me a sophist.

>>24595730
I still need to get that

>>24595784
congratulations, you're a heterosexual guy. welcome to the club.

the notion of any male friendship in fiction being a veiled homosexual relationship is the dumbest shit ever. this was commonly brought up in academic discussions about characters like Enkidu and Gilgamesh, Nick and Gatsby, Achilles and Patroclus, etc. it was always some dumb fat or socially maligned chick who brought it up and then everyone sorta just agreed. i think these people just never had real friends or wanted to be subversive as a way to show how "smart" they are. i dont have any issue with that trope either, Shinji and Kaworu in Eva are cool, it just seems to be thrown around too often

>>24596572
Obviously you're just too much of a heteronormative privileged member of the patriarchy to see how the intersectionalities and queer voices across other cultures have been suppressed by imperialist cis white male capitalists. I prescribe a routine of listening and learning when black women speak along with regular sessions of passionate gay sex with a mulatto.

>>24596015
They do have good taste.

>>24594857 (OP)
Reading feminist literature you'd think at least some Feminists either
>A: Don't seem able to imagine paradigms between the bizarre manichean plane of Whoredom and Motherhood
>B: Resent multicelular life.
I'm talking about two very specific things and women reading this should not assume this is talking about them for caring about their right to wageslave or whatever.

I miss you I miss you I miss you

>>24595748
>Comictropes?
Nah, Speedsultan.

>>24596603
>anon getting the cure stuck in my head at 4am
I didn't need this i'm going to bed

fumbling pussy on purpose is a more cathartic experience than fucking. it makes you a more well rounded person.

I'm a loser, there's just no way around it. The unfortunate thing, though, is that I have absolutely no motivation to change. I don't like the position I'm in, I don't like my life, but I just can't bring myself to change.

>>24596656
99% of everyone to ever live had it worse than you. take pride in the fact that you atleast beat them.

>>24596669
>take pride in the fact that you atleast beat them.
But I didn't do anything to beat them, so there's nothing to be proud of.

>>24596675
most people that have it better than you didnt do shit either. they were born into it. do you think millionaires agonize over the fact that they get to sip champagne on a yacht while most people work everyday because they didnt "work for it"

>>24596686
No, but I also don't think they're proud of themselves for the money they have since they didn't work for it. They fundamentally have nothing to be proud of when it comes to their money.

>>24596656
>but I just can't bring myself to change.
Supposed that you truly did brought yourself to it one day, what would you be doing differently right now? Do you even know? Do you know what causes change?

I've been seeing someone else /lit/. He listens to me... and he's easy to talk to. He's so smart, and he's patient with me.

I need someone. I need to hold hands at least once. I need to go to sleep and never really wake but rather stay in the warm drowsy in between safe between my blankets in the lordly dark for ever and ever. I need to smell a girls hair I need to run it through my fingers I need to hug a cute girl when shes a little sweaty not like super sweaty but like a normal days worth of walking around kind of sweaty and inhale deeply and smell the scent of her armpit sweat and deodorant mixing together. No I'm not desperate. I need to lie on a bed and have a girl get on top of me and just feel her weight pressing me down. I need to turn away from all this worldly stuff and look straight at the bright white light of the form of the beautiful itself unflinchingly and without holding myself back from longing for its brightness. I need to kiss a cute flat chested girls tummy. I need to get in my care and keep driving north until theres no more road and get out and wander into the fog and go somewhere no one can ever find me. No I'm okay I'm just a little tired. Yeah I was born with this face no I'm not angry.

Here lies another abandoned child, under the light of the lantern.

>>24596752
I've never loved, I was never here

>>24594857 (OP)
I'm certain that if someone were to look into me, and see the intimacies of my heart, I would be cast away like refuse and be reviled by them. All I can do is dress some of those disgusting internal machinations into pretty words and insist that they're simply poetic verse or logical prose.

>>24596807
I'm talking about using ChatGPT to talk about books instead of /lit/, idk what you're talking about.

I am very addicted to nicotine gum and I don't have any right now.

>>24594857 (OP)
The expectation of the antichrist is tempered by the stark presentation of the relatable man. He taught you something you didn't like about yourself and there you go looking for another happening like a spilled cup that's lost its only purpose.

>>24595605
I can't even read because the memories attack me while I'm reading
I think it's over for me

>>24596811
Philip Larkin wrote a poem about something like that:


If my darling were once to decide
Not to stop at my eyes,
But to jump, like Alice, with floating skirt into my head,

She would find no table and chairs,
No mahogany claw-footed sideboards,
No undisturbed embers;

The tantalus would not be filled, nor the fender-seat cosy,
Nor the shelves stuffed with small-printed books for the Sabbath,
Nor the butler bibulous, the housemaids lazy:
She would find herself looped with the creep of varying light,
Monkey-brown, fish-grey, a string of infected circles
Loitering like bullies, about to coagulate;

Delusions that shrink to the size of a woman's glove,
Then sicken inclusively outwards. She would also remark
The unwholesome floor, as it might be the skin of a grave,

From which ascends an adhesive sense of betrayal,
A Grecian statue kicked in the privates, money,
A swill-tub of finer feelings. But most of all

She'd be stopping her ears against the incessant recital
Intoned by reality, larded with technical terms,
Each one double-yolked with meaning and meaning's rebuttal:

For the skirl of that bulletin unpicks the world like a knot,
And to hear how the past is past and the future neuter
Might knock my darling off her unpriceable pivot.

>>24596706
>Supposed that you truly did brought yourself to it one day, what would you be doing differently right now?
I'd have a job, I'd be working towards my GED, I would potentially be learning to drive, I'd be working out regularly, just normal human stuff.

a great painter can copy a masterpiece.
a great musician can play a masterpiece.
a great writer can only be original.

I met a female alien. Now I take her as my wife.

I wonder what sort of books Herman Melville read. We can never know because he died so long ago, unfortunately.

>>24594996
Yes, someone who can relate. I don't know what happened, I used to be so smart and had ideas and thoughts about things but now so much of my mental energy is occupied by embarrassing, negative memories that I'm never able to focus on anything else. I don't know what happened and I don't know how to make it stop at this point. Sometimes it's gotten so bad I've let out a cry of "fuck!' out in public as an involuntary reaction. Maybe we need to get on Xanax or Klonopin.

>>24596895
Yeah, every two and a half pages a memory will pop into my mind which'll occupy me and make me cringe for a minute before I am able to be free of its grasps and return to the text, I know the feel, and I am sorry, anon.

>>24596940
he only died 100 so years ago, we know a good deal about him. he read the bible, shakespeare, montaigne, hawthorne, etc

>>24596949
Thank you. I'll do some investigation into those books (i.e. read their Wikipedia articles).

I hurt myself today

>>24596956
Stubbed toe again?

Tomorrow it'll happen. Or maybe it won't. In that case, I'll be really depressed. So I hope it does happen. If it doesn't, then I don't know what the point of the last 7 months was. A cruel jest of the gods, maybe.

>>24596970
you finally decided to off yourself?

>>24596956
Stay out of my stash. Get your own smack.

>>24596975
On the contrary, I'm finally going to make a move on a woman, or at least try to.

>>24594857 (OP)
>Write your thoughts
goofy gook

>>24596942
it consoles me to hear someone's going through the same thing. Ik what you mean about shouting in public.

>>24596953
in that case you’re probably just as well off not knowing

It was around the time that I met the blond that the seizures started. Small, temporal lobe seizures. Nothing dramatic. A strange pressure in the temples, copper on the tongue, a sudden tightening of the jaw. I didn't see a doctor for all the reasons and excuses one could give. I had already jumped to the worst, that it was a tumour or some neurological disease, and still wouldn't go. I had resigned myself to fate. Maybe I deserved it for looking at him like that, like both a god and a piece of meat.

I thought of his eyes. I thought of his thighs. I masturbated, I flagellated.

It's not merely sexual, but if it were it's all very accepted in Melbourne anyway. Everyone's very "modern". Everyone's fagged out to the nines with piercings and hair dye. They'd romanticize it. They'd find it *aggressively* normal. They'd talk about how fine it is constantly. Some might raise grievances with the age, some might find it even more liberating. They'd bicker amongst themselves.

I am sickened that they would even have to, I'm sickened that I bicker with myself. I thought about attending Church. Combine my love of architecture and beauty with a good dose of salvation. I had tried. Not really, of course not - I didn't actually *go* to Church. I read theology, metaphysics. I can't tell you what Matthew 3:11 says but I can tell you about the Trinity, transubstantiation, the hypostatic union, the teleological absurdity of homosexuality, etcetera.

I was unsatisfied with it. The metaphysics, the claims made. I don't actually doubt Jesus' existence, I don't doubt his miracles, his crucifixion, nor even his resurrection. Most arguments against these are laughable. But I don't see how that makes him God. I don't. It's a series of insane feats. I don't see how it makes him god, not uniquely.

Perhaps I didn't want to. Perhaps I was too afraid to reckon with it. Perhaps I didn't want to. Perhaps, I wanted the blond to be my God.

I wanted to tear at his flesh just to do it. I wanted to fuck him to conquer him. To destroy him, fuck him to death. But then I wanted to love him, nurture him. I wanted to fellate him and make him feel bliss. I wanted him to destroy me, I wanted him to love me. I wanted him to see me. I wanted to hide. I wanted the danger of rape, the ecstacy of love, the serenity of friendship

>>24597385
not an effortpost btw i know it's bad
just off da dome

Thread theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyiE-dYImAI

>>24596572
>i think these people just never had real friends or wanted to be subversive as a way to show how "smart" they are
>Romans complain about Celts being homosexual and trolling the other army for brojobs once the fighting is done like it's nbd and Romans then reasoning it must be because their women are more terrifying
I think you're underestimating the power of insular scholarship

>>24597385
>>24597396
I quite enjoyed reading it

>>24597088
It's like we're living in the nightmare, uncomfy version of a Proust novel.

>>24597537
https://youtu.be/x4D9plSro6U?si=P0-4xjFU8Sv7Imce

I prefer being alone the rest of my life than being with an average schmuck woman who will never understand what I really crave

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time

>>24597813
You keep saying this, but it's not true.

>qt3.14 librarian helps me with printing machines I'm too retarded to operate
>don't pass out from being retarded
Success! But also I forgot to buy half my groceries

Lost a Jacob & Esau Beast run cause Esau got sucked into her mouth when she was doing her fire wall attack. I even had Godhead and Crown of light. Feelsbadman. Anyone know what I'm saying, or am I speaking gibberish?

>>24597881
>But also I forgot to buy half my groceries
You should write a list next time so you don't forget.

>>24597890
I forgot the list anon

>>24597891
Tie a piece of string around your finger.

>>24597900
Lol no that's how you lose fingers with my retarded genetics

>>24597903
Fuck it then, man, go full Memento mode and write that shit on your arm.

>>24597910
Lol I sweat through my clothes so much in the library I need a shower
It's okay anon I'm really successful for how retarded I am, I will survive without mushrooms and stuff

>>24597913
Good job.

>>24596610
faggot

>>24597919
Thanks anonsama

>>24597670
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxKGAJn3Kek

>>24597921
Care to elaborate?

When was the last time you had sex, /lit/?

>>24597994
I think it's been a decade lol

>>24597994
Last night with Mr. Handy.

>>24597994
today

>>24597994
Does AI roleplay count?

>>24598009
no

>>24598023
Well, then never. It's also been a decade since I've last kissed a girl.

>>24597994
Saturday

>>24597995
I can't imagine going a week without sex with a new girl let alone a decade.

>>24598062
I barely talk to people

>>24598062
rings false

>>24597994
Never.

I'm going to kill myself in 70 years. I don't want to make it to 100.

Well my agorophobia/new social anxiety won out over my sepparation anxiety. Now instead of facing the anxiety of being hours away from home and surrounded by people I will face constant anxiety of being alone for 4 days instead while also missing out on a serious family/ life event that I feel awful about missing and will probably regret for the rest of my life

What a peculiar way to live. How miserable

literature was in many ways a monstrous business what are words in the past

>>24597994
Never. I plan on dying celibate.

>>24598101
>>24598319
grim

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJAqzs3io3c

>>24598525
kys

>>24598597
Thank u for your feedback

>>24598597
co sign

I used the fancy soap and now I glitter like a stripper

used to love alt culture series like downtown and mission hill. was the same age as scott pilgrim when the movie came out. had a less exciting but relatable life to these. very nostalgic, especially considering my youth is now long over and i never actually did anything with it

Women are easier to deal with, romantically speaking, when you treat them with the same slight contempt that you have toward faggots.

Is it weird to like romance in fiction despite being a guy? Not even in a wish fulfillment sort of way. A good romance story either feels super cathartic emotionally if it's tragic or as if all is right with the world if it has a happy end.

>>24598683
no this probably just means you had parents that didnt divorce but probably should have

>>24598683
i dont know but ive read female pov romantacy slop (market research) as a straight guy, and was surprised to not hate it

>>24598679
Women became easier to deal with, romantically speaking, when I started looking at them as dickless faggots.

The flood of H1b Indians is a bigger problem than automation, and Vance, Musk, and Trump made it even worse. I should have become an accountant instead of going into tech field.

>>24598693
Every step of it is a lot of fun. The tension at the beginning, the back-and-forth of flirting, the tender emotions at play, and the ultimate fulfillment. Even the sex feels good not in the sense that it makes your penis hard to read or see or hear about the characters having sex but in the sense that it provides catharsis from everything that lead to it, as the ultimate act of physical and emotional intimacy between man and woman.

>>24598702
exactly.

Women are easier to deal with when they have awesome boobs
t. Once spent three years talking to a woowoo alternative medicine crazy lady and didn't notice until she lost weight

>>24598721
Really, romance for men is an underutilized market, I feel like. There's eroge, of course, but those are more about the porny, visual aspects of sex rather than the character dynamics and the intimacy between the MC and his love interest. Relationships only exist in eroge insofar that they lead to sex. And that's a really lame way to do romance.

I wish we could talk :(

i just watched my dinner with andre. what a piece of shit. it starts off ok but maybe a half in hour you're like does this guy ever shut the fuck up.

>evil is simply duality
-posted by an evil, anti-human commie in a dead thread
These people can't even pretend they have a thought process.

My therapist thinks I should start putting myself out there in terms of dating. I'd pretty much be up for any woman that is nice and would tolerate me, but I don't think that person exists.
>ugly
>only kinda tall
>below average job/salary in a high cost of living area, been stuck here 7 years because I'm terrified of change
>csa victim
>below average dick
>been in therapy and on anxiety/depression meds for longer than that
>have zero experience with women since they've been at best apathetic and at worst reputation-destroyingly vindictive my entire life
>generally unassertive, scared of authority, confrontation, change
I'd never tell her this but the only reason I haven't killed myself is that it would ruin my mom's life

>>24598821
>ugly
this is the only one that even matters

>>24598821
if you're white you're a catch

>>24598702
probably says more about you

>>24598821
regular advice: workout, get a hobby, be more honest to your therapist, grow a spine

Im sure youve heard all of that shit before and didnt listen so heres a cool little trick. Take like 7+ grams of mushrooms, have a friend who cares about you sorta help you through that experience, stop taking your meds after that experience, stop stop stop putting people on pedestals of authority over you especially women.

also express some gratitude to the people you do have in your life

>>24598845
i’m gonna weigh in and say don’t do joe rogan cool little trick

>>24598845
>Take like 7+ grams of mushrooms
based, everyone should do this

Here waits a crooked man with a crooked smile

my ex used to massage the inside of my thigh and she found a nerve that would make my dick and balls involuntarily move. i hadnt thought about that in years. shit was cash.

This is all noise.

>>24598821
Try /adv/ anon

>>24598780
tell me more

Actually atheism and it can be disapproven by movement, why would a self created system like universe allow movement if not for purpose or will? Just like why something exist rather than nothing, why things move rather than keep static?

>>24599008
its not that bad really but it's like 100 minutes of andre monologuing about how society is inauthentic and all the weird theatrical hippy shit he did to try to overcome it, and occasionally the princess bride guy will be like "yeah but that's kinda absurd andre!" or something for five minutes, but it's basically just the other guy talking really intensely about all this sooooper dooooper deep stuff non-stop. the little frame scenario setting up the dinner has some nice footage of 1980 nyc. anyways, i always saw that one screen cap as a meme on here so i thought i should watch it.

>>24599054
>why things move rather than keep static
take a physics class dude

>>24599059
I enjoy the trenchant insights. Maybe this edition is more your speed.

>>24599071
it's not really that insightful unfortunately.

>>24598821
Another ugly permasingle anon here. I'm trying to avoid completely giving up but I also have a hard time believing anyone out there would be interested in dating me. I've had positive-ish relationships with women, but always in a weird sibling kind of way, never anything that suggested a shred of attraction on their part.
Lately I've been trying this "learn to be satsified with your life as it is" thing that people like to recommend to me. It's going well so far but maybe things will turn around.

Im reading about occult theories about life after death and spirituality.

Where should i discuss such books here on lit?

>>24599127
youre better off with ChatGPT

>>24599128
noooo don't send this guy into the demon hole he's so promising

I only read magazines whose target audience is little girls.

>>24599127
your soul

Cunégonde est devenue laide. Candide ne l’épouse que par « bonté » mais il ne l’aime plus.

>>24599150
You must have a crazy good sparkly pen and bracelet collection

Ghislaine is germane to Brisbane.

>>24599174
Yep! I also have a lot of pink stuff and outfits.

I just wanted you to care.

>>24599210
I love you.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vue45nv3_us
hell ya xosar finally released a new album the last one must have been ten years ago i thought she quit music, ok it was only six years ago, but still that's a long ass time

>>24599221
I’m so fucking sick of your shit.

There are tiny elephants and enormous fleas

Gay? No bro I'm not gay. I definitely don't want to be a cute soft submissive twink and get manhandled by a bigger guy or anything. That would be weird haha. I don't fantasize about how much bigger his dick would be or the way it would make my throat bulge. That would be gay and I'm not gay. I don't think about it at all. I don't think about getting bent over my couch and slowly fucked until I turn into a moaning, drooling, blushing mess. I don't think about that kind of stuff. It would be really weird and gross to picture myself lying there afterwards, twitching, chest heaving, while he kisses the back of my neck and calls me cute. There's no way I would do that because that's gay and I'm not gay. Only a gay person could fantasize about big suckable cocks all day long which I certainly don't do.

>>24599258
Why? Why? Why?

I miss my sister. I like hugging my sister. I think my sister is cute. I like the way she my sister fits into my arms when I hug her. I want to kiss my sister. I like my sister's sense of fashion. The way my sister's hair shines after she gets out of the shower is nice. I like the way my sister smells. I want to marry my sister!

I used to play with dolls with my friend's little sister. One day, while we were playing in her room, she told me she wanted to marry me someday.

>>24599062
And I still won't get an answer why things move outside physical laws, what's the reason of time and space? Physics only answers how but never why, it is limited and so atheists, you cannot be sure a creator doesn't exist just because

>>24598780
>>24599059
seems neat, i'm gonna check it out

Do you guys actually do stuff? Like do you go outside and go to park or museum or coffee shop alone?
All Saturday I just sit at home and watch a movie or read or play a game. But I really feel like and want to do something, I just don't know what

just saw someone say on another site,
>Yeah, I'm not reading Substack, given their Nazi allowances...

really? is this what we've come to

>>24599450
i go on walks alone, to the movies, grab a bite to eat alone. I try not to look at my phone while doing these things. its fun.

>>24599450
Today I decided to go and look at the mosque my town has. It was clised. Then I wandered aimlessly and went to my father's house to check if he had come back from holyday. I met a woman that rents part of his house on the way and we spebt some hours together. Now I'm hanging out in his house. She bought me food.
I saw some pretty lurid stuff on the way. A hothouse of human types.

>>24594857 (OP)
Thanks to you guys and the /history/ general I'm majoring in history in college at the end of this month. Thank You, once again.

>>24599514
Hey you're like me
I switched to Finance eventually

>>24599514
Here's some recs by Jon Elster.

>>24594857 (OP)
Uh oh Women Alert. Run towards nearest hole in the ground, hide.

Disgusting comment of the hour: there is something grotesque about the breasts of certain middle aged women when in Bikinis, or low cleavage, or otherwise revealing attire.

Like overripe fruit, swollen, bordeing rot, coats the back of my mouth with disgust.

Not all women are like this only a very particular subset of them. I've seen specimens only once or twice. Lurid views.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrRlW0Jpd1g

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZ5ARgm--Ok

Don't offer women advice. Just nod along and say "that sucks" or "that's awesome."

ME AND MY FUCKING GUN

>>24598780
>>24599441
my god what a snoozefest this is... i'm putting my hands on my face as i'm watching and i've got more interest in that than the actual film

>>24599664
Watch Friendship. My favorite movie of the year, but I don't watch a lot of movies desu.

>>24598845
As far as I understand, Hallucinogens only re-enforce whatever is on your head at any given moment (at least that's how it works politics wise anyway) so I wouldn't recommend someone in a bad headspace take them.

Tocqueville effect explains a lot of things.

ow ow my neck hurt ow

feeling embarrassed about myself for supporting President Trump back in 2016

Razor-winged butterflies in my brain.

>>24594857 (OP)
I once made my mother cry. And for a brief second or two I had to genuinely supress a large smile from my face. I then told her to stop, cried too, etc. She never saw it. That smile is a secret only I hold.

>>24599802
scum

>>24599804
Thank you.
Don't regret it though.

WELL I AM JUST A MODERN GUY
OF COURSE I HAD IT IN MY EAR BEFORE

Is this lowkey highkey the gayest place on the internet ? I have synaesthesia and this thread smells like pyramid scheme essential oils, imitation thai green curry paste, stale marijuana, and deer musk.

>>24599849
love it

i know it can be cringe to refer to a song by its association with a film, but i can't help it in this case, its usage in Trainspotting is brilliant and perfect

>>24599856
Probably.
It's a good place to dump pointless garbage like you are a Mexican dumping old furniture in some vacant lot of land, though.

>>24599856
kek poetic

>>24599857
based

>>24594857 (OP)
I pledge for the re-introduction of sword fights in modern warfare.

>>24599304
Because you know damn well I’m not talking about you, and because I’ve told you repeatedly to leave me the fuck alone.

You have no idea just how much fucking anger, no, not anger, genuine, boiling HATRED I harbor towards you.

Where were you, when walking for more than 10 minutes would exhaust me for an entire day? Where were you, when was without a single soul to spend time with, when I had no one to talk to and just desperately wished for some human contact? Where were you when I hit rock bottom, when I had lost everything and my horizon was pitch black, without a silver lining to be seen anywhere? You were NOWHERE to be seen.

For years you just forgot I existed, spent time with people who were less 'annoying' (as you dubbed my formerly decrepit state: annoying) than me. And now that I'm better, you love me; now that I'm funny and entertaining again, you tell me how happy you are that I'm part of your social circle; you shower me with so much praise, sometimes, I think you're one step away from writing me love letters.

But that's not the best part, the best part was, when I was finally getting better, you told me that you were so glad I recovered because now you no longer had to juggle between me and your other friends. You dishonest fuck, you NEVER EVER chose me over ANYONE!

And you keep. fucking. me. over.
You're actively making me life worse without even trying, it's like fate itself wants me to dislike you. It's the little things, like having dogshit political opinions you keep annoying me with, or torpedoing some one on one time between me and a girl because you think you're too important and invoke a social gathering at random, or talking about how you perceive yourself as a tower of strength for other people and then DEMAND that I listen to your problems for 15 minutes straight (that one was the best one).

I despise you more than anyone.

And you're completely oblivious to it.

I bet you cannot even conceive the idea that I might have some problems with you, let alone harbor resentment. Scratch that, I bet you're not even capable of imagining how ANYONE might dislike you, that's how highly you think of yourself.

I fucking hate you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4yEyDjclo4
Gonna shower and be retarded in public
>>24600120
Dump his ass

>>24600120
Damn :/

>>24600122
I wish, I fucking wish I could. But he's an integral part of my social circle. Most people I know, I know through him. It's the friend equivalent of having an absolute cunt as a boss but needing the money.
>>24600123
Sometimes I just can't keep it down anymore.

>>24600120
have you like... you know... talked to him about it? And if so, were you direct about it? Because if not, that's on you and your poor communication.

>>24599856
This post smells like semen

>>24600152
Your resentment comes from your false hope you can keep doing the same thing and something will change. You know this dude and how he operates, and you're falling into the same trap over and over.

I love women with cavernous pussies. I love too feel small as possible

>>24600283
*to

Painting homicidal rabbits like it's 1173
Marc Bolan https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xISchLe1QV4
Chocolate fudge cake
Getting only half the things I wanted done finished
>>24600283
I think /an/ is still a middle aged cat lady board?
>>24599799
I have seen a great selection of butterflies and I like to think it's avaricious property hoarding having the fringe benefit of lots of ragweed and buddleia growing wild

Life is about balance, that's why I'm a cyber-luddite. Technology should only be used to build barns, cyber horse carriages and stuff like that.

>>24600316
Someone didn't read Heidegger, everything you listed is techne real luddites do it themselves with their own hands

>>24600330
Ned Ludd was knitting gauge protest, anon, it's like the most austistically technical fight until model train sets were invented
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsD1WU3BUSE

The xenophilic race prides itself on having succeeded, with the help of germs, in strangling Aztēcatl culture in its infancy. They raise the symbol of their Semitic god to the sky at the same time they proclaim "survival of the fittest," regardless of the fact they are all descended from the barbaric Aryans, for whom death was the preferred solution to all conflict.
This hypocrisy is just one example among many; hypocrisy is the driving force of the self-destructive culture of Europeans and the premonition of their downfall.

Touching my tools which had a lot of dust on them which fell in from the ceiling. An unknown insect or bunch of mites jumped on me and ran around my body and inside my clothing as fast as a caterpillar with a million legs, but it was invisible, and it was biting me all over. I also got nauseous from the great amount of rain water that fell on me for the last two days. I have to clean my tools and eat a lot of vegetables this weekend. I will watch whatever Vegetales are available on internet archive to psych myself up for this miserable weekend.

I'm actually planting fall crops this year, usually I can't find the time to do it in an organized and thorough way. Really dropped the ball on spring planting this year after my second kid was born, I'm think I'm trying to make up for that a little bit

>>24600330
You are retarded.

>>24599353
Treat her well anon, and maybe the love will go both ways

She didn't come.
She had some kind of mental breakdown, so she started binge drinking (I assume still is) and I told her that I don't want drunk people in my house, so she said fair enough, apologized and called our meeting off. When I asked what's wrong, she told me she'd tell me later. Yeah, no thanks, been there done that, I'm not playing the niceguy again.
She's exactly the kind of woman I thought she was, so I really only have myself to blame for even pursuing her to begin with.

>>24600120
For your real friends, you want the best for nothing in return. Pick who you care about wisely and don't expect help. I'm sorry that it's like this

>>24594857 (OP)
Refrigerators that do not run on electricity should be more common.

>>24600494
Why are you bothered? Some people struggle, sounds like she doesn't want to drag anyone down. No need to leave eachothers path with resentment.

>>24600503
I'm bothered because this is the second time she said no last minute, and the entire idea of meeting up was her idea to begin with.

>>24600494
Shiieeet godforbid a young bitch get a little drunk on a friyay ..

>>24600122
>>24600173
>>24600248
>>24600498
You failed. See >>24599631
>>24600123
Good response.

>>24600527
If it's a woman, it's a dyke complaining about being cockblocked

>>24600509
Her feelings and circumstances changed. If you want a moral pressure, have promises exchanged rather than statements of desire. I'm not saying it's pleasant to deal with such, but I don't see a moral responsibility being infringed upon in your information. Relationships have to be a two way engagement, and you can psychologically do things to try and meet your end but i think frustrations should be reserved for moral outrage as there is plenty to have towards the world

>>24600527
Didn't know if was a female, apologies. That being said I am a righteous warrior and do throw my pearls before swine as I've been swine before and would want the same.

>>24600535
>>24600540
I'm assuming it's a woman because they're acting like one.

>>24600540
Based pig
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-fdkMyADf0
>>24600544
Whatever Jennifer, nice dubs

pretty depressed, drinking beer and watching youtube
gonna drink myself to sleep again

>>24600547
We are all the swine at one point or another. Almost.

Been doing a lot of disappearing into my head recently. I remember the last time I did that this that much was last year in August. Wonder if it's something about the month that makes me think a lot.

I was on a date and the bitch just all of a sudden took out her phone and started recording audio messages into it for minutes on end, I just can't stand shit like this, it must be pretty popular with everyone these days so I just left.

>>24600638
and right you were

>>24597994
I have never succumbed to the maddening touch of women. And will be in fact accepting my wizard scrolls in just a few months.

>>24600638
>and started recording audio messages into it for minutes on end
?

uh like what? for what purpose?

>>24600714
She was recording stuff for her FBI job, something about a serial killer.

>>24600714
she said it was work related and kept listening to audio messages from her boss, it was 10 pm btw

The only thing more disgusting that the female sex organ is the male sex organ.

Why do majority of women have mob mentality?

>>24600742
I mean maybe just seeing if she had to work the next day? Doesn't sound too bad.

I go to bed later and later until I slowly flip my sleep cycle completely so I'm sleeping through the day and waking up in the evening.
To flip it back I have to stay awake for around 30 hours. This is when a lot of my posts on 4channel.com are written.

My poor sleep this past month has aged the fuck outta me, I barely recognize myself in the mirror, and I certainly don't feel confident about my looks anymore. Perhaps I'll try three benadryl tonight and see if that allows me to sleep through for long hours, that's all I wish for.

>>24600776
Here's a good advice: stop being a lazy and run every day at least 30 but actually run not half gas or anything, you'll sleep like a baby every night

>>24600776
>>24600801
I dance for 1 hour before bed.

>>24600823
Like the Joker?

sending dickpics to random hoes

>>24600846
Why are you sending pictures of 'Richard' to instances of a gardening tool?

>>24595756
I don't think you can learn to understand a fetish. I remember having a foot fetish when I was less than 6 years old. The same goes for every other fetish I have; I think it is something you are simply born with.

ugh I know I should head out to the library to do some reading but I'm so so tired again today

>>24600823
Top 3 most based things I've ever read on this blighted website.

And then I said to her: "What's the point of sex if we can't be as nasty as possible"

The last couple times I had sex were mired with either an inability to get it up or climaxing way too fast, becoming a deep-seated psychological worry, and since then I've rejected any and all advances from women because I don't want to sexually disappoint them. Sigh

Where do you get your book recommendations from?
The Goodreads algorithm sucks. Sometimes I read book recs from blogs.

hell ya titan quest 2 just opened early access

>>24601038
Is it good?

>>24600638
is it like when they are texting someone but use speech to text to make the texts? i hate people who do that, the whole point of texts is it doesn't make noise, if ur just gonna talk anyways then fucking call them, it's a phone

>>24601043
idk i didn't play it yet lol but it looks p sick and it's less than $25

>>24600995
>>>/lit/

did u see itunes has a book to screen sale 10 movies for 15 bucks i didn't know goodfellas was a book tho?

>>24601043
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ecl2Dftp_yY

>>24600979
lasting long in bed is honestly gay
we’re meant to nut fast that’s just the way god made us. sex is a race bitch you lost

>>24600979
same, i fucking hate sex why burn another cringe memory into your psyche when u can just goon in peace

The mind is like an inner sea of primordial soup. Only instead of chemicals it is ideas that combine, evolve, and compete with each other.

>>24601073
I wish. There's nothing more upsetting than the girl being unsatisfied.

>>24601081
And it's not like I've never had good sex, I had a good run for a bit, it's just the last couple times really left me with a complex about it. Of course the obvious answer is it'll be cured once I get back into the swing of things, but that's easier said than done. But yes, at the moment, I'm content with just taking care of my own needs.

>>24601086
>There's nothing more upsetting than the girl being unsatisfied.
that sounds kinda soi, all my old roommates who used to run through a zillion thots plus had gfs never cared about the woman lmao they make them watched five hours of fornite then suck their dick and kick them out, maybe its cuz they all smoked a ton of weed, i guess getting the chick off isn't as important if u just blazed a 8th of dank with her.

>>24601107
You can do that if you can give them a good fucking too, yeah, that's the key.

>>24601113
ya i mean they did dick them down p good from time to time but it felt like the women were just npcs to them like a human bag of weed

>>24601127
In any case, not my style, but thanks regardless.

Say hello to my little sister.

>>24601221
hi

Someone i added on a thread here just blocked me after a fap. Was looking forward to talkin with interesting anons who like lewd stuff too but any add with that intention usually ends in a block-post fap.

>>24601070
Only interested if the demon you've been getting too buddy with bursts into song about how the tiny sliver of hope he gave you at the start is now gone because of your choices.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5hLJ5bNPVU

New:

>>24601370