Thread 510865601

>>510865601 (OP)
*shrug*

>>510865601 (OP)
spite

>>510865601 (OP)
hope

>>510865601 (OP)
Morbid curiosity.

>>510865639
DEATH AND HATRED FOR MANKIND

>>510865662
Came to post this.

>>510865601 (OP)
death is so permanent

I'm white. We try until we dead

>>510865601 (OP)
The pleasure of driving a blade through the heart of those who I hate the most

>>510865601 (OP)
I was going to save this image but then i saw it was AI. A custom Pepe always wins over AI slop

>>510865601 (OP)
Hate

I’m moving 2000 miles away next week. When things get stale I start over somewhere I’ve never been. Basically selling all my stuff and starting a new life. More people should do it. It’s something to look forward to.

>>510865688
Meh. I'm not interested in that. Too "Fantasy Star Wars" for my liking. My answer would be something cliche like God, if you really pressed me. I do enjoy my gifts, but it's all... futile. Hence the shrug. I'm fundamentally a very sad person. I stay sad for maybe 80% of my day. Obviously /pol/ is good fun, but even here is littered with somber moments and inescapable bleakness.

>>510865601 (OP)
Stoicism, my cats, and my mum. And you?

>>510865601 (OP)
watching things fall into place as the bible says, knowing it's true, and knowing Jesus is real and He's coming soon and I might even see it.

>>510865601 (OP)
>I'm a pussy
>My mom and brother would be sad
>I want to see if the One Piece is really "the friends we made along the way"
A few things

>>510865601 (OP)
Consumerism. New (used) bikes etc

I dont even know anymore

Trying to get my time machine to jump just one more time. Ill fix it the timeline this time, I swear

>>510865601 (OP)
love for the truth man. yeah

Knowing that life offers second chances. You just need to jump through those opportunity windows.

>>510865688
Also checked. Almost missed it.

>>510865868
luck and all best wishes to you anon, make it happen.

>>510865601 (OP)
Inheritance (?)

my husband

>>510865601 (OP)
i don't know anymore, maybe out of spite, maybe to see how the World look like in 20-30 years and if it will burn
>>510866008
just two more jumps

>>510865601 (OP)
Beer.

>>510865688
>checked
POISONING THEIR BRAINWASHED MINDS

>>510866191
you know, i can appreciate that

My friend an hero'd a while ago and the reaction from his family made me feel like I needed to keep going

>>510865601 (OP)
Knowing that me being alive makes my ennemies mad.

>>510866346
whyd he do it?

Momentum. I'll die one day and rolled better life circumstances than a substantial amount of the human population, so I'll stay in motion until I cease to exist. Alternatively If my life becomes too terrible I will kill myself.

>>510866381
keep rolling anon...dont do it

>>510865601 (OP)
Things usually work out
You can't always get what you want, but if you notice you'll find you get what you need.
I know God is real, therefore life after death is real, and Heaven is real. And therefore everything else is miniscule in importance so long as you get to go to Heaven when you die. Life is 65-120 years long, life after death is for eternity. Whatever you want in life that you don't get, you'll get after death in Heaven.

On a more cynical side, history is cyclical. These are stupid, nonsensical, liberal times now. But if you pay attention to the temperature of the people and similarities of history, were are heading toward a great snapping/uprising. We are well on track for another 4th reich esque revolution. We probably won't win, but from about 2034-2050 we're gonna get a great backlash/expulsion of the jews, a backlash against the niggers, a bitch slapping of the women and a purging of the fags.
By 2060 we'll fag back into liberal shit, but we'll get a nice 10-25 years of white, straight, Christian in charge with bullshit again.
Also this whole lifestyle of the 20th/21st century isn't set in stone. Its all new and unprecedented in history. This whole work to pay bills and die lifestyle won't necessarily be forever.
But for any of these things to change, we're gonna need a big fat war, a lot of death and a lot of revolution.

I've lived a long life, considered I wanted to kms a while ago
I consider the place I'm in at the moment a miracle, and everyday I find more reasons to believe in God
I also realized that your reason to live and exist is to appreciate the values that converge into your being. What you love, what you desire, what you dream of and you do and are capable of. Life is hard, but even an instant to breathe and gaze at the light reflecting through rain dropplets or a glass of water while air flows through the window can feel eternal. We should appreciate the beauty in the universe and that that surrounds us, protect it too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnXv4vjG6cA

>>510865601 (OP)
My wife and kids
Also, people had it way worse back in history so why be a bitch about your lot.

>>510866770
nice anon. i like it. all of that

>>510866370
A girl and the military didn't want him. He wanted to be a pilot and the Marines said his eyes were shit. Poor guy. That was like in 2015

>>510866888
Sheeit. Checked. Bitch nigga to the end.

Sorry, fixed my awful redaction a bit

I've lived a long life, considering I wanted to kms a while ago
I thus consider the place I'm in at the moment a miracle, and everyday I find more reasons to believe in God
I've also realized that your reason to live and exist is to appreciate the values that converge into your being. What you love, what you desire, what you dream of and what you do and are capable of. Life is hard, but even an instant to breathe and gaze at the golden light of the sun refracting through rain dropplets or a glass of water while air flows through the window can feel eternal. We should appreciate the beauty of the universe more often and that that surrounds us too, protect it as well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnXv4vjG6cA

>>510866949
He was a little bitch, kinda still mad I had to be the one to find him

>>510866874
I think discovering love in life is the most important thing you could ever do. Without love, there's no reason to live or do anything, really

>>510865601 (OP)
I like it here, plus reincarnation.

>>510865601 (OP)
My soul died a long time ago but my body just keeps going

>>510866888
hmm, that shit can go hard. still, none of that is the end of the world unless you make it so. gotta keep on rolling on because things usually change if you wait a bit. peace to you and keep on truckin bro.

>>510865601 (OP)
fun

>>510867036
i hope you kill yourself next you fucking faggot

>>510865601 (OP)
Since "going" is all I know. Till I can't

Little girls and their playfullness.

>>510867165
I agree, just keep trucking on, bros. You don't want your incel 4chan friend to find you with your brains blown out. Someone has to find your body you know and it fucking sucks.

>>510867194
>1pbtid
You disgust me, I hope you find help.

Spite

>>510867040
i know what you mean, though i have to say - even if all you feel is hate you gotta keep on going because you never know when everything can just switch on you, just like that, in a moment. i think that most people have thought about ending it at some point, at many points even.....but you jut have to let it happen and see what comes. a few years later it can all be different can it.

>>510867165
Life is a short flicker. Time is an illusion. That means as long as you're walking, you're already at your destination. That's why Jesus is simultaneously the way and the gate.

>>510865601 (OP)
The prospect of unadulterated and open TND

>>510865601 (OP)
The knowledge that despite shit being so bad now. I am going to make it in the end, and I hope you all do too,

>>510865601 (OP)
Coffee drank at perfect intervals, 3-4 times per day. Cannabis when not working because it really takes the edge of this big gay Earth.

I pray and try to maintain a good attitude, this is a life within itself, and is alone every reason to "keep going" for me.

I work in rehabilitation, helping and supporting people to become more self-sufficient. I am beloved by my colleagues, my boss, and so when I go to work I am embraced by the many open arms of women. I go there and I am loved for what I do, which is a selfless act much of the time. I remember when I didn't have that.

>>510865601 (OP)
Knowing that all of you will suffer and die, and that you are engineering your own downfall and are too fucking stupid to see it.

>>510867240
you know, looking back, those times when i wanted to off myself turned out to be times that were just just training me to deal with shit and carry on regardless. i hope you have all good luck and will be blessed.

>>510865601 (OP)
I dont wish to disappoint my father or upset my mother anymore than I have. Once they're gone so am I

>>510865601 (OP)
>What keeps you going?
I'm waiting to die

>>510867338
>Jesus
yes. He is the way the truth and the life 100%

>>510865601 (OP)
Solving personal problems. I see them as projects I give myself. Right now the problems are
>waking up feeling like shit
>anxiety attacks
>trouble sleeping
>feeling like I'm trapped in my own head
I don't know how to solve any of them at this time but I'm trying to start with research.
So I guess that keeps me going. I have flaws within myself that I'm trying to correct, and I'm curious what type of self-experimentation will work.

>>510867447
Keep it up anon. You'll make it

>>510867514
thank anon. problem for me is that i actually did make it. now i dont know what the hell to do with myself lol.

>>510865667

and courage and faith and love for my family

>>510865601 (OP)
The image of people burning in hell. The delight I will feel looking at them.

>>510867321
I think hate comes only when what you hate attacks in some way what you love
You can hate crime because it attacks on your safety, you can hate on degeneracy because it attacks your moral or beauty standards, you can hate on stupid humor because it attacks the ideals of a desired society. You can even hate on others depending on their actions and what they mean
I however, think that pure and blind hate won't build on anything. You can't be anything else than an NPC if you don't find love in life as hate is most of the time a reaction
Self knowledge is very important

>>510865601 (OP)
The reality that one day I will die. Then I will finally know peace. The great return to stillness and unconsciousness.

ITT NPCs acting like they have any control over the simulation

I like music.

https://youtu.be/3ryk45IYJpk

>>510867867
>Runerigus, POKéDEX 0867

>A powerful curse was woven into an ancient painting. After absorbing the spirit of a Yamask, the painting began to move.

>>510867717
theres a lot in what you say anon. it can be very hard to experience bad things and it can make us see everything in a bad way but all it takes is one act of kindness to not feel like we're in a world of shit. i've been fortunate to have many of these flip-flops in life, sometimes several times in a single day, and it teaches many lessons. what can you do eh? you literally cant let the bastards get you down. evil is always looking for another willing helper! peace to you.

>Jaguar Unseen

https://youtu.be/-GZEkGXoTek

>>510865601 (OP)
frens, and enemies.

Nothing. I barely care to see tomorrow

>>510865601 (OP)
Newton wrote that the zionist prophecy will come true in 2060. I need to be alive to see if christians nuke everything in that year to fulfill the prophecy.

>>510865601 (OP)
i will win

>>510865601 (OP)
Get a hobby, something mechanical.

>>510868123
>Jaguar Meets Snake

https://youtu.be/KN2aJpPMd4A

>>510865601 (OP)

To gather storms of rage within myself while I'm alive to combat all the demons in the afterlife.

>>510868271
and at least make sure you have the tools for the job. theres nothing more likely to annoy than not having the right tools to do something you know you can do.

>>510867998
Indeed
However, I think evil is somewhat hard to find
Sometimes, there are people who are indeed evil, and there are for sure, evil acts. But people sometimes don't know anything better, can't see outside of a very limited perspective
Sometimes, we do evil without even thinking about it, even if it's in a lesser or petty way
I've found that legitly apologizing and feeling sorry about our deeds is one of the hardest things to do in life, as you must reflect on what you did and do, build a solid moral standard and be brave enough to admit your errors
While unrelated, I think it's somewhat funny that many atheist do joke about repenting a second before dead so they can go to heaven. Not understanding what repenting truly is
Got to say, I'm glad I could find the chance to share this thoughts with someone else today, it can be hard to remember these ideals every now and then. Emotions can be powerful enough to fog your mind and push certain behaviors
Peace to you, too

>>510868619
>Sometimes, we do evil without even thinking about it,
definitely. we are all just one moment away from someone else seeing us as evil. we're all bouncing off each other and often all too willing to see everyone as being evil because of one act. its a hard thing to not do that actually.
>apologizing and feeling sorry about our deeds is one of the hardest things to do in life,
a truer thing has never been typed. i have a couple young kids and have taken some years off work to be at home with them. apologizing does NOT come naturally, lets put it that way. even the recognition of fault is a major deal, and i think that many people never really get past the basics. for sure i wouldnt have without having been humbled by Christ. all the striving anger at having to admit IM WRONG was taken away by Him, and what i see in my kids is our common state. Now, theres no bravery needed to admit it because i stand before Him, and He knows what im like, yet forgives and loves me.
>Peace to you, too
very much to you anon. may He grant you rest in Him and love and compassion. God knows i lack.

>>510868619
>repenting right before death
misunderstanding of ontology, and the Bible touches on this in hebrews 10;22 when referring to the conscience being seared (also refers to this in 1 timothy 4). basically we become through repetition, a person who repeatedly abhors the sacred wont suddenly turnabout because death knocks

2NG0D

>>510868271
It truly gives good feelings for longer times when you fix your own shit

>>510865601 (OP)
The inability to kill myself right now, as well as a glimmer of curiosity

>>510869250
hold on to that glimmer anon. you just never know whats coming next

>>510869126
Christ is King

>>510869207
yes
>>510869417
absolutely!

>>510868619
Truly apologizing is really a continues lesson that needs to be honed. Christ’s message is that of forgiving others. Allthough in some situations that would allmost be impossible

>>510865601 (OP)
Lately? Pussy. I have a great pussy that genuinely cares about me in my life after going dry for a decade and it's great. It completely cured me from headaches and mental struggles I was going through. Job instantly becomes more bearable, self esteem went up, not wasting time jerking off anymore, more energy and less brain fog.

>>510869655
>Allthough in some situations that would allmost be impossible
consider His position. His mercy will truly be a thing we will spend eternity trying to comprehend.

>>510865601 (OP)
do we have the original photo of this?

The fury of my own momentum.

>>510869700
Yea there is alot of things that get better with a girl or something. I ended a semi-relationship of 2 years and its biting me a bit.

God saw Adam was lonely and felt bad, when man or woman are single they’re lonely factor goes up alot. Friends and family cant fill that preverbial hole

>>510869832
Their*

>>510865601 (OP)
the hope to see WW3 or end of the world

>>510869832
sorry to hear that anon. i hope Christ will lead you to one thats for you...and that He will guide her to you. theres nothing better than the one He has in store for you and you never know when He'll make it happen.

>>510865601 (OP)
i need to feed stray cats

>>510865601 (OP)
my family

>>510869832
Try to move on to better pastures. Forgive yourself, you did your best. What's crazy is that I met this girl 2 years ago and we were attracted to each other but never moved past friendly encounters. I was so fucked up from a relationship that ended 10 years ago It blocked me from any approach and success from outside. Few months ago I prayed to something to ease my struggles even though I'm not religious and I cried like a bitch at night until I fell asleep and when I woke up I had my eureka moment as if god himself put his hand on my head when I was asleep and told me "that's enough". I immediately got in touch with her and never looked back ever since. Sometimes I feel like a fool wasting that much time on bullshit but life doesn't come with instruction manual

>>510865601 (OP)
the idea of killing everyone someday I'm tired of this fuckin shitty world and this pigs

الله

>>510870252
That sounds great, josé. May your relationship be a succes.

>>510870593
This is antisemitic

>>510870409
sounds sad

>>510870409
Thats a bit extreme, officer

>>510865601 (OP)
>>510870026
This and the first real holocaust

I am a living dead! A zombie, the walking dead, the dread... alao, with a bit of a fun twist in the realm of total outer misery without purpose, aim or destination.

How would I know what keeps me going and these shit worlds.

>>510866053
thanks pal

>>510865894
Same but replace cats with a chihuahua for me

>>510870179
Thank you! Same to you

>>510865601 (OP)
Eating, drinking, shitting, sleeping.

Coffee. Grilled meat. Jacking off.

The rest of the stuff kind of sucks.

>>510870854
actually im excited just hearing about such a big move. id ask for more info but this is hardly the place for it. just hope everything works out nicely with everything and that you find what you're looking for. changing things up like its sounds like you're doing is more than half the battle and you never know whats next! God keep you!

>>510871022
Things will come your way, try to see the signals.

Sometimes you get these oppurtunities and you have to take them right away, they sometimes come in disguise. Be curious.

>>510865601 (OP)
Seething hatred, for the miserable life I was handed to.

>>510870653
Thanks. It's honestly such peace to be with someone that's not just there to make your life more difficult and it's not just there for you to stick your cock in. Makes you realise how much damage porn does to society

>>510871211
You’re playing the blame game, hans. Stop that, see your own influence in your life and adjust for better outcome.

Now go do 5 sets of push ups

>>510871288
Agreed. Porn hurts the soul

My reasons for living? My family both in the church and at home, my creator the Almighty God my want to do great deeds worthy of His name :D <(^-^<)

>>510871012
In another life id end up camping in your yard and we'd talk all this shit through. you wouldnt believe where ive pitched my tent anon, and your yard looks just fine lol. seriously, i wish you all the best. Christ keep you!

>>510865601 (OP)
Nothing. I'm going down

>>510871451
My yard is pretty tiny, unironically. But a poncho and sleeping bag would fit certainly.

>>510865601 (OP)
Not much, I have a miserable existence and I already gave up any hope for the future, anywhere I go I'm always a unwanted outsider. The only thing that brings me any joy is my dog, but he's very old for his big size and pushing 14, so after he dies in a few months I don't know how I'll keep me from killing myself.

>>510865712
It's jsut like before you was born.

>>510871607
Buy a replacement dog and start working out and eating healthy. And go touch grass, litterally, with barefeet.

And you got oceans overthere, right? Go take a swim, dude. Salt sea eater is good for you. Connecting to the world through salt water

>>510865688
>>510866204
>woOOOOAAAAOOOOO

>>510865874
Dont be sad, pablo. Go outside and greet a random person with a smile. Be joyfull. Stop talking about being sad.

You can do it, now go touch grass, LITTERALLY

>>510871601
its all i ever asked. be well anon. people in your country were only ever kind to me. i really do pray that Christ leads you and your bride together. just be ready to be the man such a women is looking for. we do our best...i know im not what my wife wants, but she endures. thats what good women do, and i dont take advantage of it. God uses her to encourage me on., and may He do the same for you.

>>510871903
I don't need help feeling joy, stupid ass. And I have special contempt for cheerleading faggots like you.

>>510865688
FINALLY \o/ i found the kid and judge pepe again

>>510871903
anon you just got 86'd by the judge, you bes make like a messican and run for dem hills

>>510872086
Ahh, you’re playing a role you expect people to see from you.

The convenient truth is, they dont know you, so you can break the negative character you’re playing.

Be touching grass, sir pablo

>>510872431
Give me another fortune, Zoltar. Make it something with 2 women.

>>510865601 (OP)
I want to see what Clownworld spits out next

>>510872374
Them hills look mighty safe to me, i shal get a walkin, sire

>>510865601 (OP)
Beauty, quintessentially. Hardest to behold especially this darkest time and definitely (my) place, but the noblest cause to strive for, always.
>>510867714
I feel your righteous fury Slavyangrader
>>510865688
And death to judge Satan

Procrastination

>>510872531
won do ya any good anyhows
>spits onto the cracked soil only to watch the saliva instantly bubble and evaporate as if it were never there, not even a faint mark of moisture

>>510871736
>start working out and eating healthy. And go touch grass, litterally, with barefeet.
I work outside doing manual labour, I don't need to workout more than I already do. I get plenty of sunshine and touch plenty of grass. I eat healthy, I cook for myself everyday, I don't even remember the last time I had McSlop or some shit like that.
>replacement dog
It's not about have a dog, it's about that dog being the last thing I care about. After he's gone I'll be truly alone. I don't want to get attached to something else, I'd rather just end it all.
>And you got oceans overthere, right?
I live in the middle of the woods, in a forgotten shithole of drunkenness and poverty. Portugal is a third world shithole for natives, don't think that what's sold to tourists is the same we get.

>>510872479
Good things will come your way, best fren. Be open to oppertunities

And 5-20 minute deep slow breathing before bed helps alot the next day, is my personal experience

You turn off the voices in the head that way, the bullshit thats going non stop in the head. Im not talking real english voices. Just the thoughts need a break, the breathing helps after the fact.

>>510872695
<(^-^)> frens

>>510872662
Are there things you do like?

I know portugal has poverty issues, but money isnt the end all be all. You have a beautiful lands and nice weather.

>>510867321
The opposite of love is not hate it’s indifference. Hate is a very powerful type of love. What you hate you worship.

>>510872695
>5-20 minute deep slow breathing before bed
You are like a little baby. Watch this

>Air
Ionized to levels of a waterfall or forest with + multiple small water features in your house with foggers releasing incense like myrrh and frankincense

>Water
Filtered and mineralized water vortexed through a spiral to impart magnetic effects which increase cellular absorption

>Earth
periodic grounding to release static build up and facilitate healing. IE standing barefoot on the ground outside

>Fire
Near Infrared Therapy in the form of a real fire at night, and red lamps in the bathroom. All lights in the house dimmable and set to soft yellow wavelengths to mimic late noon to evening sun. computer screen backlights and frames are replaced with soft incandescent and natural light boxes.

>>510867397
>heavy drug user
>works in rehab
Stop gaslighting yourself anon get it together

>>510865662
>>510865667
The duality of man.

>>510872911
Next level shit

But, for the bullshit toughts to dissapear a while, you need deep breathing

>>510865601 (OP)
Spite

>>510867487
Trauma doesn’t disappear with input from the intellect. You will become trapped in a mental mastubatory vortex and never heal

>>510872911
okay, im with van damme, you're a fucking moron with a hard ceiling

>>510865688
>>510869772
>died before experiencing love
>died before anything happened
>died before his time
RIP Chuddie. You will always have a special place in our hearts.

>>510865662
Yup

lub me pibble
simple as

>>510865601 (OP)
that liberal women will have to live in the conditions they voted into being too (multiculturalism, 'meltingpot'), and it will be a lot worse for them than it will be for an antisocial hermit male like me.

>>510865601 (OP)
Nothing. I'm too cowardly to kill myself so I exist for another day.

>>510872695
And im serious, do it every night in bed before sleeping.

>>510872798
><(^-^)>
this stuff needs to make a comeback

>>510865601 (OP)
hate

>>510865874
stfu faggot this ain’t your personal blog

>>510873110
You think.......................... I can't breathe...

>>510872662
>After he's gone I'll be truly alone. I don't want to get attached to something else, I'd rather just end it all.
ive been there anon but theres more. Christ gave me the est wife a man could ever want and He can help you that way too. seriously. dogs dont compare.

>>510873138
Been using it since the BBS days :D I think i'm one of the few in pol that uses em.

>>510873161
Let's get a little more hate than that. If this is really all you're capable of, then you really should just die sooner.

>>510872875
>The opposite of love is not hate it’s indifference.
i think you're wrong because indifference is nothing. hate means you really care about the thing you despise, like a lover cares about the object in question

>>510873204

(you) can

Kek. Hate keeps you going, but your hate is actually weak as fuck. That's a Greek tragedy.

>>510865601 (OP)
Knowing what’s going to happen.

>>510873088
dont be ashamed of that anon because killing yourself, while a sign of adventurism, is not a good thing. wait it out and see what comes. things can get better as well as worse!

Living through the worst time in history so I can call everyone else a bitch.
Also hopefully find something that makes up for it, but being able to rip on everyone for being right the whole time is a surprisingly effective motivator for me.
Maybe not to do very much, but at least to stay alive.
I just tell everyone I'm an investor and that society is a bad investment.

>>510865601 (OP)
lately... nothing.
im in existential depression and considering ending it.
no joy
no hope
no hate
no emotions at all
just work and sleep
life shouldnt be this way

>>510865601 (OP)
That there's some good in this world Mr /pol/do and it's worth fighting for

>>510865894
good lad

>>510865601 (OP)
yeah

>>510873604
Based bong

>>510865601 (OP)
>>510865667
Hope. Maybe false hope, but hope.

>>510865601 (OP)
my thirst for alcohol. good food. a comfy place... some d udeweed bro every now and then.. and the caseys gas station pizza. what keeps you going nigger beast of romania?

>>510873738
>the caseys gas station pizza
tell me more. sounsd nice

>>510865601 (OP)
hate

>>510865601 (OP)
oldfag here, just drifting towards the inevitable in the knowledge that nothing really matters and life is mostly just noise but it took so long for me to realise this.

>>510865601 (OP)
Jeet trainrekt vids

>>510865601 (OP)
Fear of afterlife, don't want this shit

Hope

>>510865601 (OP)
I was up in the mountains a couple of weeks ago - I was twenty miles and more into the hike, done some really silly things, going upupup on a path I didn't know, roasting hot, heart rate racing, and when I checked I was pretty much out of water too.
I sat down in a tiny patch of shade and realised that I was ready to just give up, it was time.
Let that wash over me for a while and then said "Fuck it - come on.", got up and started hustling my way at breakneck speed through the mountains in a desperate attempt to try and catch the last bus back to where I was staying.
>tl;dr - keep going until you can't, then start running

>>510874047
Follower of Christ, ivan?

We are flawed and corrupt, He isnt.

>>510874088
> I sat down in a tiny patch of shade

There was a busy restaurant right next to that spot

>>510874099
When all that horrible stuff was happening in Paris Olympics magical stuff happened desu ALL the lights went out around the area except for the nearby church <(^-^<)

>>510874154
There was - only served rock and grass tho...

>>510865601 (OP)
Being Indian.

>>510867487
quit drugs get in shape do minor exposure therapy think of it like re-wireing your brain

trapped in your own head is normally not always exacerbated by cortisol its that angsty feeling

anxiety can be a ton of shit trouble sleeping is going to make the other shit worse so its all part of the same thing most likely

like you said have fun with it but fix your sleep and your body then you can focus on your mind

hope this helps one of the best things to do when you cant sleep is just enjoy being in bed lots of "frameing" can swap things

rather than im trapped in this wakeing nightmare

im super comfortable and i get to use my imagination

>>510873232
positively based. never stop, king

>>510874360
It was a test, story seems true. You can move along now

>>510874276
Based “coincedence”

>>510873369
England is a very limited place which is only getting worse so I'm not sure much better can be ahead for me at my age(41). I am stuck in a shithole depressing town that I hate which doesn't help. I don't think I will kill myself but I am ready to die when it comes.

Fear of death
My mom
That's about it

>>510865601 (OP)
Hatred of niggers keeps me going.

I believe that to live is to embrace the vibrant tapestry of experiences, finding meaning in the delicate interplay of love, purpose, and the simple wonder of existence. Also, niggers tongue my anus.

My mum, literally. At this point of life I'm starring at the same 4 walls. Secluded from society, since I don't have a car (Nearest bus stop is an hour away)

Jobless (On welfare) After I pay rent and get basic food I'm left with 80$ which just goes to alcohol, lost my friends cause I got addicted to drugs (Been sober this year) I do the same shit everyday.. watch youtube/twitch til it's time for bed.

I'm currently trying to get a job and my life back but it's just mundane and suicides a sin/weak I know it'll get better and it slowly has, so I guess hope too.

>>510868132
source

My house and property
Making it as comfy and beautiful as possible

>>510875316
Grats on the year of sobriety ^-^ hope you can get a job too an fix yourself up. I know its not for everyone though used to be try getting into community events whether soup kitchen or whatever the equivalent is in kiwiland, church or something else keeping yourself locked inside wont make it better I know those thoughts all too well

>1pbtid
high probability OP is a pajeet

the majority of pajeets on /pol/ try to hide the fact that they're pajeets. in addition to "leaving that part out" they will proactively, persistently misrepresent their true form. pajeets are all about assuming other people's roles, from today's outsourcing and replacement migration all the way back to thuggee bandits lying to travelers about who they were. pajeets are devoid of their own identity, making them the ideal globalized goyim. they don't want a home where they belong. all that means to them is "compete in squalor." much better to go somewhere nicer, built by other people, and do their jobs for less pay and live slum-barracks life in their suburbs. pajeets don't want to be home. they also don't want to be pajeets. jews know exactly how to play their insecurities and dopey ambitions like the innocent rube fresh off the bus from the cornfield. this is their new golem to replace the ones that don't love them anymore

there was never any good reason to share a country, a language, or the internet with pajeets

If I die that's one less person capable of making life worse for jews.
I survive on pure spite.

pure spite

>>510875796
Thanks anon, I'll get there slowly but surely. There's a couple church's around, I used to go as a kid every week, been a couple times this year and enjoyed it.

Just taking each step ahead, even though it's just a step, at least it's in the right direction.

Hope you're doing well in freedom land

>>510865601 (OP)
My Lord, my savior, my GOD.

JESUS CHRIST.

The meaning of like is to worship and to serve GOD. For whom He IS.

Everything is worthy because of Him.

>>510874907
Maybe relocate? Why stay in a to you depressing place

A nice vacation home in view of the Untersberg mtn. A place to spend quiet moments with my blond alsatian bitch.

>>510876481
Amen

>>510865601 (OP)
Neet bux

>have a big circle of friends
>go out every weekend as their wingman
>spend a lot of money on said hangouts
>they all find gfs and get married
>now they don't need you
>even when you get invited to shit, you find excuses to not go because you're a miserable 3rd wheel
>you spent all that time and money on bullshit
>no one will ever help you
anyone else like this?

>>510865684
This, plus imma win the lottery

>>510875849
>there was never any good reason to share a country, a language, or the internet with pajeets
This. I don't fucking want them.

>>510876445
I am since I did the same thing :3 was going about listless watching days go by decided to start going to church and by the grace of God I had people there giving a slight nudge to push me inti different ministries in it like altar guild Was Baptized Nov 5th 2023 even got to be a crucifer during a bishop's visit

>>510865601 (OP)
the suffering of normies

>>510865601 (OP)
Circle of inevitability

>>510865601 (OP)
1. Maybe something good will happen
2. I don't want my parents to be sad
3. Nobody would care about my cat

>>510874488
Shit anon, do you drive around salt concentrated air

>>510876801
Invest and dont waste money

>>510877398
Headgasket was leaking for a while, maybe thats the cause? Anyway, i fixed it and driven 12000km without problems so far, and you know, it still feels great that i did that.

I never would have guessed its so fulfilling to fix your own stuff.

>>510876991
Glad you managed to get out of the hole, takes a toll on you. I'm catholic, baptized at birth in my childhood church, god bless anon hope you continue to find salvation. Been praying for my family and god brought me closer to them, gonna pray n go to bed. I'll say a prayer for you too.

>>510865601 (OP)
beer

>>510877582
Thanks fren <3 nn

>>510865601 (OP)
the chance to find new frog pictures

>>510865601 (OP)
Good vidya, good weed, and good frens.

>>510865601 (OP)
Irlchadler
We're going to make it frens, hold on, invest in PM, bulltes and food and do everything you can!

>>510865601 (OP)
>>510865639
>>510865662

nothing, i just observe this evil world as it is

>>510865601 (OP)
I have a race car.

>>510865662
This Anon has the only true answer.

>>510865601 (OP)
discipline

>>510865601 (OP)
The beauty of life. I learned to find beauty in the small things and appreciate it.

>>510865639
>>510865601 (OP)
My ability to get a bunch of cops killed

>>510865601 (OP)
STOP KILLING GAMES!

>>510865601 (OP)
knowing that my tax dollars go to keeping israel safe

>>510869207
2/4 cylinders are pig fuck disgusting

>>510869832
What car is that

>>510865601 (OP)
Fear. I'm too frightened of the hellfire that inevitably awaits me after my demise. It guides every decision that I make during the day, it keeps me from ending it all on my own volition. Fear is what keeps me alive.

>>510865601 (OP)
>What keeps you going?
Reading, writing, lifting, gardening, hunting

>>510865601 (OP)
My hatred of Israel is the only thing keeping me alive.

>>510865601 (OP)
My personal experiment. Trying to live and stay young as long as possible.

>>510865601 (OP)
my cat and country house
i like sitting on the porch with my kitty and watching things grow
then i wait for the night to come and roll out my telescope, watch the moon and planets and shit, it's kinda cool
i think everyone should keep close to nature it's kinda soothing, wish i had weed though, but the climate kinda sucks for it over here

>>510874907
anon, i cant speak to everyting you're going through. But, i did grew up in Sheffield, so i kind of know what you're talking about.

>>510865601 (OP)
Consciousness and Jesus

>>510865868
I do the same too. Every year or couples. I lived in 8 different cities in 2 different countries. in just the last 10 years. Yes it works and it's very refreshing.

>>510865601 (OP)
Caffeine, thc and spite.

>>510865934
I can only image the countless people over the last 2000 years uttering the same exact thing.

ww3

>>510867487
lol a project is something like building a picnic table. wtf are you on about? you sound like a shut-in on welfare.

>>510881922
Don't do drugs, they're bad for you.

>>510882758
Israel didn't exist 1900 years ago.
Turkey wasn't talking about invading Israel 2000 years ago (Ezekiel 38-39)
Israel wasn't consuming its neighbors and enemies "like a torch in the sheaves" 2000 years ago with the entire world setting itself against it (Zechariah 12)

Sure people came up with "spiritualized" interpretations of prophetic scripture after Jerusalem was destroyed in AD 70, in order to keep carrying on, but the fact of the matter was, the end times couldn't have happened in any of those time periods.

It couldn't have even happened in the 1950's or 1960's no matter what a lot of evangelicals thought, because they make the mistake of interpreting the book of Daniel as History rather than Prophecy, they think it's about Alexander the Great and Antiochus Epiphanes, but the angel Gabriel said it was about the end times, so Turkey and Iran are important. Heck in the 1950's and 1960's Turkey and Iran were secular and regional allies of Israel, it couldn't have happened then. It couldn't have even come close to happening until the Iranian revolution and Erdogan coming to power in Turkey and then it STILL has some things that have to happen.

Namely Khamenei has to die, and while his replacement is reigning a 4th more powerful leader needs to co-rule with the 3rd leader of Iran, then begins a series of events that leads to the rise of the antichrist, it's still years away in other words but still likely in our lifetimes.

positive pessimism.

>>510865601 (OP)
Incels are now voluntarily going extinct to trigger the libruls :)

>>510865601 (OP)
Shoplifting. I am addicted to that werewolf like blast/rush of adrenaline and testosterone I get from being anti-social and going against the grain. It's the only thing that brings me joy anymore.

>>510878161
Flag checks out. Proust krautanon

>>510865601 (OP)

I don't really know...
I would day geopolitical events but even with these, i'm getting up bored asf.

Everything bores me and everything is bland, whether it's relationships, entertainment, or even the monotony of life...

I'm not doomed, but I'm constantly bored, except for geopolitics, as I said.

I feel like the comfort of modern life, being constantly drowned in a stream of disposable information, is the worst thing that has ever happened to humanity.

But I keep moving forward, at least I try.

I have a lot of work to do on myself and my addictions.

>>510865601 (OP)
>What keeps you going?
I want to fuck the world for all its worth, every inch of planet earth.

>>510865601 (OP)
>>510865601 (OP)
>>510865601 (OP)
MY BATTLE BROTHERS
THAT'S WHAT

HAIL HITLER. HAIL VICTORY.

>>510865662
>>510865662
>>510865662
ALSO
BASED
FINNS ARE THE BEST POSTERS ON HERE

>>510865688
>>510865688
>>510865688
IS
THAT
SPOTTUMGOTTEM???

>>510865601 (OP)
Famipy and [spoiler]friends[/spoiler]

>>510865601 (OP)
>feeding birds and squirrels
>hiking
>reading books
>working on paintings
>being racist

>>510867450
you and me both.

I have no idea what keeps me going honestly. Cowardice perhaps. I do feel like a coward for not having ended my useless life yet. I feel selfish and reckless just for being what I want to be (anti-social). For not having a family or ever procreating. Because freaks like me should not procreate. The reason I hate abrahamic, liberal and leftist egalitarianism is because I hate myself and what I came into being from. Two mental patients that should have never met each other.
But I have kept going because I am too much of a spineless, loathsome coward to just end myself. I hate myself. I hate what I have done to myself and I feel deep guilt and remorse over how it has effected others around me.

>>510865662

SPBP. Frankly I'm just here to watch clown world fucking burn at this point.

>>510865601 (OP)
Malice.

>>510865601 (OP)
>61
>no wife
>no kids
>no family contact
>no friends
>more or less a shut-in
But a few years ago something miraculous happened. I discovered I'd been brainwashed my entire life to be antiwhite.
Now I live to speak up for white people. It doesn't sound like much, but it's enough.

>>510865601 (OP)
Spite, can't let them fucking win anon

>>510880497
Unironically a 1994 lancer 1.6

>>510880396
Thats just hatespeech

>>510865601 (OP)
Comfyness

>>510865601 (OP)
Every day I realize more and more that we really do get what we want in life. Things we don't want too, but we become what we've always been, just more so.
For the mentally ill and the elderly, that can be a disaster.
But if you get a grip on it earlier in life, when you can think soundly, it helps guide you forward.
The Lord God is faithful. He answers prayer. His wisdom is what He longs to give us.
Truth is as crucial as love.

>>510892419
Do we have a choice you think?

>>510865601 (OP)
im not going anywherep

>>510881922
> wish i had weed though

Just get led growlights and grow your own, ivan

I never owned a casino

Faith in Jesus Christ

Jesus Christ is Lord

>>510865601 (OP)
You reminded me to get another coffee. YOU are poisoning me.

>>510892970
Dont drink so late, bad for sleep. Sleep is most important. Only in the morning, gijs

>>510892681
The Lord does draw everyone to Himself in some way. The whole free will/election thing is complicated.
I believe that given all our choices along the way, our choice is either to acknowledge Him and respond to His offer of love and salvation.
Or not. Free will to the choice to say No. To continue in rebellion against Him.
The "choice" to respond and follow Christ, is part of what He's already done in us.
But life is made of multiple choices and they all matter. Even the wrong ones, He turns to our benefit in the long run.

>>510892950
Truth

>>510865601 (OP)

vengeance and the promised extermination of all my enemies.

>>510893079
Sometimes its hard to see the choices. When do you know

>>510892714
Here’s a (you), jew anon

>>510893211
His Word - the Bible, and His Holy Spirit are what illuminate truth.
If you're deep into reading that, and praying alongside, and obeying what you do know to do, it starts to become clearer.
He promises wisdom, but it's not instantaneous, usually.
All our life experiences, everything we read, gives further context. I think we make more of life's choices than we need to.
Here's the simplest verse of all: Micah 6:8
"He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?"

>>510891407
nice

>>510865601 (OP)
My unrelenting love for life

>>510893955
Its litterally making me money in the form of stocks i baught instead of an audi for that money.

Allmost no road tax and cheap in petrol because its a lightweight deathtrap. And i learn to fix cars better with this thing.

im not really sure anymore beyond just staying alive to see how the story of life on earth progresses despite witnessing it getting worse and worse. almost a decade ago i started using /biz/ so here in 2025 im financially free living off compounding interest so i dont have to work. down side to this is my whole social life is entirely online and i have no irl friends to hang out with. as a hobby i shitpost books to amazon bc i love /lit/. recently wrote a book on politics and where i think the world is going from a 4th turning standpoint. pic rel. beyond this im just strapped in and addicted to watching the horrorshow that is life on earth unfold like any /pol/ addicted happening retard. cheers lads

>>510894897
Why dont you buy a bar and get social that way.

>>510894282
I miss cars like that. Rarely see them around anymore. Keep taking good care of her. Looks like you are.

>>510894897
I'd like to read this book. Been fascinated by the BRICS advance for years. 'muricans are dumb, don't get this whole change at all.
I see my place in this as being able to consider the changes the people in the BRICS nations will be confronted with.
The Christians in these countries have known persecution and rejection, kind of 1984 stuff.
But as their nations and cultures get stronger and more prosperous, they'll have the Brave New World temptations to counter. Threats work for awhile. But prosperity actually undermines people's cultural base and personal sense of meaning more so.
Fourth Turning, schmurning. Those writers see everything from a western perspective. That's not enough. We're finished here, but the rest of the globe will be interesting to study.

>>510865601 (OP)
Alcohol

>>510894972
i spent most of my life as a career bartender living on a cheap house boat at a marina. ive stopped drinking alcohol entirely and once had a vibrant irl social life but that was before the internet really got big. now i think im just hypersocialized like most internet addicts and since my only real job now is paying attention to financial news and geopolitical things that effect economics im just terminally online with a 4 monitor workstation. i like to think all my real friends are the based posters on /pol/ anyways.

heavy heavy fuel

>>510895341
It's a real interesting topic for sure and its created a lot of division among fund managers betting on who wins the financial war. With the recent US govt move forward with crypto domination of the market the war is just heating up big time. BRICS should be releasing their long awaited crypto stable coin to combat the US dollars reserve currrency status. Only time will tell.

>>510865688
diamond

>>510895307
> Keep taking good care of her. Looks like you are.

Thx im pretty rough with it actually, and it has dents and shit. I just keep patching it up for the fun of it. And ofcourse i do my own oil changes with castrol oil and new oil filter. Last operation was a leaky headgasket. It was ether fix it yourself or go to the wreckingyard.

You drive something like this too?

>>510895520
Hmmm, do you miss real human contact?
You got a girlfriend?

What you think of asml?

>>510865601 (OP)
knowing that the Biblical armageddon will occur in the next 5 years

>>510896056
i usually never reply to toothpaste posters but the thread is dying anyways.

im not a total hermit and have tons of online friends on social apps. ive been married a few times and have opted out of the dating game atp. i do have a Cane Corso farm where i breed the dogs and sell them. they occupy a large part of my happiness now, keeping the ancient dogs of war the Romans originally bred alive.

$ASML? i try not to trade stocks. my portfolio is centered around DeFi and AAA crypto bluechips.

I love reading this thread.
the psychology of mental retards coping. not a shred of intelligence in the lot of you.
its quite funny.

>>510865601 (OP)
Reading my family book. It dates back hundreds of years and the stories of their hardships in life is a massive influence. They worked so hard and suffered in the most unreal ways. I would feel I'm letting them down if I quit, because never before has peoples lives been so easy.

>>510865601 (OP)
>1 post by this id
I want to live enough to see the real holocaust happen.

>>510865601 (OP)
Im not done fortifying my position

>>510896348
I understand. Good for you then

>>510896577
checked

>>510871925
These are nice words dude. Bless you