>>513625448
he's depressed and seething most days
he doesn't know how to get unstuck from that rut
he's also high trait narcissism with low conscienciousness, which means he doesn't self reflect enough to do the internal work to release the ties that bind
so he just repeats the same behaviours over and over again with cyclical alcohol fueled meltdowns as he goes through cycles of delusion then subsquent forced confrontation with reality (because the mind tries to shunt itself out of delusion and back to equiblirium if it can)
thats also why he drinks
helps the delusion and helps to numb the feelings
when he's spazzing out its because he's on a downer and being confronted with reality somehow
he takes it out on us in a desperate bid to distract himself, while he drinks to pass out and forget the dawning realisations that hit him so hard
its why he lies so much about being accomplished and rich and all this and that
and why he spends so much time berating others for apparently being losers
he can't acknowledge his own position and standing in life so he attacks people for the very things he hates about himself while drinking himself into psychosis and delusion, as a means to make himself feel superior to himself in other people, because he can't conquer himself within himself no matter how hard he tries, because he doesn't even know himself
this has been going on for so long he has no personality anymore
he doesn't exist, there is nothing to understand
whenever he isn't drinking, when he's forced to self reflect, he sees no reflection
there's nothing but a void where bogdan used to be
and paradoxically, he understands this
its why he lifts
he knows he doesn't exist, as a person, he's trying to rebuild himself
focusing on the body because he doesn't understand how to reconstitute the mind
it would be sad if it wasn't so pathetic
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