>>518545010 (OP)
I've personally never understood celibacy, but you do you. Whatever makes you happy. Is it like an asexuality thing? Because if so, then I get it. Like I'll never have sex with a man, but that's because I'm not gay, so I don't really need the feel to declare that. Have you discussed about this with your partners, have you explored your sexuality in some way? Like is it possible you're not asexual, you're just unable to derive pleasure from sex due to mental blocks or perhaps because you're suppressing your real sexuality without realizing it? I'm not judging, it's just that swearing off sex completely is a radical choice and I wonder if there's a better choice for you. Like I get being fed up with stuff sometimes, I've been depressed too, and when that happens you just don't get any joy out anything, including sex. Either way, I'd urge you to consider other possibilities, but it's your choice. And hey, you can always change your mind later.