Thread 520357536

Anyone else grow up in a household filled with absolute hate? Both my parents make louis look like a nun. I legit think they have some kind of mentally rage illness. Non stop screaming. Even now as a 31 year old i can barely talk to them, its like they have no huminity in them. It fucked me up big time. Every fuckinf day just non stop screaming in such a hateful tone irs comical. I never even did anything bad(that they knew about, uses to set shit on fire but never got caught)

My mom is a vile whore who keeps finding retarded nice men to use and abuse. My dad scams the state and refuses to work. Neither of them have said anything oisrive to me ever, I even have a 6 figure career and finishing my masters, they dont care, they think im a POS for absolutely no fucking reason

Im relly just waiting for my grandma's to die to remove them from my life. Both of my grandmas are shitty people. My grandpa was a saint though

I've been blessed.

>>520357906
More like ive been cursed, I think my parents are not even close to normal. Ive never seen any other parents treat their kids this way. I struggled so much cuz i had to pay rent the second I turned 18 and couldn't save plus I smoked weed to numb me out so I stayed in the abuse up until my mid 20s. Barely graduate, no thanks to them, they wouldn't sign the loan agreement. Had to work while getting my bachelor's, took my7 miserable years, not worth it, it fucked me up badly. I hate them so much. As i age I realize how shitty theu are

>>520357536 (OP)
That's a man.

>>520358027
Fucking zoomers

>>520357669
You need to move out, then they turn into saints begging you to come back so you can listen to them screaming again.

>>520357536 (OP)
Lois was a great mother, grow the fuck up.

>>520357536 (OP)
pretty sure my parents still hate me

>>520358072
Exactly, that was the only time they treated me nromally. My mom at least, my dad lives with my grandma ans abuses her but I eventually found out how much she abused him so I guess that's his revenge. My dad's entire family is extremely fucked up. My mom's and her mom's family wwre fuckinf saints though, my great grandma was perfecr, idk why they turned into such shitty people.

>>520358078
Okay now imagine if she was screaming like in that sceen I posted every day and the kids didnt get in trouble. Imagine if she screamed at them like that over touching the curtains and other petty shot, every day

>>520357536 (OP)
Yep. That’s why I went on oestrogen and I’ve never been happier ^_^

Join us anon. The sexy t-girl revolution is here and our bigot parents will hang for what they done to us.

>>520357536 (OP)
Yeah OP, I grew up in that too. Woke up to the sound of screaming and shouting, fell asleep to the sound of screaming and shouting. I seen a lot of shit a kid shouldn't have had to.

You doing okay, OP? You managed to cut free from home and escape yet?

>>520358469
post femsticles

>>520358469
Jew

>>520358511
Ye, I had to catholic to supplement my income snd overcome my weed addiction. I want even addicted to it, it just stopped me from going to prison from killing the bitch, even when she went on vacation I tried quitting and I would get so mad I would almost pass out. They really fucked me up man. Every fucking day. Few can understand

>>520358835
*had to car hop

>>520358702
Teehee nooo I’m too shy xD
Do you have a big ginger cock??

>>520358832
Oh do grow up now.

>>520357536 (OP)
>Anyone else grow up in a household filled with absolute hate?
yes

>>520359125
Typical for slavic families

>>520358835
Nah I understand. I don't understand how your path looks like 100%, but I understand it's a path from the same road as mine. It does fuck you up, because fact is, love parents or hate parents, we are 50% our fathers and 50% our mothers. Genetically and especially psychologically.

Dysfunctional parents more or less install demons into our heads. I don't mean literally but all of their ugliness and cruelty bleeds into us. Turns us into something fucked up too. It sets us up to become our own enemy, we inherit an inner war we never wanted part of.

It took me thirty years to finally trust happiness again. I used to hate happiness and happy people something fierce. Never trusted it, never had empathy most of my life. It's severe shit. I believe you.

>>520359292
Im also a angry person but im a saint comapred to my parents. I will NEVER treat my future kids like that. As a matter of fact idk if i will introduce my kids to my parents

>>520359292
>"you dont like it get out of my house u parasite"


Let me save up money for like 3 months bitch, i pay the hoa, ur mortgage and utilities while working 40 hours weeks and going to college

>"I dont give a fuck about ur college"


The house was half in my name(still is but I dont live there) I should have just fucked her over.

>>520358060
Fox now with Disney Queer

>>520359492
I believe you'll be a good parent actually. I became one myself. Been reading up on it, books about childhood trauma and parenting and shit.

Here's some encouragement: They did a study on people who had rough upbringings. They divided the group into two types: People who underestimated/denied their rough upbringing and people who were honest and were vocal about their bad upbringing.

Those who were in denial wound up repeating their parents mistakes, their children also ended up dysfunctional. And those parents who were self aware of the cycle, people like (you), their children ended up thriving, enjoying a happy childhood.

I know the knowledge of your painful upbringing is a heavy ass burden to carry, brother. But it's because of your burden that you choose to carry that will ensure your children will know peace and joy. Means your suffering won't be for nothing.

>>520357536 (OP)
Were they like this too?

>>520359793
It's one of the symptoms of Narcissism personalities.

"Street Angel/House Devil" it's called. They appear like saints for the public eye, but behind closed doors, it's a whole other hell.

>>520357536 (OP)
>waaah my parents were mean and yelled and stuff :(
Unless they literally raped you, shut the fuck up and be grateful. Life sucks, get a fucking helmet.

>>520358186
saints don't usually happen to just magically stay with devils
i believe you about the visible stuff like the screaming and projecting their shittiness onto you
but don't be a stereotype and develop bpd to survive, you already have this 100% black or white thinking
also, i killed my parents for less, just leave them in their filth, they have their reward already

>>520357536 (OP)
Same age as you. My parents were pretty clueless about life in general and made a bunch of mistakes with me, but we worked it out together and now we are all pretty close. We basically rebounded financially too, and when I end up having kids we’re going to make sure none of that shit ever repeats itself again.

>>520359779
Holy shit the first one were they deny is exactly my parents lmao. Itd very obvious now they grew up in shit but u will only hear them praising their parents. Fucking insane

>>520359793
DUDE!!!!!! Dude... fuck.... yes... 60 to 0 in litteraly a second. Less than a second. Its fucking crazy. I think im gonna cry. I mean im not but like, jesus, fuck man.

>>520359930
>everybody shut up except for the one ngubu being tortured to death in the most brutal manner on the planet at this second

>>520359953
Im not a pussy, u dont have any mental illness. I get pissed off on the internet buf I take it to the gym. I am a teddy bear to everyone irl

>>520360172
Hes just a contrarian, dont pay attention

>>520357536 (OP)
Thank god, my parents are actually polar opposite. They're pretty much passive consumer normies. very laissez faire types.. They did discipline me but thank god it was never borderline abuse like a lot of households.

I am actually very grateful to life for the parents it gave me. It only makes shitty people and parents stand out even more when I come across them out and about in this city everyone wants to pretend isnt a jungle.

>>520357536 (OP)
I think my dad really did hate me and I never understood why. He liked coming up with ways to punish me for things I didn't do.

>>520358469
Trannies wont look like this even if hell freezes over

>>520358186
You can break the cycle and not be like that. I have. Don't let them fuck you up for life.

>>520357536 (OP)
my mother is an emotionally manipulative compulsive liar
and my dad is your stereotypical greedy selfish boomer alcoholic

>>520360026
My wife did it. She pulled out the crazy after we were married. I finally told her I was leaving if she didn't become not a bitch and I'm not spending my life bickering and screaming, that her neglectful, abusive parents are not normal people and fucked up her idea of normal. Therapy is fake and gay, but maybe not for women because she has become the kind person she wanted to be. It really did start with acknowledging that she had to relearn how to resolve conflicts and manage her emotions by actually thinking about them. Marriage is saved, got a kind wife who treats me well now and is a patient and calm mother. You can do it.

>>520358469
remember that you'll need to start scheduling prostate exams at 35--assuming you don't kill yourself first--due to the increased risk of prostate cancer from HRT

OP here, not including family death I havent cired since I was in like high school(over a girl) over 10 years ago, this thread is making me tear up. Manly tears of course.. No sobbing. Just got something in my eye. We didnt deserve this

just started coming to terms with it, denied it for so long. I want a wife and children so bad, to build a home of understanding and safety and encouragement and honor and love. Either I will accomplish this or my life will end before I turn 50.

>>520360607
Thats the fucking thing about my fucking dad, never had a drink or smoke in his life. Its fucking crazy. His mom, my grandma is bathing and from what I hear her parents were even worse. I wouldn't be surprised if this cycle of abuse went back to roman times. Im slavic, maybe it wss the mongolian rape that ruined us...

>>520360713
U know what fuck it, im just gonna let it all out, im gonna start sobbing, I cant hold this shit in..

>>520360733
only thing i've ever wanted too bro

wagmi

Just insult your mother or something. They understand only strongness.

>>520360843
Okay now im actually crying, I have shit to do i cant be crying, it shows on my face for hours

>>520360874
She was willing to take ir to a level were the cops would be called, never backed dwon once, almost gotta respect it desu. There is no logic when dealing with a witch

>>520357536 (OP)
my mom was a single mom with twins at 22 so she shacked up with some boomer 15 years older than her with a house, married him immediately and shat out another kid. He wanted a big catholic family but she already did what she had to to trap him, so she was done. He hated my sister and I for being unwanted baggage and took out all of his issues on us, my mom didn't give a shit. She hated me for being male, she was a fuckin tumblr-tier feminist in the 80s. My mom favored my twin sister over me and both my mom and my stepdad blatantly favored the younger daughter they had together over either of us. I could do absolutely no right in their eyes. I hate them and it's been nearly 10 years since I've spoken to either of them.

There are not words strong enough to describe my hatred of them.

>>520360172
>>520360262
No, you faggots are just whine-assing little bitches. There are parents who literally pimp their children to strangers. Unless your parents were one of them, shut the fuck up and be grateful.

>>520358248
Those are the good mothers. You have no idea. Bad mothers dont even talk to you and when they do its passive aggressive all the way

I became even worse. No other way.

Did you come on fucking /pol/ to baww about your parents?

>>520360713
You know what makes me feel better? Treating my children well. Being a good father. Making the world whole again a bit. You'll really start to heal then. Have kids. They give life a purpose.

>>520360967
>WAAAAAH MY PARENTS YELLED A LOT
>WAAAAAAAH IT SCARRED ME TO THIS DAY

>>520357536 (OP)
>Every fuckinf day just non stop screaming in such a hateful tone irs comical
That's my grandparents. My parents are pretty bad too, but not exactly like this. They're both extremely neurotic.

>>520357536 (OP)
lmao, the amount of cope in this thread is weapons grade. Most, if not all of you faggots live at home. I literally can't wait until WROL so I can enslave your snowflake asses.

>>520360967
>>520360987
>>520361035
Adults are responsible for recognizing their own choices and making their own way in life.
Yet surely you can see how denying a toddler or small child love and affection can severely damage a persons psyche?

>>520360967
>only muh imaginary sex crimes matter, real violence is no big deal
Weetard

>>520357536 (OP)
Maybe they hate each other.

>>520357536 (OP)
This woman’s phenotype activates a strange boner for me, not sure why

>>520361088
This

There's a mysterious epidemic with adults still bitching about their childhood verbal abuse being children who in fact had it all together and grew up into owning or paying for the very roof they couldn't lawyer up and demonstrate it to so now they get raped by rent and cry on 4chan

>>520361035
It's not the raising of the voice. It's the constant belittlement, disregard for opinions and feelings, changing expectations that you'll never reach, watching them treat strangers with patience, respect and kindness while not understanding why you don't get the same. It causes people to grow up with no self worth, with guilt over feeling joy.

>>520359793
1000% this. It's part of why I won't speak to my family- I want them to not recognize me and treat me like a stranger if I ever see them again, which is hopefully never

>>520361172
Aren't you one?

Why are you still crying over what's done? Enjoying your pity party, attentionwhore?

>>520357536 (OP)
personality disorders are real. You can only work on yours, if you have one. Typically cluster B personalities never become self aware enough to come up with conclusion that anything needs to be fixed though.

>>520361179
>imaginary sex crimes
you're fucking retarded
>>520361250
>disregard for opinions and feelings
holy shit you sound like a woman, nut up buttercup

>>520361250
And despite calling it what it is you're still crying about it. What a poor wittle victim.

>>520360965
Can u beleive faggots like this
>>520360967
>>520361035
Having 0 empathy is the true sign of a privileged life. To bad for them karma is real and will bite them in the ass

I am in the precarious situation that my wife has gradually transformed from an affectionate, kind and fun person to be around to a raging angst filled woman who blames myself and everyone else for her problems and problems that are beyond our control. We have two small children, the amount of times I have had to leave work early to come home to help her deal with the children is too many to count, the number of times that she gets in her car and drives off, sometimes out of state for hours(I know because I put a tile in the pouch behind her seat) is too many to count. The amount of things she has broken or smashed is numerous, phones, an iPad, a plate glass window, pictures, dishes, cups. I try to be the stable parent knowing that my kids need a stable parent in their lives. She has also become more or less a fundamentalist Christian and her ideaology has crystallized in her unwillingness to consider anything outside of the world view that she has allowed usually female fake trad podcasters(Allie Beth Stuckey being the worst) and momfluencers to create for her. She has told me that she hates me more often than saying that she loves me, has said she wishes our son was dead, tells me she hates my parents even though my own family are stable and functional people. She refuses to enroll our kids in school because she doesn’t trust anyone to educate them, and is worried about their “souls” and “Damnation” she basically is creating hell on earth within our lives. It’s so tiring, I would divorce her but I know if I did she would get custody of our children and probably destroy their lives because the courts in this state have a vested interest in siding with women no matter how abusive they might be.

>>520357536 (OP)
I know the economy is bad but you'll need money to move out

>>520361250
Also the non stop screaming. Its why water boarding works, eventually it breaks u

>>520361371
I suspect she has narcissistic personality disorder, her mother(who she has a love hate relationship with) exhibits a lot of those traits.

I am going to tough it out for another 16 years, because my children need me. I know I am not a perfect husband or father, but I have tried to at least be on a journey of self improvement. I have a duty to protect and care for my family, even if my wife is completely dysfunctional about 50% of the time.

>>520361300
no, I dont like talking about my childhood irl.
as anon its fine because no one can ever know what happened.
I have my own house, a career, hobbies etc. No woman, but eh. whattya gonna do.
Why the hostility man?

>>520361353
If you use empathy as a crowbar to demand unconditional attention your parents should have abused you more because clearly it isn't something something you don't want to revisit.

>>520361193
Ye thats why they divorced

>>520361324
Children being raped is extremely rare, whereas parents beating their kids is very common and you don’t care. You ignore most real child abuse while screeching about a tiny minority of pedos. You should be boiled alive in your whore mother’s blood.

>>520361416
>I have it all together and I'm still complaining about things that didn't impact my success
Cool story bro

>>520357536 (OP)
Yes. It’s very sad. You’ll never feel like you’re fully healed. But your life will still be worth living. That’s the most we can ever ask for.

>>520357536 (OP)
My parents hated each other. Dad even beat her into a pulp in front of me. Fucking subhumans why even have a child if you are such niggers

>>520361353
I dragged into anthills as a punishment by my stepdad

>>520361371
If she refuses to enroll them in achool u might get custody, just talk to a lawyer. If u have evidence then u can get full custody. Its not black and whire unless u live in Cali or something..

>>520361324
Children aren't adults, anon.
>>520361333
No, I'm happy. But others here clearly don't understand what happened to them or how to get past it.

I'm glad you guys didn't have to grow up with someone constantly fucking with you. If you bothered to read, I was speaking about my wife anyway. My parents weren't bad.

>>520361406
Is there any way to even avoid this? Was there any red flags that u missed when she was nice? I was told my dad was a lot nicer before he met my mom, im sure she was nice to him at first..

>>520359793
They have learned to take their anger out on someone who they know (or think) will never leave them. It’s how narcissists reproduce.

>>520361371
Start recording her tantrums for evidence. You can win.

>>520361473
Ive never been happy since about 6 or 7 years old. One's mental state and financial success according to the (((system))) are not a 1 to 1 correlation. Seriously man, why is it so important to you that anons are talking about not being loved by their parents? Shitty parents directly contribute to addiction, turning into a slut, falling for the trans meme, etc etc. Other factors contribute as well

>>520361429
Im not falling for ur contrarian games, I almost became u, i canteen right through u, u are in denial about something.. I like the crowbar analogy, gonna use it from now on

>>520361554
your mom probably deserved it.

>>520361635
You are so happy you're circlejerking what happened 12+ years ago to you with strangers on pol. I'm sure you're not larping to compensate for anything.

Meanwhile I'm taking a shit on the clock in my own home, was through some crazy shit as a child that was more than just "they yelled a lot and occasionally shoved me >:(" and I'm not exactly whinging about it a dozen years past leaving that roof.

>>520361574
And u just forgave him and are glad u had a roof over ur head huh? My mom smashed my front tooth out with a cup over 30 bucks. I would rather have had the anthill

>>520361764
>if you don't give me attention att because I'm trauma dumping on strangers ur bad
Down the block not across the street.

>>520361785
You still haven't read my posts. You're a bot or retarded with no empathy for your fellow man.

>>520361371
That legitimately sounds horrifying. Get her the fuck away from Allie Beth Stuckey, she's a complete cunt. Try to bring her back to reality a little bit. I'm not saying yell at her, but you gotta lay down the law here.

>>520361741
You're right.

Whine on pol some more I bet it'll give you the exact kind of hugbox you seek.

>>520361741
Hes a contrarian, he has to disagree with everything, I understand the urge..

>>520361842
No, I hate them both >>520360965 >>520361295

>>520361875
You're right and I don't intend to read someone crying about why they're entitled to the attention they so desperately whore for. Go to adv for a pity party faggot.

>>520357536 (OP)
They beat me, scream, argue, belittle and punish for communication so I will put them in a home when the time comes. I did the same with my kids and they will put me in a home when time comes.

I like the bottle more than I like my entitled little shit head kids. I went through it so should they.

I read that unstable home life leads to better motivation to work and become independent. Worked for me, joined up the military at 18 and worked my 20's into a career.

>>520361848
If u had critical thinking skills u would realize I would have loved not getting any attention from my parents, it was quite the opposite

Cool blog

>>520362003
Rich coming from someone who dumps their childhood trauma and announces they're literally crying rn they can't even on the political board. Retard.

>>520361785
>and I'm not exactly whinging about it a dozen years past leaving that roof.
ooooooohhhh
its because you can only base your self worthy on being better than others.

>>520361902
look, I agree that its gay and lame to cry about this shit IRL. But you are sucking a fat bag of nigger dicks in front of the entire board,

>>520357536 (OP)
I had a friend in school who would get into swearing matches with his parents.
It was always a bit awkward. My brother once swore at my father and he never did that again.

>>520361982
OP here, u are based for not being in denail, I would respect and forgive my parents if they addmited they were POS and has POS parents

>>520362085
You cry like a woman. How old are you?

>>520362065
You’re a child abuser aren’t you?

>>520362065
I didnt actually end up crying, just heard up a Lil, i do need a good cry though but im too busy. Crying is good for u

>>520362096
They never will and you'll still be crying about what you feel entitled to well into your graying phase. Making a very strong argument for why they needed their space, anon.

>>520357536 (OP)
>Non stop screaming
Yes. Not your personal blog though. At some point you learn to live with your parents mistakes, or you dont

>>520362144
>I was merely pretending to cry for attention
And that's why you and people like you that're terminal complainers seeking sympathy and attention are despised by people who quietly smile, nod and tolerate you.

>>520361973
You're mad about things I haven't said, so it's kind of funny.

Mine were religtards, enough said

Hi OP. I empathize completely. I grew up the same. I became a hardcore alcoholic as an adult and was functional for a long time, but almost died as a result a year ago. I hope you can find a way to calm your own mind. I get enraged that I share my genes with them, that they had me, and I dont want to have children because I would be passing on their genetics. I hope I can separate my mind from them in a meaningful way and enjoy myself as my own person eventually. Anyways, youre not alone.

>>520362267
I'm so angry belittling a bunch of people who traumadumped for attention on pol

I am not at all glad I'm not them on this Saturday morning where they're apparently reliving childhood trauma all the time.

>>520357536 (OP)
>make louis look like a nun

Sure. Took me a long time to realize they actually hate me. Thinking back on all the sabotage, humiliation, micromanaging, stupidity, lying and betrayals, I can remember traces of signs it was all intentional that I didn't pickup on then. E.g. looks from the corners of my father's eyes and smirks in their faces. I mean, you don't dump your kids in integrated public school and call the police on them if you love them. Likewise, you don't dump your aging parents off in a black and hispanic nursing home, then scold and humiliate them for being "racists" if you love them.


Funny enough, I actually just began watching the show again and it's scary how close it is to some of the behaviors of my parents - i.e. the hypocrite abusive mother - the father being spineless and backing his wife regardless of how unfair and abusive she is. Although like you, my parent were much more malicious and incompetent.

P.s.

I'm absolutely floored by how nostalgic Malcolm in the Middle is. If you zoomers want a good idea of what being a 90s 2000s kid was like, that's a fairly good representation. The classroom like the ones in the movie Mikey are bang on.

>>520362247
>>520362320

You have way too many replies in this thread for your attention whore insult to make sense coming from (you)

>>520362184
Fuck u mean? My mom financially trapped me, played nice when I was about to leave

>>520357669
Screw it, at least their misbehavior made us strong.

>>520362441
>You reach for the low hanging fruit?
>heh, you must be just like them
Wow I was abused over a dozen years ago by examples of what not to be I guess I'll cry about it continually for backpack now on a political board of all possible places to ply my trauma

>>520362278
Religious are the worst. Followers to the core. The worst thing about parents is they'll always see you as their inferior. Even if there are 60 IQ and you're a literal genius (yes that can and has happened), you are still there kid and they're still your authorities in their minds. Nothing will ever change that.

That's why I advocate competence and intelligence test so we can take bright kids away from stupid parents that will oppress their own offspring with incompetence.

>>520362441
I wonder what his deal is? Is he in denail about his upbringing?

>>520362318
he's probably just gonna call you a fag for saying that. This thread is just validation for his victimhood and he's playing Oppression Olympics here

>>520362466
>I was a victim!
>pat me on the back!!!!
Fuck off.

my parents are kind of similar. they are just miserable people. they always bicker at each other. whenever we went on trips they would just get mad and complain about everything. just neurotic and weird. i think its a boomer thing.

>>520357536 (OP)
One side of my family are angry prone.
They go from 0 to 100 in less than a second.
I became very skilled in reading people's emotions, that's the only positive I got out of it.
In all other respects, they're normal people with jobs and show affection to others. But make them angry over even the tiniest thing, and it's a screaming rant.
I excommunicated the whole lot. 15+ years of peace and calm.

>>520362370
Louis sometimes showed signs of humanity but its obvious the boys acted up beacuse of her abuse. Like I said I uses to set shit on fire

>>520362536
I'm just so mindbroken by my upbringing when I'm not humored for attention I have to talk in third person about people who call me out

>>520357669
The genders should be segregated in the next system. Like completely. One civilization for the males in another for the females. Only the approved get to breed. That would solve every single problem there is.

Just ruined average males. Average males ruin average females.

>>520359041
The mohel? Yes he did make burger penis' smaller

>>520362536
Sounds like it
>I LEARNED TO COPE BY BECOMING AN EDGY DICKHEAD SO YOU HAVE TO BE THE SAME!! >:-(
Not worth replying to desu

>>520362619
It's LOIS you fucking ESL retard. LOIS. L-O-I-S. Not Louis, a man's name.

>>520362583
18 fucking posts? Lmao dude

>>520357536 (OP)
It's all about breaking the cycle. Good for you dude let all that shit out. My parents weren't that great but they loved me and they always told me. Fucked up that some people dont even get that much

>>520362658
>36 posts of performative bawwing

>>520361462
>Children being raped is extremely rare
yeah no, it's not at all, it happens every day you retarded fucking nigger

>>520362621
There it is, u admited it, thats rhe first step, we can all heal one day..

>>520362731
Sorry anon it's not my fault I'm not responsible for myself I have the childhood abuse

>>520362727
oh the ironing

>>520359793
Yes

>>520362654
Yet u keep replying, deep down inside u want to admit it. Let rhe rage flow through u, dont suppress it

>>520357536 (OP)
Yeah. That was me. It was a warzone every single day. Earliest memory I had was my dad throwing an entire shelf of homemade ketchup bottles on the floor. I used to love that shit

They’re literally almost 80 and still fight every time I come over

I somehow saved myself by getting the fuck out of the house early but my older brothers didn’t and are still fucked and can’t form meaningful relationships

>>520362716
Its my own thread and its popping off, I feel like it will reach 300 comments, lots of people can relate

>>520357536 (OP)
>Anyone else grow up in a household filled with absolute hate?

yes

hate against jews, it's orgasmic watching them die, like their pathetic propaganda

>>520362775
Its my own thread, why wouldnt I reply? Why would I make a post and not reply? U are the one seething

>>520362817
>I'm an attentionwhore
>crying about childhood trauma is all I have going on for me
>I consider this a peak of my day
Wew

>>520362722
Again, you ignore most real abuse so you can feel like a main character hero with your pedo obsessed e-religion
Delusional
Q-tard

>>520359793
What they really want is attention
Both my mom and dad are narcissists and will literally get scammed by any clown who sweet talks them

>>520362845
Isreal won, trump also won. They are both just getting started

>>520362710
>My parents weren't that great but they loved me
It really is that simple. Show your kids you love them, that elevates you from mid to helpful and good.
Some parents I think get caught up on trying to be great, then they get frustrated over trying to provide greatness to their kids.

>>520362884
Apple doesn't fall far from the tree it'd seem.

>>520360960
Sounds like my ex, wish I could've anon's experience >>520360691

>>520362912
Apple doesn't seem to fall too far from the generational behavior tree with terminal victims.

>>520362903
>Isreal won

peep poop vagen

>>520357536 (OP)
My father and step mother would fight, swear and scream at each other like worst enemies all day long, i'm talking 8 hour long fights and screaming matches and then they would just fuck at the end of the day.
They would wake up and repeat the process every day i was there.

>>520362846
Oh, it's a pajeet.

My father raped my cousin when she was 4 year old. He incredibly anger prone but also a cowardly pussy.
My mom didn't leave him after finding out, instead she used that fact to manipulate and pussywhip him at any chance. Like "I don't wanna buy that car" "OMG you're a chiiiiild rapiiiist" And then he would bend the knee.
Can you imagine the levels of screaming, anger and resentment in that house?
So my father would take out his impotence on me by beating me up. My mom would also burn me with cigarettes.

Thankfully they are old and dying, in poverty an pain. My father needed a kidney but I didn't give it to him KEK, it would be a waste of life. Never talked to them again. The best moment in my life is when I punched him in the face and left the house. That was the day my endless anxiety and depression stopped.

>>520362884
this thread is for humans
not poos
the days of /pol/ being able to sympathize across racial lines are long gone

>>520362967
what?
You're being combative for no reason.
The type of person OP pointed at.
what makes you lash out at others?

>>520362912
I didn't realize how important that was. Because my childhood was no picnic but id have been way more fucked up if I didn't know they did their best

My mom finds people or things to be mad about and doesnt want to listen to me or talk to me.

>>520362794

I think dysfunctional/bad/abusive parents are a major a d underrepresented contributor to why gen z relationships are down.

It's not all this packaged. Ideological or political mgtow/manosphere bullshit mostly - it's that I can't trust a woman after witnessing my mother's behaviour and I don't want marriage after seeing how cucked and shitty it is. Married me are basically slaves to a wretched piece of shit. Women should be incubators and after the kid is born, their involvement in the child's life should be gradually reduced.

>>520363099
If you use empathy as a weapon to demand attention you will not receive a fraction of a droplet of vapor in the ocean of empathy. If you are performative with it the species would be better off with whoever is doing so under the soil.

>>520361462
>Children being raped is extremely rare

sharing those news is made "illegal" so.. there is just no room to tell everybody everything that goes on.

>>520363162
Married men*

>>520363188
deeeeeeeeeeed
jews!

>>520363050
You can get addicted to abuse.

>>520363257
This anon gets it.

>>520363162
>their involvement in the child's life should be gradually reduced.
this was much more common in older societies, particularly where martial skill and commitment was highly expressed. Knights began there training before the age of 10, the legendary Agoge, etc. Removing consistent motherly presence after boyhood leads to a very different man

>>520363295
deeeeeead jews
>their suffering is cute

>>520357536 (OP)
You might consider moving out.

>>520361673
There were a few red flags, one was when we went over to her parents house and she started screaming at her mom over something minor, that like that was one of the first mask off moments. Another was when I mentioned a female friend(literally just a friend) and she gave me the silent treatment and then exploded and explained to me I. Her logic how men and women are incapable of being friends.

What makes this worse is I moved to the other side of the continent so she could be closer to her family(that she doesn’t like)

I think in part it might because American media and soap operas have warped people’s minds. Also, she has sort of gotten a pass for her behaviour because she is a female and attractive, ultimately I am the worst culprit for enabling this. Oh well, the negative experiences have prompted me to write a book(not on this topic, but civilizational dynamics) & at least I have two kids that I really adore & who like me.

>>520363188
No one is using emotions as a weapon to demand attention on this thread.
Literally no one asked you for anything at all.
Other people's emotions make you angry?
Other people having needs make you angry?

>>520362782
How hard are you shaking typing all fucked up like that?

>>520361730
I have, it gets redundant.

Also don’t know how admissible in court it would be in this state.

>>520363354
And now we have Fathers who aren't there because they need to work for 8 hours a day, draining their soul out, while boys have to deal with her mothers.

No wonder boys getting gay.

>>520361600
We live in GA.

>>520363424
>if you don't empathize with me ur bad
>if u don't leave me alone when I came to your space and whinged off topic about my trauma that defines the entirety of who I am and what I do on a Saturday UR the pathetic one
Lol, lmao

>>520363354
Yeah, it’s known in the courts as emotional abuse. Imagine it’s ok to subject a boy to servitude to a fucking knight who was probably sexually dysfunctional and raped his last page repeatedly.

>>520363491
>>520363491
>And now we have Fathers who aren't there because they need to work for 8 hours a day, draining their soul out, while boys have to deal with her mothers.

literally why I am working so hard to secure a home and future for my family before they arrive. Makes no sense to me to start a family I will never see because I am too busy waging

>>520363635
>Imagine it’s ok to subject a boy to servitude to a fucking knight who was probably sexually dysfunctional and raped his last page repeatedly.

>the marxist urge to decry anything and everything in the past as evil, nothing good ever happened in the past goy!!

>be ID JeW
>"I'm a victim too :'("
>"Gonna put off having a family btw"
>>520363724

>>520357536 (OP)
>make louis look like a nun
First off, retard, it's LOIS
Second off, she is the most loving parent in sitcom history BAR NONE

you're a fucking idiot. probably from having unloving parents. But yeah, you're retarded. Ok, have fun being a loser.

>>520363527
what?
You take one idea, then devalue it into the extreme. And then you get angry about your personal interpretation of things.
It's like yelling at yourself.

>>520363834
If you're going to assume give me lotto #'s or I'll just assume you're full of a shit and an armchair psychologist when you're mad despite feeding eternal victim mentality at the same time.

>>520363407
You seriously can't lay down the law and stand up to your wife? You're scared of your wife aren't you

>>520363491
1. Living with mom doesn’t make you gay. It means you get a different perspective of how adults cope with daily issues.

2. Being gay has nothing to do with who raised you. It’s just how you’re wired. A mother is more likely to accept you for who you are, your dad will be a complete moron about it and make your life miserable about it

Raised by a hard working mom- taught me a strong work ethic. I still fucked plenty of women, probably far more than yourself.

>>520357669
The fuck is oisrive?

>>520364080
>The woman, known for being more emotional and any many who has lived long enough has hands on experience with it, will be more likely to not get hung up on some stupid detail in current year rather than 1960

>>520363933
There's no winning in life when you're an angry person. It's a lesson you'll learn in time.
Mmmm the armchair psychologist has been you, by declaring that everyone has a victim mentality.

>>520357536 (OP)
My parents were chill but my siblings were psychotic. They don't understand why I don't speak to them now. My own home is super peaceful and nice.

>>520363455
If anything it will protect your reputation amongst your friends and family when she inevitably calls you an abuser.

>>520364118
it means "positive" in retard

>>520364239
>You must be angry
I'm not the one playing soggy biscuit over who blows their childhood trauma load and who is effected most by it still to this day on a saturday

But I am taking mirth from it. Give me another psychological analysis, doc.

>>520362116
>You cry like a woman.
>Insulting and shaming like a woman on an anonymous Vietnamese snake measuring forum that is too pozzed with Kikes, jannies, glowniggers, jeetards and shitskins to actually anything that is off narrative.
OK toughguy, we get it. Your family was absolute GARBAGE and treated you like shit but you haven't ever acknowledged it because of your high midwittery.
Healthy people don't latch onto someone being honest and try to berate them to feel superior, you chode yodelling, cocksmoking cum-dumpster. I'm not talking about coddling delusional troons or bleeding heart libfags here either, they aren't inherently being honest.
The fact you have
>29 PBTID
tells everyone here a vested interest in projecting your bullshit onto others.
..or possibly you are just a neurotic kike earning shekels for pissing on a thread you have nothing to do with

Now, you painfully appaerent midwit, immolate and defenestrate for the good of all mankind, you intentional shitheel.

>>520357536 (OP)
Probably didn't help that they had to raise a retarded child.

>>520364315
Stopped reading at the first sentence. Go blog elsewhere. Reads like a woman ranting.

>>520358016
>took my7 miserable years
Jacob's trouble. You'll make it anon.

>>520363944
Listen, if a modern woman wants to be a cunt the only thing you can do is walk away. You can't slap some sense into her anymore.

>>520364387
Bingo

>>520364080
>Living with mom doesn’t make you gay.
A child is like a monkey; it copies everything its parents do.

If your father isn't around and you're constantly hanging out with your gay mother, then you'll become gay.

>>520363944
Women like that will take the whole ship down with them. My freinds wife threatened to drown the kids multiple times and also breakd all his shit and makes his life a living hell

>>520362884
My mother once gave all her credit card information to a "credit card inspector" who called her on the phone. Would not listen to me telling her to just hang up. As soon as somebody starts paying attention to her she gets tunnel-vision and the rest of the world ceases to exist as far as she's concerned.

>>520364485
Ye, if I want to convince mt parents to do something all I need is a random stranger to suggest it. Everything except my opinion matters to them

>>520357536 (OP)
Yes....
I could spend a book of all the little things.
The chief complaint is the real affect it has had on having my own family and house.

>Class of mid 2010s
>Only person in midwestern school to not be allowed to own a cellphone (we could afford it)
>was not allowed to get a driver's license
>was not allowed to get a job
>snuck off for sports and used my 2 dollars a day for 1 music lesson every 2 weeks and walk home, no rides
>not allowed to date (obviously)
>Graduate H.S
>No license for an entire year, family friends offer to help, parents refuse
>Work for minimum wage and miss deadline for college or EMT school
>Year after my gap year go to school on major music scholarship
>Parents refuse to file FASFA
>Get thrown out and put in debt as I don't qualify for a FASFA override
>minimum wageslave until I am 24 and leave for college

I am 28 now and almost finished with my 4 year degree. I look about my age now but at 24 I routinely dated and fucked 18-22 year olds. I locked down my main girl and she stuck with me when I confessed to being 3 years older after our 1 year anniversary. Only lie i told to her.

To get out of my situation in regards to the FASFA, I would have had to elect to be homeless. Simply moving out would not have freed me from the parental requirement on the FASFA.

Even 2 year programs and trade schools would have required me to file one.

Now my parents are wondering why they have not heard from me in 4 years and why they are not invited to my wedding. I cope but I could have had a career more that what I will have now, I could have had a family, and a house by now.

I will not be visiting them on their deathbed. i will instead use that energy to build for my own family. If I raise and treat my children right I would like them to visit me in my old age, but my children will not owe me anything.

>>520364387
But not through your hand, but through enduring the injustice, and then karma takes its revenge on her.
This is btw. a big lesson in life. Not to run away but to endure.

>520364380
Lies and projection
You read ever bit and you know it. I'll bet you even saved the .gif.
Hope you did, be seeing you soon

Hey board, watch this:
No more fucking (you)s for YOU, you desperate narcissist FAGGOT.

Do not engage this little pustulent narc, and watch his supply dry up and blow away.

>>520364314
People relying their experiences =/ weaponizing emotions
Is that what you experienced as a kid? Adults dismissing your experiences and calling you an attention whore?
It's affected. And it's not a competition. People relying their experiences only means so. Nothing else, nothing more.
And what does it matter that it's fucking Saturday? You're literally making out things to get angry about.

>>520364459
Did you read his original post crying about how his wife is making their lives a biblical hell with all her bullshit? And he's just like "I'm gonna write a book about it". jesus christ.

I'm not gonna give YOU attention

I'm not gonna concede to YOU

Here's my big passive aggressive thing just for YOU

signing off with the epic win hehe!

>>520364600
I graduated lat Einstein engineering cuz of my parents, took me 8 years, also didnt sign FASFA. Now i have a good career. Never give up. Its worth it at the end. Until u realize that being wages lave means either having bosses that abuse u or working at small companies which go under in a year or two

>>520358469
Having bad parents doesn't mean that you need to give away your sanity, dignity and integrity to become a degenerate. If you Troon out "they" won.

>>520364697
>"akshually your the armchair analyst"
>gets angrier
>armchair analysis intensifies
Are we having fun on our weekends bros?

>>520364769
what happened?
Got your fee fees hurt, Mr. Stoic.?

I got them so hurt you gave me another passive aggressive (You) and finally stopped the gay ass armchair psychoanalysis

>>520364836
You're the angry one. At least that much you should be able to acknowledge, without projecting it onto others.

I'm sorry to the people ITT who've suffered with miserable families. If you have loved ones who care for you, cherish them. You never know when you'll lose them.

>father tried teaching me everything he knew
>crippled because of hospital malpractice
>take care of him every day until he dies
>care for my mother in his absence
>doesn't charge me a penny to live in the house
>clean the dishes, do the laundry, fix up the mechanical stuff, work on the yard, do anything she asks since she's supportive of me
>take care of my grandmothers
>babysit for my sister
>relatively good life, all things considered

I miss my dad, after he died of a stroke. But I thank god he didn't die in some filthy old folk's home, being abused by Tyreesha and Laquanda.

Lois is a goddess. Never malign her.

I'm projecting my anger so hard I just can't stop myself from interacting with someone who makes me furious

>>520364900
Naw I was actually re-watching trainspotting 2. Danny Boyle was so good. What happened to him?

>>520364797
How did you overcome the FASFA issue? were you able to get an override or wait?

A part of my story I didn't mention is I actually joined the army reserves and suffered a TBI in a training exersise 3 years ago. I am in the process of getting a pension. Should be three of four thousand a month.

Though minimum wageslaving and being a neet both kill my soul so I want a better path.

>>520365035
Once u turn 25 u can get it on urself, also installed apid my way through almost each semester, omly have 10 k in debt

>>520365013
Can't make 'em like that anymore. The hard message doesn't land the same with different gens.

>>520364600
I know all about that FAFSA. If you don't have mommy and daddy's information, the federal government doesn't consider you to be "economically independent" until age 24.

It's fucking bullshit. I was forced to continue to working for others and funding THEIR FAFSA loans, but was told as a young man that I couldn't receive the same. 24 years later (this happened in 2001) and I am still fucking pissed off about it.

I never did get to go to college. I had to work. I've been on my own since age 19.

>>520360898
It’s ok mate we’re all in this together. We’re all basket weaving enthusiasts at the end of the day

>>520365124
Did gen z choose life? Did they even have a choice?

>>520365085
It's 24, I know because that was when I started
>>520365140
I have gotten fucked so many times for not having a degree it has given me a murderous rage towards my parents. I work hard and made good friends that tried to get me connected but it was always the limiting factor.

Even in ZOG i had an asvab of 93 but all my commanding officers with niggers with paperweight degrees.

>>520365140
I'm so sorry Anon. I started 7 years late and it kills me, if I had never gone to either college or technical training I would have probably lost my mind and murdered my parents before killing myself.

>>520360999
Hear hear brother I do the same

>>520357536 (OP)
My father would get in a state over any problem no matter how small and spend days pacing, cursing at random and exploding with anger. He would also be a huge crybaby pussy and act defensive if confronted, I think I learned to show very limited emotions because I hated the way he acted

>>520357536 (OP)
why is it an act

>520364769
lol
>oh NOES my replies!!
>>520364853
Hey, stop feeding the troll please.
he's a sad little thing, projecting his spew onto others and claiming THEY are passive aggressive for ignoring the little shit.

he'll probably get bored and go jack off to incest pr0n if he can't get his supply.

Powerless, self-hating, twisted sub-human that he is...
Just the fact that this "Imageboard" purist has only posted 3 images in ,(JFC...40 fucking posts...)
hheh... POINT AND LAUGH frens... Point and LAUGH!

I wonder how many people here didn't have boomer helicopter parents that had a neurotic screaming fit anytime they decided to exhibit any independence.

My parents were very normal. Emotionally distant but that suited me. My mother went a bit insane at times but she was a single mother with 3 kids. My dad never went out of his way to teach me anything but he always took care of us financially, even when away. I wish he had gone out of his way a bit more as I'm his only son and every tiny piece of overt advice or guidance he did give me I still remember and follow to this day. Nowadays he acts like he just wants to be left alone to live his own life, but he's only 50 whilst I'm 35, it's strange to think he was my age when I was 20. As I get older I understand and forgive all of their tiny misdeeds.

I have friends who had truly awful parents and I still see how it completely fucks them up today. It might sound cliche but all you can do is break the cycle. And teach your son stuff, he is listening.

>>520364600
sounds like they did a good job
years will give you understanding
aand understanding will give you regret

Any anons that have a family care to share your thoughts on how your shitty upbringing has affected you as a father and husband?

>>520359953
>also, i killed my parents for less,
based boomer removing kraut

The Truth About Feminism

https://youtu.be/vXmQ5h6hlqE?t=710

>>520363944
I am terrified of the fact that the laws are meant to serve her kind and not my kind.

>>520357786
My grandma lived with us growing up. Always had nasty things to say about family members and tried to rope you into her side of a feud. Hated my cousin since before he was even born and has held the grudge for nearly 60 years, still tells me never to talk to him and how lousy he is every chance she gets.

She's a vampire that will live forever by sucking the life out of everyone around her. Everyone with prolonged contact has either died young or gone crazy. I expect she'll outlive me.

>>520363074
Damn this thread is getting dark. God bless you and that poor little girl. He should’ve hanged for that. Did your cousins parents not do or say anything?

>>520357536 (OP)
It wasn't as bad as the anons ITT, but there were stressful periods and moments. They divorced after all, all relatives are living in an even shittier setup. Doesn't make me want to start a family, not that it's an option. It could be good on paper but even if everything was picture perfect as I'd like it, I know I wouldn't appreciate it after a while.
Anons who grew up in a normal household don't know how good they have it, it's not the default, it's the top percentile of experiences.

My mother is very angry, but also was neglected by her parents a lot, put into care, later raped and gave birth to my older brother. So I can understand not being happy, but she did nothing to learn from it, just took it out on others. Even blamed me when one of her noncy friends sexually abused me when I was 7, fucking cunt. Works in care now looking after autists but constantly gossips and makes fun of them behind their backs. Just seemed to be the norm for people from her generation I guess.

Lol. Welcome to the club. One of my first memory's when I was toddler age between 3-5 was Mom almost stabbing Dad because he bought Coke and was partying with her Coke friends & my drug dealing Aunt circle. Spare you the broken rest of the story but as I've gotten older I noticed this is many such cases with boomer parents. Most selfish generation in history. My Dad once confessed to me he asked the Priest who married them who he should do with my Mom. Who was proto-bipolar Single Mom. The Priest told him do what you fell is best for your family: So divorce, leave start new family. My Father told this to me like he made the brave choice, like going back out on his own. Both parents suck, we had to figure it out and semi "rase" ourselves.
Fuck boomers

>>520365537
Jesus your dad was 15/16 when you were born??

I feel like I still suffer from a learned helplessness from my childhood.
Being 7, 8, 9, 10 and screamed at with absolute rage by my dad (sometimes until in tears, and then screamed at more for crying and being told to stop), over things I didn’t deserve to be yelled at for. Including:
>looking sad and acting withdrawn (because I was being bullied by an older cousin who had serious mental issues and would constantly come over)
>my shoelaces becoming untied
>not writing enough in my free time
That last one is so weird it requires some background. I liked writing stories when I was younger. They would be childish superhero/fantasy/scifi slop influenced by tv shows and movies lol. He was thinking something like, “Wow, he might be so prodigy, if he became a great writer it’d bring fame to our family!” Bragged about/showed it off to various adult family and friends when they came over or we went as family to their house. At some point I stopped writing, he asked me on some car ride back from somewhere if I’d been writing anything when it was just me and him in the car, I said no, and he just screamed at me.

It sucks, when I try to get stuff like this off my chest, that I can’t express what type of screaming it was. By a man way bigger than me and intimidating, and full-blown psycho style, road-rage style. I guess I sound like a pussy for complaining about the screaming lol. But other times I got hit or beat, including by mom, and honestly the screaming felt more psychologically damaging.

>>520361785
What you want a meddle newsflash faggot abuse stunts mental/emotional development and we can see yours

>>520367163
They dont understand the hate. Its one thing to scream and its another to scream in an evil tone. I tried to replicate it just shits and giggles when im alone sometimes and I dont have that hate in me. There are people who I wish death on but I could never hate them THAT much

>>520367120
Yeah they were both 15

>>520357536 (OP)
Boomers brains were ruined by lead exposure, simple as. Once you remember this when interacting with them, it all becomes so apparent; they've been lobotomized.

>>520357536 (OP)
>be me
>kid in the 90s
>parents buy big house in a subdivision in the middle of nowhere
>mom and dad just kinda drift apart
>dad had a good job and mom decided work random jobs (she would get fired often but it didn’t matter, because it was mostly to stay busy)
>Dad got accused of cheating but in reality just was a workaholic, he was never home
>mom became a “party girl” at the age of 36, she would invite the neighbors over to drink all the time. She was honestly a knock out in her twenties but didn’t take very good care of herself, still good enough for most guys
>dad dgaf, he would take work trips, stay late or just go straight into his office
>mom would just flirt with all the guys and eventually would sleep with them
>she usually just had me and my brother go into the den, shut the door, and order us pizza and rent movies and games. We would get curious and peak out, just to see her and all our neighbors getting drunk
>this just turned into pure seething on my dad’s side…he eventually just hated everyone, including his kids, we avoided him like the plague. He was just a miserable asshole.
>fast forward a couple of years. My mom and dad wouldn’t even acknowledge eachother
>my dad regularly would tell us how much he hated us and how much of a cunt our mother was
>mom would just berate my dad, even going as far to say, she never liked him, he just had enough money for her to stick around.
>fast forward a couple of more years, I was in High School, my dad and mom were STILL together, but this time they slept in separate rooms, and mom would regularly have her boyfriends over
>my dad wouldn’t even acknowledge us and would be gone for a week or so
>mom was out all the time too and she was just a full blown alcoholic at this point

>>520367402
Wow that’s young. Anyway wish you all the best mate hope you have the peace you deserve

>>520367342
Thanks for empathizing. Yeah, it’s the screaming with pure hatred and rage in that moment. I can’t understand it. At a child.

I think my dad had an issue with empathy for small children, it was like he didn’t see us as human. Weirdly, when I got to older teen and young adult years, he softened up more, still could fly off the handle at various things but it didn’t feel as frequent and as brutal as when I was a child. I suspect it was from his own brutal upbringing and whatever happened there.

>>520367743
Wtf is wrong with people, why dont they just grt a divorce? It didnt cross neither of their minds?

>>520367796
The screen with Lois that I posted is a good example of it. Its like a demon takes over. I actually believe in evil and good spirits and think that's whats happening

>>520367163
>honestly the screaming felt more psychologically damaging.
Totally understand anon, exactly what happened to me.
When I went to boot camp I couldn't understand why all the other recruits couldn't handle getting yelled at by the Drill Instructors. Couple years later I realized its not normal to be psychologically attacked by someone who your little child brain thinks should be protecting you. Its fucks you up bad.
>I guess I sound like a pussy for complaining about the screaming lol
Only if you use it as a crutch or an excuse to not grow past it and try to be a better man that the one that thought screaming in a childs face was acceptable. Be sure to allow yourself grace in this however, its okay to admit that its difficult to move past these things, especially if you're doing it alone. Its a fine line to walk, but so long as you're not waving childhood in everyone's face uninvited odds are your solid.

>my blog post
When I was getting yelled at I couldnt move or show emotion. One time I got caught clenching my fists from stress and fear, was about 8 or so. I never did it again. So I ended up clenching by butt cheeks, hamstrings and kegel muscles whenever I was made to stand at attention and be yelled at. I've had to work really hard at.... reclaiming? i dont know the word exaclty, my kegels. Sex until recently was humiliating and sometimes painful because I could let go of stress in my dick muscles. Took a lot of work but Im getting better.

Godspeed anon, things can get better if you work at it.

Yes, and I directly blame it for my development being stunted and me always being 10 steps behind my peers, leaving me playing catch-up for the rest of my life.
>But life is 100% on you bro and you are responsible for your life blah blah blah
Fuck off, this isn't facebook boomer reels

>>520367342
Same. I try to imitate my father's tone when he tries to humiliate me in front of others.

Its a mix of ignorance, arrogance, hate and appeal to conformity I literally just cannot make myself do.

>>520357536 (OP)
I will forever be grateful to my mother for showing me what true racism looks like. I am a lesser son, I cannot muster that depth of loathing and hate. But I fucking try, and maybe one day make her proud. There is casual racism, then professional racism, then competitive racism. Then my mother. She would cover our eyes so we didn't see other races. She would go from business to business to avoid speaking to browns or blacks. This was the 90s so it was possible. Bless her.

>>520368293
Incredible woman

>>520368293

So there is a good woman? You know for a White woman to be racist typically requires that she got pumped and dumped by a nonWhite Subhuman.

i just recorded another argumenf with my mom just now,l. i have hours of footage from the past month alone. and this is just the tip of the iceberg. theres so much that went undocumented in my childhood and when i tell people all the crazy shit my mom said/did, they act dismissive. i wish i use my phone in my teenage years to record her abuse, idk why i didnt, maybe i had something telling me i shouldnt record my mom. silly me. i shoulve exposed this cunt years ago

>>520357536 (OP)

>who else grew up in a shitty household
how much time you got?

>>520368431
she used to gaslight me and say shit like "the cops would laugh at you if you evee called them on me" while also threatening to call the cops on me even though i never laid a hand on her except in the later years when i would grab her wrist as she waa punching me in the facw, apparently that makes ME the violent one lmao. this cunt is bitching at me from the downstairs as i type this.

>>520367915
I was going to say that lol, that you chose a good example. But it felt even scarier and more traumatizing from my dad, a tall beefy man, while I was a small skinny child.
And also, in fairness, looking back at Malcolm in the Middle when you’re older, it often IS justified that Lois is screaming at them so harshly lol. Over the sociopathic or dangerous stuff they get up to.

But, in my case (and I assume yours), it didn’t seem justified at all. I’m the same anon by the way, just phoneposting now so IP changed.
I believe in demonic influences. And I’d assume and hope angelic influences must exist to counterbalance them, so I guess that’s a point of hope.
With all this I’d also like to say, I feel even worse for people who had it worse, clearly. It’s nothing compared to what’s happened to some other people. But I still feel hurt when I think back on those incidents of my childhood, and I think elders should be wary of the effects such constant screaming and emotional abuse on children can have. I started developing panic attacks and extreme, suicidal depression for years on end when I was way too young for that, seriously thinking of killing myself every day for years on end just because of how sad and trapped I felt in my household, during middle school then early high school. 6th-9th grade, about.

>>520368401
Cool it with the fanfic, rabbi.

>>520365332
Doesn't matter and everyone regardless of generation so long as they're alive right now is in a shared experience. Whinging ain't it.

>>520368655
man, she sounds fuckin awful. Do your best not to kill her or strangle a street walker anon. Even tho they probably deserve it

>>520368655
My mom broke her finger attacking me once snd then stopped and just stuck to screaming

>>520367743
Cont.
>im actually popular in HS
>I have the “party house” because no one was home or even cared
>it was just the hangout spot in general
>my dad kept a padlock on his room and bathroom
>I never went in, not because I was scared, I just didn’t care
>go in and realize my dad had a “proto-goon cave” this was in 2005. He had stacks of porn DVDs.
>he had a Combo TV-DVD player, a desk, a PC, a mini fridge, and shelves with endless amounts of DVDs
>I was just disgusted by my dad and left him alone
>mom at this point had a boyfriend, some 40 year old black guy that left his family for my mom (at this point she was pretty chunky and very unstable). They were both loser and I hated him.
>my mom even MOVED him in with my dad who was just a gooner at this point, and wouldn’t leave his room
>at this point I was 17, and signed up for the Marines to get the fuck out and my brother moved in with a friend
It’s been almost 20 years and I haven’t talked to my parents since. I don’t even know if they’re alive or dead.

>>520368655
this brought black flashbacks. my mom was a cunt

>>520368401
Nah, she and dad just didn't get along. My maternal grandmother once told me she liked being a commonwealth citizen because she didn't have to wait in line with the darkies in the uk (joke would be on her today, sadly). My grest aunt's husband was an armenian who would also pull up at the lights and scream GET A JOB YOU FUCKING WOG despite being the woggiest motherfucker in the world himself. Never ask your racist great aunt the race of her husband, I guess.

>ashamed of own post count
>changes ID
>samefags
>literally at 60+ now
Genuinely pathetic

>>520368694
Do u think these pieaces of shit will ever admit to it? Both my grandmas are in their 80s and they cant possibly comprehend the possibility of them doing anything wrong. One of them wasn't a rageaholic but very insidious, as I get older its disturbing

>>520368655
>boomer mother: "you'll wish the cops get to you before I do"

>>520358078
Reading comprehension you fucktard.

>>520367922
Thanks man. Great advice. May healing and peace come to you, too, if you need it, and I’m also sorry to hear about those incidents of your childhood.

And yeah, about you being able to handle drill sergeants more easily - that’s an amazingly common point for some people with early childhood trauma/abuse, I’ve heard. I didn’t go through anything as relatively more hardcore like boot camp, but in my life, I also find that I can deal with other raging people far more easily, stay calm and not really be as hurt, I suppose from the thicker skin my childhood gave me. Like in service jobs with raging clients and customers, it’s like some other-me comes into play and I just dissociate and remain as polite as possible, not caring about the verbal abuse.

>>520357669
thats 3/4's of all women

>>520359793
This is so many fucking people. I think everyone does this.

>>520369026
Jesus, do u have any regrets about not talking to them? As bad as ur shit is mine was a Lil bit worse and I still dont have it in me to excommunicate them

If your parents didnt fulfill their duty and were abusive/put you in danger/wilful neglect etc you are no duty to them. Also look into NPD.

>>520369273
nta. I didn't talk to my mom for years, finally went to see her on her death bed and forgave her. I regret that more than anything else in life. Cunt didn't deserve forgiveness, she should have had to take her guilt to the grave.

>>520357536 (OP)
Why the fuck would you post the most intimate details of your life on the internet you fucking moron

My dad and his side of the family were shit. He was both physically and verbally abusive, controlling, demeaning, etc. etc. I've gone no contact with him. My mother is ok with the exception of excusing his behavior and having the strategy of "just shut up and do what he says".
And I never tell that to people in real life because they hit me with "Oh my Gooood, he's your father, he raised you!!!"

>>520357536 (OP)
My mother is evil. Pure evil. She does evil to me and everybody around her, because she's evil. She doesn't enjoy it. She just does it for the sake of evil. She will choose the path of evil, even if it harms her, even if doing good is of no cost to her, because she's evil. My mother regrets nothing, until it comes back to haunt her. She has no close friends. Everybody is scared of her and does not tolerate her. Only her siblings put up with her but they secretly hate her too. Once my mother found out that all her surviving siblings were in town at her sister's house and she wasn't invited. She raised hell. Her siblings rarely talk to her. Her older sister cut her out of her life completely. The few psychologists we saw together and alone, have always made excuses for her, some have told me that she has a mental illness and I must show compassion for her. That I'm supposed to understand and allow her to do her evil to me. No! I refused! I refused to forgive her, for giving her forgiveness, only justifies and accepts her evil. It enables her evil. I tried every thing I could think of. But there is no reasoning with such evil. The best way I can describe my mother is that she is a nigger, but worse, because she has white skin, and people assume you're talking to a rationale reasonable person. But you're not. Because just like a nigger. My mother is stupid and malicious. The only way to solve the problem of evil is to kill it. Unfortunately I would not be able to live with myself if I had anything to do with her death. Now I understand how good feels about satan. God wont do what's necessary to obliterate satan from existence out of sentimentality.

>>520369222
checked
>I suppose from the thicker skin my childhood gave me.
True, it helps in a lot of ways I think. You see someone acting all crazy, screaming and shit. And you just look at them and think, "man they're retarded" without taking it personally.

>>520369524
>she should have had to take her guilt to the grave.
based
semper

>>520357536 (OP)
>31
what the fuck are you doing there, cretin

>>520357536 (OP)
My parents are okay, but really bad with money.
But i have a friend who i grew up with, and is even now, years after moving out still kind of fucked up because of how crazy his parents are.
His dad used to beat his ass all the time for the smallest shit.
His mom looked the other way and helped hid the bruises.
The dad threw him out as soon as he had a job of his own.
And the dad when he got really drunk called his mom a whore sometimes.
My friend is a alcoholic, hates woman, and in general is always pessimistic as fuck.

Yeah it was great when they got divorced. For a little while anyway, then they started saying I reminded them of the other parent and I could feel the hatred for each other being projected onto me. Both my parents are mentally ill, mom is the worst but dad is just a bitter old man who only calls me to tell me I don't get his money because I still talk to mom. Most boomers have rotten personalities, there's a reason every other generation hates them.

>You see someone acting all crazy, screaming and shit. And you just look at them and think, "man they're retarded" without taking it personally.
>Fed me (You)'s for an hour while acting like an upset woman
Damn, narcissism is hereditary

>>520357536 (OP)
I grew up with parents who yelled a lot, would argue with people in public, pretty much Malcolm in the Middle but my parents were not trash by any means. It is difficult to have to deal with angry people, especially when they fail to support you emotionally and even emotionally terrorize you throughout your childhood. However, I’ve also learned how to be a tougher person that isn’t really phased by the usual nonsense of the workplace, school, etc. Some people had parents that never yelled, catered to their every need, and a lot of the time those people are extremely needy even into adulthood. You don’t want to be a rageaholic, but it is healthy and natural to assert yourself and let your anger out

>>520369562
>43 posts of seethe by this id

life is hell anons
my old man died when i 11 and within 9 or so months my mom had my future stepdad sitting at his spot at the dinner table. there are some things you just don’t get over. im a fucking loser.

>>520369918
>Continues trollerskatin'
>OP BTFO out so hard by their own "wow look at ur post count" they changed ID
I am him. I will continue to be him.

women get under a mans skin and if he's simple minded the man will become an angry yelling monster driven insane by the womans drama.

thats why your dad was angry and yelling at you all the time, because he lost his fucking mind

>>520369766
Lmao u think ue going to leave? U think u will have a stronger freind group and social life at 31? Lmao!

>>520369892
>44pbtid

>>520370156
>guys im 30 and still obsessed about my parents
>70+ posts

>>520369892
Ur at 45 posts now. Are u okay? Why are u still here?

>>520370229
You're at 62 without counting any further samefagging, OP

How old are you while you're obsessed about apologies that'll never come?

>>520370030
Out of everyone in this thread, I bet this goy had it the worst

>>520357536 (OP)
No, but have you tried screaming back at them? I think it would help with your rage issues.

>>520370049
I did hear that he was more normal bwfore meeting her. I dont blame him for losing his mind

>>520369617
>Once my mother found out that all her surviving siblings were in town at her sister's house and she wasn't invited. She raised hell.

Actual Eris. Recently thinking about yet my youth I came to another realisation about how Id been assaulted, put in danger and my mother didnt a protective instinct towards me. Seeing that she was incapable, because of her undiagnosed personality disorder was liberating somehow because it frees me from caring about her ie breaking the trauma bond. If we break dow the work forgiveness, its like to for-get, or for-go...for-give, we dont give them anything and release ourselves from the grudge.

>>520370317
It's so bad I have to reply to more bait about how unhappy they must be in my own thread of bawwing about childhood trauma I never got over.

>>520370277
Its my thread, why wouldn't I reply idiot? Thanks for the bumps, this thread might just break a record

I will always thank my father for teaching me about the Jews and race from a very young age but he's turned into an asshole with age. He's 80 and acts like he wants to have a fist fight sometimes. I don't understand boomer men, they act like little kids sometimes.

>>520370397
Ur at 65 posts now. Are u okay? Where did your parents touch you on the doll a dozen years ago?

>>520370363
At least i took my dog for a walk and watched a movie, u are insta replying and thinking that when I dont reply I am changing IDs. This is entertaining and sad. What was ur upbringing like?

>>520370489
Who asked? You realize your posts are timestamped too, right? Walk your dog longer, fatass.

>>520370470
Im going to keep repeating that its my thread cuz u are helping me bump it retard. What is ur agenda? What do u want to hear?

>>520370552
I can walk and post, at least im getting sunshine, u need vitamin d, I heard having too little makes people emotionally unstable. U really are going to help me set a record with this thread, cheers

>>520358016
Have you stayed clean? I'm in my 30s and still struggle to stay sober.

when we first found the city of ur, why are you looking at me like that

>I am so not mad I'm gonna give you TWO (You)'s
Mindraped on your own personal blog. What's the post count?

>>520358469
I'm a balding decrepit fat Jew. Can I lick your feet.

Watching my parents get divorced gave me erectile dysfunction. I panic when sex is about to happen because I feel like it's only a matter of time before I'm unable to see my kids and have to pay child support/alimony.

>>520364380
Ahh. You're one of those people who has zero social skills, and having been rejected because of it repeatedly, blames everyone for being overly sensitive. You either have no friends, or you have one friend that's abusive to you, and you tell yourself it doesn't affect you. Your father wasn't around, and your mom coddled you even though you needed discipline. And now you're here, trying to shit on everyone else, to preserve your fragile ego. You've been described as a narcissist, but not diagnosed. Hypocritically, you've been diagnosed with PTSD so that you could get marijuana pills. I knew you before you ever typed in this thread

>>520370871
Looks like the armchair psychologist is back.

Mom lets me live rent free. I guess it makes up for how she treated my brother and I when we were kids. He doesn't visit much.

Mom lives rent free in my head the past twelve years of my adult life

>>520357536 (OP)
>>520357536 (OP)
>>520357536 (OP)
Daily reminder that all pro-Israeli threads are made by bunkerchan trannies in cooperation with Valent Projects and iDrama fags, a group of pseudo-academic leftist losers who advertise themselves as "researchers" although they're actually paid shills that hold janny positions, raid /pol/ and spam BBC, trannies, pro-vaxx, feminist threads and make retarded globohomo generals like /cvg/ and /uhg/ (the successor to /cvg/).

>>520357536 (OP)
yeah it sucked. i came to the realization that my mom was my only bully. I should of beat her up but ive moved out long ago and its not really my problem anymore since I dont talk or see them anymore

>>520357536 (OP)
Maybe they were annoyed you downloaded the same image 4 times

>>520370823
Just don't think about it.
Who cares if you don't see your kids.
Your kids aren't you.
They can't make you pay child support or alimony if you don't have any money. If they try to send yoy to prison just tell the judge you look forward to free room and hot meals.

>>520370689
Yes once u move out and escape its effortless, plus the weed was destroying my health by stealing my sleep. I still do shrooms and sometimes xans or adderal on occasion. I am immune from addiction to them, I was addicted to weed cuz I started smoking at 14 and its rhe safest way to numb urself out. If I turned to any other drug I would be dead. I cant tell u HOW i quit while living with my mom. I did switch to edibles and tapered down. Did xanax for the first 2 night to get over rhe insomia which I got anyways from the xan comedown but at least it got me theough the day 1 barrier which was always hard to break. I had to quot cigs first of course. I dont know how I did it. Like I said even when she went away and I qas alone I would struggle cu, of the rage I felt towards her. I wanted to kill herm beat her to death. I still do. Shes too dumb to realize, I dont have it in me to excommunicate. But now when she screams at me its comical cuz I just leave her house and go home. She actually switches to being passive aggressive and that got to me at first but then I adapted.. U just have to accept that those pieces of shit have no soul. I dont beleive every human being has a soul...

>>520370871
Holy shit, pwned!!!!!


This thread is kino, I am glad I made it

>>520371451
>I still do lots of drugs but I'm not addicted to them

>>520370823
get snipped? maybe that will help
if its within 5 years or so, odds of reversing a vasectomy are like 90 percent or so with a good doctor.

>>520371614
No i dont do lots of drug. I do them maybe twice a month. Mushrooms aren't drugs btw, they increase brain function and make ur life better.

>>520371626
>get a vasectomy goyim
Appropriate ID

>>520357536 (OP)
>Non stop screaming. Even now as a 31 year old i can barely talk to them, its like they have no huminity in them. It fucked me up big time. Every fuckinf day just non stop screaming in such a hateful tone irs comical. I never even did anything bad(that they knew about, uses to set shit on fire but never got caught)
Yep. That's why I don't go see my mom. She does it to everyone. Dad's dead and she made him miserable. She can handle about 30 minutes without starting to be absolutely vile out of nowhere.

>>520371626
Just go on no fap, u dont need to bust a nut every day

>>520357536 (OP)
Yea I was raised by a single mother who screams and yells all the time, no matter what I did. I have two advanced degrees and a 6 figure job and a nice apartment. I stopped visiting her years ago because she would only scream and yell.

Can't wait until that bitch dies.

>I don't fuck whores
>Prostitutes aren't whores

>>520370358
My mother tried to murder me several times. Because my father couldn't take her shit anymore and left her and had another secret family with another woman. When my mother found out, she decided to get back at him by killing me, to make him feel bad. Mostly by methods that would look accidental or suicidal. When I was 6, she locked me in the chest freezer for a few minutes. But let me go when she realized that she could not get away with it. When I was eight she tried to choke me to death with a belt, make it look like a suicide, but I was stronger and slipped out from her grasp. In that same year she left me outside in the woods hoping that a bear or wild animal would eat me. Another time she sat on me. And one day she was gonna kill me with a knife. I saw the look of evil in her eyes and I ran. IOnly when I got old enough to physically resist her evil. Did she stop trying to murder me. I told people, teacher, police, the neighbors, but nobody believed me and instead blamed me! Said that I was a bad kid. And that my mother needs my understanding. You dont know what it's like being threatened for lying to a police officer as a seven year old kid, after your mother threw you out of a moving car. She said I jumped. No, she pushed me out. Those three weeks in the hospital away from her with broken bones were the best time of my life. Because she had no access to me.

I will never forgive my mother. I hate her and wish she would die already. There is no excuse for her evil. Mental illnesses and personality disorders are used only as a cover for evil women to victimize their sons. I hate psychologists and the simps who cuck for women. And attempt to justify their evil against me.

>>520372158
Jesus, I think u take the cake for this thread. The stories just keep getting worse and worse. Doesn't make me feel better about my situation though.

>>520361371
Sounds like she had this post natal depression and it was ignored

>>520371743
well its not like he's fucking anyway if he cant even get it up. So there is no net change in white babies if he gets snipped
This ID is quite unfortunate