>>81466180 (OP)Pretty much. Though I avoid anything outside 'the routine' that can make me happy, as I could never afford to do it often enough.
I just enjoy the copes I have at home; laptop and vidya. I really want sex, but I am too autist and poor to socialise, so I am still incel as fuck.
Late 30s now. Over the past 10-15 years, my anger and repressed anger has faded away. My family are dead. I just want to die in my sleep.
Though I was unable to wage-cuck without sperging out, I found that NEETdom and hermitdom was far better for me.
I just try to cultivate indifference as much as I can. Keeping away from normcunts seems to be a help. Just a shame about the inceldom.
The fact is whenever I was busy or social, I couldn't stand it. I am so used to being a loner that I can't live any other way now.
It just sucks that I cannot get a fuck-buddy, even an old MILF/GILF, to fulfil my sexual needs for the rest of this miserable life.