Thread 81522842

Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

Hello, hope everyone is having a wonderful day :3
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/e678a1e6375e512f483a04e8291c9183

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>81522842 (OP)
>Hello, hope everyone is having a wonderful day :3
Hii cat!
I hope you are too! :D

Today was super hectic and tiring
Superrr tired rn and nervous for tomorrow
How was your day cat? What did you do? ^^

>>81522915
Hey hey :DD
I hada wonderful day ^^
I was on a nice bikeride and went to a nice place and ate a tasty pish and met a friend :0
>Today was super hectic and tiring
I'm sorry to hear this :<
hope you get to rest a little now
>nervous for tomorrow
oh ye
but don't worry the eggheads calculated you'll pass ;3

heres the pish poc

>>81522915
here's the friend :33

I was drunk yesterday. Just couldn't cope with the stress anymore.

>>81522915
Those mountains are beautiful. Reminds me of Austria. Nothing beats drinking a cold beer up in those mountains.

>>81522915
he was meowing a lot and later took a nap in the sun and while I was eating he decided I look enjoying like a bed and napped on my lap! ^^

>>81523043
>I hada wonderful day ^^
always great to hear :D
>I was on a nice bikeride and went to a nice place and ate a tasty fish
oooo that does look pretty tasty, what's it called? :0
>hope you get to rest a little now
yeahh I will ^^
>but don't worry the eggheads calculated you'll pass ;3
ohh yeah truee!! they're never wrong

>>81523050
awwww <3 cutest cat evr

>>81523053
>I was drunk yesterday. Just couldn't cope with the stress anymore.
hey anon, alcohol does help with stress but remember that it comes at a cost, your health!! Just don't abuse it too much and stay safe :3

>>81523067
>Those mountains are beautiful.
yeahhh fr, would love to be there.
>Nothing beats drinking a cold beer up in those mountains.
I don't like beer but it sounds cool :D I'd love to bring up a cold soda

>>81523076
AWW <3
why is it so cute!? ref do something

sleept way to long last night.

>>81522842 (OP)
hey cat.
>Hello, hope everyone is having a wonderful day :3
thank you cat :) and you too!

>>81523053
I hope it at least helped with the stress as stuff.

>>81523155
>slept way to long last night.
oh how so? how long did you sleep for? :D
also hiii gator!! :3 how was ur day? hru?

>>81523155
when did you hurt yourself?
what made you hurt yourself?
how would you describe your feelings at that point?
have you ever thought of trying to make yourself better?

do you think you will be able to control your impulse next time you are about to hurt yourself?

if you have

>>81523053
Hello
what stressed you out?
and is today looking any better?

>>81523131
>that does look pretty tasty, what's it called? :0
it's a cod :D
>yeahh I will ^^
that's goodz are you going to sleep early? or maybe watch som movie?
>yeah truee!! they're never wrong
exactly!
>cutest cat evr
cutestest even :3
btw how was ur day? what today tired you out so much

>>81523155
Hello ali!
>sleept way to long
it happens ^^
dw about it, did you just wake up?
>thank you cat :) and you too!
u are welcome and thank you :>
I did!
I was on a bikeride you can read about it here >>81523043
>>81523050
>>81523076

>>81523278
>that's goodz are you going to sleep early?
yup, 11pm max. I'll let you guys know how the test goes tmrw :D
>btw how was ur day?
hectic but fun at the same time ^^ didn't sleep very well last night
>what today tired you out so much
two driving lessons, they were pretty fast paced and I was nervous TwT
you got anything planned for the rest of today? also did you watch the mazerunner movie? :D

>>81522842 (OP)
>Hello, hope everyone is having a wonderful day :3
hey catbro! it was quite alright. just a normal day without any issues. at least i hope so.

>>81522915
good evening meowster!

>>81523043
that looks awesome :0 makes me wish i could handle fish better.

>>81523050
no wonder theres a cat at a fish place ^^

>>81523053
sorry to hear that, dude. how are today?

>>81523155
hey gator! how long did you sleep?

>>81523210
>oh how so?
I just should have woken up early for my friend I feel.
>how long did you sleep for? :D
8 hours I think. how long did you sleep for?
>also hiii gator!!
haiii meowster!!!
>how was ur day?
it was great! just finished playing with my friend, he's just so perfect. how was your day?
>hru?
I'm overall good id say. how are you?

>>81523252
>have you ever thought of trying to make yourself better?
no.

>>81523278
>dw about it, did you just wake up?
I'll try not too.
I woke up a bit ago but still feel bad about it.
>I did!
yippe!!
>was on a bikeride you can read about it here
seems like you had a great time! food looks super tasty! and cat is ultra cute

>>81523457
hey yuanon. 8 hours or so just feel bad about it.

>>81523335
>11pm max.
how early is ur test?
and again dwz it'll be okay
maybe before sleep get comfy in your bed and watch some chill yt videos to make you sleepy, that's what I do
>didn't sleep very well last night
at least it'll make you sleepy sp you may not have any troubles tonight
>two driving lessons
:0
good job getting through this !!!
>you got anything planned for the rest of today?
hm not really, just chilling and maybe I'll play some half sword
>also did you watch the mazerunner movie? :D
sorry but nope, I put on some gameplay of a liminal space game and it put me to eep
but I'll watch them tomorrow, I promise!
tonight I may watch taxi driver, haven't seen that movie in a long time but who knows maybe I'll watch yt again

>>81523457
Heyo
>normal day without any issues
that's good :3
>at least i hope so.
do you have any issues planned for the evening?
>makes me wish i could handle fish better.
you can't eat fish?????
>theres a cat at a fish place ^^
he wasn't even there to eat, what I was eating he decided to nap and later went away, ha just wanted cuddles and lots of headpats ^^

>>81523462
>woke up a bit ago but still feel bad about
it's too late to feel bad about it, maybe you could tell yourself that you'll make up for it tomorrow but wakin up earlier?
>food looks super tasty! and cat is ultra cute
yep :DD
the fish was cod, ever had it?

>>81522842 (OP)
hello /cut/

>How are you doing today?
im fairly good, eating soup and listening to front 242

>Any plans for today?
gonna go run some errands for my family, theyre also planning to go somewhere later today so i might tag along with them

>>81523474
that's quite normal, i feel. my brother had no issues sleeping 10+ hours even in his mid-twenties...

>>81523671
>that's good :3
it is :>

>do you have any issues planned for the evening?
no, but i know that everything that didn't work out today will come around to hit me out of nowhere at a later date. just how it is. tonight i'll continue with sorting my cards. just wanted to lie down and watch my regular streamer, but he isn't on rn and i didn't want to watch anything else, sooo... guess that's what i'm going to do this evening.

>you can't eat fish?????
always seems to be a diceroll. seems like i can tolerate some canned stuff, but fresh fish seems to trigger an allergic reaction.

>he wasn't even there to eat, what I was eating
how odd. i thought he'd stay around to beg for food. guess all wanted was some attention.

>>81523751
good evening, pink!

>eating soup and listening to front 242
enjoy your food and your front 242 ^^

>gonna go run some errands for my family, theyre also planning to go somewhere later today so i might tag along with them
sounds like there's busy day ahead of you. what do you need to get?

>>81523865
>what do you need to get?
toilet paper, eggs, other cleaning things lol

>>81523751
Hello :>
>fairly good, eating soup and listening to front 242
sounds great
what soup?
>gonna go run some errands
hope it's nothing annoying
>today so i might tag along with them
have fun

>>81523865
>will come around to hit me out of nowhere
I'll send a protective spell dw !
>but he isn't on rn
damnn :<
maybe you could watch some old vod?
there might be an archive channel on yt
>fresh fish seems to trigger an allergic reaction.
ow I'm sorry :<
the restaurant had some non fish oprtions too so if you were there you could have those ^^
>guess all wanted was some attention
yep he just wanted something chill to snuggle up with and to meow at it seems
and people say cat only do stuff for food

>>81523899
best of luck on your quest. o7

>>81523973
>I'll send a protective spell dw !
alright, i won't. it better be a good one, though.

>maybe you could watch some old vod there might be an archive channel on yt
for some reason i don't feel like i need to watch every stream. i'm fine with just catching whatever is on. just put up an asmr stream for now, so it's fine.

>the restaurant had some non fish oprtions too so if you were there you could have those ^^
well, hope they don't fry it in the same oil :p for some reason even the smell of frying fish can make me feel unwell. it's really strange.

>he just wanted something chill to snuggle up with and to meow at it seems and people say cat only do stuff for food
he must have sensed a kindred spirit in you. or he was already full. with cats you never know.

>>81523671
>it's too late to feel bad about it
true nothing I can do about it now.
>you'll make up for it tomorrow but wakin up earlier?
yea I was thinking about just not sleeping tonight but I'll see how sleepy I am.
>the fish was cod, ever had it?
sounds pretty tasty. sadly I have not.

>>81523865
>brother had no issues sleeping 10+ hours even in his mid-twenties...
that's kinda crazy I feel, that's half the day. I'd feel awful if I did that.

>>81524049
>it better be a good one, though.
o7
>put up an asmr stream for now, so it's fine.
okay as long as your entertained
btw any long weekends any time soon?
>even the smell of frying fish
we were outside so couldn't smell any fish but that seems like a pretty strong allergy
>must have sensed a kindred spirit in you.
heh probably ^^
>he was already full.
I assume the owners of the restaurant probably feed it once in a while but I'm pretty sure he's feral because his ears were shredded frm fights

>>81524227
>nothing I can do about it now.
so no need to worry :D
>was thinking about just not sleeping tonight
I don't think that's too good
not sleeping is way worse for your health than sleeping too much
>sadly I have not.
hope you one day go to a nice fish place and eat some :3
did you have dinner yet btw?

They are cloning the cats in this thread. It will be overun approximate EST 10:23 10/12/25. Good luck soldiers.

>>81524425
>so no need to worry :D
I suppose not.
>not sleeping is way worse for your health than sleeping too much
I guess that's true, just always hate waking up late.
>hope you one day go to a nice fish place and eat some :3
thank you and me too, I do love trying new food anyways.
>did you have dinner yet btw?
I have not, probably will be in 5 hours lol. did just eat lunch tho was ramen noodles. have you had dinner?

>>81524767
don't listen to him there is no secret underground cat cloning facility that I can't tell you about

>>81524767
>guess that's true, just always hate waking up late.
does stuff like phone alarm not wake u up?
>love trying new food anyways.
is there any food you made your goal to eat one day?
>will be in 5 hours
that's a lot of hours, but it'll be worth the wait
>have you had dinner?
yep the fish was my dinner, I didn't have lunch, we don't really have lunch in poland

you people in /cut/ are really fucking weird

>>81524894
what's so wierd about us anon?

>>81524227
>that's kinda crazy I feel, that's half the day. I'd feel awful if I did that.
same. i can't sleep that long anymore. how are you feeling now? better, i hope.

>>81524425
>okay as long as your entertained
it distracted me a bit from the monotony of my task. taking a break now, but i think i'll just head to bed soon and continue tomorrow.

>btw any long weekends any time soon?
got a three-week long long weekend starting this friday :>

>that seems like a pretty strong allergy
it can be, but it's very inconsistent. some stuff will let my throat swell up, other stuff just gives me a pressing pain in my chest. it's odd. i try it sometimes, but i feel like i should avoid it when i'm out with friends so i don't ruin everyones day.

>I assume the owners of the restaurant probably feed it once in a while
probably his share for providing protection.

>I'm pretty sure he's feral
can't make every cat an indoor one

>>81524511
o7

>>81524894
guilty as charged

was going to bump the previous thread but i didnt want the people next to me in the examining room to see me on fucking 4chan so i didnt
unintentionally letthe thread die :<

>>81515426
>you're not an idiot, okay?
im surprised i dont have a darwin award yet
>what glue
yknow that thing that keeps it actually on your body so it doesnt fall off
im not really familiar with infections or cuts this deep before but ill try to be careful
i hope you slept well

>>81515535
hi yuanon
>i'm sure you'll get there again
oh i will issue is i feel extra terrible for breaking my promise of not cutting again
>was there a reason that for your relapse?
many over the past few months so its a bit complicated to compile into one, im also not willing to share it publicly and have it stay in the archives so
>work seems to wear me down, but i'll go on vacation on friday
sounds like the average working experience
i hope youll enjoy your vacation
where to? if i can ask
ive been fucked over by exams already (including today) and will get fucked again next week so thats gonna suck
other than that trying to convince my friends to do more stuff this summer and hang out more
i think it will help my sanity to be around people more :3

>>81515566
hi gator, missed you too
>best to avoid all thoughts of cutting
unfortunately they are omnipresent i just hope to get it off my mind more
(it doesnt work)
>incredibly impressive and a great step
doesnt really feel like it though :<
if im okay depends, but we are awaiting to see
its not exactly dependant on me, and its not looking great but i hope it will change
>I made a very good friend!
im very happy to hear that
im glad you managed to do that
make sure to make some nice memories with him :>
is your sleep schedule still fucked? mine got fucked recently

>>81524894
why tho

>>81524891
>does stuff like phone alarm not wake u up?
not usually some times it does, sometimes it doesn't.
>is there any food you made your goal to eat one day?
hmm, maybe like duck or Korean BBQ. do you have any foods you really wanna try?
>that's a lot of hours, but it'll be worth the wait
hopefully depends what it is of course.
>yep the fish was my dinne
oh yea did look like the perfect dinner.
>we don't really have lunch in poland
ohFair enough then, that's interesting.

>>81525043
>how are you feeling now? better, i hope.
yea I'm feeling pretty good. veue bored tho. how about you?

>>81525141
heya Sisyphus!
>examining room to see me on fucking 4chan so i didnt
oh fair enough then hehe.
>they are omnipresent i just hope to get it off my mind more
well I'm very sorry to hear they are then :/.
>doesnt really feel like it though :<
that's what relapsing kinda feels like, getting there again will be much easier tho, and that's awesome right.
>and its not looking great but i hope it will change
oh I'm very sorry to hear that, I hope whatever it is, it all works out in the end. when you have no control over something just a awful feeling overall.
>im glad you managed to do that
me too hehe, was definitely a surprise. but he's very sweet and lovely.
>some nice memories with him :>
we are thankfully <3. I should say he is a online friend but he's still amazing!
>your sleep schedule still fucked?
lol I actually did very recently fix it. now I'm sleeping at 10 pm and waking up at 6, mainly for it for when school comes but also for my friend.
>mine got fucked recently
ah that sucks then, what is it now? and I hope you can fix it soon.

>>81525216
>I'm very sorry to hear
its okay dw
>and that's awesome right.
sure is
>i'm very sorry to hear that
its okay
it wont be that bad if it doesnt go right, i think ill handle it well enough
>he is a online friend but he's still amazing
youd be surprised of what amazing people you can meet on the internet, im glad you found someone you enjoy being around, im willing to bet you needed it too so safe to say you hit the jackpot lol
>I actually did very recently fix it
thats good to hear too, its very nice of you to change your entire sleep shcedule for your friend
are you going to go to a regular school this school year? you must be excited if you are
>I hope you can fix it soon
highly unlikely as it is summer and even if i wake up extremely late theres nothing wrong with it
i have a really hard time sleeping, usually after 3-4 am
i think i accidentally gave myself insomnia like an idiot but oh well
what do you play with your friend? i hope you quit war thunder by now, its a time sucking frustrating game
if not its alright, maybe its not for you which would be really nice

>>81525043
>distracted
sonit did it's job good enough
>think i'll just head to bed soon
doesn't sound bad :>
>three-week long long weekend starting this friday :>
oh ye !! :0
and ur going to Italy
are you excited? just watch out for fish
>very inconsistent
hmm interesting but it's best to avoid it then as you said, you can live without those things and I wouldn't want u to suffocate
>share for providing protection
and great entertainment 10/10 :>

>>81525141
>was going to bump the previous thread but i
it's okay :>
after all I'm always here to make new ones
>surprised i dont have a darwin award yet
why?
you're not dead are you?
>thing that keeps it actually on your body so it doesnt fall off
ooooh it probably won't
technically having like a bandaid with glue for a few days might give you a mild allergic reaction, for example for me the spot where the bandaids is would become slightly itchy, but it's nothing dangerous I don't think, tho you could google it and see bc I'm not sure
>this deep
how deep is it?
>hope you slept well
I did c:
and I had a very good day today

>>81525216
>some times it does, sometimes it doesn't.
mm I see maybe you could tell ur sister to wake you up? does she wake up early?
>duck or Korean BBQ
that sounds goood
>do you have
hm can't think of anything other than maybe fried squid, sounds tasty or shrimps
>depends what it is of course.
do you think it'll be good
>that's interesting.
we usually have breakfast, then one big meal during the day and sometimes also eat something smaller like a sausage in the evening

>>81525336
>after all I'm always here to make new ones
yeah but i still feel kinda bad about it
>you're not dead are you?
i was going to say obviously not yet but its impossible to tell if im actually alive over the internet, for all you know i could actually be sisyphus who managed to complete his sisyphean task of rolling the boulder
i dont really see myself as bright at all, that im still alive is a surprise
>ooooh it probably won't
ah great i figured so but wasnt sure
any advice for how long it should stay on? its been on for roughly 24 hours by now
bleeding has stopped
>how deep is it?
cat scratches i think but deep enough to bleed constantly
maybe its styro? im not really in the mood to evenm go bother checking what it is
its not that bad its just more than what im used to
im glad you had a good day
may i ruin it and ask you how uni is going for you? xd

>>81525302
>its okay dw
well I just want you to be okay, your one of my favorite people on here.
>wont be that bad if it doesnt go right
well let's still hope it does go right. and plan for it not to I guess <3
>amazing people you can meet on the internet
true, I don't think I'd find anyone as good as you all irl.
>found someone you enjoy being around
well I do enjoy being around everyone here. of course actually talking is a different thing tho lol.
>im willing to bet you needed it too
I truly did. he kinda feels like my angel lol
>so safe to say you hit the jackpot lol
I truly did, he is truly amazing.<3
>change your entire sleep shcedule for your friend
well he is eu so it would be much harder for us to play if I woke up to late lol.
>going to go to a regular school this school year?
oh yea, I am, which I am very happy for. I was shaking when I told my parents I wanted to lol.
>you must be excited if you are
I definitely am yea. there is also a heavy amount of guilt tho.
>even if i wake up extremely late theres nothing wrong with it
oh yea true lol, you should definitely just enjoy your summer and not worry about having a perfect sleep schedule then. and hope you have a good summer.
>accidentally gave myself insomnia like an idiot but oh well
oh lol, well hopefully it goes away by fall.
>what do you play with your friend?
mainly Roblox and Minecraft. we did also beat co op portal. and played some terria.
>quit war thunder
I took a break and when I came back I just couldn't so yea I stopped lol
>time sucking frustrating game
it truly is, some parts are fun some are just awful.

>>81525336
>could tell ur sister to wake you up? does she wake up early?
our relationship is pretty bad, and she actually has a worse sleep schedule than me lol. my mom has to wake her up everyday lol
>than maybe fried squid, sounds tasty or shrimps
Ooo they do seem like tasty sea food.

limit

>>81525336
>do you think it'll be good
my dad just said it will be pizza so should definitely be very delicious!
>breakfast, then one big meal during the day and sometimes also eat something smaller like a sausage in the evening
okay that sounds like a good schedule of food to have and good amount to keep you full. and sausages are delicious!

>>81525141
hi fren! :>

>was going to bump the previous thread
same, but i just forgot... (^-^;)

>unintentionally letthe thread die :<
it happens and there'll alway be another one, so it's ok.

>i feel extra terrible for breaking my promise of not cutting again
promises like that can be helpful, but i don't think you should beat yourself up for breaking it. there's always a chance of relapsing and it's not the end of the world when those happen. just try your best to beat your previous record, ok?

>many over the past few months so its a bit complicated to compile into one
yeah, that stuff can pile up if you don't have a way to vent :/

>im also not willing to share it publicly and have it stay in the archives so
that's fine. you can always add me on discord if you feel like you need someone to talk to.

>sounds like the average working experience
pretty much ^^

>i hope youll enjoy your vacation
where to? if i can ask
i'll be heading to italy. tuscany, to be precise.

>ive been fucked over by exams already (including today) and will get fucked again next week so thats gonna suck
sounds like it :/ i'm just glad i don't have to deal with that anymore. still: best of luck, dude.

>that trying to convince my friends to do more stuff this summer and hang out more
hope it will work out. you deserve some good times.

>>81525216
>I'm feeling pretty good.
glad that you do.

>veue bored tho
hm. maybe watch an anime or stuff on youtube?

>how about you?
i'm good, just getting really tired now. might fall asleep soon. (~.~) twitch and youtube also aren't providing convincing reasons to stay up.

>>81525336
>it did it's job good enough
i'd say so. it's nice to have someone to listen to while doing something so mindnumbing.

>are you excited? just watch out for fish
i can't say i'm excited, but i'm looking forward to it. it's weird, but i can't seem to get as emotionally invested as other people do. maybe i'm still to much in workmode to see it like that.

>>81525399
>but i still feel kinda bad about it
it's okay ^^
>impossible to tell if im actually alive over the internet
exactly, you could be a ghost, I would be none the wiser
>dont really see myself as bright
well maybe you just don't see ur light, like a firefly
>any advice for how long it should stay on?
I used to have bandaids glued onto me for days and nothing bad happened
but I'd recommend changing it every day or other day
>bleeding has stopped
that's very good
>maybe its styro? im not really in the mood
it's okay
I was just worried it might be so deep it'd need stitches
>may i ruin it and ask you how uni is going for you? xd
oh dw you could never ruin my day, I like you too much, uni is going okay, this semester was ez and it's finished now so I can taste freedom for the next two-three months :D
how are you doing today?
>>81525477
>our relationship is pretty bad,
oh I see
so maybe you should set up multiple alarms in hopes one of them will work
>seem like tasty sea food.
yes I'd also like to try crab now that I think about it
>>81525487
>will be pizza
woo :D
that's very great, have a nice pizzaaa
what kind btw?
>like a good schedule
yep though ig it depends on the person
>and sausages are delicious!
oh yes very much :3

>>81525526
>nice to have someone to listen to
you could also get a little snack like a pretzel and some tea to make it even comfier
>can't seem to get as emotionally invested as other people
maybe it's for the better, you won't get disappointed or impatient

I'm going to get some eep
goodnite

>>81525336
>just watch out for fish
i'll be in a very hilly region, so i hope those nasty things won't get me there. :p

>you can live without those things and I wouldn't want u to suffocate
thank you. ^^ it's quite annoying, since it'd be a good source for nutrients otherwise, but i guess i have to live with it. :<

>great entertainment 10/10 :>
i'm sure you'll be back ^^

i'm heading to bed now. good night, everyone!

>>81525477
>your one of my favorite people on here
awww thats flattering(flustering? not sure what the right word is i cant think) but truly im not worthy of such title, there is so many people here that are better than me and more deserving of that(yuanon or cat for example, two that are here right now)
>plan for it not to
yeah good idea ill prolly plan around the worst case scenario to be sure its okay
>find anyone as good as you all
youd be surprised, some really wonderful people roam around irl but its much harder to find them
in my case it was quite literally luck that got me in touch with such people, others have trouble
>is a different thing tho
ye you get what i mean
>he kinda feels like my angel
whos to say he isnt? :>
>he is eu
ah, timezones, my sworn enemy
im glad you are able to plan around it
>I was shaking
im glad you took such a big step, it must have taken a lot of courage for you, and it payed off!
why the guilt?
sidenote i really hope youll get lucky same way i did
>just enjoy your summer
wise words gator
>hopefully it goes away
i shall update you
if i enjoyed roblox id offer to play with you too but i really dont like it, minecraft is a prime game to make amazing memories in, never played terraria, portal 1 was enjoyable
>I stopped
prolly for the better
>>81525526
>beat yourself up for breaking it
i could have kept it, i truly could but i was way too impulsive to, therefore, i failed at it
ill try to get this far again
>you can always add me
nono its alright dont worry, i should add on top of those that it feels completely pathetic but it will be okay dw about me, you have enough to worry about
>tuscany
ive always wanted to visit italy, its literally just across the sea theres no reason not to but i havent gotten around to it yet
make sure to take lots of pics :D
>im just glad i dont have to deal with that
im waiting for that even though its a long way to go until then
>you deserve some good times
cant really convince myself of that but thank you

>>81525477
oh btw just wanted to say that your kitty pic you posted the other day was super cute

>>81525533
>you could be a ghost
you could be an actual cat, which you probably are
>maybe you just don't see ur light
you are probably right but its so hard i dont even wanna bother
my self esteem is down to tartarus(wikipedia: Hesiod asserts that a bronze anvil falling from heaven would fall nine days before it reached the earth. The anvil would take nine more days to fall from earth to Tartarus)
and bringing it up to earth again is going to be so much work
>changing it every day or other day
ill keep that in mind
>I was just worried
oh im sorry i really didnt intend for that
im too much of a pussy to go that deep lol
>I like you too much
awww youre too nice
im glad your semester went well, i hope my next one will be okay
enjoy your freedom to the fullest :D
im ok-ish, after the nearly sleepless night and morning exam everythings alright, mostly, at least regarding my physical state
i hope to keep it that way
good night cat


>>81525589
good night yuanon

>>81525526
>maybe watch an anime or stuff on youtube?
I'm already on YouTube but anime is very smart will do that ^^
>might fall asleep soon. (~.~)
okay well goodnight and sweet dreams.
>twitch and youtube also aren't providing convincing reasons to stay up.
oh fair then hehe, they usually just help me fall asleep hehe.

>>81525533
>you should set up multiple alarms in hopes one of them will work
smart I'll make sure I do that tonight thanks.
>yes I'd also like to try crab now that I think about it
you must really like seafood then, crab does seem very nice tho.
>that's very great, have a nice pizzaaa
thanks hehe will do!
>what kind btw?
just cheese really.
>oh yes very much :3
I honestly could really go for one rn hehe.

>>81525546
goodnight sleep well.

>>81525724
>flattering(flustering
I'd say more flattering but if your flustered that's very sweet hehe.
>but truly im not worthy of such title,
you truly are, I remember so much of our conversations, I remember us talking about Greek politics was super exciting hehe. and you saying a shouldn't be a femboy lol. I've enjoyed every conversation we've had, plus you were there on my first day <3
>are better than me and more deserving of that
you are in my tied top 3 for sure <3
>good idea ill prolly plan around the worst case
yea it's never fun too, but sadly probably best too.
>wonderful people roam around irl
yea I guess you guys are all real people so makes sense hehe.
>quite literally luck that got me in touch with such people
that's wonderful that you did, some people even with luck can't, so good job.
>whos to say he isnt? :>
true he may be <3. he's definitely as kind and sweet and cute as one.
>my sworn enemy
there truly is nothing worse.
>glad you are able to plan around it
yea me too, if he was in Asia or something it probably would be pretty impossible too.
>, it must have taken a lot of courage for you, and it payed off!
thanks, it definitely did, shouldn't have tooken a year tho lol.

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>>81522842 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
I didn't sleep well last night. Stayed up playing chess. Dog climbed over me and started scratching himself for some reason.
My leg hurts. I took some painkillers and laid down.
>Any plans for today?
Just work. I get up for an early shift tomorrow.
>Is there anything bothering you right now
I hate myself in general. People in general. I threaten to hurt myself but I don't really see the point.
>>81523050
Hi cat, hi cat's cat friend.
>>81525533
Goodnight cat
>>81523462
Hi gator,
>8 hours
personally, I try to get 8 hours. I think it's a good amount to sleep. My longest sleep time was 12 hours after staying awake for 3 days.
>>81523335
Hi meow, good luck on your test!

One of two because of possible spam

>>81525724
>why the guilt?
just basically all my friends hated/hate school so it feels wrong to say I'm excited as happy to go when my friends say they hate school and stuff. I've always felt guilty for wanting to go anyways.
>sidenote i really hope youll get lucky same way i did
thanks <3 I really hope I get lucky too.
>shall update you
thanks, I'm always happy to hear from you anyways.
>roblox id offer to play with you too but i really dont like it
fair enough then, I wouldn't have played if it wasn't for my friend anyways. he likes the obby stuff. what games do you like btw? maybe we could play something.
>minecraft is a prime game to make amazing memories in
it truly is, I'm really uncreative tho so it's hard for me lol
>never played terraria, portal 1 was enjoyable
they are both amazing games I'll say!

>>81525744
thanks he is such a cute boy hehe :3 I love him lots <3. I don't know if I told you before but his name is porky (cause he loved pork as a kitten)

>>81525902
>>81525141
Hi Sisyphus
> didnt want the people next to me in the examining room to see me on fucking 4chan
I have done this multiple times. This place is like my private indulgence. Most people would probably assume it's a porn website, which might be the easier thing to deal with.
>>81525589
Hi yu and goodnight. Hope tomorrow is better for all of us.

fun fact? king sysiphus was condened to tartarus(>>81525812, which i didnt realise and just did when looking into it again, which is a fun coincidence)
also i remembered of tantalus (wikipedia: he was made to stand in a pool of water beneath a fruit tree with low branches, with the fruit ever eluding his grasp, and the water always receding before he could take a drink. /// The ancient Greeks used the proverb "Tantalean punishment" in reference to those who have good things but are not permitted to enjoy them)
who also happened to be a king
i think im a mix between king Sisyphus and king Tantalus in a few ways, going through a sisyphean and tantalean punishment at the same time

anyway this is kinda pointless i just wanted to say it, greek mythology is morei nteresting the more i look into it, were i to change nickname it would 100% be something in refrence to it again

>>81525870
>flattering but if your flustered
i cant remembered which is which but both stand true
>about Greek politics
lol i cant remember that, cant imagine i told you more than how corrupt it is
>you saying a shouldn't be a femboy
more so out of concern if anything, maybe your parents dont like it
im glad youve enjoyed our conversations but honestly im not deserving of such title
>but sadly probably best
imo its best to prepare for the worst because if the best happens youll be overjoyed in a way
>I guess you guys are all real people
be careful, the internet is full of bots! i get what you mean i just wanted to warn you, especially on instagram, tiktok, twitter and such
>some people even with luck can't
thats not luck then :>
>if he was in Asia or something
in my experience 8-11 hours is the worst
10 is the sweetspot for suffering :3
>shouldn't have taken a year tho
nope :3
it takes as long as is needed, next time it will take less time
>all my friends hated/hate
yeah its fair of them but in your case is different, i hope you wont end up hating it too
>what games do you like
mostly singleplayer

>>81525903
>what games do you like?
mostly singleplayer and recently i downloaded clash royale again to waste a bit of my time and remember how much i enjoyed it 8 years ago
im uncreative too, i dont much like the misconception that minecraft is about creativity, it flourishes and thrives in it but its more about freedom, i prefer the adventures
im a terrible builder so all my houses were inside caves most of the time unless playing on server with friends, in which case i just stayed with someone in exchange for helping with his house
if you find a way to enjoy it, youre set
>>81525902
hi cynic
lol i didnt sleep well either
>Stayed up playing chess
HELL YEAH
what do u play? bullet or regular
my favourite is bullet
i rarely find people that also like chess online, much less irl
>I hate myself in general
same

>>81525917
>Most people would probably assume it's a porn website
it kinda is but its infamous for degeneracy
i dont want to have to deal with it so i just hide it
i dont really care for their opinion, i just wanna ensure that i wont have to deal with anything

>>81525902
hai cynic.
>try to get 8 hours.
it is what is recommended and probably the best amount to get.
>sleep time was 12 hours after staying awake for 3 days.
that is a while to sleep. I think mine is 14 and 3 days is a very long time to stay up.

>>81526054
that actually is super interesting, Greek mythology stuff is awesome and definitely super interesting to learn about. and they definitely punished people crazily back then lol.
>remembered which is which but both stand true
that's fair there basically the same thing anyways lol.
>cant imagine i told you more than how corrupt it is
I have heard that before lol, I think we also talked about how a party got dequialfid for a dumb reason.
>so out of concern if anything, maybe your parents dont like it
well that's actually very sweet then, and yea they probably won't like it sadly :/. I did actually recently order some stuff.
>but honestly im not deserving of such title
you truly are <3. I rarely have better conversations than with you.
>prepare for the worst because if the best happens youll be overjoyed in a way
yea I guess that's fair, at least you wouldn't have wasted planing.
>what you mean i just wanted to warn you
well I doubt any of you all are bots lol.
>especially on instagram, tiktok, twitter and such
I'm barely on any of those thankfully hehe.
>experience 8-11 hours is the worst
true that sounds basically impossible to actually do anything fun with them then :/
>next time it will take less time
idk still feels dumb for not doing it but ya hopefully it will.
>but in your case is different, i hope you wont end up hating it too
I know I won't hate it worse then homeschoole so I'll be fine <3
>mostly singleplayer
fair those are the best, all my favorite games are single player.
>clash royale again
fair hehe I watch a lot of vids about that games, seem fun enough.
>waste a bit of my time
that's the most important thing for a game to be.

>>81526127
>its more about freedom
yea that's true, there's so much with it you definitely don't have to be creative at all.
>were inside caves
those are the coolest houses I think, that's what me and my friend are doing. and it's looking great!
>stayed with someone in exchange for helping with his house
fair hehe, and that's basically what I've been doing, just helping him when I can but I can't make decisions lol.
>enjoy it, youre set
I definitely do ^^

never posted in this thread but I'm pissed off because anons in another thread made fun of me for being a guy who self harms

Hi anon
> anons in another thread made fun of me for being a guy who self harms
Yeah. Sometimes that happens here to. It's okay. It's just text on a screen.
>>81526127
>bullet or regular
Regular. Ten minutes for a game is about as long as I expect. I'm not that good anyways. I've mainly been playing the engine to improve. That and my coworkers. They're always stressing about losing a piece.
>>81526265
Yeah, that was a crazy trip. But worth it.

Goodnight y'all.

bump before (i try to) sleep

>>81526512
people suck sometimes.

>>81526693
>Yeah, that was a crazy trip. But worth it.
definitely sounds crazy.
>Goodnight y'all.
goodnight cynic.

>>81527004
goodnight Sisyphus. I hope to see you again <3