How long did it take for you to realize that you were ugly?

in like elementary school, after that I just gave up on my life. now im neet

>>81592407 (OP)
middle school
i tried copying what chad did and saw quickly enough it was just because how he looked

>>81592407 (OP)
I've always known it deep down but I just got told I was mid by a girl that calls herself ugly. Led me on for four months too.

>>81592407 (OP)
Middle school I realized it.

>>81592407 (OP)
Elementary school. I used to vomit from anxiety every morning I had to go

middle-high school

i was a oofy dooty normie before realising how ugly i am

shit kept me sleepless for nights

>>81592407 (OP)
It took me a while, I never had problems making friends until the last year of junior high, maybe because I had already known my friends as long as I could remember, going to a new school really reignited my anxiety and social awareness, I'd sit alone at the lunch table with my head down listening to the sexual escapades of my peers that's really when the seed was planted. I did't find out until I finally found my first GF at 17 years old, long story short she told me it wouldn't work and one of my older friends found her on tinder, I still remember throwing up when he sent the sceenshot to me. I tried tinder to no avail and looked back on all my experiences, I guess I knew for a while but I had always copped and there it was right in my ugly face.

Late elementary school i think when we were playing tag and I was chasing this girl i had a crush on and she told me not to touch her because im ugly
But desu in middle and high school your day is pretty regimented, you just go class to class and find some other loser to hang out with during lunch time and you can avoid the cool kids and forget people are having sex (or kissing or whatever) and relationships, then after school avoid any extra activities and just get back home to the computer asap

College was when it really hit me at parties where i was pic related, when guys and girls started pairing up and finding little corners to vibe in, thats when i saw what actual flirting looks like and how girls behave around attractive guys . And if there arent any other betas to talk to all you can is keep making yourself drinks to look busy and numb the pain

>>81592407 (OP)
9
also when i realized i was an irredeemable sperg

>>81593795
how tf did you find parties?

>>81592407 (OP)
When people told me i look 10 years older than my age

I'm only ugly because I take poor care of myself. Lots of women have said I have a cute face. But I don't think I'll be handsome.

>>81592581
>elementary school
Kek, fpbp

i'm not ugly, just fat. If I was in good shape I think i'd be moderately attractive. I think if anything my personality turns people away.

like 13 or so.
Puberty wasn't kind to me.
I grew full on, actually made of breast tissue, man tits due to hormonal bullshit despite not being all that fat.
Dad insisted that if I just worked out hard enough they would go away despite what the doctor said. So I did.
Even got the point of having visable abs and doing around a thousand push-ups a day. Still had ugly disgusting man tits.
Also my skin got significantly worse around that time so always had painful rashes somewhere or another.
Also scalp ezama or whatever caused anywhere I grew hair to have absurdly bad dandruff.
While the rashes eventually calmed down a bit, and I found a prescription ointment that works when it does flair up. The man tits and dandruff are still issues.
I manage the dandruff by washing my hair with anti-dandruff shampoos, rotating out the active ingredient once a week, and washing hair every other day. This mostly manages it.

Nothing can be done for the man tits though. The surgery cost tens of thousands of dollars.

So I am basically stuck being disgustingly ugly unless I somehow strike it rich, which realistically ain't happening.
I have already given up and accept that I will be single forever. Honestly isn't too bad once you actually accept it. There is lots to life besides relationships and building a family.

>>81592407 (OP)
14 ish though im still kind of denial about it to this day

Chances are most people in this thread aren't ugly. Diet, exercise, skincare, haircare, vitamins, sunscreen, and sunlight would fix 99% of your problems.