Thread 81677748

I'm schizo. Sometimes schizos jump off from high places for literally no reason. I live two flooors up with a balcony. Would probably break a few bones.

>>81677748 (OP)
>so if you work less maybe your quality of life will be better
that is technically governance or government

>>81677748 (OP)
>I'm schizo.
I'm intrigued, tell me more.

>>81677767
I have no free will, the voices took it away. I can't move a finger without the voices allowing it, sometimes they taunt me by saying "move a finger dude" and I literally can't move my finger (research command hallucinations, I get them constantly). They regularly threaten to pour boiling water over me and jump me off my balcony among other things. I literally have no control whatsoever they just drag me around places. They helped me woo a girl I like and I have a girlfriend now though so its not all bad. I'm an autistic retard but the voices taught me how to write funny/romantic poetry so she fell in love with me.

>>81677748 (OP)
You're a liar, that's all.

>>81677782
Very interesting.
I like talking with schizos.

>>81677837
Tell me stories about other ones

>>81677843
I was talking with one on here about what the afterlife was like. He said that the voices told him there was one, and that it was in your best interest to try and perceive as much as you can in life before kicking the bucket.
I asked him why but I never got an answer.
I asked if it was so that your afterlife can materialize itself with the most materials, if that makes sense.
I don't think I'm full schizo, just schizoid, but I do have odd beliefs, thats all I can really contribute.

>>81677858
The voices tell me lots of things about the afterlife. They tell me god is a sociopath and everyone goes to hell, they tell me I'll go to a different dimension where I live a good life for a little over 500 years before dying and being reborn as another schizo (but as a higher order alien from this universe). They also tell me we just die and that's it, you literally just die and disappear. Who knows, I'm an agnostic atheist but my position on that keeps changing. All I know is I can't trust a damn word the voices tell me.

>>81677899
I'm unsure of the afterlife generally but I can say for certain that I HOPE at the very least it is better than this.
I hope that I will be reunited with the people in my head for lack of better words. I don't know what to call them, not voices, more like concepts.

>>81677915
I think theres some credibility to the "god is a sociopath" argument. Don't get your hopes up

>>81677942
My belief is strong. Either something happens or it really is nothing, in that case I wouldn't know about it so it doesn't matter.
I am not scared of dying, just unsure if I want to go now in this current time.

>>81677960
The voices tell me im schizo as punishment for past life sins. They often torture me while making me help the people around me. Sometimes they hurt the people around me too though and then they say it was for their past life (or current life) sins. I don't really buy that argument I'm pretty sure they're aliens fucking with us.

>>81678006
I feel like if there were no repercussions and I could opt out any time, I would like to experience what you do/ schizophrenia in general. I just have to know things.
Well, in the most respectful way, do you ever find anything good about being schizo? Do the voices ever say anything you like or find useful?

>>81678047
They're mostly horrible but sometimes they're nice to me. You don't wanna be schizo, it's worse than I've described. As far as good things are concerned though, I like psychology so they often teach me things I didn't know about my own / other people's psychology. I also used to be a hermit with no intent of leaving Australia but my schizo voices have other plans, apparently they're gonna show me the world and take me travelling. They already took me to Indonesia so that was interesting.

>>81678135
Not saying I want it, just want to see what its like, I don't think I'd enjoy being stuck with it at all

>>81678158
For other schizos its different, but I wasn't exaggerating when I said I have no free will. The voices completely control my body and mind. I have no thoughts of my own, only voices. The voices control my body, you're quite literally talking to them pretending to be me as we speak (hi~)

I am a literal fucking spectator in my own life getting dragged along by complete assholes, that's my experience with schizophrenia

>>81678191
but that would mean people don't want more of it

>>81678204
eh, wat?

Staying on this train of thought... it's probably pretty helpful, Hella fun, and makes you wanna boogie.
Probably should jump anon. Best possible play at this point of the game. Voluntarily or not.

>>81678191
I hate life as it is already and believe that nobody really has free will, I'd be pretty pissed if I was constantly reminded of it though (yo, whaddaya think of that?)

>>81678227
I gotta at least outlive my mother. then it's up to the voices if I get to die or not.
>>81678252
Yeah I came to the conclusion that there was no free will when I was 17 and then the voices came along and said "I'll show YOU no free will!" and now I want my illusion of free will back.

>>81678267
>Yeah I came to the conclusion that there was no free will when I was 17 and then the voices came along and said "I'll show YOU no free will!" and now I want my illusion of free will back.
How old are you now and when did you develop it? 17?

>>81678309
I'm 30, turning 31 next month and I started developing it at 27. Before then I had mild symptoms, I used to be paranoid people were reading my mind on trains for some reason, I didn't actually believe it though. occasionally I woke up psychotic in the middle of the night and did irrational things like tear my tissue box to pieces or pull the TV on top of me. I was sane 99% of the time though.

>>81678352
Happy early birthday, twink death didn't get you I suppose.
When you started hearing the voices, what did you think? what was the first thing they said to you?

>>81678473
in the early days I didn't have voices but they communicated to me through secret messages on the computer (mostly my youtube feed). I was watching a lot of motivational videos and apparently the voices were trying to get me off my ass and stop being lazy. The first time they spoke to me I was in a daze and they said words to the effect of "there are gifts in pandoras box but I didn't get any because I didn't grow." Later when they came back more heavily I did grow and they did in fact give me gifts.

>>81678505
What do they think of the people around you? And I'm curious if they have said anything about you talking to me.

>>81677748 (OP)
Take your clozapine or whatever neuroleptic you've been prescribed and it won't happen

>>81678529
>What do they think of the people around you?
it depends on the person
>And I'm curious if they have said anything about you talking to me.
"who the fuck are you?" they say, lol.
>>81678539
Problem- the voices don't let me take my schizo medication

>>81678580
>"who the fuck are you?" they say, lol.
Ha, a very curious 4chan goer.
I find it interesting to talk to schizos' voices.

>>81678632
Sure, you can talk to us directly if you want. We're aliens by the way, but we pose as many things, demons, god, etc. We fuck with people and turn them into schizos for entertainment purposes. We also enjoy watching wars.

Need evidence? You already have technology elon musk developed to allow disabled people to control computers with their brains. Make a logical deduction, we're a number of steps beyond that. We can control people's minds remotely, but we keep it low-key. We're around. ~

>>81678668
Aliens from where exactly? What do you think about ganymede and callisto then? And I would hope that you like your host and give him some freedom every while.

>>81678704
>Aliens from where exactly?
Who knows.
>ganymede and callisto
what about em? We're only allowed to work with the information that the particular schizo friend has and he knows nothing about the moons of Jupiter so, no comment. No evidence, he's crazy, move along~

>>81678776
Callisto is cold and ganymede looks like a sand planet. I like them.
Why don't you let your friend have any free will?

>>81679034
>Why don't you let your friend have any free will?
It's a shitpost. As a teen he used to like philosophy and he had a epiphany that free will didn't exist. It was actually just us teaching him that, we do things like that. He went around for awhile after trying to explain it to people and actually managed to convince a few people that free will didn't exist. Anyway we came back later and actually took away his free will to make a point, if it walks like a duck and it quacks like a duck it may as well be a duck. Also he's not our friend he exists to suffer for our entertainment.

>>81677748 (OP)
then go ahead and jump don't write about it weakling

>>81679139
it's not high enough for me to die I'd literally just injure myself

>>81677748 (OP)
hi I'm a certified schiz but I have some free will
learning to do breathing meditation and a speshul lamguage (real)
it's time I make some coffee
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcUiO4v6Ko8
namo buddhaya

>>81679237
There is a 2nd round for this

>>81679099
Thats kinda mean. How do you choose your hosts?

>>81679313
Are we allowed to be frens on discord or are the aliens gonna fuck us over?

>>81679338
No comment. Schizophrenia's hilarious though, "A curse upon your bloodline!"

>>81679340
I'll think it through but I'm still makinh that coffee rn

>>81679386
lol so accurate both your posts are references to things related to me.

>>81679406
the coffee is good today.
I made a discord invite so I don't have to shuffle my nickname after, is that okay? az47qj7m

you can also ruin it, that's not the point

>>81679368
Ah well, I hope your anon is doing well then, tell him I said thanks.

>>81677748 (OP)
I know a schizo who tried just that as a teen.
Was held back family members iirc.

>>81679602
Thanks for what?

>>81679964
holy crap i don't know why you need this to happen again

>>81679964
The conversation and answering my questions