I feel like none of the people I see every week get me, and I don't get them either. I could have a conversation with them, but 9 times out of 10 it would feel like "filler" than something with actual value. The only people who do seem to get me are usually online in other countries. A couple weeks ago I found someone local online but they ended up ghosting me (and a bunch of other people). They wanted to reconnect, but I declined because how can you trust a person who deletes you for no reason?

I don't even need a group. Just one friend would be enough, even though ideally I'd rather have two. It's hard making friends as someone in their 30s, especially when you feel like an outsider in your very own land.