Thread 81817380

Dear Anna,

Many years have gone by and I still think of you.

I miss you.

Do you still look at this board? I hope you're doing good.

You know where you can message me.

Love you.

J

Genuinely feel like a seemingly minor decision I made this week split timelines (at least for my own life). I can't talk about it with anyone without sounding schizo, but the amount of odd coincidences and vivid dreams I had leading up to and following it really feels like this very small little act of generosity for a friend had massive ripple effects that I haven't grasped the magnitude of quite yet. I've never had this type of experience before. It isn't just on my part though, the recipient of this gift (who had no idea I'd already bought it and has no idea it was coming) had their own profound spiritual experience last week.
The problem is... all of these signals I kept getting pointing toward it didn't really tell me which decision to make. So either I have fulfilled something God was telling me to do, or I've perhaps just doomed us both in some way. I guess time will tell.

I know you don't care about me anymore. I accept that. but I just wanted to say. I still love you.

People who love don't make themselves impossible to reach. To care about someone, and especially to love someone requires you to be part of their lives in some aspect.

Maria, if there's something I could do I would do it. I won't lie and say I'm and silence, about my interpreted responses of words from random people being yours. All I want is to hear your voice and to move forward with you, have our trip.

I'm sorry and I love you still,

Mike

More like sometimes you have to make stuff up when when there never was a WMD to be found.

I have a feeling you did the same thing as me, as we find we keep reflecting each other's actions. he same thing as me in reaction and protection.

Yes, I have a feeling we are the same and both did this
>>81818075
And this
>>81818088

And it's done because we feel hurt and want the other to feel the same hurt, so we took vindictive action, that we didn't follow through with but showed we did.

even when im gone, ill still be lurking somewhere near

>>81818075
Or making up things is dumb and everyone should hug it out instead of doubling down.

I put on this album and the first song reflects:

Tell me a lie
Through those honest eyes
It's the painless way
Truth is ruthless...

Draw me a line
But, let the center define
Where the fault will lay
Truth is ruthless...

And, somewhere down the line
It's just a matter of time
Before I fade away
Truth is ruthless...

So, call up your demons
And, cut out their tongues
It's time you were leaving
It's your turn to run
Run away...
Truth is Ruthless...

https://youtu.be/zDZFbaXnhK4?si=g4J8Yg7IqJ5Cs4IV

who do you think you are, faggot

The love of Maria's life
As she is mine

whatever.. if the shoe fits, faggot

Its not that I remember her, I know her.
It's not that she remembers me, she knows me.

>>81818168
It is, and so is being more than eager to huff made up bullshit to give an "officiality" to the contempt one is already harboring

>>81818840
Agreed, I hope everyone comes to their senses and just talks it out.

>>81818840
he was my first love

That's right stop telling people that I pooped on your lawn Doreen you vile cunt.

>>81819256
WHEN I WAS THUR TEEEN

drop the mic, mike. you're shitting up the whole thread. the whole thread is just you.

My trip is on all the posts that are mine. I have made no others. I'm telling the truth and the only person who needs to hear me is Maria. The only person who's response I care about is hers.

If you have any negative assumptions and accusations and you are not her that I'd appreciate it if you stfu and keep your issues to yourself.

If you have negative assumptions and accusations and you are her. Talk with me openly and honestly, and we will work it out because that's all I want with you, open and honest.

>>81819397
Whats the recipe to the lemonade, Mike ?

>>81817891
Simple as. It took a lot to finally snap out of my limerence and this post was pretty much at the center of the idea.

>>81819404
Typically I mix my own using simply lemonade and sky lemon vodka.

But if you want a "cooler" type drink I likebgrape Smirnoff ice?

Smirnoff is dogshit tier vodka but somehow Smirnoff ice grape is a diamond in the rough

>>81819450
Being anxious avoidant or dismissive avoidant causes communication issues, isolation, negative assumption and distortions.

It doesn't change love that is true. It just causes the distortions from accepting true love.

Choosing to overcome our own internal negative faults and instead trust and a faith in the person we love is not limerence, it's true love. Keeping that love over distance, time, silence is a reflection of that love. Always trying to overcome that gap despite any negatives, that's true love.

I choose to have faith in her and love her despite judgment and assumptions of others of how I feel, of how she feels. Those words outside of us do not matter, only our voice to each other, feelings of each other is what matters. I choose her above all else.

Words like "limerance" have no place in our home.

I'm grateful for her choosing to hear me, my voice, and know me, all of me, over all others. Just as she's grateful for me choosing to hear her, her voice, and know her, all of her, over all others.

>>81819450
>snap out of my limerence
Ah, unlike you I am willing to suffer for those I love no matter how much pain I feel.

>>81819479
>Smirnoff is dogshit tier vodka
For once me and you agree on someone. Smirnoff is a crime against vodka.

>>81819795
Try Smirnoff ice grape and get back to me. It blew me away how fucking good it is.

>>81820046
Fine, I will try it. I hate Smirnoff, but what the hell.

>>81820123
It's a cooler so a 6 pack like mikes.

>>81819731
Would you feel the same if you had no idea where the relationship stand or even if there was even one to begin with? I have no problem waiting, but she gave me absolutely nothing real to cling on to. No affirmation, just never ending ambiguities.

>>81820143
I have staked decades of my life on people who couldn't make a choice. Yes I say, absolutely yes. My feelings are absolute and always have been.

33 posts 5 ips
cool thanks mike

>>81817380 (OP)
I've done all I can and if you don't want to engage then that says more about you then me.
I still love you but you can really be an asshole.

What is it about the name 'Mike' that makes the bearer want to be the biggest, most insufferable douchebag possible?
I've never met a Mike that wasn't, at best, a creepy weirdo and at worst a psychotically obsessed stalker who waxes poetic like a narcissistic serial killer (like the one in this thread).

Mikes are just the fucking worst man.

>>81820183
Fortunately I'm not as blinded as you. My commit isn't in question, it's the lack of any meaningful reciprocating on her part and I'm exhausted of always having to guess what her intentions are. I want directness and if she can't even do the bare minimum of that then what were we even doing, what was even the point of it all? If you can read all my post and still come with the come up with the same assumption that I'm giving up too early then you're insane.

>>81820260
I'm only responsible for my posts (signed with my trip) then rest are on the other 4 posters.

13 of those are mine including this one.

I don't see any posts of mine to my person I'd take back.

My others were in a discussion about boozing with an anon, which I don't regret spreading the good word of Smirnoff Ice grape

>>81820343
Sad you are being a pos. What makes it with people like you who only express their own ugliness and cast it on others persona. Externalized hatred.

Swallow it, tastes bad. Don't say it then!

>>81820343
I'm grateful I trust her to know me for who I truly am and not the lies you attempt to cast on me to influence her emotions.

>A Mike triple-post
>two are replies to me
Good stuff Mike. Keep Miking it up.

>>81820343
Mike is a sick cunt name

you're selfish and it makes me resent and dread interacting with you. how can you so easily brush over everyone and everything not about you. who do you think you are? you're an annoying obliviously conceited cunt and i cannot say i don't wish you the worst. i ask sincerely if it would kill you to simmer and entertain or humor someone or something external, but i fear i know the answer. i can see you scratching your neck waiting for your turn to speak. Fuck you.

>>81820704
Notice how I didn't assume this is about me. How I understood it is about someone else and issues external to us.

That's growth.

hi mike its me maria i still love you
be the mike to my ike <333333

What happened to Mike hunting? Or his hawk ? Youd think theyd be back by now

>>81820814
More like be the Mike to my syke

>>81820966
What I offer and the love I have is true unlike those who lie, manipulate, and decide to influence others.

P
So was it something I said ?

S

>>81820345
I am fine with being insane, my soul bleeds for them. I want them by my side as an absolute.

>>81820808
no it was about you mike but you're too much of a narcissist to insert yourself into any negative letters

>>81821298
The I will respond
>you're selfish
Only for Maria and I. Selfish for each other over all else


>and it makes me resent and dread interacting with you
Then don't. I only care about Maria

>how can you so easily brush over everyone and everything not about you.
Because I only am here for Maria. I only care about her.

>who do you think you are?
The love of Maria's life as she is mine

> you're an annoying obliviously conceited cunt
No, that's a projection and assumption. I have faults, sure, but that's something to discuss with her and grow with her just as she grows with me

>and i cannot say i don't wish you the worst.
Then don't interact with me. I only want to interact with Maria and once we are in contact again we won't have to be in this place ever again.

>i ask sincerely if it would kill you to simmer and entertain or humor someone or something external, but i fear i know the answer.
There is nothing external that I care to simmer, entertain or humor because I only care about her.

>i can see you scratching your neck waiting for your turn to speak.
If I respond to something is because they're someone is accusing me, assuming something about me, attacking me. Don't attack me and I won't respond it's offset your negativity and trying to light on the truth

>Fuck you
Fuck you

>>81821474
no it wasn't about you, doofus

>>81821536
You just said this post
>>81820704
Was about me

forgot to add: fuck you

>>81821220
You're insane then. Even though I still love this girl I know pursuing her will only lead to nothing but more confusing and heartaches with no results.

>>81821568
posted delayed for some reason
>>81821553
i was joshing you but you do curiously fit the description in that letter..

>>81821656
Well then 47, who was the post adressed to?

>>81821474
Way to immediately go back on that "growth" you spoke of just a few breaths ago

>>81817380 (OP)
Dear J
I'm married. Stop making threads about me. It's creepy.
-Anna

>>81821812
What are you even on about. I was told it was about me by the poster so I responded. I didn't assume so the growth stands.

>>81821907
Mike, you literally assumed, you fucking imbecile. It's unbelievable you could be this stupid

W
In the end, im still me
M

Juliana,
You look like a hooker and will be treated as such.

>>81821923
Assumed where? Point

Also
>Yuuka is capable of manipulating flowers, making them bloom, shifting the faces of sunflowers towards the sun, or making withered flowers bloom again. As implied in her title, she can use it for flowers of all seasons.

>"oh sweet a letter thread with a healthy number of replies, I wonder if-"
>it's all mike trash caught by the filter
aight

>>81822185
22 including this one.

Only 6 of those to my person.

The rest (16) to those who talked shit about me and at me.

Hmmm so if the narc stfu then there would only be 6 Mike posts today.

dog barking again

(girl that tried her absolute hardest to kick off some guy that just wanted to love her) I love you please come back

I want to talk about this anime with any of you, but fact of the matter is you all have that very textbook insecurity that nearly every guy who has ever lived has.
Acknowledging the problems, acknowledging that they're pretty much out of your control or even just your own innate weakness would do entirely too much to your ego.

Season 1 could be summarized as underlining a series of problems with modern day society with a big big pile of subtext.

Season 2 starts off as if it is proposed solutions to the problems.
Then it starts overtly bringing up body count in a fun way and I'm just sitting here annoyed that if I ever told you about this anime, I'd have to pretend there isn't thinly veiled subtext that would imediately offend you and everyone else if you ever did think about it more than not at all assuming such a dialog heavy show didn't immediately turn your dopamine burnt brains off.

>>81822485
Death note right?

>>81821756
every self obsessed brainlet i have the displeasure of listening to

Annas sucking my dick right now