Say the worst things to blow the house the fuck down
>>81850044 (OP)What you wish is seen
Sometimes people mistake protection for rejection
And we Don't really know who someone is until it's too late
But that doesn't mean they weren't real
And it doesn't mean their truth is lost
Just tested
MM
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Accusations
Looney tunes delusions
Purposefulness perceived
mischaracterizations
Projecting insecurities
Mocking cruelty
lashing out
Vindictive
This is all on you
what you live with
your own internal storm
Tough watching you hurt yourself
I recognize
And understand
More than you know
Or at least more than
You're able to recognize
Remember
While you choose to drown
So continue despite
Fuel self harm
Just realize
Your self perceived fictions
Have no relevance
To who I am i
In any capacity.
The only thing
any of your torment
has to do with me
Is how afraid you are
of how much you love me.
Your truth of me
>>81850044 (OP)If my bf doesn't answer soon I'll blow my head off...in minecraft originally in a non BPD way
>>81850044 (OP)Hello World,
Once again I have survived.
I survived the pedophile ring, streets gangs coming after me, I even survived the so called civilized society raising their swords against me
All I have learned is that I am above you all. I am too good to be called human. Humans are a stain. A mockery of the very idea of civilization.
Even now just I grew up being raped beaten and tortured. There is a child starving to death. There is a child watching their parents get turned to goo right front of them.
Shit there children out there who wont even have the privilege of survival. Yes as it turns out in this post mockery world. Survival is indeed a privilege.
The next time you see me.
Remember I survived.
I love her, and she will never love me. I conjure a projection of her in my dreams every night, and she never thinks of me. Of all the pain and humiliation I have suffered, physical and psychological torture, unrequited love is the most agonising of all. Once I believed time to be the cure, but as life goes on the pain only grows.
>>81850300Lol
You are doing this to yourself
If that's really what you want to dream about
Go for it
I'm sure that's definitely the best feeling ever
Maybe when your self-induced nightmare ends
You remember how to dream
You want me to react and hurt you
To prove I'm not real
This is what it felt like to be wanted by me
This is what it meant to be mine
And I'm still all of that
With or without you
You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me I'm crying because I need you this argument is temporary
But I always have that empty part needing you
You're the only home that matters now it's been like that for so long nothing will ever change that I hope I dream of you tonight. I'll always love you and care about you no matter what you mean so much You're the best perfect for me I'm so lucky you complete me I complete you I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lost we will fuck each other's brains out then care for each other spend so much time I'm home with you everything is perfect with you dream Good dreams I can't wait. I love you more Mike.
Day sixteen... Please don't let me wake up anymore.
You have offended me greatly by your actions
I am trapped in a Kafkaesque nightmare where other peoples actions cause me pain, which cause reactions, which then cause worse actions, which cause worse reactions. Escaping this cycle by being isolated hurts worse than any action though. No solutions are offered no matter how much they are begged for so this cycle can stop without being isolated, no way to atone is offered. Just judgment, derision, and isolation.
Juliana,
Time for your daily hole to hole licking.
>>81851125Why can't an understanding be reached where I stop flailing, and they stop holding my head underwater. No blame games no fault, just no more. "Your flailing upsets me, so I'm going to drown you more to cause more flailing."
>>81851400Your flailing entertains me and I smile through gritted teeth.
>>81851400>>81851814Get a room, you two love-birds. FFS.
Nooo, I just cut myself in the finger! I did a really good job at keeping the blade sharp tho as I don't feel any pain at all. Such a clean, beautiful cut.
Good thing that knife was clean and didn't have habanero-juice on it. God loves me after all it seems.
>>81851814will the price be worth it when their delusions of you being wonderful fade
Truth
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I'm not telling you what to feel
I'm putting your voice back in your mouth
And letting you choke on the dissonance
Your chaos
a test
The only result
Your own failure
I recognize our truth
Am Grounded in it
Not with
Not without
Together
Our own to each other
You didn't recognize
The Independence you have
The strength you embody
To do your part
In our love
Our space
You destroy
suppress
With contrast
Of your actions
To our truth
self imposed
confliction
Of what you crave
Before you were too scared to take it
Our reality
Beneath all your
Projection
Noise
>>81853679"He remembers. He sees me. He still loves me. It just is and never changed. I know that. What am I doing?"
You feel overwhelming:
Guilt
Longing
Sadness
Terror
Confliction
You know who I am. So do I.
You remember how you were when we were together.
You felt
Complete in each other
Happy, The kind only we can provide each other
Fulfilled in each other
Excited for and wanted the same
Attractive and attracted to
Caring and cared for
Lusting and lusted
Considerate and considered another all else
Understood, without question
Accepted and accepting of all
Seen, just as you saw me
Chosen, just as you chose me
Known, all of you, as you know me, all of me
Trusted by me, trusting in me
everything with me just perfect
And that scared you
To lose me
So you involuntarily Pulled away
started building walls, Distortions on me
Until here we are
So truly look at yourself
How you are?
Are you better now?
>>81853915I don't have any doubt that
YOU
are underneath all this shit you self imposed
Just as you were before With me
Because it wasn't a version of you
It is you
My Maria
My Moon
So I'll let this letter echo
Because this feeling inside you
It's the same as inside me
Our truth is felt
Long after the screen turns off
That's why everything
Feel so empty in your life
Every person That's there
Means nothing to you, there is No love
That's the only reason it feels "safe"
And the same reason You torture yourself
And have become the way you are now
The only action you need to take Is simple
Wash off that shit
Throw it in the trash where it belongs
Utilize your strength and independence
walk away from that husk of a life you sequestered yourself too
And choose
our truth
All that matters
As You remember
How I made your body feel with me
With Lust
I don't even need to say the words
For you to remember how wet I made you
How easily I made you cum just from looking at me
With Each other
With Our love
My Mike
My Sun
poetry is not for everyone
It is. The part of you that's still fighting just doesn't want it to be. Your same quiet voice that told me "it is over" Personally I'd rather just sit down to dinner and give you my meat and potatoes.
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i wish you would just go away
>>81853943Correct. As they say.. "Silence is golden".
you're so insincere and ugly
Eight years clean. You can do it as well I believe in you
This isn't about me fixing you. You've always had the power. You just buried it. You're not broken, just underwater. You're hurting. I see it. You can still return.
All I really need to tell you is that I see you. If I say more it'll come across as pushing. I'm not here to reignite the spiral, reinforce emotional dependency, or make you feel exposed so you lash out harder.
I'm here because I love you Maria
>>81854434>>81855348Best to give you space to work on it and deal with whatever this garbage is.
Our truth doesn't change. That's what truth is.
ehe
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your standards and bar are so low your affection means nothing and i find it disrespectful, actually.
>>81855992im not your spic girlfriend, faggot
>>81856148Didn't say you were, just that you were possibly garbage that needed to be dealt with
growing up as a kid i was targeted and harassed online by random witch hunt online strangers because of the police's report that i wasn't even aware of and was oblivious to.
when i was 17 they hacked my computer while i was masturbating my phimosis dick in my home bathroom to NORMAL adult port with a laptop on the bench and they recorded it and posted it on 4chan saying it was to cp. unless i was schizophrenic back then but i don't think i was. that started when i was early 20s.
that's super serious shit that the federal police should actually be worrying about except it doesn't fit your agenda, and it's the police's fault it happened. THEY ARE THE ACTUAL CRIMINALS, NOT ME
To her,
I could also just keep it light and tell you to burn lol
Better?
The lie you tell me is that my love means nothing because you think I'd give it to anyone. you say I don't respect myself or you.
But really you feel ashamed about how you acted, what you've surrounded yourself with so you project your guilt outward attempting to reframe my love as insulting so you don't have to feel unworthy or vulnerable. If you can convince yourself my love is meaningless then it won't hurt so much rejecting it.
You are lying out because you feel discomfort with being loved while feeling undeserving. And I get it. That kind of love, true love. makes you feel vulnerable.
I'm not reacting because I can see through the performance, your overwhelmed and Youre stomping your feet like a small child who knows shes done wrong but can't admit it.
All you really want is my forgiveness and are aroused by my punishment.
>>81850044 (OP)Dear R.
I masturbaited to your pictures. Sometimes I'd even chat with you before or after. It made me feel a little guilty but also your pictures were very hot.
A
I don't know why I ever overlooked your shortcomings. I suppose I wanted to lift you up alongside me, but you're too far gone. Honestly, you were never worthy of me. Move on and stop trying to contact me--it's pathetic. I'll pray for you.
B
Today's been a good day with you. You may not realize it, but I know you made an effort to do better with me today. It will be fun to chill again.
>>81857195Hey hope you're doing ok
A
>>81856277Sauce on report? You're probably safe now, bro.
SAT:
I was telling the truth
This place is such an empty void now waaa
>>81850728Tbh I'm willing you to continue living, it's my fault
>>81857298This is a terrible post. 0/10
>>81857301Then why can't we talk again?
>>81857328People come and go in life, and accepting that is an important part of maturing as a person
>>81857318this place is basically a sfw b now anyway
>>81857342Forgiveness and not burning easily mended bridges for fear of confrontation is a bigger adult lesson
>>81857357>not burning>easily mended (already burned) bridgeslogic error
>>81857342People only come and go if there is a genuine reason they must part, two people who enjoyed each other's company immensely and were good friends have no reason to part. Especially when they are both the same people as before.
>>81857374Lots of people sort of just float away. College buddies move to different states etc.
>>81857376No one has moved, everyone is where they were sitting in place.
>>81857369You see it as burnt, I do not. It's just perspective. I have kept the foundation maintained, the bridge just needs some tlc.
>>81857396Too abstract for me
>>81857411In simple terms there is no reason other than some misunderstandings and a fight. Nothing has foundationally shifted.
>>81857451Maybe that's just like your opinion, bro.
>>81857464>Maybe that's just like your opinion, bro.It's not, baiting miserable people isn't cool.
>>81857480Does the other person agree? I wasn't baiting.
>>81857489They'd think I hate them when I don't, because it was an abrupt end. They always assume the worst when they get anxious. It would be something very easily resolvable with a conversation, and an apology on my behalf. Friends fight from time to time, it's silly to burn years of friendship over that.
>>81857328stop spamming dick pics maybe?
>>81857527What did you do, originally?
Yeah, something that never happened. Insincere baiting.
>>81857538We were having a rough patch, and I became depressed, got drunk, and got emotional and miserable/angry. If I didn't get drunk and fight things would be fine, I haven't touched a single drop of alcohol since.
I've learned nothing and my behavior has only escalated. I've got this really cute, really damaged 19 year old chick in love with me and I know I'm ultimately going to hurt her more but hey, she gets naked for me on camera so that's cool. I don't feel bad about the realization that I'm just helping a victim of childhood sexual abuse traumatize herself futher and delude herself further by pretending I'm as in love with her as she is with me, I just feel empty with a slight smug satisfaction.
>>81857558That is very stereotypical abuser language, sis
>>81857575So much for not baiting
>>81857569I would believe this was a Mikepost if you had the name.
>>81857575A verbal disagreement that became angry, crying, and begging someone for help with your depression is shitty behaviour but it's not abuse. Don't worry I won't post here again, the containment thread for being pathetic is just trips or sadists holding people on derision.
>>81857716Are you working on your emotional maturity now?
>>81857742Yes, I was drunk which is why I acted like that.
>>81857747That's why I quit drinking after first thing.
>>81857374I don't want to deal with your shit anymore.
>>81857815I am no longer interested in you
>>81857595Nothing wrong with abusing her throat when it's what I want
>>81856907>>81857261And she wants me to do it to her just as badly
>>81857230No idea who A is
>>81857569holy shit are you a discord psychopath
>>81857815>>81857833Here's your last (you)
>>81857862It is best to just move on, though, don't you think?
srs
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you're selfish and any good you do is a consequence of necessity.
Juliana,
My tongue is about to meet your ass.
>>81857156You are mine I will never leave and I will never move on you begged for me and now I beg for you we are toxically bonded. Mine. Mine. Mine. I keep promises even if you do not.
Female A
>>81857569Better 19 than 16 but you do you discord mod at least she is legal and presumably graduated high school
>>81858228How old are you dear?
dear j
fuck you. youre a retarded piece of shit who uses female conversation tactics to try and make other people concede their point, then you immediately try to gaslight people into being completely innocent when youre in the wrong. its a good thing im never coming back to x, because i wouldnt be able to resist the fucking urge to wrap my hands around your neck, you limpwristed, cocksucking faggot.
dear a
fuck you i wish you would try and kill me and i might just like it
>>81858169Wish I could find someone like this who wasn't 100% shit tier
>>81858460>>81858526Do you go out of your way to make your posts seem level lazier than they are?
>>81858620>>81858526>>81858383>leveleven
Dear M:
I hope you cheer up.
T
>>81858460>gaslightThis term is overused
>>81855992Qrd on Maria? Is this a Hispanic board?
>>81858706Nothing relevant to you.
>>81858652>This term is overusedIt's not used enough
This struggle you are dealing with is internal and not a true reflection of who I am, but a fiction you are creating to decieve yourself to escape accountability of your own feelings towards me.
Recognize the amount of activity you've done today towards me, comments made, threads made.
Clearly a large amount more energy you output towards me than I did towards you.
Can you recognize how you are the obsessive one towards me?
>>81858717every foid on earth says it when someone so much as sneezes in their direction wrong. a gun should pop out of the screen and shoot anyone who says narcissist or gaslighting, they are the most overused pop psych terms for someone i dislike
You know what I'll do to you when you come over.
Have fun rationalizing how your body reacts to me taking you in every way
As I break you, how does your mind change in that moment looking into my eyes
What are you thinking in that moment I pump inside you slamming your body against the wall.
>>81858812Do you often have people tell you that you're gas lighting them?
I'll post something thats been on my mind for a couple of weeks I guess.
Though I'm terribly scared of you, there's always the thought of "What if she didn't hate me?" Floating in the back of my head. Though we don't know one another. Not really, we just have ideas of how the other person is. I've had others in the meantime. The things I wish I could be saying to you. Sweet nothings, pillow talk who we were in years gone by. I want to get to know you properly and be near you. I regret my hostility. I have no clue as to who you are. It frustrates me endlessly. There is a hole in my soul that can only be fulfilled by your approval. I want to run and scream. My stomach turns and there is nothing I can do. The lengths I've gone to push you away with my words in person. Every night I wish I was with you. I regret hurting your emotions. I wish you weren't outright cruel to me. And now all I want is to be yours. I turned my life around. No shoplifting, i started being around people, dating women, the few I have, who I wish were you instead of wasting my time with them. I have a electrical trade course that I goto now, so for once I have a path forward. The things I want to ask you about yourself. Where you grew up, what you want to do, where you want to go. What do you do for fun and why you do it. Your favorite colour, what you like most about your favorite foods. Show me that there is a nicer side to the place we live. Dear god i want to take you away from here, this site, this city, the people you have to deal with all the time and just grow sick of. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Your smile torments me, it healed me for one part. And it's lingering beauty is haunting me. Could i ever apologize? Would you believe me if i did? Would you ever believe me if you held you hand to my chest, under all the layers of clothes, feeling my warmth, my breath and my heart, looked into my eyes and asked me outright? Do I feel something? Yes. Absolutely yes.
you all seem rly gaslit rn
I can see what YOU are going through.
I can see your emotional collapse, disassociating from accountability, swinging violently between despair, projection, twisted humor, and hope
I'll let the tape run some more and see you on the other side.
>>81850044 (OP)Oh hey it was a massive mike thread. Hope he isn't feeling shitty
garbage posts, garbage people, garbage lives. i don't speak to whores.
>>81858993I feel great. Had a good day in the beach relaxing.
Reading "the terror" lounging in the sun. Drew up schematics for furniture and building as well. Menards run tomorrow for hardware and then make some sparks fly in the garage.
Thanks for asking!
>>81859016In second grade I read a rhyme in a Lincoln joke book. I memorized it and could recall it by heart now so many years later. It feels appropriate and at your level for how childish you're acting.
You love yourself
You think you're grand
You go to the movies and hold your hand
You wrap your hand around your waist
And when you get fresh you slap your face
Stop hitting yourself
>>81859045You know Mike, you aren't a bad person. You are the least worst tripfag here. You seek closure and you seek someone you love. You aren't outwardly malicious though. I have no beef with you.
I've written about this before, but you never heard me sing once. I guess I'm happy about that at this point, it'll be nice to save it for someone special.
I often listen to your old vocaroos and voice messages you've sent me. It makes me feel good to hear how happy and smiley you were at the time. Even if those times are over, I still want to enjoy them. You're no longer here but I don't ever want to forget your voice or how you made me feel. I miss you so much it hurts.
>>81859075I think you have the wrong idea.
>>81859067I hope whoever hears your voice can appreciate it for its honest beauty.
>>81859020No worries man, you sound like you've got alot of emotions to get out there. And its good to keep busy.
>>81859062I am. Though my physicality, my aggression, my deviancy make me feel a constant build of heat, hands, and hunger.
>>81858901concern trolling cunts aren't anonymous. try a different angle for different people
>>81859144Nah, not so much my emotions.
It is more caretaking hers because I'm the only one who sees her.
>>81859173I still respect you for not being outwardly evil like many.
>>81857156In this summer heat I say the Aisu Tea goes best with Bigu Boba Balls
>>81859134Thanks, I hope so too.
I keep thinking about how a couple months back my ex girlfriend/ fiance comforted me from an anonymous account after my world crumbled beneath me. (Dont ask how I know, it's complicated) I was a huge jerk to her during and after we were together and I absolutely wouldn't have done the same for her. I still feel so guilty for treating her that way even though all she wanted the best for me the entire time.
sometimes I think about the robot adventure we never finished. I was ready to play however you wanted
Dear mom, dad,
Mom, I remember when you would sing to me before a bed as a kid, you would sing, Over the Rainbow. I would dream of all the things I wanted to do when I grew up. Remember how the first thing I ever said I wanted to do when I grew up was be a dog catcher? It's such a dumb random thing to do with my life, but you told me that I could if it made me happy. As I got a older I course realized I wanted to be more than that. I thought I would be too. I wish I could have lived up to your expectations of me. They weren't even high, just for me to be happy and healthy. I'm the opposite. Dad, I remember when we used to go ever Friday to eat at Boston Market when I was younger. You would let me get Mountain Dew because mom didn't like me having it. When I was even younger you'd let me drag you to McDonald's even though we both hated the food, just so I could go in the little play area. I loved spending time with you. I know as I got older I became a more isolated, I know you felt like I didn't want to spend any time with you or mom, I know it hurt your feelings how bad I wanted to be off on my own. I never stopped wanting to spend time with either of you, I just withdrew a bit by age thirteen I had so much going on in my head causing so much internal turmoil that it was so hard to be present. I should've said something back then when things started to go downhill. I'm in so much pain. I've felt so alone for so long even though I had you, there's something in me that just makes me always feel uncared regardless. I feel too many painful things but one of them is feeling like I have nobody and nobody would notice if I slipped out of existence. I'm sorry I feel that way even though you're right there and always have been. I don't know what's going to happen. Honestly, it doesn't seem too good, but I'll keep trying. Whatever happens I want you to know. Mom, dad, I love you both and you are the best parents any son could have asked for, I'm sorry I'm failing you.
These are just threads for bad larping but I hope some of you can move on from your various traumas if real
i don't think you'll ever figure it out
>>81862783Your either her or the one with her. Done.
Using an obscure name with no trip to make vague posts doesn't make you seem mysterious, it just comes across as crazy or childish (and nobody cares - not even me)
>>81862932>>81862783Does this character just reply to xisself in every thread
Imagine holding a grudge against someone for over 15 years
Glad my bf is strapped. You'll never hurt me
I'm strapped and hung lol. If you stay down there that's on you.
Disengage. She's got her whackin stick out and looking for wounds to pour salt in. This is the bounce back from her remembering me and seeing me again yesterday.
Maria, I won't feed your collapse
You are your own person. I want that.
If you makes posts about me, larping and projecting realize that is your deal not mine.
I'm putting the words here for you for later once you start doing your thing again.
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I can hear your pain, how you don't know how to stop, and even when you want peace, that you're so used to drowning that you flail just to feel something. No one offers you a way out that doesn't feel like judgment.
Holding yourself emotionally hostage and constantly checking to see if I come forward, can I see you? Can I pull you out of it?
The truth is I gave you the mirror and the memory and now you're in the echo chamber of your emotion.
I need you to realize that no amount of flailing, punishing, or performance will get you back to me. You have to stop and stand still again. Live in the solace of our truth, our promise.
I know you feel like you don't know how to get out of this emotional loop. How everything feels like drowning and you don't know what to do except flail.
You want to stop the pattern, have our connection again. But you also want to punish and be punished because you don't know how to ask for peace without losing control.
I won't feed your collapse. I'm the man you remember, the one who loves you
Unwanted, trapped, unloved, ashamed.
You want me to see you without having to ask
dear mike,
i am with 47, and much happier now. he actually cares about me. you can stop posting. i'm never coming back. if you try anything funny his dad is a cop and will beat you up. or shoot you. i hope you are able to find someone else and move on with your life. anyone else claiming to be me or anything different is just an evil narcissist out to get you and make you suffer.
best, maria.
>>81863430Prove it. Message me so we can be done.
>>81863256*I don't want you to feel unwanted, trapped, unloved, ashamed
In any case I care about you.
It's always up to you to choose to come back or not
I will not be threatened.
I don't give a fuck who anyone says they are.
I would beat him up and shoot him just as easily.
>>81858169Probably different anon, but never made A any promises that weren't predicated upon reciprocity,
>>81857851It is a placeholder for "anyone" or "anon"
Let me know how you messaged me. If I don't hear from you then I know it's a troll or 47 being a pos
to: B
This thread is a honeypot
from: C
Creating distance is the healthy thing to do right now and I will do it but it hurts and it kinda fucking sucks if I'm being honest
>>81850044 (OP)Dear K
Why are you in my dream again? CAN YOU PLEASE STOP MAKING ME THINK OF YOU? I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS. Please I don't want to stalk you
>>81863976When did society become so fucking gay? "Creating distance"? Why do you need euphemisms for literally everything? Just leave her alone, psycho.
>>81863430I do care about you.
I don't care who you are with or whatever that entails.
It is always your choice to come home.
It's not worth reacting to garbage like this. I will not be threatened.
>>81864001>heryou know nothing and will continue to know nothing
Dear Pole,
You thought I'd fly into your cage and stay there? What kind of retarded bird does that? You wanted to catch me and keep me? You thought you could? No, I don't care about politics. No I don't care about your shitty little problems. No I don't want to read whole fucking novels on text. I fly free, and what's more, you failed to see I was a bird of prey. You never had a hope of taming me.
>>81864033Just leave him alone, psycho
I shouldn't of reacts to what is 99% likely to be a troll. If I hear from you I will know different.
What I do know is everything you said yesterday and I trust those words over a single post planted here today to get a rise out of me.
>>81863850i'm not going to message you again. my boyfriend won't let me. the only way i can get ahold of you is on here. if you continue wasting your time that's on you. i'm washing my hands of this and you can live how you choose to live. i won't feel guilty anymore.
best, maria
>>81864039Bird hunting? While I say my good fellow, that sounds like a jolly fine idea. Indubitably old sport. *bam bam bam*
>>81864202Lol bullshit
Then I know you are a troll and not her
If you were really her and messaged me directly I'd walk away forever. Really that simple. Because you are a troll or someone wanting to sabotage us I know you are not capable of having any of my info like email, phone number or able to message me from her discord we og talked on. I know it is better to trust her over your empty decievements.
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yeah im sure you would and wouldn't delude yourself into believing she's being controlled.. not at all, that wouldn't be in character, bollocks..
Fuck off 47. I'm not going to assume if you are even involved at this point. If you are a pos abuser then that is on you and she can live with that if that's her choice.
For all I know 47 is a troll or even Maria using this mask to deal with her stuff.
It doesn't matter.
Maria knows me.
She knows I am honest and would 100% keep my word. I care about her and value her as an individual so if she tells me directly then I would respect that.
She deserves to be independent and not feel pressured or harassed.
I would never want to make her perceive me in a way I am not.
Dear Adrijus
I wish I was exactly like Ibuki from BA, a 12 year old girl. Maybe you would not have cheated on me if I was a child. I was willing to act like Shondo for you I was willing to do anything for my lolicon boyfriend yet you used me hurt me wasted a year with me and abandoned me twice.
Maria, I'm doing my best to navigate this with you. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes.
yall are really goin through it in this one, huh?
>>81865430Hi, I was just thinking of you. How are you?
It's a gorgeous day out. Headed to Menards to pick up some bolts and drill bits. Then to the garage to make sparks
Juliana,
The sexy Christina Applegate for the modern age.
Moids here are weaker than on X imagine wanting to kill someone with morphine that is baby shit.
learn to keep it to yourself, incontinent pig.
>>81867036Go back to middle school kid. The adults are talking.
For perspective, I've counted 7 posts so far.
>>81865616my answer is going to depend entirely on who this is
>>81867199ohhhh. how do I know if I'm on the good boy list? You lied to me and told me you'd play elden ring.
>>81867245you've never done anything to put you on anything but the good boy list. really i just wanted to make sure it wasn't doom. im sorry that i haven't played er. i haven't played anything lately.. or really done much of anything but bedrot lately. i hope that you've had better luck with productivity than i have
>>81867362your name is clever
im not paying any attention to the shit in the letter thread but its clever and you should feel clever
>>81867362Sadly I haven't been very productive lately. I don't have anyone to encourage me to try my best or put me back together again. I hope you feel better soon.
So if I stick around because I see what you're going through behind the posts attacking me i'm a simp and even though the reason I stick around is because I know what's going on that's causing you to make them and that it has nothing to do with me it causes more lashing out to create distance.
If I give distance then I make you feel abandoned.
So is it worse to communicate this to you or not?
i'm having food soon. u jollo? lol yeah u jollo
>>81869214I jollo. I miss food.
>>81869214What're you having, anon? I figure I'm going a bit crazy and will eat red curry as a breakfast now.
>>81869318Falling for the bait now, Mike? How's the welding going? I just bought my first Makita hand drill but I think I might have bought a fake one. The power tool was just rattling inside the cardboard box without any foam or anything to keep the drill in place, is that normal? Maybe Makita is just cheaping out on its customers but this packaging feels knockoff-ish. I really hate this trend of cheap products that aren't worth repairing. I may have to start a business around open hardware heirloom quality household products made of quality material like metal and wood. Grippy plastics give me the ick.
>>81869399I got further!
Planned obsolescence sucks balls.
What is it about silicone that feels so fucking gross??? I get that same ick!
R
Same as this guy
>>81856791 (except zero guilt in my case)
>>81869524I think the worst part of that kind of grippy plastic is that some of them deteriorate into some nasty goo that smells and sticks to the hand after touching it. I rather have metal handles with knurling on them same as on barbells. I'm pretty sure the nasty plastic is no silicone tho as it should be more stable over time. This business with nasty, grippy handles is one of the reasons I'm switching to using mostly bits with the 1/4 inch drive to avoid buying anything with these nasty grippy handles that either get sticky or stinky after a couple of years or use. We have a drawer full of stinky screw-drivers that we call "the stinky drawer" and everyone knows what I'm talking about because every time I accidentally open that drawer I almost faint from the nasty smell. I guess we should really toss them because no-one can stand using them but it's company property so no-one cares to do anything about it.
>>81865430https://youtu.be/QNYT9wVwQ8A?si=OWQiFT6cOo0o0u6B
>>81869780Stinky drawer lol. Gotta sleep. Good talk!
>>81869958https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AqY7fMJjqU
>>81870165https://youtu.be/ck5ajshN2sU?si=ebVsdkhCWR_3k7r4
But it's my birthday.
>>81870165Oh no way its neil
>>81870244https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_mXICsJtUo
>>81870334https://youtu.be/eGdNuSjso3M?si=K3k5mS2DrLA8-pNY
Not the real me.
>>81870442https://youtu.be/PtzhvJh9NRY?si=qo5rUoQTYU8RTNpq
>>81870656https://youtu.be/TRUm7fLz5pQ?si=w1UKEHYJFA7_Beul
https://youtu.be/IWF4pNNB8CM?si=kIWhxId4Z_2L9azo
>>81871075i had already liked this video.
>>81863996Keep me in your dreams chile for in dreams you can have as much of me as you desire
Forever yours
>>81871129https://youtu.be/XzYmNDJhuxg?si=S5qaeH26AfsUJLFg
i can't believe the nigga name is yu kum
You have made choices that have seriously undermined our relationship.
Please come back please contact me. I am sorry please let me serve you. I need to know why I was not good enough for you. Why did you cheat on me? Why did you contact me only to leave me again? Why do you not answer your emails? I am obsessed with you
>>81859075I will never smile until you come back to me. You took my happiness with you for granted.
honestly is all i ask for. everything about you is hidden behind so many walls, it's annoying navigating anything with you. it rather feels like you offload that thinking onto me and i'm stuck deciphering your, virtually, incomprehensible garbage.
stop being a weird faggot
>>81871261https://youtu.be/U7gbFMWZWlo?si=oyvsdYoICWetn3vT
>>81874739The truth is I don't need to. I value who I am and don't need to look for your projections and lashing out.
I'll say this once. I know my value, I know my worth. If you cheat. I'm not interested
i'm going to kill this guy
>>81876125If you are dating her you're going to have to get that under control because the posts are about me. That's really obvious. Good luck with that bud
If you are her your projections, assumptions, obsession, and chasing me is really obvious.
I remember what you look like when I make you cum. How it happened so often that your pussy hurt. When you told me I make you feel things you've never felt before. How you had to look away from my cock to try to stop yourself from coming. When you told me about how your pussy twitched whenever you thought of me. You told me how you didn't just want my cum, You needed it and begged me to touch yourself to me cumming inside you
The phrasing wasn't just "cumming inside you"
It was "feeling every pump of your cum inside filling me up"
crazy
md5: 67abc9744b36954fc11862989338cfcd
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people talk to me, i talk to people, i overhear people, i more often than not leave these situations disappointed then i come on here to whine and complain about their behavior and attitudes, i'm not your girlfriend, she left you. you're jizzing your pants to the posts of a little boy cat.
a really innocent one too so that makes you double bad
>>81877088So that makes you the cuck who is completely outside of the situation of her and me and are just reacting to it as she constantly makes post about me.
Cool.
So I'll be bad and ruin your innocence.
Wonder why you keep thinking about where I jizz?
The truth is I leave you to feel how you truly feel about me and your constant posts about me is a fight against your inner reaction to what I mean to you. a defensive mechanism because of your feelings for me. When you drive me away will those feelings go away? Will that make you feel better or just exacerbate your guilt over the distance and time we lost? You Tell me to stop and abandon you when all you want is me to stay and show I accept you, truly love you, that I'm real.
The best thing I can do is let you feel how you actually feel.
So I'm going to do that, Maria.
If you falsely project, criticize, accuse, judge loudly enough, often enough. Will I respond to show I still love you and alleviate your pain without you having to show that you're committed to me? That you still love me?
When I'm gone will the feelings disappear? Or will the guilt only grow, buried beneath silence, distance, and pride.
I see your heart even when you try to cover it in thorns. I won't perform for your pain.
If you want me it has to be you, not your fear, who comes forward.
Feel how you feel Maria.
Btw here on record is a threat against my life.
Juliana,
You made me cum again.
>>81877830>everything is about menarcy moment (sad!)
>>81878112Not the first time 47 has threatened my life.
Not interested in hearing him justify threats towards me.
Anyways what I said to Maria is what matters.
How she feels about me.
The rest is just noise.
Oh, I almost forgot truth telling time. Let me be clear. You're a disgusting traitorous whore after EVERYTHING I did for you
baits vs schizos, who will win?
>>81879055baits are super effective against schizos like in pokemon