Thread 81853122

28th birthday today, worked out and all that shit, got a degree, I genuinly tried to make things work but Im at thn end of my rope now. Gonna kill myself tomorrow. Hike out deep into the woods and blow my head off.
Thanks for the company over the years

>>81853122 (OP)
>Gonna kill myself tomorrow
I'm so sick and tired of you people idc if you're killing yourself or not, ur thread is just spam at this point

>>81853206
What he said. OP nobody cares about you and if you are dead or not. Do it, Don't do it. Don't expect anyone to shed any tears retard.

>>81853122 (OP)
Write a note for your parents with notes on your upbringing

>>81853206
>>81853247
Fair enough, sorry a tranny thread had to die for my blogpost
>>81853280
No point, wouldn't care.

>>81853303
You or your parents wouldn't care?

>>81853122 (OP)
Why doe originally

>>81853122 (OP)
Hey anon, I'm in the same boat, actually I am also turning 28 today. I don't have any advice, but I hope you're at peace with your decision. I thought I was going to do the same, but I just don't care at all about anything. Even suicide seems like too much effort. Godspeed to you

>>81853318
Parents would just think I didn't pull on my bootstraps hard enough.
>>81853350
I failed at starting a family, still a virgin with no experience and honestly just a genetic dead--end.
>>81853512
I'll be at peace surrounded by nature

>>81853122 (OP)
Why post this? It's obvious you just feel trapped, not that you want to. Unironically succeeding in life is just meeting people. Hope you find the strength to keep going, if not then on the slim chance you've seen one of my posts-- I hope I've made you life just a little bit funner.

>>81853568
Parents are usually harsher than they want to be to teach some sort of moral lesson, i can guarantee that they will get very sad when they hear the news. Also not having started a family at 28 is very common (as in the majority), in the west atleast

>>81853629
Just an alternative to leaving behind a note no one would read really. Just my small 'Hey I existed'.
>>81853636
I got siblings so I don't feel too bad about it, just the main fuck up removing himself. Also you skipped over the virgin with no experience part.

>>81853122 (OP)
things didn't really take off for me until my 30s

>>81853568
>i exist only to serve an inanimate piece of code
literal NPC

>>81853765
If you have siblings, leave a note for them atleast. Also i strongly doubt that you're such a fuck up, then you wouldn't be posting here since you would be in jail or overdosing on fent. Also women are a temporary pleasure very few men are able to enjoy fully since they're very annoying with most men, you really shouldn't feel all that bad about that

>>81853765
Nta, but I'm also a virgin in my late 20s with no prospects of ever losing it unless I hookermax
I'm literally unable to interact with other people normally, let alone women
I have no idea if it's social anxiety or whatever, all I know it's incurable
I wish I didn't live in a country with cucked gun laws

>>81853629
There is no success or failure in life, only cope. Meeting people is a good cope though. Most of it is just showing up with some consistency.

>>81853837
Don't know, always wanted to have a family, was pretty much my main motivation to pursue my degree and work hard after that became obvious I tried the career cope but didn't pan out either.
>>81853855
Wouldn't know what to say to them other than sorry for disappearing. Fuck up is a matter of perspective but I failed at what I cared about and what I tried to force myself to care about.
>>81853869
I hope you find success or peace anon, whichever you desire.

>>81854061
Have you tried getting your siblings to set you up with some girl

>>81853122 (OP)
happy bday froganon we're almost the same age as each other

>>81854138
Asked my sister indirectly at one point but she just game me some spiel about how I will find someone eventually. Obviously didn't. Awkward autists into biology aren't in high demand.
>>81854228
Thanks anon!

>>81853568
>I failed at starting a family, still a virgin with no experience and honestly just a genetic dead--end.
28 isn't too late. Most people nowadays start a family at around 30. My brother got his first kid at 29.
Plus you are a woman. You have an easier time finding a partner.

>>81854313
I am a guy, sorry to burst your bubble.

>>81854313
>>81854388
lol actually chuckled

>>81853122 (OP)
I understand and empathize with you, anon. I will be 25 in less than a month, and I'm reaching the end of my rope. Tried way too many times to live the normie life, but it failed everytime. Still a virgin, jobless, diagnosed schizo and bipolar on anti-psychotic meds and just an all-around loser. Used to visit this spot near my parent's place last year, and was thinking of throwing myself off a bridge.

But, I wanna say, that you shouldn't do it. I hate saying cliche shit like "It will get better" because obviously that isn't always true. But, I'll just say that the only thing thats kept me from taking my life is the thought of going to "hell" or some horrible place in the afterlife.

>>81853122 (OP)
nigga don't kill yourself. become addicted to caffeine instead, that cured MY depression.

>>81854590
Yeah, the idea of hell kinda freaks me out even though I'm not religious, not gonna lie.
>>81854644
Did that when I was studying. Getting a headache if you skip your morning coffee isn't fun. Not sure how that fixed your depression, but I'm happy for you that it did.

>>81854550
>one of the only empathetic replies
>he only wrote it because he thought op was a woman and immediately abandons the thread when his assumption is corrected
being born a man should qualify you for disability payments for life

Hey anon, sincere question, why don't you go to a different country and try to restart a life there, maybe get a virtual job that pays decently in your country, but in a poorer country? Your foreign income means more. I'm sure you'll get something there.

>>81853122 (OP)
I'm the same age as you, got a degree too, been trying too...but still anxious, depressed, and alone. I can relate to you in some ways OP. I'm glad this board has given you something over the years, even if it was just a place to laugh or vent or some shit. I'll see you on the other side if you are dead-set on this. But I really hope you reconsider. Keep on fighting, this world needs you a while longer.

>>81853122 (OP)
Don't kill yourself, bitch!

>>81854890
Would I be less of an off putting loser in some other place though? I get that some guys are opting for that route but I can't see it working. Also no idea where I should even go.
>>81854913
I hate that the whole 'you'll be here forever' thing turned out true for me. I hope you can turn things around. Honestly I just want the years back I wasted studying. Was for nothing in the end.

>>81855001
i mean, With a little money, I'm sure that in countries like Colombia you can do a lot in these areas. Don't expect them to love you for your personality, but I'm sure they'll listen to you. It's also proven that a reboot helps develop other aspects of your personality, and maybe that way you'll find someone who loves you the way you want to be loved, you know?

>>81855001
Again, I can relate. It's been almost ten years. I never thought i'd be here more than a couple. And almost a wizard too. It's shit. Sometimes it feels like this is going to be it forever. But we never truly know I guess. I hope things turn around but I admit it does seem unlikely at this point. At least you studied. I mostly spent those years masturbating, over-eating, and playing vidya when I should have been studying. I only barely scraped through because of this. And haven't really grown up since.

>>81853122 (OP)
Godspeed, even if you pussy out and live on. I wish I had the resolve to do the same. Am 27, college dropout, years-long NEET failure. I've gotten accustomed to the empty feeling in my soul and the lack of genuine human connection, so I forget how much my life sucks a lot of the time. I can't wait to return to the state of nonexistence I was in before I was born
>>81855109
>And haven't really grown up since
It's so jarring how I still feel like that 19 year old on summer break from college, just more numb, while many people my age already have kids, wives and homes

>>81853122 (OP)
Happy birthday. I know how you feel. Sometimes I wish my life would just end. Things just suck.
You know what's weird, lately I laugh more at people getting hurt and shit, that ever happen to someone? Some switch inside me like got flipped or something

>>81854388
It's still not too late

>>81855104
Feels like it's just too late anyway. Not like I'm really interested in moving to some foreign country with lower standard of living for the off chance that something might happen.
>Don't expect them to love you for your personality
Yeah don't think I could be with someone who just sees me as a potential ticket to leaving their country.
>>81855109
>>81855150
I can relate to the no feeling like you haven't grown up since then. Even if outwardly I have my shit mostly in order. Feels like something somewhere just snapped at some point and I stopped progressing.
>>81855159
Nice frog. I can relate to empathy decreasing. I don't feel happy about other people being harmed but kinda apathetic to it.

General question before I fuck off, should I leave a note saying I'm gone, don't look for me, I'll be dead when you read this etc. or not? Mostly worried about family struggling to pronounce me dead and insurance stuff. I don't think they'll find me, I plan to hike way out into the mountains before I kill myself. Off of any trails.

>>81855316
It would be courteous to leave a note, don't have to make it a big thing, just simple explanation

>>81855328
I'll just leave one that says I killed myself. Don't want to really explain myself anymore.

>>81855470
Suit yourself. Good luck with the after life, hope your soul goes somewhere good.

>>81855470
based frogposter, surely theres things you havent tried/done yet, i know youre tired, we all are, some blame women, some blame the j00s, but i think in the end everyone is the same, noone has their shit together, even the most stable looking couples are just masking
wish i had some sage advise but man i wish i could go back to being 28, it did not get any easier with time, I wish you well on your travels, or at least i hope you have a nice hike

>>81853122 (OP)
happy birthday anon. im sorry things are so rough. i dont blame you for wanting to leave this cold and cruel world, and i hope better things await you on the other side. godspeed anon

>>81853122 (OP)
>>81855104
>OP is suicidal
>"just go to Colombia bruh"
So in both timelines either he dies or he dies.

>>81855713
yes, but one is dying with an adventure

>>81855750
>dead in the midst of redwood forest
>dead in the midst of rainforest
Actually both kek

>>81853122 (OP)
Yoo nice frog pictures my guy. Don't kill yourself though that's cringe

>>81853122 (OP)
Sayonara, see you on the other side
hope you find peace in your final moments

>>81853247
most useless comment you coud've written clearly you're about 26 years old and still live in your parents house. The last time you had a shower was likely a month ago and your room smells like ass and you probably weight around 140 kg