>>81863503Anon, my mother started using drugs at some point after I was born. Maybe it was a few years, maybe it was a decade, idk I don't remember. It ruined her. She disappeared after the divorce and only came back like two decades later and missing a body part due to a bone infection from what I presume is a dirty needle, idk the details. I did ask, but I don't believe I got the full story, as it was literally "I fell down the stairs".
I didn't have any memory of her in my conscious mind, but I recognized her and recoiled due to what I presume is simply subconscious memories blocked out. More on that later.
You already know about addiction and withdrawal, and tolerance, but there's something called hyperalgesia: sensitivity to pain due to opioid use. I bring this up because drugs can affect you even after you become utterly stone cold sober.
Now, to resume, I've seen it first-hand ruin a person. I'm going to stop with the details here as I think I've verified enough for you, but please, for your own sake, stop the drugs before it's too late. A neutral life of feeling bleh is better than an utterly ruined life.
>>81865423They ghost you because they're rejecting either you, conversation with you, or interaction with you. I would end relations with you as well upon discovery you're an addict, because if I grow attached I will have to see another person ruin themselves and be unable to do anything and that's painful. Or they will ruin things themselves by asking me for money or help (in a different way than a friend would normally ask for help, you know what I'm talking about). The sooner you cut things off, the less hurt you will be when dealing with an addict. I would at least tell you why I'd be ending things so you wouldn't be left in the dark were I to do so IRL at least, so I guess it wouldn't be ghosting, but still.
