heya anon. how are you today? whats on your mind? have you been playing anything new?

>>81873834 (OP)
the new patch for oblivion remaster just droppped once I am done going crazy on nikke

ima check it out

they optimized the settings to increase fps for pc users

the only downside is they still have this weird stutter bug going on

really annoying

>>81873834 (OP)
I've recently been playin' this awesome game called Aristocunts. It's breddy gud

>>81873834 (OP)
I've been playing a lot of Blitz Royale and have racked up (mostly) 70 solo wins. I know people shit on Fortnite but the movement is great and no-builds are fun. Plus you can play it without having to pay for PS+.

>>81873834 (OP)
the only thing ive managed to play the last few days is a few minutes of geometry dash since its zero commitment or energy. ive been putting alot of thought into where id like to die if my mental health declines far enough. i hope youre well taoposter

>>81873841
ive actually never played oblivion, but the npc interactions ive seen will forever be engraved in my mind.
>they optimized the settings to increase fps for pc users
consolefags btfo
>>81873845
huh. sounds funny. what's the game about?
>>81873852
ive had my fortinite phase too in the past, though i mostly played the save the world mode cause i dislike pvp. nowdays i basically dont play shooters anymore im too old for that
>movement is great
what do you think about apex legends?
>>81873859
>ive been putting alot of thought into where id like to die if my mental health declines far enough.
oh... im sorry you feel so bad anon. if you wanna vent about stuff i'll listen to you. which places are you thinking of?
>i hope youre well taoposter
well... im as good as it gets. i wish i turned into a rock

>>81874019
>oh... im sorry you feel so bad anon. if you wanna vent about stuff i'll listen to you. which places are you thinking of?
thats just life ig. there is a big wind farm near me. i find the area really pretty in winter when its snowy and spring when its green, so its my #1 spot rn. i dont have much to vent about, ive been shutting my brain off with alcohol and benedryl too much to think
>well... im as good as it gets. i wish i turned into a rock
aw:( im sorry you feel that way, i understand it tho, i feel that way alot too.

>>81874019
Blitz mode is really fun because it's much faster paced.

I played Apex when it first came out and got to platinum? Or diamond? I don't remember which. I started out maining Wraith then switched to Octane. I actually quite grew to hate that game as a console player because PC players had such an unfair advantage. Fortnite in general just feels much more polished. I was a big Tribes fan, so my slide strats are on point.

Anyway, I've also been replaying KOTOR for the millionth time, since I found out it's possible to mod it on Android. Have been having a lot of fun making that crusty old game look beautiful.

>>81873834 (OP)
Playing sims 2. I still want to die due to missing my ex.i wish i knew what their mental problem with me was so i could help them. Cannot cut myself as parents hid the razors and knives.

>>81874067
>so its my #1 spot rn. i dont have much to vent about, ive been shutting my brain off with alcohol and benedryl too much to think
i see. thats okay. the place sounds nice, i was thinking for a place somewhere in the mountains for myself. hopefully we wont need to go there anytime soon though.
>aw:( im sorry you feel that way, i understand it tho, i feel that way alot too.
you wanna be a rock too anon?
>>81874087
>I actually quite grew to hate that game as a console player because PC players had such an unfair advantage
yeah, same. i played it a lot on console at the time and i honestly was pretty proud of my movement too. then i kinda stopped playing all pvp games. bangalore is my main
>KOTOR
never heard of that, what kind of game is it?
>>81874111
try and keep yourself distracted anon, its gonna be okay. did you make any crazy looking sims? i used to make absolute aberrations when i played it

>>81873834 (OP)
i've ordered sum pizza, drinking sum juice and listening 2 music
what about u?
what r u up 2?
how was ur day?

>>81874765
>i was thinking for a place somewhere in the mountains for myself.
that does sound nice, very peaceful if far from people
>hopefully we wont need to go there anytime soon though.
ya i hope not
>you wanna be a rock too anon?
yes, itd be nice not to have to think, or do anything. itd be nice just to exist and not get hurt alot.

>>81873834 (OP)
>heya anon. how are you today?
Confused about a couple of things.

>whats on your mind?
The question of if i should go to bed early today or not.

>have you been playing anything new?
stopped really playing games a while ago.

How are you, OP?

>>81875170

also ignore the eyes, i know the one is kinda odd. Lazy too redraw

>>81874776
pizza good. i wish i could eat pizza everyday
im not doing much. played some guilty gear and some guitar. i guess today was alright all things considered, though i wish i had alcohol in the house.
>>81874855
>that does sound nice, very peaceful if far from people
yeah. and also i forgot to mention, it has to be a plce where i can see the sky. like, the clear night sky. with all the stars and galaxies and everything. i want to see a clear night sky at least once before i die. honestly the sky looks so nice even during the day. it looks like a painting that is constantly changing.
>itd be nice just to exist and not get hurt alot.
yeah... i dont even wanna be rich or whatever just being alive and well is enough. though if i was a rock i might get eroded by years and years of attrition until im nothing but dust. much like we already are doing.
>>81875170
>Confused about a couple of things.
and what are they?
>The question of if i should go to bed early today or not.
i can answer with you, and i answer yes!
>stopped really playing games a while ago.
do you not find them enjoyable anymore? i relate if so. which games did you use to play?
>How are you, OP?
im fine. yesterday i had kind of a bad episode but its over now. a really nice anon helped me get over it.

>>81875329
i forgot to say in my previous post but i think the drawing looks great anon! good job! give her a hat mayhaps.

>>81875331
>and what are they?
How do i prevent becoming a NEET?
Why does Ritalin make me compulsively raise my eyebrows until they hurt and does Zentiva not.
Do i just copy anatomy books over the weekend or not.
How long until my aphantasia is gone?
>i can answer with you, and i answer yes!
Good idea. I already have permanent eyebags but today i had ones double, if not triple the usual size. Kinda greenish too i think. Three or five hours of sleep does that to you.

>do you not find them enjoyable anymore?
Sorta burned out. I remember buying the new Factorio DLC minutes after release and playing the shit out of it for a couple of days but then it kinda became meh. Is not bad but its muh braiiinnn. I mean how can nuking a big ass magna worm be boring?
>which games did you use to play?
I actually still play games but rarely. Like weeks in between of 'binges'. Forts, Elite Dangerous, Battlefield 4, Synthetik: Legion Rising, and Barotrauma. I actually wonder how a /r9k/ Barotrauma lobby would look like. Its basically the Robot condition in video game form.
>im fine. yesterday i had kind of a bad episode but its over now. a really nice anon helped me get over it.
Moments like those happen to the best of us. Im glad that there are are still people helping others and that you snapped out of it. Those two things are not a given sadly.
We are still all going to make it.
>i forgot to say in my previous post but i think the drawing looks great anon!
Thanks. Also i didn't actually have more free time last thursday (or was it wednesday ?) so i did not do my studies. Still i found some nice material to learn from and i have all the time in the world now.
>give her a hat mayhaps.
Those drawings on on /bant/ :D
Anyways im not opposed to the idea but im not drawing on my computer so its sort of a hassle to make a small change and copy it over. i have a way to fix it but until then the version i shit out onto the internet is the one that is going to stick.

Being masochist on LoL and being depressed. That's it. Nothing interesting.

>>81873834 (OP)
I've been going through the worst period in my life so far, just pure unmotivated depression, I just don't know what to do, it feels hopeless.
Anyways though I've been playing the Uncharted games in crushing difficulty recently and they've been pretty fun

>>81875998
>I just don't know what to do, it feels hopeless.
I won't pretend like i know what you are going through but the depression goes away after a while. The hopelessness stays as long as things are shitty but once the depression starts waning you can start crawling out. Takes time and im myself only like 20% there but hey,
Also used to play the shit out of picrel. Reminds me of better times...

>>81873834 (OP)
I wanna fuck Hu Tao zombie pussy, i bet it reeks and makes you gag but i love that so much uooooooo *PLAP PLAP PLAP* GET PREGNANT UOOOOOOOOOHG *splash my cummies inside of Hu Tao* you undead slut.

>>81873834 (OP)
rape me hu Tao anon

>>81875517
>How do i prevent becoming a NEET?
>Why does Ritalin make me compulsively raise my eyebrows until they hurt and does Zentiva not.
>Do i just copy anatomy books over the weekend or not.
>How long until my aphantasia is gone?
>>i can answer with you, and i answer yes!
all good questions, unfortunately i dont have an answer for you anon. i also compulsively raise my eyebrows for whatever reason though.
>I already have permanent eyebags
same here... sometimes i think if people actually think im a drug addict or something cause these eyes make me look like im one. some normalfags also say stuff like "oh i see you had fun yesterday night haha" and i just die on the inside every time.
>playing the shit out of it for a couple of days but then it kinda became meh
yea same thing with me. i hyperfixate over something new and lose interest within days. i wish i could enjoy singleplayer games again
>We are still all going to make it
there's no winners without losers anon
>Still i found some nice material to learn from and i have all the time in the world now.
humu, then next time u better come back with an even better drawing!
>Those drawings on on /bant/ :D
hehe yeah. i wish i could post on the current drawthread, but i have literally no drawings to post. and i suck at drawing. ill be very grateful if you give her a hat though!
>>81875741
been there anon, try your best to delete that game from your brain if you can
>>81875998
sorry to hear that anone. its going to be okay. you just have to power through the bad days. you can do it!
>Uncharted
very fun games. i played them for the story mostly though
>>81876109
you mean the song by nirvana? yeah i can play that

hi anony. i've been feeling a bit overwhelmed lately...

>>81876147
>been there anon, try your best to delete that game from your brain if you can
It's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm achieving something. But I'll tell you this: it's not exclusively LoL, I can't achieve and improve and get good or somewhere with anything I tried. So whenever I feel (even more) depressed because of LoL, it would happen with any other thing.

>>81876048
It comes in waves for me, sometimes I'm fine and feel good. But it's like when I stop to think about things it just hits me. I think it's because I'm unemployed, I used to have a decent job but I needed to travel all the time for it and I didn't want to do it anymore. But now it feels like I just need to start completely over and I just don't know what to do. I have savings to live off of but I just feel like a loser.
The Nathan drake collection and the legacy of thieves one were on sale so I bought both. Looking forward to playing u4 again, its the only mainline game I only played once when it released so alot of it will be fresh playing it now

>>81876147
>there's no winners without losers anon
Life is not a zero sum game. Especially in just social situations. It often doesn't seem that way, especially when normalfags are involved, but i still think that in most cases everybody can win.
>ill be very grateful if you give her a hat though!
Noted. I have a funny idea too. You'll see once its done sometime during the weekend.
>but i have literally no drawings to post. and i suck at drawing
Everybody starts with shitty doodles they are embarrassed of. You don't have to post them but if you want to doodle something just do it, really. And im also completely serious when i say that 90% of artists fail because they simply don't pick up the pencil.

https://youtu.be/fkeTThWLspc
(very nice musician btw, "Grab the Wheel" is a must listen)

I would say im going to bed right but im vibing to music instead. But we'll see how long i can keep this up.

>>81876192
If it brings you any comfort i don't know how to start right now either. You are not struggling alone. Feel free to update us when something happens, maybe that could help.

Ah shit nvm im going to sleep. My eyes don't want to stay open.

Gn m8'ts

>>81876482
goodnighty anon
sleep tighty

>>81876151
hello anon. what's got you feeling that way?
>>81876180
>I can't achieve and improve and get good or somewhere with anything I tried
so why do you choose to play LoL over the other things? if they're all the same, and they all make you feel miserable then why LoL specifically? besides, games are games anon, getting better at them is overrated. i think a lot of people nowdays forget that games are supposed to be fun.
>>81876192
>But it's like when I stop to think about things it just hits me.
i get you anon, i think its this way for a lot of people, hence why always try to keep ourselves distracted... you have no one to rush you in starting over though. take your time to figure out what you want and what you wanna do!
>>81876392
>but i still think that in most cases everybody can win.
i'd love to have your positivity anon, and i'd love for the world for to prove me wrong, but so far, it hasnt.
>I have a funny idea too. You'll see once its done sometime during the weekend.
hehe. okay ill look forward to it!
>Everybody starts with shitty doodles they are embarrassed of.
yeah i know... i've just never really pictured myself as an artist. for me, art is something that i admire from far away, because i dont deem myself worthy enough of it. besides, im really really bad at being precise with my hands... i genuinely think there might be something wrong with me in that regard
thanks for the song too! good night anon

>>81876551
>what's got you feeling that way?
life just feels kind of overwhelming. it's kind of a self inflicted feeling, though. I feel like I'm not doing enough with my time and wasting it. At the same time though, I am so lazy so it's self inflicted :(

>>81873834 (OP)
Bored and empty today, a new cool update came out for Limbus Company yesterday but I finished all the content and now have nothing to do.

Overall I've been feeling pretty empty and directionless, wish I had more meaningful connections but don't feel like I'm on the same wavelength as others and always get disappointed when I try.

Haven't seen anything worth playing but if you have a recommendation I'd hear you out, I like games centered around combat and with good narratives, the format doesn't matter much.

>>81873834 (OP)
You dare be amicable with me? I will rip your scrotum through your esophagus.

>>81876664
i get the feeling you're talking about anon, i feel that way often aswell, but it goes away. you just gotta get through it and i know you can! its fine to do nothing sometimes. dont need to always be working towards stuff
>>81877378
>limbus company
tried that game but its so damn hard honestly. was fun though
>wish I had more meaningful connections
me and you both anon. it is what it is i guess... they're rare to find these days. just keep trying
>if you have a recommendation
hmm.. i havent played many new games honestly, though i played god of war recently and it was great. i guess you could try kingdom come deliverance too, its a great game although its a bit old and lacks on some aspects that more modern games have

>>81873834 (OP)
good evening, hu tao anon
i hope you're feeling at least a little bit better today

me i'm just wrapping up my playthrough of bg3 with my friend
we killed cazador and stopped gaystarion from completing the ritual so it was pretty nice
now we have only the main quest ahead and we reserved the whole of tomorrow to get it done

also my cpu arrived today, motherboard also set to arrive but hasn't yet
if it arrives today then i can already install my new gear, hopefully
i forgot thermal paste so the little left over on my cooler will have to do... man i miss my stuff back at my old place

I must go to sleep now.

hello, Hu Tao anon, good to see you're in good condition