Thread 81961761

I have 3 tabs of mommy asmr opened
I feel loved and I'm tingling like crazy

yeah I think I might have to kill myself soon
I'm gonna slit my throat and make a mess so my parents are traumatized for the rest of their lives

anon, you have a cute coping mechanism that you use to get through the day, there's nothing wrong with it at all. no one you don't trust has to know and it hurts no one for you to engage. you're not less of a person, or even a man, for wanting comfort.

as for the suicide, please don't. whatever suffering you're going through has treatments and ways out that don't involve cutting yourself off from everything good in the world.

anon, you need help to get through what you're going through, and that's completely okay. maybe you should post here what problems you're having and how you're feeling.

If you are honest with your mom she'll probably record some for you. (:

i wish mommy asmr gave me tingles, i've never been able to get tingles from ASMR :(

>>81962096
>you need help
i hate you and everyone who says this. you dont know jackshit shut up youre not helping anyone here except yourself.

>>81962911
>i hate you and everyone who says this. you dont know jackshit shut up youre not helping anyone here except yourself.

you're coming to r9k to post about your problems, you're seeking the posts of others, rather for advice or comfort, it's clearly what you're after

I think you should just be honest about why you feel the need to kill yourself. It may help you feel better, or understand yourself better so you can fix some of your problems.

just be honest, you created this thread for a reason. just express how you feel and let other anons comment on it.

>>81962996
im not op retard, you just dont realize how disrespectful it is to tell someone they need help

>>81963024
>you just dont realize how disrespectful it is to tell someone they need help

anyone posting on r9k already knows they need help, its why they come here and post about themselves and their lives, its to garner advice, support, and perspective from others.

I dont see why telling someone who is telling others they want to kill themselves that they need help is controversial, they clearly know it and seeked it out by posting about it online.

there's nothing wrong with seeking help as well anon, its normal and human and doesn't degrade or demean anyone. everyone needs help sometimes

That is so fucking funny. Rather than going out like a bitch, I think you should just jump off a bridge.

>>81962911
>you dont know jackshit
No. Fuck you, cunt. YOU don't know shit. YOU think you know me? Kill yourself. You don't know what I've been through.

>>81963046
>>81963024
>>81962911
are any of you OP? because this is just spastic at this point if not

>>81961761 (OP)
I get high and listen to mommy and gf roleplay videos while playing games. Never have I coped so well. Maybe I'm just too far gone but I really don't care. I'm a freak, was never going to have a normal life. Gotta just deal with things how you can.

>>81962096
You're a nice, anon. Appreciate you trying.

Ive had two gals in my life that indulged in a mommy kink. They werent really ever into it so it was only for my sake. Never felt genuine. Honestly just wanna be loved, I suppose. Hard time trusting anyone. Just have a little boy in my soul thats lookin for a hug is all. Maybe I dont understand your pain, OP. But maybe I can sympathize. Its hard being fucked in the head. Maybe we can find some respite in this fuckin world. Fuckin maybe.

>>81963236
>I get high and listen to mommy and gf roleplay videos while playing games
I usually do it in bed while cuddling stuffed animals, its a nice way to cope with a shitty childhood and helps me work through some stuff by remembering it when high (diagnosed with PTSD personally :c)

>Never have I coped so well
that's what i've found too! letting yourself enjoy comforts you actually like, even if they're a bit demeaning if others see them, is perfectly okay and lets me be a functional adult as well.

>Never have I coped so well. Maybe I'm just too far gone but I really don't care. I'm a freak, was never going to have a normal life. Gotta just deal with things how you can.
you shouldn't hate yourself for what you do to unwind or feel better, especially if its something that is self-contained, personal to you, and not burdensome to others.

Why torture yourself with self-hate for something personal that you like?

>>81962096
thanks anon! you're very nice! sorry it took me this long to reply, I fell asleep! but I really appreciate it!
>>81962511
I don't have a good relationship with my mom
>>81963212
no none of those are me!!! I'm sorry!! I fell asleep!!!!

>>81963581
I don't have stuffed animals so I cuddle my covers and I always end up in a fetal position
sometimes I cry listening to mommy asmr

>>81961761 (OP)
Is it wrong to jerk for to mommy asmr, it gives me tingles and makes me warm like crazy to the point where it's impossible not to. Feel guilty asf afterwards which is the bad part

>>81963690
I don't jerk it to wholesome mommy asmr but....there's lewd mommy audios out there and uhhhhh yeah I've done it too god what is wrong with me!!!!

>>81961761 (OP)
I started chatting with AI because my friend group collapsed, but the free stuff all suck so I only use it for gooning. It's so hard to find audio but even then knowing it's not real made me stop caring. I wish someone would just put a bullet in me while I sleep. I hate being alive but I'm too much of a pussy to end it, I'd rather just cease existing in my sleep without acknowledging the end. Therapy is a waste of time.
>>81963236
That only worked for me once. The illusion quickly shattered because of the aforementioned. And shortly after I started smoking weed/taking edibles, I started to get these stupid panic attacks. Been dealing with them basically every day for hours at a time since 2019 or 2020. It ruined one of the only comforts I had, even years later I'm still dealing with this BS.

>>81963597
>I fell asleep! but I really appreciate it!
cuuute!! its not shocking a silly butt like you fell asleep to your mommy ASMR :p

>>81963644
you should get some! I have four of them and they're the most comforting, bestest things you can have for when you're trying to sleep!!

I like holding mines hands while relaxing in bed, the comfort makes me feel so much better

and it's okay to cry! it's just how you express yourself when you get that kind of care, just know you deserve to feel cared and loved for and that nothing you're doing is wrong

>>81963758
I never cared of gf asmr I have no opinions on it it just doesn't work but uh mommy asmr just works for me especially if it has heartbeat sounds and breathing sounds
>>81963776
>cuuute!! its not shocking a silly butt like you fell asleep to your mommy ASMR :p
hehe thanks!
>you should get some!
actually I do have a stuffed animal (it's a hedgehog no it's not sonic it's an actualy hedgehog) but I dunno I feel like someone my age shouldn't be hugging one to sleep! what if someone sees me? maybe I'll lock the door one of these days and fall asleep hugging it
>I like holding mines hands while relaxing in bed, the comfort makes me feel so much better
cute :)
>and it's okay to cry! it's just how you express yourself when you get that kind of care, just know you deserve to feel cared and loved for and that nothing you're doing is wrong
it's okay to cry? why do I always feel embarrassed about it? I've never felt like I deserved to feel loved or cared for I always felt like a burden to my mom

>>81962826
listen to some japanese asmr it's very very good!

>>81963844
>I dunno I feel like someone my age shouldn't be hugging one to sleep!
silly, people do stuff like this all the time for comfort and stuff, there's literally nothing wrong with it.

theres entire communities centered around this kind of cutesy soft stuff and it's one of the coolest things ever to be apart of!

it's better you're well rested and a bit cringe because of your favorite stuffie's comfort!

>why do I always feel embarrassed about it
because the world was really, really mean to you for no reason when you were young and you felt the need to push these softer feelings away to present stronger to face adversity. at least, thats what it was for me.

btw, if you wanna add me on like discor or something i'd like to chat about this stuff! I found having friends to express cool stuff like this to always helped me feel better about it. you can add me at buppypuppy, but its up to you if you dont wanna ^.^