Am I a psychopath if I bring up my boyfriends dead mother to him because it makes me wet when he cries? I know it's terrible but it makes me feel good so I can't stop.

Yes, you are a bad person because you prioritize your pleasure over your partner's well-being.

>>81964776 (OP)
>It makes me horny
No it makes you a sociopath.

>>81964776 (OP)
No but you're a sexual sadist which isn't a crime but you are probably destroying him from the inside. Most serial killers are either sadists or necrophiles. Huge red flag...anyways I don't judge you clearly have a conscience and feel some form of remorse and the body wants it wants, but it is an insanely selfish thing to do. Above all...I worry about your relationship. Do you love him? Would you be mad if your favourite boytoy left forever and never came back? Are you that daft...do you really think he won't eventually notice what you're doing?

There will be a price to pay. There always is. We always reap what we sow, sooner or later with compound interest. That I assure you.

>>81964776 (OP)
no and you should be raped and killed

>>81964776 (OP)
I wish I could cry for you femanom

>>81964776 (OP)
No if it makes you horny it's completely understandable. There's nothing wrong with you at all.

>>81964794
>Yes, you are a bad person because you prioritize your pleasure over your partner's well-being.
I don't. I sometimes brush his hair and cook food for him. It just makes me feel good when he cries.
>>81964815
>Would you be mad if your favourite boytoy left forever and never came back?
Which is why I need to stop what I'm doing but it's so hard.

>>81964776 (OP)
I know this is ragebait but I almost punched a hole in my monitor reading this
>>81964840
we will lynch you simp

>>81964776 (OP)
dont feel bad for something men are already used to doing but learn to be more stealth about it, instead of bringing up moms death directly make him remember other stuff related to her that will keep reminding him

>>81964849
>Which is why I need to stop what I'm doing but it's so hard.
Try psychotherapy. Seriously sadism is hard to rewire but its hard like you literally associate happiness with the misery of others this will be hard it should obviously be the other way around.

Why do you think your brain has been fried to associate the suffering of others with joy? Did you have a childhood where through classical or operand conditioning the misery of others were somehow linked with your own joy? Or are you just a goonette that fried their brain with porn? The latter is pretty easy to fix just flick to better porn...the former...not so easy. Need therapy xDDD

>>81964776 (OP)
You could make him cry by crushing his balls and instead you're digging into his trauma. For shame

>>81964776 (OP)
The fat girl in your photo is holding the knife backwards like a retard or you can't draw well at all

Pick one

>>81964846
Thanks, But I know that what I'm doing is wrong.
>>81964881
>instead of bringing up moms death directly make him remember other stuff related to her that will keep reminding him
She always wore really ugly shirts with texts on them and had her hair in a bun. Maybe I can do that? Then he will always be reminded of her.
>>81964893
To be honest I don't know what caused it.
>>81964911
>You could make him cry by crushing his balls and instead you're digging into his trauma. For shame
I don't want to hurt him. I want to see him cry so that I can take care of him.

>>81964971
>I don't want to hurt him. I want to see him cry so that I can take care of him.
You're hurting him way worse by doing this shit than by torturing his body. Seriously, get into BDSM and stop traumatizing the dude. You'll wear him out.

>>81964971
>Thanks, But I know that what I'm doing is wrong.
Right? Wrong? Who's to say which is which and what the difference really is. Though really if it bothers you then I think you're definitively not a psychopath.

>>81964776 (OP)
>Am I a psychopath
Most likely. Not for being wet when he cries, that's just sadism, but because you seek out his suffering to your benefit and his expense repeatedly. There's a distinction. One is a sexual reaction to stimuli, the other is valuing that sexual reaction so much you hurt people around you on purpose to feel it.

Actually harming someone in a relationship with you is explicit antisocial personality behavior by definition. pro-social: you help people you socially entangle with, a-social: you are ambivalent towards entanglements and the people therein, antisocial, you explicitly make people that socially entangle with you suffer for your own benefit.

>>81964846
Based. I take it all back.

>>81964971
>I don't want to hurt him. I want to see him cry so that I can take care of him.
Sounds like the symptoms Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/munchausen-by-proxy. Did you have a family member who was sick when you were young that you took care of that were vulnerable and different when weak? That gave you "love" or attention in moments of their weakness.

Either way Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy is a serious mental illness. One of the worst too. Every year there are millions of mothers who poison their children with literal lead just to take them to the hospital, nurses that try to drug and kill people in long-term care just so they can save them. Different manifestions...but if you get diagnosed with that you will lose custody of your children forever until you get help. Linked to too many abuse and neglect cases. Fix your shit. Not saying you have that, but if that sounds like you need serious help. If untreated at best you'll just lose your boyfriend and every single man after him until you get help...at worst you'll end up one of the tens of thousands of mothers who go to jail every year for literally poisoning, abusing and neglecting their children from mental illness.

To be honest, I have no sympathy for people like you. I don't care about your sorry excuses. Your ilk deserve nothing less than damnation. I've been to the children's hospitals, the worst cases are always muchausen by proxy. Dead children, lead poisoning. You disgust me. Get help, or your punishment will be spiritual, you will do something you can't take back. Nothing worse than spiritual punishment. Because it's forever.

>>81964971
>Thanks, But I know that what I'm doing is wrong.
No anon, everyone knows that cruel acts are absolved as long as it makes you cum. There's nothing you could possibly do that would be morally wrong if it makes you cum. I think I read that in the bible.

>>81964776 (OP)
Are you thicky like your picture OP? I really want to masturbate to the idea of a slightly chubby woman being evil as fuck, but it's better if she's real

My experience at the children's hospital is limited to research, I am not a clinician and my research interest is primarily limited to children suffering from cystic fibrosis, sickle-cell and other single-gene disorders as my primary academic interest is protein folding and its interests in gene therapy.

But I have a "senpai" who worked at the Toronto children's hospital as a nurse...and its tough work. Not for the faint hearted. Child illness, child terminal cancer...them asking you confusedly why they can't go outside and why they have to die. It's spiritually draining work, but rewarding.

Within there she told me there was truly remarkable amount of children who were sent there because of mothers with Munchausen by Proxy. In particular she told me of a particular case of a woman who purposeful got pregnant, drank and smoke to injure her fetus and give them fetal alcohol syndrome so she would have a retarded by to love and take care of.

The worst part is, she cried and lied and said she didn't know when she lost custody and was sentence to go to jail for a very long time when her obvious shtick was found out. The tears were "genuine", but she lied about everything. People with Munchausen by Proxy are usually pathological liars, nothing makes them more paranoid than being found out. They are delusional in thinking their horrible horrible actions are somehow justified. But I know deep down she liked it. Because apparently when the judge asked her why she did it...she couldn't help but randomly smile then cry. Disgusting creature.

The child was born 2 weeks prematurely with acute fetal alcohol syndrome and despite the best most cutting edge medical care and doctors Canada has to offer died from severe complications at the age of 6.

>>81965298
These people are demonic. If I met you on the street, I would smash you skull in with a hammer, I wouldn't feel any remorse. At least I would be saving you from a fate worse than death...like a schizophrenic killing their mom from psychosis. The mother wasn't a happy person, especially after going to jail.

Ironic, it would make me no better than you. I'm not god, I don't have the right to judge right from wrong. That is the first and greatest sin one can commit. But it would sure as hell make me feel good. What else good be better? I can sate my bloodlust...and dole out punishment to those who deserve it. Prevent a tragedy before it happens. Send a demon to hell before they can hurt someone. It would sure as hell feel fucking good to cave your skull with a hammer again and again until you stop screaming and go silent...it would feel good and I fantasize about, therefore...it must be right. Amiright?

Turn back while you still have time. And remember God is always watching. Judgement comes for all. Consider this a sincere warning.

>>81964971
I think you have some wiring crossed in your head that conflates maternal caretaking and nurturing behavior with sexual arousal. It's hot and also kinda wholesome (and rare as hell in a sea of submissive skanks with daddy issues), but at the same time there are other ways to get those feelings without making him cry I think. Have you guys tried nursing? Maybe snuggling more often? Being overt with kinky mommydom/little boy nicknames for each other?

>>81964984
>Right? Wrong? Who's to say which is which and what the difference really is
I think that hurting people is wrong.
>Though really if it bothers you then I think you're definitively not a psychopath.
Thank you. I don't feel like one but I really needed to hear it from someone.
>>81965033
LMFAO.
>>81965277
>Are you thicky like your picture OP?
Shamefully I'm obese but it's all in my hips and thighs. I should probably lose some weight. My bf is skinny so it makes it even worse.
>>81965342
>It's hot and also kinda wholesome
Thanks I guess.
>but at the same time there are other ways to get those feelings without making him cry I think
It's important that he cries. Otherwise I feel nothing.
>Have you guys tried nursing? Maybe snuggling more often? Being overt with kinky mommydom
I'm not into that.

>>81965405
>It's important that he cries

Hmm maybe my hypothesis was wrong and you are actually just an evil bitch. Good luck with all that then

>>81965405
>I'm obese but it's all in my hips and thighs
But? Are you dumb?
> My bf is skinny so it makes it even worse
Worse? Are you dumb?
I swear, women have no fucking idea about what makes them hot. Morons. Jesus christ.
Destroy that boy, you have my blessing, thick goddess. Sit on his face until he's scared, until he's actually afraid you're going to kill him and starts tweaking, and then stay some more.

>>81965434
I told you, Munchausen by Proxy is fucked up. Every year thousands of women around the world drink and smoke on purpose during a pregnancy so they have a retarded baby that never grows up that they can "love forever". They envy mothers with children with Down Syndrome and will smoke weed on purpose and get pregnant late to purposely maximize the chances of birth defects. All the end up birthing are very sick children that usually don't make it past the age of 7. And the worst part is if she confessed to it on r9k, its 100x worse than what she makes it out to be. These people extremely manipulative and pathological liars. Nothing nothing in the world makes them more paranoid than someone finding out their "forbidden desire". They kill because they don't wanna be found out. For good reason, they are fucking demonic. No remorse, delusional to the point of psychosis, but its even worse because unlike actual psychosis they actually knew...and had a choice. Deep down inside, they liked it.

Monsters in human flesh. I hope when they die...they suffer in the fires of hell for a very long time.