What's on your mind Anon? Tell me your problems. I've not a clue how to solve them, but I'll listen if it helps at all.

>>82060600 (OP)
your problems

>>82060600 (OP)
I need to get a second kettlebell so I can get muscles. Should also probably start learning Jiu Jitsu, not for like fighting but because it's pretty good exercise. The problem is I am morbidly obese and have been all my life

>>82060600 (OP)

40/m

can't seem to keep a girl interested in me. occasionally get matches on apps but I usually get ghosted. I'm doing something wrong but I with I knew exactly what.

>>82060600 (OP)
>The problem is I am morbidly obese and have been all my life
Oh my! Have you been trying to lose weight at all? I hear fasting helps a lot more than exercising does, so long as you're drinking water. Also why do you want to learn Jiu Jitsu?
>>82060635
Hug! I hope it's not too lonely. Do you have friends to keep you occupied at least?

>>82060600 (OP)
Here's every problem in my life
1. I'm fat
2. I don't have a girlfriend
3. I'm down 30k from full porting into a retarded stock
4. I don't have any IRL friends
5. I have a small dick
6. I think I'm starting to go bald
7. I'm behind at work.
8. I can't seem to get a good night's sleep

Can you please fix them for me OP?

>>82060688
Oh my! That sounds horrible! I'm so sorry to hear all of that! I don't have a solution for most of those problems. I could try to send you money, though I've not much in the way of cash either. Why can't you sleep at night? I mean if there's something I can do to help I will

>>82060652

yes, thankfully. I'm very involved in the rhythm game community and I'm happy I've made friends there.

It's when I'm not involved in those activities that I realize I'm alone. I want to change, but I'm not sure how.

>>82060600 (OP)
I feel frozen, unsure what to do in my life. Its prevented me from having friends or good memories for the past 6 years past graduating highschool. Even I'm not sure what to make of it. Atleast I have a decent career I guess...

Thirty-four, no degree, live with my mom, my siblings are successful. I know she's getting worried. I'm not gonna make it.

>>82060720
Hmm do you at least have 30k?? I'm not asking a lot really. Or are you a girl with tits? That might be useful for my problems

>>82060727
I mean maybe a close friend could help. Someone you can share your deeper thoughts with.
>>82060738
Hug I understand. I unfortunately don't know either, and I'm not sure how to help with that. I'm honestly not sure what people even do beyond trying to find a good job.
>>82060748
I'm sorry to hear that. It's nice that your siblings seem to care a little. What do you do? Do you have a job of some kind? I'm a little worried myself.
>>82060753
I only have a few hundred I can really give if I make some sacrifices. Sorry you have to go through so much stress!

>>82060767
Why did you ignore my second question this is why I hate women

>>82060820
erm its not a woman its a guy posting anime pics...

>>82060839
Well then I hate him for not answering with that information when I asked

>>82060767

I do have a few close friends, but, they don't have the advice

>>82060904
Ah sorry, I more so just meant helping you to feel less alone! Why do you feel lonely even with close friends? Do you feel they don't understand you very well?

>>82060916

It's a different type of lonely. I have friends, good friends, and I'm very thankful for that. I just get...relationship lonely I guess. I'd like to cuddle, I'd like to hug, I'd like to fuck, I'd like to have someone in my life whom I could be completely vulnerable with.

>>82060600 (OP)
I cannot use a toilet with missing. Like shit, I just piss in the woods.

i have nothing to offer. there's nothing anyone would gain from having someone like me around. my affection and attention both have absolutely no value and are just as worthless as i am. i'm truly subhuman.

>>82060964
I see; I've not a clue how one goes about solving that considering I've never spoken to a woman in my life.
>>82060985
Wish I could hug you right now! Why do you feel like you have nothing to offer? Do you feel like it's impossible to change, and if so, why? I do
understand, I'm the same way; that's kind of why I make these threads. Give me at least a small amount of value to someone.

>>82060600 (OP)
It's 3am I woke up an hour ago, fapped and now I will be walking to a gas station to buy a monster and blunts.

>>82061021

No worries. Hope you'll figure it out at an earlier age than me if I ever do lol

>>82061032
How are you feeling waking up at that hour? How's life in general?
>>82061036
I won't haha but thanks for the encouragement. Still I'm very sorry you're in that situation. I wish I could help.

>>82061042

np anon. wishing that you could help is more than enough.

>>82060600 (OP)
The bastard game dev didn't mark some of the key methods as virtual so I can't mod them properly

I'm pretty drunk right now but I had an encounter tonight that pissed me off so I'm just gonna rant about it.
I'm gonna get dragged for this post but I don't really care desu.
I've always been a very lazy smart person. I know that I am smart and capable of doing more but I've never seen the point in doing more than what is required.
I've never had that spark that other people do, I don't work on personal projects, I don't do much studying in my free time, the nerdiest thing I do is read novels.
But I have an Electrical Engineering degree and graduated with a 4.0 in College, because failure was never an option for me growing up. I just do it cause I was told to.

Anyway, enough of the humble bragging bullshit. Tonight I encountered this guy that I knew in High School.
He's always been the typical reddit nerd. He programs, wears glasses, is skinny as fuck, basically imagine McLovin.
I've never been like that, I've never had a massive ego. I hate myself so much and I always think I'm the dumbest person in the room. The only reason I think I'm smart is because other people told me I am and looking back I guess I have the resume to prove it.
But these fucking redditor pseudo-intellectual assholes always think I'm fucking stupid and it honestly annoys me because I know for a fact I'm way smarter than them.

Guys walk up to me like "What do you do?" and I tell them I'm a High School teacher and they scoff and they're like "What did you study?" and I say "Electrical Engineering" and then they're like "But you're a HS teacher?" and I'm like "yeah?" and then they try to give me a fucking pop quiz on Electrical Engineering like I need to prove what I fucking went to school for. Fuck them, I always ignore their stupid bullshit midwit quizzes and just say "I'm not gonna prove myself to you, I don't really care."

Just so fucking annoying man. why am I like this. I honestly wish I was more like them, then I wouldn't suffer in the labyrinth of my own mind so much.

I feel so dull, I don't have a job, I wasted my summer, I lost my first and only romantic connection bc I'm a pushover. Have lots of things that interest me I want to read about and only manage to do so for a few continuous moments before I jump to something else lr I distract myself. It feels like I fuck everything up with my laziness and lack of compromise and I believe I won't get anywhere in life. In September I should move to a bigger city to study a masters I hope things will improve.

>>82061096
It would be so fucking wonderful to be so far up my own ass that I think I'm this fucking intellectual God among men who needs to give other people random Pop Quizzes on what they studied in College. Jesus.
But so many people I encounter are like that today, they just need to feed their own ego because they're insecure about themselves and being one-upped by other people or something.
Idk, its all very confusing to me. I'm just a weirdo I think, I always have been. I wish there was more people like me that I could talk to, people that see through all the bullshit of life and just drift by.
But at the same time, like I said, maybe I wish I was more like them instead. So prideful and arrogant. I was never allowed to be that growing up,
I used to think it was good to be humble but really I'm just miserable and always in this fucking self-loathing. I should be proud of my accomplishments but I'm just not. I'm nothing.

>>82061096
is he smug or annoyed

>>82061096
You do have some ego my friend, if you enjoy being a teacher and believe you are doing something useful (which you are) don't dwell too much on what others think. You are self sufficient and at least you are doing a useful job for society, you are ok anon.

>>82061109
more annoyed than smug desu. Its been a few years since I watched Evangelion but I believe this is right after Asuka hits him in the head with the broom.

>>82061127
>You do have some ego my friend
I know that I have an ego, almost everyone does. But I've never been the type to put other people down or randomly quiz them on stupid shit to prove how smart I am.
I legitimately believe that most people I encounter are better than me, I've always had an inferiority complex. I can see the good in everyone but myself.
Idk, I just don't get trying to put other people down like that. We're all human at the end of the day. I just see humans most of the time. I'm weird.

Could I be making more money with a better job? Of course. But then I wouldn't get like 5 months off paid per year with Summer + Holidays.
Job is stupid easy and I still make decent money since I'm a Tech/Engineering Teacher. They don't know what they're missing desu.

I sometimes think I can't separate love from lust.
I can't have one without the other.
I don't deserve either.

>>82061087
Will it just be really hard to mod them, or virtually impossible?
>>82061096
>>82061108
Sounds like an extremely frustrating encounter! That seemed very rude of him!
What do you feel like you need to feel like you're more than just 'nothing'? Like the other guy said, being a highschool teacher is still something. At least you get lots of time off! Most jobs don't give you that at all.
>>82061103
Hug! I'm sorry to hear that! How did supposedly being a 'pushover' as you say cost you your romantic connection? What kind of things interest you?

>>82061146
What I mean is that deriving a bad judgement about yourself when you meet people and being too moved by others words is also s form of ego. Ego isn't just being a mega chad, focusing always on yourself is also ego. If you are ok with what you are doing go on like that

>>82061157
>What do you feel like you need to feel like you're more than just 'nothing'? Like the other guy said, being a highschool teacher is still something. At least you get lots of time off! Most jobs don't give you that at all.
This is gonna sound bad but desu I've always just wanted someone to accept me for who I am and try to understand me.
I never had that, never growing up, never now. I know that I'm weird, I'm not like other people, I don't think like other people. I've always felt alien.
My parents didn't love me, they just saw me as a tool to brag about. "My son is so smart I must be a great parent!"
It never mattered what I wanted, I was nothing.

I didn't want to be an Engineer or a Teacher. I wanted to be an archeologist. Dig up fossils and study human history. that was what I loved.
Or, I wanted to work in a Genetics Lab and study DNA and CRISPR.
But I was never given that option. My parents said, "Do electrical engineering, it pays better than those things!", all they've ever cared about is money and bragging.
So I went to college, I studied what they told me to study, and I graduated with High Honors because that is what I've always done. I was abused if I didn't get an A in something growing up.

People told me, "Why didn't you just run away and do what you wanted!?", I've never thought of that. I didn't really understand how housing and loans worked because nobody ever taught me that.
I didn't want to be homeless, it was easier to just do what my parents said and stay the course. Like I said, I've always been lazy and just did the path of least resistance.
Idk... I hate myself. But I've always been good at what I do.
Everyone loves me, they say I'm a really good teacher and I get great reviews on my analysis days and my students like me. But I've never felt like I deserved any of that, and I've never loved me.

I just have always felt like I'm nothing. A nothing person who had his entire life decided for him by his parents. nothing person.

>>82061042
Normal, a little sleepy. I usually wake up between 4-5am for work anyway and I took a short nap in the afternoon yesterday. Blunts and monster acquired.
Life in general could be worse so whatever. I was stung by a wasp on my eyebrow at work Friday. Meh, whole nest could have lit up my face so whatever. I hope to gather the motivation to play vidya today and not waste my last rest day masturbating.

>>82061176
>Everyone loves me, they say I'm a really good teacher and I get great reviews on my analysis days and my students like me. But I've never felt like I deserved any of that, and I've never loved me.
I know this might sound hypocritical since I said before that nobody loves me or gets me.
I should clarify and say, yes, people at work like me and I do my job well. But since I didn't really want to be a Teacher, I feel like they don't REALLY love ME, the real me.
The real me is hidden, buried, long time ago.

>>82061176

could you go out on your own? it's tough but if it would make you happy?

>>82061157
So by being a pushover I rather mean being very indecisive, too quiet at some points and generally lacking initiative - to sort myself out and engage meaningfully with the other person, like there were many moments were we both fell silent and I started internal freaking out because I didn't know what to say or do. I guess this comes from a lack of confidence. In the end I ended up losing my connection with an amazing person, it's been 7 months already and I was with here for just some 6 months.

What I like (or would like to learn more about) philosophy, history, international relations, Russian, philosophy of law,reading novels, music, drawing. I also would like to travel, but I don't have anyone and from my experience doing everything alone can be a bit depressing at times, if you are alone because you can't find anyone.

>>82061188
I think about going back to school for what I want to do anyway, now that I have my own money and career.
But its tough, adult life is tough. Especially when you're a teacher and you're contractually obligated to stay there from August to May (barring medical emergencies).
The thought of applying for a job in a different state, looking for an apartment, moving all my shit and oh my god just thinking about the whole process makes my heart rate go up.
Its so scary to do big changes like that. I'm always concerned about my life becoming worse than it currently is and not being able to go back and fix it.

I want to move more south, like Tennessee or Florida or something. Somewhere that I can have a decent amount of land and build a nice garage and buy some cars to work on off Facebook.
I like to work on cars, I like racing too. I've always wanted a nice plot of land to build a garage, the house can be small I don't care about that.
I could do this if I really tried. but its scary. I don't know the first thing about moving out of state desu, never bothered to research it much.

At the end of the day, what I really want is a comfortable life where I can just be happy. I hate feeling trapped and like somebody else has a leash on me.
Its my life.

after 1 year and a half of perturbed human relations i've found 1 (one) person who i really like talking to.
(spoiler alert) they are a mentally ill tranny. oh, well. nothing surprising on 4chan i guess its ok i don't care but the thing is: they are giving me the silent treatment because i won't "claim ownership to them" or WHATEVER THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN.
WHY is it so hard to have a healthy relationship with any human being on this forsaken ass site? WHY is it always some cunning people who will either ghost you because i didn't jestermax on the first 5 messages or manipulating you into doing WEIRD SHIT. I CBAAAAAA. FUCK WOMEN

>>82060600 (OP)
I've legit wasted my youth. It's hilarious seeing someone 19 yo or 27 yo say that when I'm old enough to be there dad. I'm broke and can't focus on anything. I spent the last few years trying to learn skills but I'll never be hired because I have a criminal record and I have no actual experience. I'm lonely and because I'm poor, there aren't any women who will date me or waste their time on me. I pretty much have nothing to live for and no reason to keep going.

im tired of being an asian moid with white fever

>>82061268
Hello have you heard of low skill manual labor?
We've hired
>15 year olds
>illegal mexicans who speak some dialect don't even speak spanish
>felons fresh released out of prison for murdering someone
>guys with ankle monitors who weren't allowed to leave the county
>women both much younger and much older than you
And none of them had any experience.

>>82061284
>Hello have you heard of low skill manual labor
I'll kys before I do that besides it would mean that the last few years I've wasted on learning highly valuable skills was pointless.

im never going to experience how it feels like being loved and its hard to accept it. everything seems pointless if im destined to be alone and its making me question why i even bother being alive.
also, thanks for making the thread OP! this board needs more nice threads

>>82060600 (OP)
am i a faggot? i jerk off to so much gay porn. lots of it. but im pretty sure i only find irl girls attractive? its very confusing. im okay with being a faggot. i just...dont think i am?

>>82061307
Don't say you'll never be hired

>>82061393
why not huh

>>82060600 (OP)
I am so lonely. Nobody cares about me.

>>82060600 (OP)
>It was my birthday on the 2nd and I got mad at my dad because rather than choosing to take his mom out for lunch another day, he chose my birthday and it honestly made me feel kinda like he either didn't care or forgot
>I've always hated myself for a multitude of reasons. I'll give some examples
>Never reaching anyone's expectations or my own
>Childhood best friend had cancer, the night before he died I was given a chance to call him and I feel like I didn't care about him
>ex-roommate accused of cyberstalking his ex-wife and threatened me when he was in jail trying to gaslight me saying I said I wou>ld take care of his stuff. He then called my phone for a year after his arrest threatening me
>Co-worker went missing and wound up being found dead in a field
>grandpa killed himself
>current longest standing best friend's younger brother killed himself. I had known him since he was adopted
>Couple more people passed over the years
>started taking drugs to cope with my situation. Every person I lost made the addiction worse
>Started getting anxious over who I would lose next because it seemed so frequent
>started lying to those around me to get money for either drugs or cut me some slack on paying people back and yet somehow some friends still stick around
> there's more but I don't care to go into the details any more than I have but there is more
I feel isolated (I hate that word) in a way because no one really is able to understand what I've had to deal with (not the cliche version more the having to adjust to a lot of trauma in my life that's pretty uncommon. I've been seeing a therapist but it feels like it takes forever to make any progress.
I just want to fit in with others and not want to feel like an outsider and pretend that everything is okay when it's not. I want to genuinely feel like I'm okay and have moved on
I constantly see on here that if you look good and are over 6' then your life is on easy, it's not. I'd trade w/ you

>>82061687
To clarify on the last part, yes I've had relationships/had sex, but I'd gladly trade with someone who is a 1/10 and 5'0 that didn't experience this. Height does have some benefits but if I didn't have to be where I am now then I would trade with you in a heartbeat. I'm willing to have a conversation with anyone that would like to say otherwise

>>82061032
>>82061182
This feels so comfy, anon. I wish you a nice vidya session!