anyone else here have PTSD induced hypervigilance? its an actual medical term called hypervigilance. i have it because i was beaten every day as a child, it was mandatory that i have one daily beating. they would pick something out of thin air as the reason for the beating, like "you missed mowing a single blade of grass in the yard!" (seriously this was one of the reasons, i mowed the yard and missed a single blade of grass). another beating was because i was eating a plate of peas and a baked potato with foil around it and after i thought i ate everything it turns out one single pea was under the foil so i got beaten. this made my mind believe it is crucial to my survival to hyper analyize all information i come across and permanently commit it to memory as well.
i'm that guy who walks the streets who you "think" is a "schizo meth head on drugs" and are afraid of. truth is im afraid of all of you, i think you're all going to beat the shit out of me at any time for no reason, because thats what happened to me for 12 years as a child. so im hyper paranoid around all of you.
i'm that guy who walks the streets who you "think" is a "schizo meth head on drugs" and are afraid of. truth is im afraid of all of you, i think you're all going to beat the shit out of me at any time for no reason, because thats what happened to me for 12 years as a child. so im hyper paranoid around all of you.
