There is a reason why you were alone from grades 1-12
There is a reason why you were left to be alone as an adult. There is a reason deep down inside of you. But you wont find the answers until you die. It wasnt just a coincidence that you are a virgin. People did this to you.

>>82076418 (OP)
we are inherently hated by nature and so if we arent favored by nature the subconscious of everyone goes against us to make sure gaias whorish creation remains untampered with. I want to drive a knife into gaias throat one day.

>>82076418 (OP)
>There is a reason why you were alone from grades 1-12
It's cuz I'm autistic. Also I did get a girlfriend in Junior year but she divorced me on deployment.

>>82076418 (OP)
The TRVTHNVKE is that you have between 2 and 7 to learn how to be normal.
That's when boys and girls are largely treated the same, you have all the protections enabled and you can learn the baseline concepts required to be accepted in school.
You have a second chance between the start of school and puberty. You NEED to learn how to function before that or puberty will brainfuck you into oblivion because there's nothing weirder and more disgusting than someone without social skills having an existential crisis.

Afterwards you can still fix things but someone over 16 who turned his life around is still hardline damaged and over 20 you are essentially closer to an ex addict or domestic violence survivor than a regular person.

>>82076525
I dont have social skills and im 37

>>82076770
what did you do? Stay with mom and dad this whole time?

>>82076418 (OP)
Remember, no russian. originu

>>82076797
yes i live in the basement
been working the same job for 15 years too

>>82076525
this. If youre not normal by 12 its all downhill from there. At 15 socialization basically becomes "ranked". You can still learn serviceable social skills in college to become somewhat "functional" at work, but you can say goodbye to fulfillment and happiness at that point

>>82076525
Hard facts. If you aren't getting into social groups, sport teams, and proto-relationships with the opposite sex by adolescence you're done.

Add to that, you basically become who you are (personality wise) for life by age 9-12 and there's no do-over. At best you can adopt a fake personality like playing an improv character anytime you're in front of another person, but that takes constant effort and most normies can see right through it unless you have natural acting skills (as an autist, you don't).

>>82077089
>>82076525
from 2-7 I was fairly normal, things fell apart from year 7 (middle school beginning) at age 11, things were okay but from around 13 thats when it was very noticeable and I spent my days playing vidya and being excluded from things but from 19-23 I turned it around and became brad tier managing to have sex and gfs but from 25 onward I now am back to what I was, having no friends, staying inside and being unable to make friends and such. Idk how im back to the beginning again. At least im not fat though.

>>82076418 (OP)

>People did this to you.
Some a bullied out of their games and others are just born this way. We, as the latter group, have to teach the first group that this life good. Its better than playing their mind games. Being a virgin is just surface level stuff.

In some way normalfags are doing people with souls a favor.

>>82076418 (OP)
I was alone because i was too weird and talkative and people actively avoided me as a result. I think it's because of my undiagnosed ADHD and my weird hyperfixations on random shit that i would rave about to other people.

I'm 20 now and i missed so many social milestones. And i don't mean like having a relationship or anything. I never even had friends i've kept for more than a few months in my entire life.

I basically don't know how to interact with people, and I don't think I can learn to.

>>82076418 (OP)
>19 yo
how do I make peace with this life? How do I get over the things that happened? How do I find the strength to study and work?