I failed school, I can't get a GED, I can't drive a car, I can't get a job, I can't wake up or go to bed at the right hours each day, so I can't get on a schedule. I have like seven different diagnosed mental illnesses, I have autism, I've been to the mental ward three times, I've been arrested and imprisoned a few times, I never had a job, I can't drive, never had any sort of relationship of any kind, I don't really have any friends, there's nothing that I really like doing, I don't have any money, I never have access to like food or supplies or anything like that, we're always running low on money so we can't really ever get that. What am I supposed to do? Like seriously, how the fuck am I supposed to not want to kill myself? Why shouldn't I? I don't get it, why shouldn't I fucking kill myself? I cannot fathom a single reason not to fucking die. I'm going to, that's it, I'm done, I have to, I have to kill myself, I can't keep living at all.

>>82153022 (OP)
Live out of spite retard. Life finds a way

>>82153070
Spite? Towards who? Why? I dont care about spiting anyone. My life ISNT finding a way, god, just yet another shitty retarded person posting nonsense, as ALWAYS

>>82153022 (OP)
What were your prior hospitalizations? If you have two similar diagnoses from two different doctors you could qualify as SMI and get SSI. Getting license only require you to drive like 2 blocks, and I failed my first driving test for a California stop (rolling through a stop sign slowly) and going straight in a turning lane (the road paint was eroded off), second time I passed.
Getting a GED only requires you to take the test.
If you are hungry and need of food, you can usually see your outpatient benefits specialist, or go to the department of economic security (it's name changes based on state you live in) for EBT, which is 290 dollars of food assistance per month.

>>82153091
Spite the jews, you spent so much time on 4chan and still don't know why your your life is shit? Sure half of the problems can be yours but under a better circumstance it wouldn't be this bad.

>>82153127
Various hospitals in penslyvania, i already am on disability, its not enough to survive, im already out of money and food this month ha ha, i cant drive two blocks either btw, i literally cant drive at all whatsoever, and i failed the ged multiple times, I CANT GET IT
>>82153131
No, shut up and get real, grow the fuck up, or just keep fighting with your imaginary enemies. Retarded fucks like you ruin this earth, you people are why im fucking killing myself,

>>82153022 (OP)
This is basically me except the prison part

I'm ugly and have a 60-70 iq. I'm not qualified for life.

>>82153022 (OP)
>I can't I cant I cant
I can't stand you being a major bitch. Just do it. What are you waiting for?

>>82153206
Im waiting for it to get cold enough to freeze outside you idiot, thats what im waiting for

>>82153176
>No, shut up and get real, grow the fuck up, or just keep fighting with your imaginary enemies. Retarded fucks like you ruin this earth, you people are why im fucking killing myself
You are too dumb to make it anyway. Maybe someone can give you tips on how to burdenmaxxing.

>>82153239
>blah blah blah jews blah blah blah
I dont care

>>82153235
Have you ever thought of joining the army? No kike shit, but this might be your only chance of getting back into society.
Matter a fact, no. You would probably do a Full Metal Jacket and shoot your Drill Sargent, nevermind.

>>82153261
i literally cant and am not allowed due to lack of education, low iq and various mental disorders, literally cant

>>82153257
Whatever helps you sleep at night. English isn't even my native language and i took SAT with a month of studying by myself while horribly ill at 27 to go back to college.

>>82153293
well good for you, because somehow i literally cant pass the ged, or drive, or anything. I really am going to have to kms

>>82153293
i got this same score when I was 16 almost two decades ago. at 27 I would have maxed it out lmao

>>82153309
there are jobs that excons do where you dont need a ged. warehouse jobs will sometimes hire with no interview or resume even.

just be a dishwasher like me.

>>82153331
HOW the fuck does everyone pass this shit, i cant even pass the ged, im looking at shit from the sat right now:
>A rectangle has a length that is twice its width. If the perimeter of the rectangle is 36 units, what is the area of the rectangle?
what the fuck, i cant figure this shit out, this is impossible, im fucking killing myself, fuck this

>>82153343
ok but i dont have a car either and cant do math or pay taxes or wake up at the right time or any of that shit so its just...not viable.
>>82153348
i cant man

>>82153350
you're rushing yourself. you probably needed the 30 minutes a day they made you go outside

>>82153331
If you are a native speaker the test will be easy. The English test was one of the hardest i have ever done because of unfamiliar vocabs. Math is easy at least except some questions that I'm not prepared for. I literally just do the Khan Academy test prep and that's about it.

>>82153369
I failed e;ementary school and they kicked me out in like 4th grade, i dont want to be part of this world at all in the first place man, i cant do this, i wont do this, kill me, god please kill me

>>82153350
if its any consolation my sister can't do basic algebra and she works as a software engineer because i did her math classes for her. she even has a masters degree in comp sci because it was online (though from a reputable uni) and i did the homework.

>>82153372
I cant get through kahnacademy i keep screaming and crying and hitting myself from questions over 6th grade level what the fuck how do people do this

>>82153398
that's because a person is only worth what they can do for you, and you can't do all that much.
just get on disabilitybuxx and move on. get a social worker.

>>82153426
A person's worth is 100% and determined by God.

>>82153350
it's area 12 x 6 = 72
12 + 12 + 6 + 6 = 36

>>82153403
i couldnt do any of it, i cant do any of this,,, i cant do it and i dont want to, i cant figure out basic fucking math everybody is somehow way smarter then me, i have no friends, ill never make love, i cant do this, im going to kill myself, i cant do this

>>82153436
please dont. you can work as a car washer or dish washer or something and have cozy hobbies. plenty of smart people have no friends or love either.

>>82153426
i am on disability its not enough to survive im out of money again for the month and there is no food left

>>82153447
>a car washer or dish washer or something
No, i CANT anon dont you get it? I literally fucking cant, i cant do any of this shit at all, i cant wake up when needed, i cant prevent myself from autisyic meltdowns on the daily, i cant mae sure i will have clean clothes on a daily basis, no, i CANT man

>>82153458
write it down and look at it

>>82153466
Write what down

>>82153450
You can get SSI and EBT. Also there's food pantries which give you groceries. That's 290 for food ebt
and SSI is like 800+$

>>82153419
The true is world is inherently unfair. Some people are born better than other due to the genetic lottery. The math is test is very easy to me i just need to read the wording carefully and the compute part barely takes any effort from me. You might not be smart but being born in the US is still far better than thirdies shithole. Some opportune you have in the US is out of reach for people like me for example. But the most important thing is don't give up that easily, maybe not for yourself then for the people that cares about you

>>82153471
I have disability already amd its not enough to survive on

>>82153486
What do you pay for rent?

>>82153481
its not about giving up, giving up means living. THAT is giving up to me, it means i resigned myself to this world and life and said "good enough" when ITS NOT, IT ISNT GOOD ENOUGH, NOWHERE CLOSE TO OKAY AT ALL MAN, IM TAKING MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS AND ENDING THIS FUCKING NIGHTMARE

>>82153470
your daily task list. rewrite it everyday and do it.

>>82153481
Fuck I'm writing like a retard at 3am. I should be asleep

>>82153493
my parents have to take care of all the money,, i dont know what it is exactly but its clearly not enough because they keep running out of money and there is again no food

>>82153501
maybe you just hangry and need a snack. Don't kill yourself out of hanger.

>>82153511
if your parents are paying rent there should be plenty of money for food. they are stealing it.

>>82153506
Ive done that already for years now what are you talking about, i dont get it

>>82153350
nigger, that is literally 3rd grader shit lmao lol

>>82153512
No i am still suicidal even when full
>>82153515
They are elderly fucks scrapping by, they literally spend all their money on rent supplies and food mostly for me, they dont have any extra money at all

>>82153398
how old are you anon
if you're 30 you should kill yourself
if you're 18 you should kill yourself, but for a different reason

>>82153520
theres no school in America that teaches about that stuff before 6th grade lmao I teach math. Kids are doing multiplication tables in 3rd grade, not figuring out variable values in geometry.

>>82153520
yeah i know i get it yeah i know I KNOW I GET IT IM FUCKING RETARDED ITS FUNNY IM RETARDED I KNOW I CANT DO BASIC THINGS AND MY LIFE IS MADE WORSE BECAUSE OF IT, I START CRYING AND SCREAMIN AND PUNCHING MYSELF WHEN I TRY SOLVING MATH PROBLEMS, LSUGH AT ME LAUGH AT ME LAUGH AT ME

>>82153541
half the world cant do math problems. you can clearly read and write fine. there are tons of jobs you can do.

>>82153511
Makes sense because you can't have savings above 2,000$ I believe on SSI, But you could do a budgeting and savings with them. I would think they are poor so your parents are struggling themselves. Because a mortgage for a single family home is like 2,000 a month. That's why you should do a food pantry to supplement the EBT.

My friend is in a similar situation where he is needing to cover the end of the month in food with the food pantry.

>>82153535
im 24 :( im gonna kms later this year

>>82153550
No, i literally am not legally allowed to nor can i show up to any job consistently, i literally can not work a job

>>82153555
i used to work at a food pantry and i already know that i literally wont eat any of the things they give, its mostly meat

>>82153536
Thats really easy to just figure out tho, perimeter is the combined length of all the sides of a rectangle and it says its 36, and the sides are 2:1 so you just 36 / (2+1+2+1) = 6 and this is the 1 in that ratio and its just easy, i remember learning about this shit in elementary school

>>82153556
i'm 33, I want to get on SSI so I can save up and trade my motorcycle for a 4x4 truck. My mom wants to sell her KIA if I get a truck so insurance isn't so high.

>>82153590
you don't remember shit, retard.

>>82153590
trying to understand your post is causing me to freak out so im going to stop

>>82153022 (OP)
Unironically turn to God. Everything will fall into place amd your life will improve 1000%. At least give it a shot, you have nothing to lose.

Also the next few years will be full of happenings, crazy technology, war, famine and economical crash, cyberpunk dystopia soon, are you really going to miss out on that?

>>82153644
That's a good idea actually. If you're mentally retarded you can still become a pastor.

>>82153644
I turned to god and just didnt feel anything from that...I dont agree with any major religion, and if god was real, id hate hate HATE them for creating the nightmare, how dare they put me in this flesh i hate??? fuck them, FUCK THEM fucking cunt, create a better reality, fuck you god FUCK GOD FUCK GOD FUCK GOD EVIL CUNT TYRANT FUCK YOU

>>82153611
The easy way is this
Width: x
Length: 2x
Perimeter formula : 2*(Length+Width)
So 2*(x+2x)=36 so 3x=18 so width = x = 6, Length = 2x = 12
Area formula : Length * Width
So 6*12 = 72

>>82153644
No, im not degrading myself to bow to the reator of this SHIT fuck god FUCK YOU GOD, FUCK YOU GOD, FUCK YOU GOD, FUCKING EVIL BASTARD, FUCK YOU, and i dont care at all whatsoever about the future happenings, might as well say
>But the new star wars movie comes out soon !
I LIVE IN A FUCKING NIGHTMARE KILL ME

>>82153611
The algebraic form is 36 = 2(2x) + 2x
divide by two 18 = 2x + x
divide by 2 again 9 = x + x/2
Which is 6 + 3, since we only care about x we throw away x/2
6 x 12 is the area, while the perimeter would be 36

I haven't mathed in a while to excuse the poor algebraic simplifications.

>>82153662
>>82153694
this is all just gibberish to me :L

>>82153712
Do you know what is a variable? It will simplify most of the math problem.

>>82153739
You're a shit teacher

>>82153739
i know what a variable is, i cant stop crying and hittigng myself trying to read the posts so i will not

>>82153752
Then what part of this you don't understand
>>82153662
Literally just plugging number in and calculate.
Width is the x variable
Since the Length is twice the width it value will be 2x
Now you just follow the formula

>>82153764
>Then what part of this you don't understand
literally any of it from the begining of the post man, wtf?
>Width: x
huh? width is, unknown i guess? ok.....
>Length: 2x
Huh? 2 times unknown?
>Perimeter formula : 2*(Length+Width)
What?
>So 2*(x+2x)=36 so 3x=18 so width = x = 6, Length = 2x = 12
What?
>Area formula : Length * Width
I dont like this
>So 6*12 = 72
Huh?

>>82153661
Did you go to church? Did you do the rites? Did you join a youth group in the church? Did you do the heavy lifting or just larped?

And yeah cant compare war, famine and hiper technology to movies, come on.


Anyways, how old are you? Its never too late to start over. Dont give up anon, I love you, and theres plenty of people that cares about you and would be upset with your death. Something good might happen tomorrow or in the future, keep going.

That being said, have you tried the whole normie starter pack against depression of exercise, eating well, sun etc? Give it a shot at least, at least for a month, you have nothing to lose anyway.

Push comes to shove do an 180 and go full degenerate route getting head from crackheads for 5 bucks while doing crack. Who knows maybe that could save you, just try everything before doing something as drastic and final as suicide.

>>82153794
>Huh? 2 times unknown?
You don't need to know a value of a variable to do calculation on it.
>Perimeter formula : 2*(Length+Width)
Perimeter of a rectangle is sum of all its 4 sides that means length + length + Width + width that's why it's 2*(Length+width)
You know that the perimeter is 36 but length and width is unknown but you unified them under a single variable so you can find both so now you plug the variable in the formula and do calculation and find x that is equal to the width

>>82153822
>Did you go to church? Did you do the rites? Did you join a youth group in the church? Did you do the heavy lifting or just larped?
if god needs me to do all that then fuck them im not interested, im sorry, im not degrading myself like that, i wont, i will not. I will rather go to fucking hell and burn forever then bow to a tyranical cunt because i have someyhing called "integrity"
>And yeah cant compare war, famine and hiper technology to movies, come on.
iim sorry it just doesnt interstst me, i dont care for the world, just boring and gross, not for me
>Anyways, how old are you? Its never too late to start over. Dont give up anon, I love you, and theres plenty of people that cares about you and would be upset with your death. Something good might happen tomorrow or in the future, keep going.
24. I dont care about "starting over" i dont want life, i hate this body, i want out, not any more of this constant nightmare, and i dont care about those who care for me, I DONT FUCKING CARE,,, let them be sad or not or whatever i just dont care, i cant care, and good things happen to me all the time, i dont care, its not about happiness or saddness, I DONT LIKE LIFE, I HATE THIS BODY, I HATE THE EARTH, I HATE NATURE AND OTHER PEOPLE AND SENSATIONS AND ANIMALS AND DREAMS, I FUCKING HATE IT
I eat well i guess, i excersise intensly, i get sunlight, take vitamins, nope still suicidal lol.

>>82153874
i literallly can not understand your post, can we stop this, literally every line im tearing up and about to smash my head again, i cant read your posts anymore, im sorry it hurts too much

>>82153661
>fuck you god FUCK GOD FUCK GOD FUCK GOD EVIL CUNT TYRANT FUCK YOU
Kek calm down Tanya.

>>82153878
>I eat well i guess
You said you barely had enough to eat in the first post.

>>82153896
yeah i mean i eat healthy in general, i dont eat often but when i do its mostly basic stuff like cereal

>>82153911
I diagnose you with lacking in people interaction and isolated. That's why you feel that way.

>>82153950
i tried interacting with others many times and it has always made everything worse, every singe time,,, interaction makes me worse,, like, by a lot

>>82153878
Damn man you're just 24, youre so fucking young and life still have so much to offer you. But it seems I cant get through to you, and I dont know what to say anymore or have the time to do so, it seems youre already settled on it, I hope at least is fast and your wont suffer. Damn what I wouldn't do to be 24. Well, I wish a good death, goodbye.

>>82153960
If you are taking SSRIs start weening off slowly. Many of them have side effects that turn you suicidal and fry your brain.

>>82154012
You should ask instead of
>what id do to be 24
instead ask
>what id to be 24, but also autistic, with a learning disability, no friends, no money, no hope of getting a job or education, living with parents in the attic, and an express hate for everything in life

>>82154030
Nope not on any ssris at all im just regularly suicidal

>>82153580
Eat your meat retard.

>>82154090
I literally cant it makes me sick and i vomit and feel terrible, i cant digest it properly, i should just fucking kill myself i really should.

>>82154041
>what id to be 24, but also autistic, with a learning disability, no friends, no money, no hope of getting a job or education, living with parents in the attic, and an express hate for everything in life
Believe it or not, literally me, even the attic part kek. Shit that was so spot on I wondered if some space time loop bullshit was making me talk with my past self. In the end I didnt kill myself, decided to wait until I turned 30 to see if things improved. I never really worked and things didn't improve, but I just kept going out of inercia, eventually things did get better, not that I changed or improved is just that I stopped caring and a lot of things that bothered me a lot stopped mattering. Doing the normie bs and going to church helped ao thats why I recommended you. But yeah idk man, I wish I could help you somehow and know what ro say, but in the end I dont.

>>82154115
yeah religion just doesnt do it for me at all, im not a person that wants help though dont worry, im just waiting to die, posting to pass the time until my date ive set to kill myself on. Fuck this

>>82153348
Do you need to be physically strong to be a dishwasher

Would restaurants hire a weak looking skinny woman

>>82153022 (OP)
>that's it, I'm done, I have to, I have to kill myself, I can't keep living at all.
What color do you like?
>"You've gotta tell them! Onions Green is people! We've gotta stop them somehow!"

>>82153022 (OP)
have you tried going to clown school?
just kidding, but I know you wanted another bootstraps reply

>>82154512
i like blue it is my favorite color why do you ask
>>82154521
i am seriously unable to find any reason to live

>>82154548
Finding a reason isn't so bad. To grow closer to God and believing that every bit of suffering you endure alleviates a trillion times that pain for humanity, through some cosmic workings.
Now, getting through that pain is a lot harder than words can describe, even if there is meaning to it.

>>82154676
I dont want a reason nor to grow closer to god. I dont want that, stop it, STOP FORCING ME INTO THIS BODY AND INTO THIS WORLD I SWEAR I GONIG TO FUCKING RAPE AND SET ON FIRE SOMEONE VERY VERY SOON

>>82153070
I don't usually say this, but fpbp, it is the nature of man.

>>82154744
Guess im not a man then because that is retarded

>>82153822
oh so this post is why anon is turning away from God
real christians don't talk like this fyi

>>82154782
if religion helps him thats fine it just dont help me, nothing doesn, im tired of trying shit, then it not working, over and over, im done, i do not want to be part of life, i refuse.

>>82154768
so you're not really a "man" then sorry

>>82154826
Ok, oh well, thank goodness i dont care, i have to find a way to kill myself which is annoying but whatever. Enjoy living out of "spite" so you can keep paying taxes to those you "spite" ok? Im going to fucking kill myself because im disgusted by life in so many ways

>>82154844
so basically try to find a way to live a life if you can, because its really hard to kill yourself.

>>82154938
yeah thats true it is very hard but i have a trick up my sleeve this winter that im dying to try out. One of my wacky schemes will free me. I just do not want to live a life, the pain of self immolation is actually less scary then the prospect of living for 20+ more years desu lol, im unironically going to fucking kill myself, i couldnt do it

>>82154548
>i like blue it is my favorite color why do you ask
It's a movie referance. Watch picrel to understand.
Btw, mine is purple. But I won't need it. I hope.

>>82155000
i did watch that movie, you didnt make a reference to it. Thats like posting
>Whats in the sky?
And calling that a reference to star wars, thats illogical, its not a reference. You did not reference that movie at all

>>82154965
men used to be able sign up and go to war and die in honor on the battlefield, but it doesn't work like that these days unfortunately. too much bureaucracy

>>82155025
It's not a reference to the name of the movie, but a specific scene. Did you really watch it?

>>82155084
i wouldnt want to do that anyways. I just want to stop existing, i dont care about war, its boring.
>>82155112
No.

>>82155119
> didn't watch Onions Green
You should