Thread 82173159

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

goddang it's hot

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82173159 (OP)
i see this thread every fucking time i open r9k and it just makes me want to make hooni pregnant fuck you

>>82173190
based and hooni pilled reply.
also serious question for you cutfags, how often do you actually cut i have never bothered to talk here and am kind of intrested.

>>82173190
>make hooni pregnant
I'm not sure that's possible anon

>>82173365
>how often
hard to say, I try not to do it much
maybe once twice a month

>>82166723
>thanks, but I cant say.
understandable. just good that you got it. :>

>it belongs in the "30 coffee breaks and 2 lunches" category for me so far, pretty comfortable.
heh. ^^ everything going alright so far?

>I still get tired because im just used to nothing everyday bodily and mentally
let's hope you'll adapt to it soon. do you at least see an improvement already?

>>82173159 (OP)
>goddang it's hot
it is and i don't like it. (-_-;) how are you dealing with it?

>Hello
hi catbro! :> how's your day?

>>82173190
seems to be quite the common phenomenon. stay strong.

>>82173365
hello anon! what's up?

hey everyone, sorry for my absence. I've been trying to rest a bit since I was at a festival last week from thursday to sunday and it was very very tiring. did have a pretty good time as I saw a few friends there that I hadn't seen in a while and also saw a few bands I really enjoyed (Emperor, Rotting Christ and a few other ones). For the rest i'm just dying to get back into warhammer and also recently been slowly getting back into pokemon (I avoided it due to fear of ruining my nostalgia, that's why I'm still not gonna touch anything from gen 4-6) How have you all been though? I'm glad to be back.

>>82174215
>and i don't like it. (-_-;)
D;
>how are you dealing with it?
just sitting at home and drinkin cold stuff
wbu?
>how's your day?
I didn't do much
just played some patapons and watched some vids
what did you do today?

Good evening femboys. I've lost all my friends and I've hit rock bottom. I feel so alone because I have literally no one now. I don't know what I did to deserve this. Life isn't meant to be this difficult

>>82174314
good evening, chev?

>sorry for my absence.
it's ok, but only if you had a good time! ;D

>it was very very tiring.
i can only imagine... take all the time you need to recharge.

>did have a pretty good time as I saw a few friends there that I hadn't seen in a while and also saw a few bands I really enjoyed
sounds like the best festival experience you could ask for. :> did you make plans for another one?

>i'm just dying to get back into warhammer
i should as well. haven't done anything in that regard for a while.

>been slowly getting back into pokemon
fun stuff. what games have you been playing?

>I avoided it due to fear of ruining my nostalgia
it's ok when you accept that it won't get better and that you'll never get what you want out of an official pokemon game. it's why i don't bother anymore, but the core of what makes pokemon is still there, i suppose.

>How have you all been though? I'm glad to be back.
could be better, but what couldn't be? glad you're back, too. :>

>>82174540
>just sitting at home and drinkin cold stuff wbu?
just lying on my couch, not drinking cold stuff. i should rectify that posthaste.

>I didn't do much just played some patapons and watched some vids
found anything interesting?

>what did you do today?
went to the doctor in the morning and then went to work. that's it.

>>82174591
hey, dude!

>I've lost all my friends and I've hit rock bottom.
why? what happened?

>I feel so alone because I have literally no one now.
i know it's not much, but you're always welcome here.

>I don't know what I did to deserve this. Life isn't meant to be this difficult
just how it is, isn't it? honestly, i think most of us have been set up for failure and recovering from that is really hard.

>>82174704
hey yuanon how ya doing, missed u haha
>did you make plans for another one?
maybe at the end of the year, it was pretty damn expensive, ended up spending a good 400euro over those 4 days.
>what games have you been playing?
been playing emerald, still had my old savefile. once I get back into the hang of it I might attempt a randomizer nuzlocke or something since I've never done that, prolly will do that in gen 6 or 7 tho, since i'm much more familiar with those games.
>it's ok when you accept that it won't get better
it's not really that, I've already noticed from friends that anything released on the switch (apart from legends arceus maybe) has been absolute shit. my main worry is that gen 4-6 are like core memories for me, like to the point where I still remember waking up early before school watching the black and white anime and stuff and how it made me feel back then, so I'm mainly afraid that playing those games I might ruin some of the only real happy memories I have.
>but what couldn't be?
isn't that the truth, following what I said, It's been hard realizing the only time I was truly happy was as a little kid, and it hurts how much I'd do to go back to that time and stay there forever.

>>82174540
Heya cat!

>>82174314
Hellu
it's nice to see you
>festival last week, did have a pretty good time
glad to hear that
are festivals always this long?
>recently been slowly getting back into pokemon
how do you like it?
>How have you all been though?
alright
It's really hot this summer I barely been able to go on bikerides unfortunately
This month I also been working of some uni project I managed to mostly finish it and now I'm supposed to work on my graduation project but I won't be able to finish it in time so I'll have to extend the amount of time I have for it
We'll see how it all goes, I'm not sure what to think about it

>>82174591
Hello
>lost all my friends
wanna say what happened?
>hit rock bottom
how does your life look like now?

>>82174704
>lying on my couch, not drinking cold stuff
no cold drink?
that's most displeasing
>found anything interesting?
nah, just listened to a guy talk
I'm not sure I've ever told you but I like listening to channels where some randoms talk about their life
>went to the doctor
just a check-up or some emergency?
>went to work
was it okay today?

>>82174874
>are festivals always this long?
honestly I don't know, I'd say usually it's 3-4 days tho. some might even be longer, but this festival was the only one I wanted to go to desu.
>how do you like it?
honestly it's kinda stupid how emotional it makes me. like I know it's just a game about catching creatures and battling etc. but pokemon has always for me been a very emotionally charged thing, and playing the games is kinda like a window into a different version of me, and I'm not sure if I like that. Ig I'm happy that I'm able to somewhat relive things tho.
>It's really hot this summer
yeah I noticed, the festival was near the sea so the temperatures there were a good 5-6 degrees lower than what they are at home, when I got home it was kinda like stepping into an oven.
>I'll have to extend the amount of time I have for it
hey dude I hope it all goes well. wishing you all the best for that

>>82174869
>how ya doing
not that well, but also not that badly. kinda meh. the heat doesn't help, either. ^^' what about you?

>maybe at the end of the year
seems like a good amount of time between events like that.

>ended up spending a good 400euro over those 4 days.
ouch. but hey, at least you had a good time. that's worth more in my opinion.

>playing emerald
that's a gen i've never played. i think i was just out of pokemon at the time. how is it?

>still had my old savefile.
oh... that's nice. you're completing your dex, right?

>I might attempt a randomizer nuzlocke or something since I've never done that
that's what i mean. it's such a popular way to play pokemon, so why isn't it in the games?

>gen 6 or 7
man, i actually have to look up which ones that are... ^^'

>anything released on the switch (apart from legends arceus maybe) has been absolute shit.
yeah, i've stayed away from those games as well. just had nothing appealing to them in my eyes. especially since they still want to hang on the the two game formular, while also selling dlc. i kinda feel like it should be either and i also think they should just release a single game at this point.

>my main worry is that gen 4-6 are like core memories for me, like to the point where I still remember waking up early before school watching the black and white anime and stuff and how it made me feel back then
yeah. i remember watching gundam wing as a kid before school and when i tried watching it later, i absolutely hated it. sometimes things are better left remembered.

>It's been hard realizing the only time I was truly happy was as a little kid
word. it's hard to stay optimistic when all you can do is look back.

>>82174869
>it hurts how much I'd do to go back to that time and stay there forever.
your not the only one feeling like that. the more i look around, the more people i see that just go back to the things that brought them joy back in the day. turtle world of warcraft, the premodern format in mtg, old editions of warhammer. people are fed up with the dystopian shithole that is today.

>>82174874
>that's most displeasing
yup. :< got myself some kombucha. :]

>just listened to a guy talk
what was he talking about?

>I'm not sure I've ever told you but I like listening to channels where some randoms talk about their life
can be fun. i watched some japanese woman go about her day some time ago. not sure if it isn't just and ad, though... ^^'

https://m.youtube.com/@naminokurashi/videos

>just a check-up or some emergency?
got some issues, but no clue where they come from, so just some bloodwork and the like. should have all the results by the end of the week.

>was it okay today?
it was alright. it's work. :/

>>82174953
>was the only one I wanted to go to desu.
so I'm guessing you're not going to go to another one any time soon?
>kinda stupid how emotional it makes me
I think that's fine, at least something makes you feel something
after all that's what games and movies are for
>relive things tho
how long ago those things happen?
>was kinda like stepping into an oven.
yep
I hope you're drinking a lot of wata and chill
>hope it all goes well. wishing you all the best for that
thanks it'll probably go okay I'm not worried about it i got other uni crap to worry about more anyway

>>82175310
>got myself some kombucha. :]
you have atoned for you sins \o/
>what was he talking about?
honestly just some depressing stuff
but there are some sorta nice parts
like there was a guy from new zealand I used to listen to who lived in a internet cafe and to relax he'd buy a lighter and marshmallows and go to a park at night to roast them on that lighter
and I thought that's kinda nice
>should have all the results by the end of the week.
hopefully it sheds some light on what's wrong
>was alright. it's work. :/
yeah I know
or I don't, I never worked, but I may have to get a job in maybe the next half a year
or at least I'm thinking about it

picrel cus i remember it being maybe the first anime i consciously watched

>>82175250
that's a rlly cute picture btw
>not that well, but also not that badly. kinda meh.
what's up?
>the heat doesn't help, either. ^^' what about you?
about the same probably, it's like 35C in my room cus i have one of those dumb roof rooms. for the rest i've just been tired mostly
>seems like a good amount of time between events like that.
yup, and that one is a lot closer to me, so I'll probably be able to sleep in my own bed inbetween, which beats sleeping in the same room as 2 of my friends who cannot be quiet.
>that's worth more in my opinion.
yeah definitely, food was expensive but i did buy a cd and a bullet belt, since i wanted one for a while
>how is it?
it's been pretty cool, much simpler atleast than the newer games
>you're completing your dex, right?
i've got the regional dex, I might do the national dex but it'll take a long time probably and I gotta gen the event limited ones anyways
>so why isn't it in the games?
probably since pokemon is still aimed at kids mainly, and idk if I've ever met a kid who would be capable of playing one if i'm being honest
>two game formular, while also selling dlc.
which i think is super scummy btw, probably the main thing which prevented me from getting a switch (i usually get nintendo consoles just for certain games)
>sometimes things are better left remembered.
yup, the only thing i probably didn't have this with was sword art online (one of my all time fav anime, idc what anyone says) and re:zero. probably did help that i watched those at a later age and when i rewatched them it made me feel the same way about them
>it's hard to stay optimistic when all you can do is look back.
yep, for me it hurts even more since i'm doing stuff most people would consider as really fun and exciting, but still it doesn't hit the same as those simple things back then

>just go back to the things that brought them joy back in the day.
now that you're saying it, i notice that too alot. I guess a lot of girls ik go back to stuff like hello kitty and all those dolls. and one of my friends (like a big burly biker dude) has been talking to me a lot about k-on of all things hahaha. its pretty endearing but also makes me pretty sad that you have to dig back so far in order to find things to be happy about
>just go back to the things that brought them joy back in the day.
what makes it even worse it's not even like a cool dystopia you read about (govt oppression etc) it's just a boring dystopia of failing economy, social lives, communities and hypercapitalism (atleast here it's like that), I suppose that's just the gradual decline but it does make me worried for the future since most people have accepted that there is no future

>>82175668
that's a cute picture ehehe
>you're not going to go to another one any time soon?
not for a couple of months atleast, i might go to a few concerts tho.
>at least something makes you feel something
yeah, and this time it's not fleeting or anything. i feel with most things i just lose my enjoyment for it eventually and let it fade, but not pokemon (among a few other things) somehow.
>how long ago those things happen?
uhhh... probably like 10-14 years ago. i'm not sure actually. time is a big blur for me
>I hope you're drinking a lot of wata and chill
yup, as well as alcohol free beer now. I've decided that I'm going to try to drink alot less in the future. already drank a lot at the festival, and i kinda get scared how much i drink sometimes.
>other uni crap to worry about more anyway
well I hope everything goes well for you. I've been trying to plan for the future too, since I dropped out of high school a while ago due to mental health reasons, and still would really like to go to university someday.

>>82175668
>you have atoned for you sins \o/
praise be \o/

>honestly just some depressing stuff
as weird as it is, it can be nice to know you're not the only one struggling. thread related.

>who lived in a internet cafe and to relax he'd buy a lighter and marshmallows and go to a park at night to roast them on that lighter and I thought that's kinda nice
it is. :> and not the weirdest place to live. here some guys just live in trains. it's cheaper to just buy the tickets instead of paying rent.

>hopefully it sheds some light on what's wrong
i hope so. not gonna lie, it would be frustrating if it didn't.

>yeah I know or I don't
you do. it's exactly as you imagine.

>I may have to get a job in maybe the next half a year or at least I'm thinking about it
do you have one in mind?

>>82175743
>i remember it being maybe the first anime i consciously watched
which one is it? doesn't ring a bell.

>that's a rlly cute picture btw
it is. :> got a lot of those, but not that many opportunities to post them.

>what's up?
stress, heat, tired. also have to recover a bit more. my workouts have been a bit shit lately.

>it's like 35C in my room cus i have one of those dumb roof rooms.
same. my stupid ps4 is heating up the room quite a bit as well. -_-;

>for the rest i've just been tired mostly
make sure to get a good nights rest, then. if it's the kind of tired that sleep will fix.

>so I'll probably be able to sleep in my own bed inbetween, which beats sleeping in the same room as 2 of my friends who cannot be quiet.
having a room at all sounds like a luxury. whenever i see a festival, a lot of people stay in tents. must be absolutely miserable.

>food was expensive
it's extortion, but what are you supposed to do :/ what did you eat?

>i did buy a cd and a bullet belt, since i wanted one for a while
nice. gonna wear it to the next one?

>much simpler atleast than the newer games
at this point i prefer simpler stuff.

>>82175743
>it'll take a long time probably and I gotta gen the event limited ones anyways
i always forget there's limited ones. i don't think i'd ever bother with that.

>since pokemon is still aimed at kids mainly
yeah, but you could unlock it after you beat the game ones or, god forbid, for once make a game for the audience that grew up with your games.

>which i think is super scummy btw
the other reason i never bought one of the newer pokemon games. i just looked at that and said... nah.

>the main thing which prevented me from getting a switch (i usually get nintendo consoles just for certain games)
i have one, but i hardly ever use it. i just get it out around christmas and play some mario kart with the family.

>sword art online (one of my all time fav anime, idc what anyone says)
heard the name before, but never watched it. in the end you like what you like. why is it your favorite?

>when i rewatched them it made me feel the same way about them
best outcome possible. ^^

>it doesn't hit the same as those simple things back then
true. i don't care for most things people want. a simple life is all i want, but people won't let me. :/

>>82175836
>its pretty endearing but also makes me pretty sad that you have to dig back so far in order to find things to be happy about
in a way it also makes me feel a bit less alone. especially when people put in the work and share what they enjoy with others. always nice to see when folks who are new to it and have no nostalgia for it realize what they've been missing out on. not that everything was better back in the day, but there's just so much more bad stuff nowadays there's no escaping it.

>I suppose that's just the gradual decline but it does make me worried for the future since most people have accepted that there is no future
pretty much this. if the super rich decide they can fuck up the planet all they want, so be it, but don't expect me to put in more work than necessary to stay afloat. i'll just drift by and that's it. on that note, maybe give this guy a try:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LMor8RNDAvE&pp=0gcJCf8Ao7VqN5tD

>>82175836
>cute picture ehehe
same to u !!
>might go to a few concerts tho.
I'm sure you'll find fun stuff to do ^^
>but not pokemon
it's good you have a thing like that
that you can consistently rely on
> (among a few other things
like what??
>time is a big blur for me
yeah same
I can't remember stuff I barely have memories
>that I'm going to try to drink alot less
that's a good thing to do
no need to destroy you liver
>would really like to go to university someday.
hope you get to
I never wanted to go there it just sorta happened

>>82176081
>praise be \o/
((( \o/ )))
>nice to know you're not the only one struggling.
yep
>cheaper to just buy the tickets instead of paying rent.
wild, soon living in airplanes will be cheaper than rent if things continue the way they are
>would be frustrating if it didn't.
probably
but at least then you'd know what is probably not wrong
less helpful but still better than nothing
>do you have one in mind?
no
but if I fail uni I'll at least have no excuses not to try to work
I simultaneously don't want to and feel like I should, maybe then I'd be able to become independent and maybe move out
Also I don't think my parents would let me be a neet, unfortunately, though it's frustrating because I know they will also have a problem with me thinking about moving out
They're the kind that's overprotective and treat me like a child but then suddenly are surprised I'm not normal
And simultaneously I'm not sure I want to move out, here I have a garage to work on bikes in and I don't have to pay rent or taxes do much really but I would like to move out maybe for half a year or so, just to learn something

I'll probably be sleepin soon so goodnight!!

>>82176540
>living in airplanes will be cheaper than rent if things continue the way they are
they're going to. the issue is that the most wealthy people have so much money they don't know what to do with it, so they simply buy everything they can get hold of, pricing everybody else out.

>at least then you'd know what is probably not wrong less helpful but still better than nothing
yeah, but the the doc just says you have a "syndrome", leaves it at that and you can keep searching for a solution yourself. and i already tried that. aynways, let's not get that pessmistic before the results are in.

>at least have no excuses not to try to work I simultaneously don't want to and feel like I should, maybe then I'd be able to become independent and maybe move out
good goal to have. and don't forget that flat sharing is a thing. you don't have to go from living with your family to living in your own immediately.

>I don't think my parents would let me be a neet
i've been one before. don't go there if you can avoid it.

>I'll probably be sleepin soon so goodnight!!
sleep tight.

i should go to bed as well. good night, everyone!

>>82176081
akame ga kill. a friend recommended it to me, he was a big weeb and i never really knew anime other than the super popular things.
>but not that many opportunities to post them.
hey man, send em my way!
>stress, heat, tired. also have to recover a bit more. my workouts have been a bit shit lately.
that sucks, hope it'll get better soon.
>ps4 is heating up the room
i'm scared to turn mine on desu incase it exploded. my laptop cpu hit like 75c so i'm scared.
>make sure to get a good nights rest
i'm trying but the heat is killing me
>must be absolutely miserable.
which it is, i try my best to avoid that whenever i can
>it's extortion, but what are you supposed to do :/ what did you eat?
yup, atleast they provided free water n such when it was super hot. I ate mainly just fries, rice and burgers ehehe
>gonna wear it to the next one?
probably, but it's heavy as fuck. suppose it's cus they're real bullets but still
>for once make a game for the audience that grew up with your games.
not as profitable as selling shovelware slop to kids.
>why is it your favorite?
i guess there's something unique about the time it was released. it's kinda like a semi isekai before isekai really took off. also had a ton of loveydovey waifu bait, which usually i absolutely hate but somehow it's kinda endearing. ig it came out before all those tropes n such were overdone, and the love story is still pretty sweet.
>but people won't let me. :/
me and you both bro, I'm trying my best tho. been abandoning a lot of social media lately (haven't checked discord in AGES for example)
>it also makes me feel a bit less alone
same, i guess for me it feels like I'm living in those times again somehow. you see it too a lot with fashion and other stuff i feel like, a lot more people are dressing alternative, which makes my metalhead ass happy
>put in more work than necessary to stay afloat. i'll just drift by and that's it.
that's what i'd like to do. but I'm not at the "staying afloat" part yet

>>82176352
>that you can consistently rely on
it's not so much that I rely on it more than it just is a happy memory.
>like what??
mainly most metal genres, warhammer (which i discovered fairly recently), and just music in general. strategy games can go there too i suppose.
>I can't remember stuff I barely have memories
I have basically no real memories past the age of 13, everything since is one massive blur. I do remember certain things, but they're mainly bad memories.
>I never wanted to go there it just sorta happened
seems like a good thing tho, nowadays you can't do shit without a degree i've noticed.

I'll be calling it a night too, hope everyone has a goodnight.

sleep well you guys

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