Thread 82173900

30+ general.

Share your thoughts.
How's summer going?

Personally I can't stand the heat.
Also, as of late I've been feeling pretty sad about how distant my family is, and I long for things like a family barbecue on a Sunday.

I'm poor and i can't move out of my parents house because I have a 22k loan on my car because i'm a retard

I dont know how to meet people and make friends anymore

Would it be better to retire at 40 despite having no savings or to wait until after my parents die so that I can kill myself?

Watching my life passing me by.

i'm 33 and a shut in kissless virgin who's addicted to porn, and self loathing about being an ugly retard who doesn't deserve happiness or intimacy. i don't have any desire or drive to improve my life or leave my parent's house. i just can't imagine a woman ever liking me physically or liking anything about me really because i'm a boring, ugly, retarded old fuckup with zero redeeming qualities and i'd have nothing to contribute to a relationship and never will. so i just do nothing but consume escapism and fap wishing i wasn't born in a subhuman body with a broken brain. seems like everyone on the internet at least has one good thing about them but i really have zero skills or talent or positive desirable things about me physically or otherwise and i ruminate about that daily.

>>82174044
I know you think porn is a cope, but you're going to feel a lot better about yourself if you stop looking at the porn.

>>82174183
the only way i can feel good is if i self insert into guys who actually get to be with women. i know i'm an addict.

>>82174231
it'd be healthier to replace that porn addiction with another escapist hobby like vidya etc, you won't feel like such a big fucking loser when you aren't constantly reminding yourself of sex and jerking it to other dudes having it
it seems counterintuitive because it feels like this is a cope for you but its actually part of the poison
your mind will just feel better when you arent looking at this stuff anymore trust me im a porn addict too and when im not looking at porn i feel a lot better about life

>>82174044
>i don't have any desire or drive to improve my life
Is it because there is literally nothing you want from life or because you think it is impossible for you to get those things?

>>82174296
it's because i think i'm genuinely low iq and worthless. i have never felt passionate about anything my entire life. i've always just felt like a mistake and it's never changed, if anything i am more depressed and self hating than i ever have been in my entire life. i just can't muster up the energy to do anything because i think it's all pointless. nobody wants to be around or live with a perpetually miserable retard.

>>82174337
maybe u should troon out if u hate urself so much

>>82174397
i'm too ugly, tall, and masculine to troon out. nothing about my is feminine i would make a fucking awful tranny.

>>82174415
you could still be a bottom, anyways most ppl think they look uglier than they actually are
at the very least you could be a hot crossdresser you dont HAVE to pass fully to turn ppl on and it doesnt have to be fulltime

>>82174444
i am way too old to experiment with gay shit man. besides i'm like 10% bi at best. i don't have that big of an attraction to men to actually do gay shit irl. i would dress up for a woman in the bedroom if she was into it at most.

>>82174444
nice digits.
also why are you trying to pinkpill anon lol?
you can't force yourself to be trans like that and not be miserable, you'll get dysphoria. I tried hormones because i'm a little agp turd but got dysphoria when i grew breasts cause i'm not a real woman

>>82174457
10% bi is still bi lol, if you're 30s you're not too old yet there are plenty of guys doing gay shit in their 30s
you may develop more of an attraction to men if you started getting positive attention from them and experience with them

>>82174462
idk I wouldn't normally recommend it but if anon has no hope for anything else its an easy out for some people, and would result in him getting a lot more attention than he does now
if hes not into it at all he shouldn't do it
if hes gonna be a hon its NOT worth it lol
but he could still be a crossdresser part-time

its been going horrible, i hate my life and im approaching the end fast

>>82174502
as someone who's thought about crossdressing and doing gay shit i ultimately just decided it's not for me man. i'd much rather be with a woman, but that's probably not likely to happen anytime soon.

>>82174525
so you've thought about it? well I won't keep harping on you about it it feels wrong to keep doing it. im just saying its an easy out thats all. hopefully u get with a woman one day

>>82173900 (OP)
What's it like being old AF? I just turned 20 and I feel old as dirt. COVID times feel like a lifetime ago, 2016-2019 antifa times feel like two lifetimes ago and Obama feels like three lifetime go.
I look at videos from the 1990s and that MFing shit looks ANCIENT, it might as well be the 1970s.

>>82174625
I don't feel any different from when I was 20yo. The only difference is time goes by faster and I tolerate shit less, like I don't go to parties to hang with randos anymore.

>>82174625
for a generation that's obsessed with "vibes" you sure all do love to be annoying cunts everywhere you go.

>>82174884
They can't help it. Literally the generation that dropped 20 I. Q. Points after decades of steady intelligence gains.
Pity them, anon. Pity them.

>>82174884
>Ask legit question
>Get insulted
What did I do wrong other then be younger then you?

>>82175010
Every time we have one of these threads we have the same dumb cunt in his twenties posting the " how do I not end up like you losers" post. Believe it or not it gets tiresome adressing the same sort of shit every thread.
(And yes i know you didn't literally post that but it's more or less the same shit.)

>>82173900 (OP)
31M, used to be decently popular in early college but lost it all due to a disease, pretty consistently had a girlfriend from 14-27 but have barely had any sex since then. lost all interest in making friends and can't get any decent matches on the apps. working a dead end engineering job in the city, living in a shitty apartment, sweating because i can't afford to keep an AC going. have to quit thc soon because of probation. the only hope i have now is to write something great and make enough money to not have a job.

>>82175010
I think it's the fact that your first couple of sentences was harsh sounding. Then you immediately started talking about yourself. Let the oldfags have their own thread you zombie.

>t. another zombie

things are slowly steadily getting better,
apart from my mental health. might NEET again soon and focus on myself but financially I am pretty well off

going to the dota international in Hamburg next month so that will be nice I hope

most of my focus is on losing weight right now

>past the midpoint of my 30s
>no bf/husband or kids
>no friends
>really nothing to show for my life but my money
At least a game I've been waiting for comes out soon. That's about what's keeping me going right now. That and the knowledge that if I die nobody will feed my cat.

>>82175722
Oh come the fuck on it's too obvious

>>82175735
I really don't know what you're going on about man, sorry. I'm just here to be a downer like everyone else.

>>82175735
thats right
Project Epoch is never gonna release

>>82175756
Seriously? A single girl of oldfag age with money? Coming here in front of all the lonely men?

>>82175766
>with money
Not like an absurd amount. Just the kind you get from an empty life of working 12 hours, going home, and then sleeping after you force down food. I would also advise men to not date women my age because I can say from experience a single woman in her 30s is single FOR A REASON. Usually mental illness.

>>82175790
And what is your reason?

>33
>live with mommy
>had my very first job this year, and it was ass, so I just let the contract expire
>got a college degree that's fucking useless
>got close to getting a masters degree, but failed to finish due to family trouble I'll get into
>spent over half a decade being a sole caregiver to my aunt who got paralyzed by a stroke
>I don't want to be an asshole who says I wasted my time, but I wasted my time
>missed the starting gun, and now I'm playing catch up at my middle age
>I should look for another job, but with my age and lack of experience, the prospects are pretty grim
>I also have a crippling social anxiety, which very much affects my ability at job interviews
I'll probably just wait around until my mother dies, and then neck myself.

>>82173900 (OP)
>30yo
Y'all MFers old AF LOL. What the fuck y'all old ass people doing on this site? Go home and chill with your wife and kidsfor real.

>>82175877
Carefull we thought the same thing at your age.
One of us. One of us. One of us... Soon.

>>82175852
I have a lot.
>mental illness
>severe trust issues
>need regular periods of quiet or I get overstimulated and eventually melt down
>traumatic childhood
There's more but the nature of it means I'd have to go into more detail than is ideal.

neet, no money, no friends, no gf. Feels impossible to change anything, I try and try. Everyone acts weird when I tell them I want to die, like I just said a slur. How could anyone not want death in my situation. I wish they'd just get over themselves and euthanize me for fuck sake.

>>82174884
I always assume it's just fishing for (You)s

>>82175895
That's rough. I hope things work out for you, nobody deserves this kind of life we lead.
Well maybe except for bastards, but in my experience they seldom get what they deserve.

>>82175877
Why are you on this site, zoom zoom? I bet your life is no better. Remember, women your age don't want you because you're an immature retard with no social skills and no prospects for a better future!

>>82174625
>What's it like being old AF?
Kinda the opposite of how you're feeling. As you get older, time flies by a lot faster.

>>82174625
Sometimes I think about a movie or event that was "pretty recent" in my mind and it was 15 years ago

>>82175895
stop pretending your problems are anywhere comparable to mens you degenerate fucking whore

>>82175955
I'll do you one better. Going to a youtube video you remember fondly and seeing that it was published over twelve years ago.
Makes you feel like the nazi at the end of the last crusade. "You have chosen... Poorly."

>>82175984
Dude you're (allegedly) in your 30s drop that zoomer shit. Everyone has problems and yes that includes the women.

>>82176012
maybe they should go vent about it to their boyfriend, or the next one, or the next one or

>>82175989
Yeah, had that happen a few times too. I lose track of how many years I've been watching some of these people. There were some I was watching before making money on Youtube was even that viable, they would have their own sites where they also self-hosted the content.

unc longue >>82174884
yo chill unc

>>82175984
Not worth arguing. I promise you won't win a problems-off with me. Have a nice rage or whatever I'm going to go buy my dinner for 1.

>>82176052
Because you know I'm right. Why bother buying dinner when you can swipe right once on Tinder and get it for free, you insufferable slag.

>>82176052
The trouble with men and women like him is they consistently fail to recognise their bitterness is going to further condemn them to loneliness.

>>82176088
she's not going to fuck you, simp-kun

>no job (never had one)
>no skills
>no savings
>no driver's license
>no autismbucks
>no gf but I don't care about that
Give it to me straight bros how fucked am I

>>82176096
And your bitterness is only going to fuck you out of opportunities. But continue to drink that poison Im sure everyone else will drop dead soon, Nigai-kun.

>>82176118
I'm an autistic man, I've never had any opportunities, you wont gaslight me otherwise. It's pathetic that sad fucks like you drink foid piss and ask for seconds without stopping to question why you have to.

>>82175916
My guess? Some zoomers are triggered at the gen z bait so now they come here to get back at the oldfags

>>82176135
Ah... An austist, that explains the retardation. Let me explain it this way then Nigai-kun, even if a woman showed genuine interest in you your negetive mindset will convince you that she just wants "beta bux".

>>82176161
Nice to see the mask slip, always a laugh when you mightier-than-thou simp fucks show me who you really are. Who you always are. Don't be such a bitch just because I've decided to stop entertaining your superiority complex.

Also, she still wont fuck you.

>>82175895
is there truly no salvation for any of us?
there's still this kernel of hope that there could be a relationship that repents against the poor choices that got us here and is able to be of value to one another

But all I ever hear is the constant drumbeat of
>Men: provide material utility (better than she can otherwise get) while appearing significantly "better" than the average man
>Women: the behaviors that damage long-term pair bonding will never be undone. She's broken.

>>82175722
i wish i could talk to you about my cat and you about yours
i will be falling asleep to this thought

i'm 25, can i post in this thread?

>>82176177
The fact that you think being pleasant is the equivalent to simping is proving my point entirely Nigai-kun.
Your autism isn't the problem, you're just a cunt.

>>82176210
Keep telling yourself that, she still wont fuck you.

>>82176185
I like to believe as long as we try not to engage in the gender war "othering" and rtry to engage each other with sincerity there is still hope.
But what do I know, after all I am a "simp".

>>82176218
Unlike you Im not completely delusional to believe that she will this is after all an anonymous imageboard with a global community.

>>82176269
about the same amount of chance you usually have though right, lmao

>>82176281
Awfully presumptuous of you Nigai-kun.
You smashed much box lately?

>>82176108
I work for a psychology clinic(front desk) that basically specializes in lifelong male NEETs, so I'll tell you some observations:
>30-35yo
It's about twice as hard for them to make it compared to someone in their 20s. I'd say about 1/3 make it, another 1/3 improve somewhat, and 1/3 totally fail.
>40-45yo
It's about 4 times as hard. About 20% make it and 30% somewhat make it.
>45yo +
It's basically game over. If you've been a lifelong neet this far you're not gonna make it. At best you can slightly improve.

>>82176299
aye, got my neetbux a couple weeks ago, had a laff. Turns out it's easy if you skip all the formalities and go straight to the exchange of money.

>>82176307
Define "make it" often times even people who follow society's golden path end up miserable.

i was in pretty deep depression lately feel myself getting out of it now, which is good
also my back is improved a lot, like sept last year i couldnt even walk more than 20 minutes, now i can walk with no problem its just heavy lifting and extended standing for hours which kills me

i tried dieting but stopping soda i think hurt my mood big time, i think ill try caffeine pills instead of soda , and just have little bit every once in a while for boost of energy

>>82176317
Is there a particularly big market for whores who serve autists? They way you were speaking earlier led me to believe you are forced to live like a monk.

>>82176366
women will happily eat shit for money, of course there's a market

Is there even a point to saving my money anymore? It's impossible to ever own a home so I don't see a point in even trying. I should just buy motorcycles instead.

>>82176483
based, live off the land like the Mongols, make a motorcycle horde

starting my 3rd month of daily kms thoughts

>>82176483
buy camping supplies and survival equipment so you can innawoods when society inevitably collapses or be glamorously homeless if it doesn't

>>82176514
i mean campermaxxing isn't that bad people do it
you can just fuck off if it ever hits the fan

>>82176483
renting more expensive long term, why you spending money? save it regardless
>>82176514
supplies are meaningless, learning survival skills would be fun, but more likely its best to learn how to hunt, and kill/process animals

>>82176532
idk the campers I see online look like trustfund kiddies with tricked out van conversions, I wouldn't be able to afford the stuff to have a decent lifestyle.

>>82176514
r9k hidden town in the mountains when?

>>82176624
the idea of having to co-habit with any of you fucks fills me with profound dread

>>82176640
We just need to filter out the crazies

>>82176651
there would be no one left

>>82176657
kek you got me there

someone tried doing something liek that, they ended up catching their place on fire and told to pack up and leave because it was illegal housing

hello im 18
so are any of you incels still or what do you guys have in common except your age

>>82176725
19 here. was never an incel but i have a similar sense of humor to r9k anons so i understand them

>>82176307
had a wakeup at 34 and went to a community college for an associates/entry to a technical program.
got in shape, completed requisites, applied
Nothing. then covid dropped. Got severe respiratory infection (doubt the veracity of covid virus). I was already planning on claiming i was a jehova's witness for vaccine (some combo probably meningitis and hep) exemption but then the tech schools started requiring covid shots after getting passed over for an enrollment period.

could have done more but my lungs had half closed up. id wake up in the night from the wheezing and whistling sounds that came out of my chest. i could no longer work out, or do much of anything without getting winded. Downward spiral. My downward spirals eat more years each time.

41 now. Have managed to move to a place with better air quality. I haven't recovered but I've recovered enough to do moderate exercise again. I think it's figure out self-employment in the next 2-3 years or death now.

Nearing 40, I honestly don't want to even try having a relationship; I'm not lonely, just bored and tired of the meaninglessness of this pathetic society.

>>82176247
>othering
Weewoo we've got a midwit here. "Liberated" female behavior has been on display for long enough, there's no going back to "understanding each other," you fucking reddit-tier simp.

I'm 33 and currently NEET. But I managed to do everything I wanted to do in life. I never thought I'd ever do certain things but I did them which makes me happy. So even being a NEET still stuck at my parents right now, I'm not depressed anymore. I'm mostly just content. I still get bored. I still want sex on the occasion. But I know what I'm missing out on now. Fast cars, sex, travelling, thank fuck I managed to do it all so it's a load off my shoulders. I lost my virginity at 29 so it's possible even for you late guys who are still virgins at 25.

>>82173900 (OP)
46, not bad. i love the summer and love the sun.

had a few golf outtings. lots of drinking and cooking going on.

hip is hurting so havent been able to ride the bike like i enjoy doing in the morning on weekends.

fests coming up this weekend.

soon enough it will be time to start fishing again.