Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

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Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

REMINDER TO DRINK WOTER!

>>82176869
>akame ga kill.
hm. hovered over the thumbnail a few times, but never watched the show for some reason. maybe i should.

>send em my way!
yuanon will remember that.

>hope it'll get better soon.
i'm sure it will be. maybe.

>i'm scared to turn mine on desu incase it exploded. my laptop cpu hit like 75c so i'm scared.
at this point i'm hoping that mine does. i'm so tired and disappointed of tech it's unreal.

>the heat is killing me
resting easy is going to be harder than usual this week. (-_-:)

>i try my best to avoid that
hope you manage. it's a terrible fate.

>I ate mainly just fries, rice and burgers ehehe
it's a festival. i don't suppose anyone is there to watch their diet. ^^

>probably, but it's heavy as fuck. suppose it's cus they're real bullets but still
maybe get a weight vest, so you can train for wearing that belt. :>

>not as profitable as selling shovelware slop to kids.
kids are of course a big market for it, but i feel like there's also a lot of people my age buying it out of nostalgia regardless of quality.

>which usually i absolutely hate but somehow it's kinda endearing.
everyone has a guilty pleasure. i really enjoy sappy romance manga, but only if there's zero drama involved. i just want something in my life that's not complete shit.

>ig it came out before all those tropes n such were overdone, and the love story is still pretty sweet.
if it's executed well, it's executed well. doesn't matter how many other people already used these tropes. the mark of a great storyteller is when they can tell you a story you already know and still make you feel like you didn't.

>been abandoning a lot of social media lately (haven't checked discord in AGES for example)
good job. it's a cesspool anyway. it's the quality of connections that counts, not the quantity.

>a lot more people are dressing alternative, which makes my metalhead ass happy
heh. true. today a middle aged woman wearing a hatsune miku shirt came to my store. no fucks given.

>>82183433 (OP)
hi catbro! how are you holding up?

>>82183460
good advice. maybe even add a splash of salt or lemon. need those electrolytes.

>>82183433 (OP)
I don't know what to say. Thank you for being here. Suffering comes to haunt some of us every day, but at least for me, this thread is a little beacon of comfort which takes me away from all this darkness which dictates my life.

Never stop, you are keeping the lowest of the low together, which is more important than you can imagine. Even if some leave, there are others, who gain the last bit of love they need to keep pushing from the exchanges happening in your thread.

>>82183441
>> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
> https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c
Chiming in if anyone else had read it and wants to discuss it. I figured out it should be sensible to chime in from time to time

>>82184132
Heyooo
>how are you holding up?
I'm going
been chilling today and I think I'll rewatch bladerunner
I had the interlinked scene constantly in my head today
also I got some clothes I ordered some shirts but I don't like any if them
They're all have odd proportions or are from materials I don't like
How are you?
oh btw yesterday you said
>don't have to go from living with your family to living in your own immediately
If I could I'd prefer to be alone than to have roommates

>>82184248
Hello anon
>Thank you for being here
I'm happy this place helps you and thank you for sharing your thoughts and being nice!
>Suffering comes to haunt some of us every
Do you wanna talk about what's haunting u? or maybe about something you enjoy?
But yeah, life sucks and it's great we can at least find someone to talk to online, you guys can live on a completely different continent but we can communicate so effortlessly and quickly though the internet
Just a slightly unrelated though but what I had on my mind recently is that it pisses me off greatly how that communication is getting restricted with bullshit like the age verification uk and us with youtibe have now, it makes me furious

>>82184248
thank you for your kind words, fren. catbro really is the best. (T~T) how are you doing?

>>82184355
welcome back, anon! :D how have you been?

>>82184355
Hey anon !
how's it going?
>anyone else had read it and wants to discuss it
I haven't
sorry anon

>>82184527
>I'm going
glad to hear that. gues we don't have a choice. ^^

>been chilling today and I think I'll rewatch bladerunner I had the interlinked scene constantly in my head today
the new or old one? have to admit i don't remember the scene. it's been quite a while i watched either.

>I got some clothes I ordered some shirts but I don't like any if them
dang. :/

>They're all have odd proportions or are from materials I don't like
understandable. for me it's always when i get something colorful. it just doesn't sit right with me and i know, but i still try from time to time. same result every time. can't stand synthetic fibers, either. can be hard to find clothes that fit my criteria, even when i look for ecological minded brands. they stilll do the recycling scam a lot. will you order something else?

>How are you?
i'm ok. it's hot as hell, though. i'll watch the latest dandadan episode now. see you in a bit.

>If I could I'd prefer to be alone than to have roommates
i hope you'll manage, but it's going to get harder and harder to be able to afford something like that.

>>82184624
>>82184624
Been reading around lots and lots but nothing been anyhow helpful in theory or practice or insight. Can't really recommend anything interesting on BPD, CPTSD, etc unless you want to go as far as the generalisms of Otto Rank's later works and Eric Berne.
Been finding lots of schizoid and malignant attachment forums to have really relatable blogposts and discussions, but nothing I could really use, either, beyond what I had already tested. Really not liking the raw experience I'm getting. Hopefully you're doing better

>>82183433 (OP)
heya cat! temperature killing you too?

>>82184132
>never watched the show for some reason. maybe i should.
personally I liked it, it was pretty edgy but at the time that was straight up my alley.
>i'm so tired and disappointed of tech it's unreal.
mainly the ps4 and onwards generations of consoles, my ps2 and ps3 run perfectly no matter how much punishment they endure.
>i don't suppose anyone is there to watch their diet.
probably not, but most people including me spend the next days just resting anyways.
>so you can train for wearing that belt
I can wear it just fine, its just that i'm glad to take it off at the end of the day.
>but only if there's zero drama involved. i just want something in my life that's not complete shit.
yeah, usually the fanbase wars scare me away from pretty much anything, only thing that really has made me stay has been 40k and xcom. for anime i can enjoy everything just fine if I make the decision to never interact with the fanbase.
>when they can tell you a story you already know and still make you feel like you didn't.
which is something that has been lacking a lot lately. maybe i'm just biased but i decided to watch movies and shows that are universally praised, yet still didn't like them.
>it's the quality of connections that counts, not the quantity.
ain't it the truth, I'd say i've only got a very select few of connections i feel worthwhile of maintaining (including this thread, you and cat mainly but everyone has been pleasant here regardless)
>no fucks given.
which is how it should be

>>82184248
it really is great, this thread is one of the last things i've found without any toxicity. probably has helped me more than i'd ever know.

>>82183433 (OP)
hey /cut/ its me namefag#4444 its nice to be back

>How are you doing today?
tired, about to head to sleep soon
recently went to the beach cause im at a resort town for like a couple days
went out at night and i saw the big dipper with my sister, picrel is actually a photo i took of it

i dont have much plans for the week besides going to the beach cause my family forces me
but i'll be out and about though lol

>>82184534
>catbro really is the best.
hey! you're giving me too much credit

>>82184665
>gues we don't have a choice. ^^
ye
>the new or old one?
new, I have not seen the old one yet
>don't remember
here
https://youtu.be/ZRcpnM26nJM?si=J2k1pqJKrUhE-Vtj
>dang. :/
it's okay
I'm used to it, at least I don't have to pay for shipping and I can return it
>will you order something else?
nah I have clothes to wear
so I'll just wait for some sales when summer comes to an end
>i'm ok. it's hot as
that's good
and yeah qt least the weather's supposed to cool of this weekend here
>dandadan episode
have fun!
>get harder and harder to be able to afford somethi
I know :/

>>82184741
>nothing been anyhow helpfu
>nothing I could really use, either,
sounds frustrating and unsatisfying
And you going to continue looking for anything that could help?
>Hopefully you're doing better
I'm alright mostly other than one issue
I have some uni projects I should work on but I'm struggling to motivate myself, I had a short time when I felt too anxious to start but now I just don't feel any pressure to start instead
I'm ready not sure if I even want to continue uni not sure if it's even a choice I can make at this point

>>82184835
Hello
>temperature killing you too?
it's not too bad but I did have two headaches because of the heat today which says something
At least the evening now is nice and cool, it even get fairly cold at night here
wbu?

>>82184935
hey o/
>nice to be back
nice to see you
I always wonder what happens to people who disappeared
>about to head to sleep soon
have nice dreams!
>resort town for like a couple days
it sounds fun
do you like it there
>photo i took of it
it sure does look like a dipper, a pretty big one too
>beach cause my family forces me
you can't convince them to leave you alone?
>but i'll be out and about
have fun ^^

>>82184835
>it was pretty edgy but at the time that was straight up my alley.
i've never been a fan of stuff that was too pizzacutter all edge, no point. gantz and elfenlied were pretty big back then, but i've never had a taste for that stuff. personal preference, though.

>mainly the ps4 and onwards generations of consoles
exactly. they all exude anti-consumer practices.

>ps2 and ps3 run perfectly no matter how much punishment they endure.
my brother has our ps2 and sadly my ps3 bit the dust quite some time ago, which is a real shame since it was the fat one. :/ it's the ylod and maybe i could still fix it, but i'm not feeling like it atm. though it could be nice to play lost planet again. that game was fun.

>but most people including me spend the next days just resting anyways.
nobody said that having fun wasn't drainig. ;D

>its just that i'm glad to take it off at the end of the day.
good training then.

>only thing that really has made me stay has been 40k and xcom
those are cool ips with stuff for everyone. if you 40k and xcom, maybe check out the original chaos gate. still my favorite 40k game.

https://www.gog.com/en/game/warhammer_40000_chaos_gate

>for anime i can enjoy everything just fine if I make the decision to never interact with the fanbase.
very smart decision. i tried for a while and while i got some cool recommendations, the toxic fallout from people just isn't worth it. enjoy the fanart that comes out of the fandom, but never interact. it's the only way i can enjoy stuff. for myself in peace and quiet.

>>82184527
>I'm happy this place helps you and thank you for sharing your thoughts and being nice!

Just like another anon said, this is a really special place. 4chan is one of the most toxic places on the Internet, but you can find threads like this, were people are honest and you can have conversations which may be more helpful than the ones you have in real life.

>Do you wanna talk about what's haunting u?

Man, it's just too much. I relapsed a few weeks ago. I'm so ashamed about it and now I'm disconnecting more and more from the world around me. I'm getting out of touch with things that I've held dear through the worst times of my life and I'm afraid that I'm losing control.

Anyway, I don't want to talk about my dumb emotions.

How's it going? Tell me something about your life. It doesn't have to be interesting.

>>82184835
>maybe i'm just biased but i decided to watch movies and shows that are universally praised, yet still didn't like them.
that's like going in a fast food restaurant and expecting actually good food. popularity is no guarantee for quality. if you're lucky, you'll find a reviewer that shares your taste so you can go from there. biggest win for me was realizing that arcane season 1 and only season 1 >:[ was actually a good show, despite me disliking riot, lol, the overall art direction and the character designs, but something about the trailer just made me begrudgingly admit that there's some quality to it. nothing feels better than finding some actually good entertainment.

>including this thread, you and cat mainly but everyone has been pleasant here regardless
not gonna lie: we're quite awesome. you included. :>

>>82184935
hi pink! good to see you again!

>tired, about to head to sleep soon
recently went to the beach cause im at a resort town for like a couple days
sleep tight and sweet dreams! sounds like a good time. are you having fun?

>went out at night and i saw the big dipper with my sister, picrel is actually a photo i took of it
nice. :0 nightsky is one of the things i wish i could take a pic of like i see it.

>i dont have much plans for the week besides going to the beach cause my family forces me but i'll be out and about though lol
at least you get some vitamin d that way.

>>82185078
>you're giving me too much credit
am not. everyone loves you and that's just how it is. :p

>new, I have not seen the old one ye
take your time. it's an alright movie, but you need to be in the mood for it.

>here
thanks. still have a hard time placing it in the movie or remembering much about it. i need to watch it again.

>I'll just wait for some sales when summer comes to an end
yeah. i also just wait for sales and preoders and see if i find anything interesting. need some more pants, though.

>>82185078
>At least the evening now is nice and cool, it even get fairly cold at night here
yep here too, i went for a bike ride with my mom since my dad lended me his electric bike and while i was gone i just put the ac in my room on max. it's actually quite nice now, atleast not that horrible humid heat effect.

>>82185216
>gantz and elfenlied were pretty big back then
i watched elfen lied, but honestly it would be as you described it, all edge and no real point. I thought the premise was pretty interesting but it was executed really poorly in favor of making things as edgy as they could.
>they all exude anti-consumer practices.
honestly what i expect from anything out of japan. that country seems like dystopian levels of hypercapitalism.
>my ps3 bit the dust quite some time ago
aww that's a shame, mine runs very well. but my controller behaves really weird when i play literally any game.
>maybe check out the original chaos gate
I'm considering it, I looked at the daemonhunters one (the newest one) but it seemed way too gimmicky for me. speaking of xcom-like games. I recently decided to play Girls' Frontline 2, since I lost my account on the first game when musk bought twitter. It's fairly fun but plays nothing like xcom at all. It's still fun for a gacha game (i've played quite a few), but still I'm praying xcom 3 might get announced sometime.
>the toxic fallout from people just isn't worth it.
yep. I prefer to just discuss it with people who i know irl if they like the same things. it's a lot harder to be an asshole about things when the person talking to you actually KNOWS you.

>>82185078
>weather's supposed to cool of this weekend here
fingers crossed

>have fun!
i did. really enjoying it so far, though the plot pacing could pick up a bit.

>>82185337
>that's like going in a fast food restaurant and expecting actually good food.
yeah, ig something that opened up my eyes is that I'm not forced to like anything no matter how highly it is praised. I can wholly admit that I do not enjoy most things considered like "high culture", stuff like fine art or classical music, hell even like haute-cuisine. I think it's important for everyone to form their own opinions about things, that's why I kinda dislike critics, since at the end of the day it's just their opinion.

>we're quite awesome. you included. :>
agreed and thank you so much fren! <3

>>82185078
>struggling to motivate myself, I had a short time when I felt too anxious to start but now I just don't feel any pressure to start instead
>I'm ready not sure if I even want to continue uni not sure if it's even a choice I can make at this point
The kind of stuff I have to drag myself through as well, even today. All I have to say here is, from experience, dropping out sucks very much
>And you going to continue looking for anything that could help?
Both looking and making things up until something works
If something would work a reliable 1% of the times, I'd just have to repeat it 100 times in a hour, and have a good rest of the day. Have not seen such things yet

>>82185235
>more helpful than the ones you have in real life.
especially when you're anonymous and don't have to worry about whatever you say impacting you irl
>ashamed about it
I think in some ways it's good you don't think it's a good thing so that you don't wanna ro it more but also don't beat yourself over it mch okay
Especially when relapses often happen not because you did something wrong but because something outside of your control made you want to relapse
>disconnecting more and more
yeah same
>getting out of touch with things
what are they? if it's okay to ask
>don't want to talk about my dumb emotions.
that's okay but of you ever want to, feel free
>something about your life.
okay, I'll copy what I said to other anon, it's just been thinking about it
I have some uni projects I should work on but I'm struggling to motivate myself, I had a short time when I felt too anxious to start but now I just don't feel any pressure to start instead
I'm ready not sure if I even want to continue uni not sure if it's even a choice I can make at this point
Though that's a bit depressing so if you're not okay with that we can talk about something more nice

>>82185337
>that's just how it is. :p
well them facts and logic dictate that you all are frickin epic and the only reason I'm posting here is because you are here, sorry, you can't argue so with that
>alright movie, but you need to be in the mood for it.
I think I'm starting to be in the right mood
>need to watch it again.
yep I reccomend
>need some more pants, though.
I now feel ai actually have enough pants but I'm worried they'll start wearing out soon and I won't be able to find now ones I like
Best of luck on your pant hunting
>>82185362
>fingers crossed
and how how's the evening over there now?
here it's pretty cool
>really enjoying it so far
I'm very glad
I wish more shows were so fun to u

>>82185341
>it was executed really poorly in favor of making things as edgy as they could.
there's a lot of old ovas that are basically just that. i do recognize that those just dumb fun for the most part and can appreciate the over the top animation, but there's also the ones that just feel mean spirited and misanthropic. luckily those usually reveal their true colors quite early and i can just drop it.

>that country seems like dystopian levels of hypercapitalism.
not quite as bad as korea, but not far off. it's where we're all headed, though.

>but my controller behaves really weird when i play literally any game.
what's the issue? i got scammed on ebay once and bought fake controllers. the stick was just another dpad, so my character only moved in eight directions...

>it seemed way too gimmicky for me.
i was looking forward to it, but the weird cartoony graphics and the violett and turquoise colors they associate with grey knights now really turned me off. if i might be and old grumbler for a bit, i really miss warhammers black and white illustration era. :/ btw, do you have a favorite 40k artist?

>Girls' Frontline 2
never heard of that. should i bother looking it up?

>I'm praying xcom 3 might get announced sometime.
might be. have you checked out any indie xcom-likes?

>I prefer to just discuss it with people who i know irl if they like the same things.
yeah. that the issue with boys love manga. can't really discuss that with anyone i know irl. ^^'

>>82185432
>something that opened up my eyes is that I'm not forced to like anything no matter how highly it is praised.
that's a bingo. still important to differentiate stuff that you enjoy and stuff that's actually good, but yeah. you're the only one who decides what you enjoy.

>I can wholly admit that I do not enjoy most things considered like "high culture", stuff like fine art or classical music, hell even like haute-cuisine.
guess we're quite similar in that regard. there's freedom in not having to pretend

>>82185341
cute pictur :3
>yep here too
that's good,at least you don't have to sleep sweating a river
>bike ride with my mom
sounds fun :D
>put the ac in my room on max.
oo that's must be nice
I just have a fan on my window sill

>>82185654
>have to drag myself through as well
sorry to hear that, I feel there are no good choices when it comes to situations like this
Hopefully though you at least end up stll in one piece
>from experience, dropping out sucks very much
wanna talk about what happened? and what do you think about it in hindsight?
>looking and making things up until something works
you sound motivated
that's impressive

i think I'll call it a night frens
I'm planning to wake up early tomorrow
so goodnight!

I'm tired of the world and all of people's bullshit

I'm planning on killing myself once I'm 35
I'm done with it all, I just want enough time to study the world before I go

>>82185719
>but there's also the ones that just feel mean spirited and misanthropic.
yeah those were the ones i really didn't like usually since they had like topics that genuinely disgusted me. not an anime but one of the best takes i've seen on like edgy media was fear and hunger, they seemed to nail it without it becoming like a weird fetish fantasy.
>it's where we're all headed, though.
unfortunately, I keep trying to tell myself something big will happen before that tho, it keeps my spirits up atleast.
>what's the issue?
shit just won't react to any input of actual games, I was playing gran turismo 5 and everything went well in the menus and stuff but when i tried driving nothing would happen.
>do you have a favorite 40k artist?
not really any official ones, they seem to have dropped the ball a bit. I do like a lot of the fanart i see tho
>should i bother looking it up?
eh see for yourself. personally i like it since it's a sequel of a game i really enjoyed and played for a long time, but in the end it's just a waifu gacha game. I just like a lot of the characters and the story/setting
>have you checked out any indie xcom-likes?
I checked out xenonauts, which is more like the older games, but I haven't really had the time to really sit down and play it. I might do that tho. You have any other recs?
>have you checked out any indie xcom-likes?
honestly depends on your friend group haha. I know one of my friends was like a borderline fujoshi for a while, so i could probably discuss something like that with her. ig you just gotta get lucky with the people you know. I know I could bring up literally anything with my friends, as long as it's like not totally degenerate.
>differentiate stuff that you enjoy and stuff that's actually good
at the end of the day that's all relative. nothing is purely good and/or bad.
>there's freedom in not having to pretend
people tend to pretend so much that they forget who they actually are i've noticed.

>>82185432
>that's why I kinda dislike critics, since at the end of the day it's just their opinion.
that's fair. at least if they pretend their opinion is more than just that. if you find one you can trust, it's nice to have someone who does the work of combing through all that shit for you and filters out what you might like. doesn't always work out, but i sure as hell don't want to monitor every piece of media that comes out myself.

>>82185709
>you all are frickin epic and the only reason I'm posting here is because you are here, sorry, you can't argue so with that
you drive a hard bargain, but i accept your proposition. :<

>I'm starting to be in the right mood
well, have a good time. ^^ just make sure you check which of the many versions you end up watching. there's also lots of anime that were inspired by it, like bubblegum crisis. one of my favorites is silent moebius.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=an_0IIRDlc4&pp=ygUaYnViYmxlZ3VtIGNyaXNpcyBodXJyaWNhbmU%3D

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=z0F-XVVDMaw&pp=ygUZc2lsZW50IG3DtmJpdXMgb3BlbmluZyBoZNIHCQmtCQGHKiGM7w%3D%3D

>yep I reccomend
will do. but maybe when the temperatures match the mood of the movie a bit more.

>I'm worried they'll start wearing out soon and I won't be able to find now ones I like
same. there's definitely a downside to not skipping leg day and that's i have to buy new jeans every 1-2 years. :/

>Best of luck on your pant hunting
thanks. i'll let you know if i shot one. ^^

>and how how's the evening over there now?
hasn't improved at all, but i guess it's just trapped inside the house.

>I wish more shows were so fun to u
thanks. it would be nice, but i know that my taste is a bit out there, so it's not that likely. makes it even better when a series comes around that i really enjoy, though.

>>82185778
sleep well!

>>82183433 (OP)
>>How are you doing today?
BAD, like always
>>Any plans for today?
No.
>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Yesterday
>>Why did you hurt yourself?
I don't know really
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I don't know

>>82185761
>that's good,at least you don't have to sleep sweating a river
we'll see, but atleast it's a lot less warm in my room.
>I just have a fan on my window sill
i used to do that too alot, but we have proper AC in the house since a few yrs ago, and it works wonders. we can put it on the solar panels too.
>i think I'll call it a night frens
goodnight cat!

>>82185944
realized i copy pasted too much, this was the correct one
>can't really discuss that with anyone i know irl. ^^'

>>82185855
hey bib! nice to see you! :D

>I'm tired of the world and all of people's bullshit
word. what are they bothering you with?

>I'm planning on killing myself once I'm 35
hm. as someone who's beyond that threshold, it's not so bad once you get there. at least when you just let go of everything and do whatever you feel like. you tell me how you feel about it when you get to that point.

>I'm done with it all, I just want enough time to study the world before I go
that's a good goal to have.

>>82185947
>bubblegum crisis.
I have that opening saved from a you grove you lose thread on wsg :3
it's good

>>82185996
>what are they bothering you with?
Expectations, standards and the weaponization of legislation

>>82183433 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Tired. I pulled a 13 hour shift yesterday and got up to pull another 9 hours today.
>Any plans for today?
Just job applications.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I'm seriously considering quitting now. But there's still a chance I can move back to job I liked in this company. Idk if it's worth sticking out for. I was only going to stay here for another year at most.

>>82186158
Forgot name
>>82185944
Hi chev
I hope you're having a good night!
>>82186149
Hi Bibbit
> just want enough time to study the world before I go
That's an understandable goal
> Expectations, standards and the weaponization of legislation
Yeah people can abuse their power of others a lot. But you don't need to adhere to their rules unless you're being physically forced to. If it's all just threats, you can still walk away.
>>82185996
Hi yu
> akame ga kill.
>never watched the show for some reason. maybe i should.
I watched a few episodes. It's just edgy anime fights from what I remember. Not much else. It's not bad, just high tier mid in my opinion.

>>82186307
Forgot name a second time because captcha was annoying

>>82185944
>they had like topics that genuinely disgusted me.
same. i can deal with a lot of sfuff, but there's limits.

>fear and hunger, they seemed to nail it without it becoming like a weird fetish fantasy.
i've seen it in some threads, but never got into it. what's it about?

>something big will happen before that tho, it keeps my spirits up atleast.
yeah. not sure i'm looking forward to it, but we'll see.

>I was playing gran turismo 5 and everything went well in the menus and stuff but when i tried driving nothing would happen.
that's the weirdest issue i've ever heard of. any clue to why that happens?

>they seem to have dropped the ball a bit. I do like a lot of the fanart i see tho
yeah. lot of the old guard had trouble with the shift to digital. best recent artist imo is igor sid. he got the old style down.

https://www.artstation.com/sidwill

older artist you can check out are paul dainton, alex boyd, karl kopinski (that guy's insane. he can really ground even the most outlandish of concepts), adrian smith, dave gallagher, mark gibbons and, of course, john blanche. everyone knows john blanche, but i just don't want to leave him out of that list. ^^

>I just like a lot of the characters and the story/setting
more than enough reason to spend some time on it.

>You have any other recs?
not off the top of my head, but i'll look if i can find something cool.

>ig you just gotta get lucky with the people you know.
i already am. at least they quietly tolerate me going on hour long tensions of why i dropped naruto after haku's and zabuza's death, explaining to them in minute detail why i don't really care about naruto and how much of an insult it was that they revived those characters later in the series (that i found out started that rant).

>as long as it's like not totally degenerate.
not really my style anyway. not that i'm above it, but i don't feel the need to bring it up.

>>82186307
Legislation is being used as a weapon against innocent civilians
Now that we have radical evangelists in office we're going to see a corrosion of human rights
And if the Marxists get into power they'll bring in a wave of anti-intellectualism
If the far right gets into power they'll force racist policies

I don't look forward to the future at all

>>82186307
hey cynic! been a while
>I hope you're having a good night!
i'm doing alright, just watching some youtube and reading up on things.

>>82186368
>but there's limits.
as there always should be
>what's it about?
not really sure how to explain it, it's mainly like a dark fantasy type of thing. the art style reminds me a lot of dark souls
>any clue to why that happens?
absolutely no fucking clue, might be a software thing
>older artist you can check out
i'll be sure to check those out, thanks!
>more than enough reason to spend some time on it.
yup, it's my guilty pleasure ig, not that i feel guilty about it
>but i don't feel the need to bring it up.
yeah, those who do usually lack critical social skills i've noticed.

>>82185944
>nothing is purely good and/or bad.
i remember a benett the sage episode about an anime that was unfinished when they released it in cinema and they had to send everyone who attended the screening the finished version on vhs as compensation. also i think the director had to do boku no pico down the line. so yeah... i call a movie that fucked up so spectecularly pure bad. ^^ i see if i can find that epsiode.

>people tend to pretend so much that they forget who they actually are i've noticed.
it's easier to cobble together a personality that way than to build one from scratch. don't blame them, but it gets tiresome.

>>82185974
>BAD, like always
sorry to hear that. :< what's going on in your life?

>>82186062
lots of really good music in that movie.

>>82186149
>Expectations, standards and the weaponization of legislation
all good reasons to be angry about. is there anything specific you're targeted with?

>>82186158
hi cynic!

>I pulled a 13 hour shift yesterday and got up to pull another 9 hours today.
sound like hell. make sure to eat something nice and rest well.

>Just job applications.
best of luck with those!

>Idk if it's worth sticking out for. I was only going to stay here for another year at most.
depends. do you have something else lined up already? maybe you could tell them that you think about it? could put pressure on them to let you switch back to your old job.

>>82186307
>It's just edgy anime fights from what I remember. Not much else. It's not bad, just high tier mid in my opinion.
hm. i suppose there was i reason why i didn't watch it in then. i guess the name reminded me of kill la kill and i liked that show a lot.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9U10Ok8Ar2Q&pp=ygUVa2lsbCBsYSBraWxsIHNhcHBoaXJl

>>82186538
>is there anything specific you're targeted with?
Homophobia
All the life goals I never came close to achieving
Living under a paedophile dictatorship
People wanting me to be religious

>> 82186538
> kill la kill
Kill la kill is an all time favorite of mine. I think it was my first time seeing a trigger anime.
> could put pressure on them to let you switch back to your old job
Tbh, I'm kind of scared to put in my two weeks just because I'll be telling them the truth of what I've tolerated over the past few weeks. My boss is on her last notice of misconduct, so she might get fired. Which takes away a reason for me to quit while leaving to hours I'm pulling. Or I still leave and the place is worse off because two workers left at once. Or my boss doesn't get fired but does hear about a report, so she spends two weeks making my life suck.
Idk, it just makes me worried.
>>82186527
> reading up on things.
whatcha reading?
>>82186464
> Legislation is being used as a weapon against innocent civilians
It has been for a long time. It just recently got worse than usual.
>I do not look forward to the future
There's an old phrase I heard once that goes "oh no cake for you. It'll be a waste, you'll die one day."
Yeah the future seems bleak and all but you can still have a slice while you're here.

>>82186527
>as there always should be
i suppose.

>it's mainly like a dark fantasy type of thing. the art style reminds me a lot of dark souls
maybe i should watch a playthrough or something like that.

>might be a software thing
weird. is it just one controller that does it?

>i'll be sure to check those out, thanks!
have fun! kinda difficult to figure out the artists these days. at least it was. not sure if gw credits artists and writers again. people hated matt ward with a passion back in the day and i think he got harassed pretty bad, so they stopped putting credits in stuff like codices.

>not that i feel guilty about it
no need to. just enjoy yourself.

>those who do usually lack critical social skills i've noticed.
those kind of people who bring big titty anime girl playmats and sleeves to tcg leagues in their lgs.

>>82186645
grim stuff. have you ever considered moving somewhere else? i mean, not that it's looking particularly bright anywhere in the world, but maybe the u.s. isn't the place for you?

>>82186734
>Kill la kill is an all time favorite of mine. I think it was my first time seeing a trigger anime.
same for me. it's one of those shows that made me remember why i like anime in the first place.

>I'm kind of scared to put in my two weeks just because I'll be telling them the truth of what I've tolerated over the past few weeks. My boss is on her last notice of misconduct, so she might get fired.
hm. we'll see what happens. hope she gets removed. would make things a lot easier for you.

>Idk, it just makes me worried.
whatever happens, it might be quite the upheavel, so it makes sense it's been bothering you. guess all you can do is pull the trigger, see the madness unfold and hope you'll come out unscathed. i wouldn't be a fan of that, either.

i should head to bed. it's way too late. good night, everyone!

>>82186902
I can't live on my own

>>82186734
>whatcha reading?
just lore about the souls game. always interested me, but I never really understood the lore.

>>82186902
>maybe i should watch a playthrough or something like that.
you could, cdawgva made a good one if you like him.
>those kind of people who bring big titty anime girl playmats and sleeves to tcg leagues in their lgs.
luckily people at my lgs aren't that socially inept, or maybe i just haven't seen those people in particular.

I'll be going to bed now cus I got shit to do tmw. goodnight peeps

>>82183433 (OP)
hi everyone ^_^/

>How are you doing today?
I'm doing surprisingly well! :D
>Any plans for today?
watch more mobile fighter G gundam and finish shadow of the colossus hard mode and maybe play some more lament of innocence
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I haven't been able to get a job yet :/

>>82187015
yeah. uprooting your whole family would be to much to ask. :/

>>82187021
>cdawgva made a good one if you like him.
never heard of him before. i'll check him out tomorrow.

>maybe i just haven't seen those people in particular.
hope you never do.

>I'll be going to bed now cus I got shit to do tmw. goodnight peeps
good night!

>>82187322
hey d!

>I'm doing surprisingly well! :D
let's gooo! :D

>maybe play some more lament of innocence
what's that?

>I haven't been able to get a job yet :/
don't beat yourself up about it. just keep trying. what jobs have you been looking at?

btw, the sotc song you posted was great. thank you.

heading to bed now for reals. bye!

>>82185078
meoooww hii

>it sounds fun do you like it there
yeah its very amazing and beautiful! we're at a resort home very close to the beach and its like surrounded by mountains and you can see other cities in the distance
picrel, albeit blurry is a photo i took a little bit outside of our home yesterday and it was great

>you can't convince them to leave you alone?
its not like i have a HUGE issue with it, i mean i kinda have to go cause its summer and i need to do things for it so yk

>>82185337
hi yuanon hiiiii

>sounds like a good time. are you having fun?
yep! although my room hardly has any wifi so i have to bug my family for the hotspot so yk

>nightsky is one of the things i wish i could take a pic of like i see it.
usually your phone will have a night mode where it opens up the exposure to like 3 seconds, if you zoom in on your object and then take a photo you can get some really wild effects
although you will have to hold your phone still for it to be a good photo so i hope it wont be too hard lol

aaa bump 123 hello

good morning, everyone. just got up.

Lovely morning everyone.

>>82190437
hey gator!

>Lovely morning everyone.
thank you. same to you. :>

gotta head out soon. see you guys later!

>I leave the thread for a few days only to poke in to find people talking about kill la kill and akame ga kill in my absence
Good lord what is happening in there?!

Good morning everyone. Hope you had a good week are looking forward to the weekend!

hey all
good day :]

How are you all doing, I'm feeling okay and playing some interesting gmod maps while drink cold drinks
pretty comfy
I plan on going on a 2-3 day long trip but idk how that'll work out

>>82191575
heya cat
glad you're having a good one.
>interesting gmod maps
what kind of maps? Always curious to see these
>2-3 day long trip but idk how that'll work out
hope you end up getting to. Just be doing some bike riding?

>>82183433 (OP)
hoonie hot

>>82192263
heyo
>glad you're having a good one.
that's
though it is supa hot
>what kind of maps?
on workshop you can look up Restless Plaza and other maps made by that guy
>hope you end up getting to
me too, well see those
>Just be doing some bike riding?
it's not gonna be a bikeride actually but a train ride to the other side of the country ^^

>>82193284
>though it is supa hot
here too. I'm staying downstairs, but very hot still. Had to go out for a bit and wasn't great
> Restless Plaza
ooh that's pretty neat. I like mall maps in games in general. I guess I just like malls in general too so it makes sense.
> made by that guy
interesting art style on a few of the others as well. very vibrant colors and lighting
> train ride to the other side of the country
that sounds fun! I love trains. Don't get to take them much here, though I have taken the train here once before to get up north and was fun.

>>82190926
>Good lord what is happening in there?!
wish i could say more about kill la kill, but it's been so long that i only remember liking it and that it's nice that you can have a shounen battle anime that's done after 24 episodes and doesn't drag along for 20 years without any kind of resolution in sight.

>Good morning everyone. Hope you had a good week are looking forward to the weekend!
heyo! as always, i'm just glad it's finally over. no plans for the weekend, though. it's just too hot. what about you? had a nice week?

>>82191575
hi catbro!

>How are you all doing
i'm fine, but exhausted.

>playing some interesting gmod maps while drink cold drinks
what maps and what drinks?

>I plan on going on a 2-3 day long trip but idk how that'll work out
sounda nice. :D where will you go? and when? will someone accompany you?

>>82192486
can't argue with that

>>82193843
>staying downstairs, but very hot still.
good idea
>Had to go out for a bit
what did you have to do?
>interesting art style
yeah I like that, you'll always find something surprisingly walking through maps like that
>just like malls in general
same
I don't know if I've told you this before
but I think it'd be nice to be a mall night guard
>very vibrant colors and lighting
that's for sure
I always wondered how people come up with that
I guess I'm just not creative enough
>Don't get to take them much here,
I can imagine
lucky for me my country has a lot of trains and places to go with them

>>82194058
>fine, but exhausted.
work?
>what maps and what drinks?
u can look up Restless Plaza and on workshop
and I was just drinking some cold coke
>where will you go? and when? will someone accompany you?
it'll be a train ride to the other side of the country :0
and I might go with a friend
And how's your evening going?

>>82194058
>wish i could say more
it's okay. I just felt like starting my posting with steamed hams for some reason today. Definitely bizarre seeing not one but two animes that are years old that I've watched come up.
>only remember liking it
same, and that it was a bit bizarre compared to what I was used to at first, but still enjoyable
>doesn't drag along for 20 years
learned to appreciate stories that have a beginning, end, and coherent middle, as I've gotten older lol I'm on a roll with anime lately since I finished watching Chainsaw Man and need something new to watch now.
> it's just too hot.
same here, but I'll need to do something I'm sure
>what about you?
workouts, work, and probably go out for hot pot later on tomorrow. About it, but will try to find something else to do to kill time in between
>had a nice week?
no complaints other than the heat. Pretty boring, but I'll take that

>>82194542
>work?
work adds to it, but i'm just bad with temperatures like this. those always wear me down.

>u can look up Restless Plaza and on workshop
maybe i will. don't have anything better to do after i finish the latest episode of sakamoto days anyway.

>I was just drinking some cold coke
just hits the spot sometimes. i'm drinking some sparkling mate. it'll keep me up all night, but who cares. don't have anywhere to be tomorrow.

>it'll be a train ride to the other side of the country :0 and I might go with a friend
that's a big trip. :> will you guys do? some sightseeing or some hiking?

>And how's your evening going?
going alright. just ate the rest of my leftover chili and now back to watching my series.

>>82194555
>just felt like starting my posting with steamed hams for some reason today.
it's fun ;D

>Definitely bizarre seeing not one but two animes that are years old that I've watched come up.
there's only a handful of new shows worth talking about anyway. most anime i watch i'll just forget about anyway. wanna chime in on those two shows?

>that it was a bit bizarre compared to what I was used to at first, but still enjoyable
trigger really have their own style. it's a bit more cartoony than most anime, but i enjoy it. still grateful they did promare.

>learned to appreciate stories that have a beginning, end, and coherent middle, as I've gotten older lol
could not agree more with you. pacing is so important to me these days. doesn't matter what it is. books, series, games. just don't waste my time. that said, i seem to be one of the few people on this planet who doesn't mind "filler episodes". those are always a great opportunity for character development.

>need something new to watch now.
hm. does it have to be new or just something you haven't seen? speaking of trigger, i could recommend dungeon meshi. that show is relatively new. if you're up for some old slice of life comedy, i'd say look up moyashimon. if you haven't seen it, of course.

>>82194555
>workouts, work, and probably go out for hot pot later on tomorrow.
sounds like a plan. hope everything goes well. do tell about the hot pot place. have you been there before.

>no complaints other than the heat. Pretty boring, but I'll take that
it's always either boredom or complete panic mode these days. hardly ever anything in between.

hey everyone!!!

good day at school was had. still some problems tho

>>82190795
hey yuanon!!
>gotta head out soon. see you guys later!
see ya ^^

>>82194888
hey gator! nice trips. :0

>good day at school was had. still some problems tho
awesome. what problems, though?

>see ya ^^
guess you do :> wanna do some stretches today?

>>82194833
>temperatures like this. those always wear me down.
understandable
I usually don't mind it too much but today and yesterday were annoying, idk if it's the humidity of what but it seems roughed that usually
>don't have anything better to do after
that person also has other cool maps but unfortunately you can't play them
but, here's video of something exploring a different one if you wanna watch you'll get the idea what's in there
https://m.youtube.com/watch?
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Hu1P04YqpNE&t
>hits the spot sometimes
yep, especially on hot days
I can really fee the cold drink cool me off if I focus
>don't have anywhere to be tomorrow.
o true !
it's friday already!
>will you guys do? some sightseeing or some hiking?
probably walk around and look at stuff
no plans desu
>just ate the rest of my leftover chili and now back to watching my series.
sounds like a nice evening
I watched some bladerunner and now I decided to watch something else for a bit

>>82194888
Helloo
>good day at school was ha
ooaaaa what happened??
>still some problems
??

>>82194542
>what did you have to do?
just ran out to fill up my gas in my car before tomorrow. I don't like waiting till I'm actually going somewhere and having to stop
>same
I don't like shopping at them, but the American malls from the 80s with the brown tiling and just dark feel are very atmospheric in a way.
>but I think it'd be nice to be a mall night guard
would be kinda cool in many ways. Imagine getting to go into the restricted sections would be neat. Know it's probably boring, but the long halls with restricted access always seemed mysterious to me
>I guess I'm just not creative enough
it's okay. I like the map you did too, just everyone has different styles I guess. Some more realistic and grounded in reality, others like to throw out lots of color and see if it works
> lot of trains and places to go with them
that's nice. Like I said, love them and think it's the best way to travel. I get cars are convenient and flying gets you places faster and where trains can't go, but it's so relaxing compared to both

>>82194833
>wanna chime in on those two shows?
i like kill la kill like you said, not much to add. Akama ga kill I can't really give my thoughts on without spoiling a ten year old anime. It was all right, just thought certain things were a bit silly and excessive. still fun overall
>trigger really have their own style.
didn't realize till now they did darling in the franxx, but now that just makes sense. Yeah
>promare
never saw this, worth watching?
>filler episodes
really depends on the fille. an episode here for character development is fine, but please do not give me mid 2000s Bleach filler lol
> does it have to be new or just something you haven't seen?
i'm pretty open. I know there's a lot of older stuff I haven't seen after all, doesn't need to be new. Can look up your suggestions and see what I think
>have you been there before
been many times, but been a while. Always like it though even if I'm boring with choices

>>82194888
heya gator!
Good to see you. Hope school is adjusting fine.
>still some problems tho
will always be some. Hope nothing too bad and don't stress too much

thought i was doing better but i guess not
looks like a disgusint piece of meat now
like i got off meds and i felt so good like i was cured and now things are back to how they was before i started on them i just forgot what its like adn the meds didnt stop me doing this either its only when i come off that i stopped for like a week

>>82195528
yay you delivered again :)

>>82195055
>it seems roughed that usually
word. it just adds up and up with no relief. :/

>that person also has other cool maps but unfortunately you can't play them
maybe at some point. i think i'm to tired of tech to get into pc gaming atm, but it's always on my mind.

>here's video of something exploring a different one if you wanna watch you'll get the idea what's in there
thanks. i'll check it out.

>I can really fee the cold drink cool me off if I focus
it better does! you paid for it, so it better does it's job! >:[

>it's friday already!
well, what's left of it anyway. soon to be caturday. ^^

>probably walk around and look at stuff
no plans desu
best way to travel. nothing more annoying than stressing over a vacation.

>I watched some bladerunner and now I decided to watch something else for a bit
yeah. i think i'll watch some guy play brotato. just some mindless grinding.

>>82195474
>not much to add
the curse of good media. if it's dogshit, everyone has something to say, but if it's good everyone just shrugs and says "it's good".

>Akama ga kill I can't really give my thoughts on without spoiling a ten year old anime.
i don't mind getting spoiled. sometimes it actually makes me go watch something i wouldn't have bothered with otherwise (which is probably the case here).

>still fun overall
doesn't have to be more than that.

>they did darling in the franxx, but now that just makes sense. Yeah
it does. i watched about 10-12 episodes but lost track at some point and didn't finish it. maybe i should.

>never saw this, worth watching?
eeeeehhhhhh... depends... on a scale from 1 to squee, how much do you squeal when cute guys interact?

>please do not give me mid 2000s Bleach filler lol
man, i really enjoyed that show until there was more screaming than plot progression. i think that was around episode 73. i was so damaged by dragon ball z and one piece that i just couldn't stand it anymore. can't remember the filler, though. like, at all. what was the issue?

>>82194938
hey hey ty
> what problems, though?
just what grade im in and how im awful at math
>wanna do some stretches today?
was quite nice today

>>82195055
>ooaaaa what happened??
sat with some peolpe at lunch was nice, did alright on a med term test
>??
dont know what grade im exacly in and bad at everything and cant make frens

>>82195494
its adjusting okay
> Hope nothing too bad and don't stress too much
ill try not to thanks, how have you been btw

>>82195474
>Can look up your suggestions and see what I think
you do that. remind me, did you watch samurai champloo?

>Always like it though even if I'm boring with choices
eat what you enjoy. lives to short to try out stuff you might not like. :p

>>82195528
hey anon!

>thought i was doing better but i guess not
getting better is difficult. it's worth is, but there'll be relapses. doesn't mean you didn't make progress, though.

>looks like a disgusint piece of meat now
i know it's hard, bht try not to focus on it to much if you can.

>i got off meds and i felt so good like i was cured and now things are back to how they was before i started on them
i think it can always just hit us out of the blue, even if we feel good for the most part. like i can get depressive episode. not as bad as i used to, but still bad. worst one i can remember was about two weeks and then i just felt better again. it's weird.

>i just forgot what its like adn the meds didnt stop me doing this either its only when i come off that i stopped for like a week
well, a week is a week, so well done. do you think you could do another week? or a week plus 1 day?

>>82195921
>just what grade im in and how im awful at math
i see. no short term solutions for those, i'm afraid. all you can do is hunker down and give it your best shot. ganbare, gator-kun! o7

>was quite nice today
it was. good jobs all around. :>

>>82195474
>just ran out to fill up my gas
I see, I was worried you decided to work in the garden or something
>dark feel are very atmospheric in a way.
and soon to be gone
when you're at a place like that makes sure to snap some pics
>Know it's probably boring
probably depends on a person
>restricted access always seemed mysterious
same
I also have that with peoples houses
I look at them and wonder how the interior looks like
>it's okay
I know
but I notice that most of the stuff I make is recreations of places
and my brain has like a creativity limiter strapped to it somewhere
>think it's the best way to travel
me too
this and bikes
but that's mainly because I don't like driving

>>82195528
Hello anon
>doing better but i guess not
it often gets better before it goes worse
maybe it's because you get hopeful so getting back to the usual is more crushing

>>82195855
>adds up and up
I wonder how hot it'll get when I get old
will it ever stop
>think i'm to tired of tech to get into pc gaming
understandable
>soon to be caturday. ^^
yep :3
>way to travel
I guess
well see if we go on that trip though
I hope so
>just some mindless grinding.
have a nice time turning your brain off

>>82195921
>sat with some peolpe at lunch was nice,
that's very nice to hear!
>med term test
good job
but you have tests already?!
>dont know what grade im exacly
could you ask someone

>>82196056
>hunker down and give it your best shot. ganbare, gator-kun! o7
i suppose so, never a easy way in life seems like. just want a answer
>good jobs all around. :>
yep yep

>>82196324
>that's very nice to hear!
yea there nice, there chill
>but you have tests already?!
there very basic tests nothing hard just memorize 25 med terms and what they mean and how to spell what they mean.
>could you ask someone
I've tried

>>82196324
>I wonder how hot it'll get when I get old
will it ever stop
probably not, but hopefully it'll take a lot more time to get really bad.

>understandable
sadly. i just see my money and am happier thinking about it than thinking about exchanging it for something. :/

>yep :3
happy caturday!

>well see if we go on that trip though I hope so
can't tell me about it and then don't go! that would be very inconsiderate. i wanna hear about your adventures! :<

>have a nice time turning your brain off
turned it off the minute i got home.

>>82196366
>never a easy way in life seems like. just want a answer
nope. :/ maybe go and ask the principal? seems like there's some confusion going on. someone needs to make a decision.

I'm sleep good night!

>>82196837
same. good night!

>>82196837
lol he is sleep

>>82190199
>>82190437
>>82191575
good morning yall
>>82187021
>just lore about the souls game.
hm. I don't think I ever played the games desu.

>>82197208
heyo! about to fall asleep any minute now. what are you up to? any plans for the weekend?

>I don't think I ever played the games desu.
be careful. they're hard to get into, but when you do it's hard to go back to anything else. ^^

>>82197405
have a good night yu
>any plans for the weekend?
A complicated one, I'll probably explain in another thread.