Imagining a different life
Sometimes I wonder how different my life would be if I went to college, instead of to trades school filled with mostly men & a couple women nowhere near my age. Then going working that blue collar trade job filled with just older men.
I haven't talked to a woman my age in about 6 years, a man my age for 3. I'm not unattractive, I just wasn't ever a social person. Yet if I was in college filled with people my age, I could have found someone like me to relate to. Maybe I could have even found love.
But now I just spend my days alone, no friends, no nothing. but hey at least I got a job & the guys at work are funny and relaxed. Its not all so bad, though I think about suicide daily.
I haven't talked to a woman my age in about 6 years, a man my age for 3. I'm not unattractive, I just wasn't ever a social person. Yet if I was in college filled with people my age, I could have found someone like me to relate to. Maybe I could have even found love.
But now I just spend my days alone, no friends, no nothing. but hey at least I got a job & the guys at work are funny and relaxed. Its not all so bad, though I think about suicide daily.