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Anonymous No.82209573 >>82209601 >>82209701 >>82210467 >>82210518
Turned 20 recently
I can't seem to shake this terrible feeling that I will never be happy again.. I can't believe my childhood is over forever. ;_; I had hoped I would be married by now, which I know is a little silly, but I am so terrified that it will never happen and that I will never have the life I wanted as a child. Does anyone else feel this way?Sorry for whining, I am a little bit tipsy. I hope you're all having a good night.
Anonymous No.82209585 >>82209661
humans arent meant to be happy, theyre meant to reproduce. How do you think flies feel living for only a day?
Anonymous No.82209598 >>82209661
It only gets worse from here. The time ahead shrinks and the opportunities you missed continue to grow. Soon enough, there will be more lapsed time behind you than there is laying ahead.
Anonymous No.82209601 >>82209661
>>82209573 (OP)
Oh god, 20? You're so old. If you haven't accomplished your dreams by now you never will.
Come on anon, you're still a snot nosed brat. Give it a few more years.
Anonymous No.82209661
>>82209585
Probably terrible. Or maybe they don't mind? I guess I thought I would be getting ready to have a family by now, too.
>>82209598
But the question is, can anything be done about this? What can I do to make the time pass slower? I truly can't believe I am 20, I feel like just yesterday I was 14. What do I do? ;_;
>>82209601
Thank you anon, that's all I want to be right now. I am sure the years will pass quickly. T_T
Anonymous No.82209701 >>82209778 >>82209789
>>82209573 (OP)
Watch from 3:56
https://youtu.be/uwnBdAiM50w?si=m7GDxmLdCTg9JquQ

I'm having sake for the first time
Anonymous No.82209778
>>82209701
Watching it right now! How is the sake? I've never tried it but I've been wondering how it tastes. I had strawberry rice wine the other day and it was wonderful.
Anonymous No.82209789 >>82209862 >>82209880
>>82209701
Well, it tastes like rice, unmistakably. The 15.6% alcohol content barely offers any resistance at all. I've had white wines that felt stronger than this yet were mathematically weaker. It just tastes like I'm eating plain rice, somehow. Very Japanese.

I had Moutai baijiu once, and it was disgusting, similar to Listerine but slightly fruity. I thought that rice wines would be similar, but this cheap Sake isn't disgusting, it's just...rice. Apparently the japanese also heat up Sake, so I'm going to try that and then drink out of a coffee mug, because I don't have ceramic cups
Anonymous No.82209862 >>82210026
>>82209789
Oh.. That sounds very nice.. Especially warmed up, and maybe on a chilly day. Is the consistency noticeably rice-y? I was surprised at how milky the rice wine was! Thank you for sharing the video; it's really good to have a new perspective. I'm hoping this feeling will pass soon!
Anonymous No.82209880 >>82210013 >>82210026
>>82209789
..and 15% does seem like quite a lot. I'm not too familiar with how alcohol % works, but it would mean the entire bottle is 15% alcohol, right?
Anonymous No.82210013 >>82210328
>>82209880
15% is just the average across every drop in the bottle. In reality it's a mix, some drops are 95%(alcohol forms azeotrope so due to molecular bonds it is unusual for aqueous ethanol solutions to surpass this) and some drops are basically alcohol free. When you take a drink there are many drops in one sip.
Anonymous No.82210026 >>82210328
>>82209862
Cooled, the consistency has this illusion of being like soggy rice that was cooked with too much water.

I just heated it in a saucepan and am sipping it out of a coffee mug. Heating defitely makes the experience better. It actually feels like a proper wine with some acidity that fights back and the rice flavor isn't so overpowering. This would be excellent with bbq or heavy savory food. I can also see why it's popular as a cooking wine.

>>82209880
Yes. I had Sauvignon Blanc at the recommendation of a friend a few months ago and it was around 12%

I didn't get the childhood I wanted, and my adolescence was like an extension of my shitty childhood. And my young adulthood was stunted and delayed by my parents insistence that I suffer college despite no apparent ability or desire to even profit from a higher education. It's weird. I was lightyears away from where I am today. It's only been two weeks since I arrived home, but I'm already starting to feel pressure. Like, time is ticking, almost 25 years have been stolen from me and left to circumstance, and now that I finally hold the reigns to my own future, I'm sitting around without an idea what to do.

So don't take me as some fucking wiseman who knows what's going on. But I will say that nostalgia and the desire to retreat into the comforts of childhood is a false thing. It's a dead end. There's no possible way that we can have those same experiences now as high IQ cynical adults that know how to read. It's like even the most mundane shit is a tightrope walk.

I am almost 24. I should have a career and savings by now. Don't be like me.
https://youtu.be/uwR5OP4jtwA?si=0KD0F7BSn8pjhlVN
Anonymous No.82210328 >>82210609 >>82210806
>>82210013
Oh geez.. I think my brain is too small right now to fully comprehend that, but I would like to learn more about it because it sounds interesting. Are the drops a specific size?
>>82210026
That sounds super cozy. Wine is my favourite, so far. Any kind of wine! Although I've found it gives me headaches sometimes. Yes, wine and bbq.. Very yummy.
I can definitely relate somewhat. I just don't know where to go from here. :/ I mean, there are things I want to pursue, but right now I don't feel like the kind of person who is motivated enough to do so. And I feel so freaked out thinking about how years have passed and I haven't done anything at all.
>But I will say that nostalgia and the desire to retreat into the comforts of childhood is a false thing. It's a dead end.
Hmm, do you mean this in the sense that it hurts you? Or that there is a better alternative?
Anonymous No.82210467 >>82210830
>>82209573 (OP)
I am so so so scared to be 20 4 more months :(
I hate life
Anonymous No.82210518
>>82209573 (OP)
Could be worse. Could be an almost 24 year old shut-in friendless NEET with no life skills like me.
Anonymous No.82210609
>>82210328
>Are the drops a specific size?
In a sense, kind like inches are a specific size. gtt is short for drop somehow, from Latin guttae. It gets more interesting if you go deeper, but like I said a sip is many drip drops so we take the average.
Anonymous No.82210806
>>82210328
>Hmm, do you mean this in the sense that it hurts you? Or that there is a better alternative?
It just wastes your time and leaves you empty
There is a point where a man's sense of well-being should shift from happiness to goal-completion. Instead of happy, I just feel restlessness and anxiety.
If you were never happy, it's just a waste. But it's in the past and can't be accessed anymore.
Anonymous No.82210830
>>82210467
Aww, I'm sorry. I know it's scary. :( What in particular about turning 20 frightens you, anon?
Anonymous No.82211551
>Turned 20 recently
>I can't seem to shake this terrible feeling that I will never be happy again
Anon, I...
>t. 39yo incel NEET