Thread 82227079

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support
a little late today :3

heyo everybody
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82227079 (OP)
hiiiii
early bird catches the worm ig, hru?

>How are you doing today?
quite good i was outside eariler, listening to 2000s dubstep mixes and schtuff
after that i took a shower and now im here

>>82218680
>this place has come close, but I still don't feel like sharing everything.
i get you. i don't share absolutely everything, either. everyone has their secrets and that's ok.

>the plot is kinda meh
the writing is so incompetent that i came out of the movie thinking immortan joe was pretty tame for a wasteland tyrant and actually had good ideas to make things actually better. how hard can it be to write an actually despicable, irredeemable asshole you can just get rid off at the end of a movie?

>those visuals didn't make me gasm
it is visually impressive. gotta give 'em that.

>I always considered myself easy to please with games I don't take serious, but even I was horribly disappointed with it.
i feel like we're at a point where everything has become so bad that even the most complacent of people are getting frustrated. they only have to deliver the bare minimum and can't even manage that.

>My favorite still has to be far cry 2, nothing gets close to that vibe.
man. that was released a while ago. wasn't it?

>bethesda could fucking never.
probably not. fallout is nothing more than that game with the quirky 50s aethetics at this point

>can't wait to get horribly disappointed again!
well, at least you're still ready to get something and try it out yourself. i just look at something once, shrug and don't even bother. speaking of terrible disappointments, though! gamescom night live tomorrow! :D

>dark souls did it well
miyazaki told the artist to go for dark without relying on the gross-factor and it really paid off.

>i assume berserk too (never read it)
me neither. too much sexual violence for me.

>leave it to the japanese ig
needs people who don't hate your culture and history to make stuff like that.

>>82219330
>I have caring family members, but they cant see how I have to change.
well, they see you struggling and want to help, but don't understand what your goals are. it's quite frustrating at times, isn't it?

>this will be an accidental test to see if im even worthy of a job. what if i oversleep?
it happens. a least it happened to me some time ago. ^^' mixed up schedules, but luckily my boss was able to take my shift. not that big of an issue most of the times, but it depends on how long you've been working there and how reliable you usually are.

>i cant worry too much, but I have to worry to an extent.
needs to be balanced. like most things.

>I was kept busy by her, and we shared some food. I guess I try to share food with the trash now.
maybe you could freeze it and eat it later? would be a shame if you had to throw it out.

>his gf left him 10 years ago and he has been alone ever since.
maybe oneitis, maybe just figured out that for himself the juice isn't worth the squeeze.

>im not manifesting that future, Im doubting my luck.
well, i can pat you on the back for staying single, but i don't feel like you're the stoic hermit type, so i'm not sure that would do you any good if i did that.

>>82227079 (OP)
>a little late today :3
happens. :>

>heyo everybody
heyo catbro! how was your ride?

>>82227591
hello pink! what's up?

>early bird catches the worm ig
and the early worm get eaten by the bird.

>>82227718
>hello pink! what's up?
the celling AAHIJVVGSIHJWHB
listening to brian eno in my bed rn, might sleep soon

>>82227591
Helloo
>early bird catches the worm
but the late one has a good nap ^^
>hru?
Probably good pretty good, had some nice bikeride today :D
ate some popeyes and walked on a nice bridge but the security caught me lol but nothing happened and also saw a horse
>listening to 2000s dubstep
sounds like you're having fun them
>that i took a shower and now im here
that's great, any more plans for today?

>>82227718
Heyo
How are you?
>how was your ride?
pretty good, I was on a bikeride and got popeyes and saw a horse and walked on a bridg and then security caught me x3
and some random guy needed his bike tire inflated, that's kinda all that happened

>>82227855
>the celling AAHIJVVGSIHJWHB
heh ^^

>listening to brian eno in my bed rn, might sleep soon
have a chill time and good night and sleep well if you do.

>>82228096
>How are you?
stretched, but a bit tired. not that muchy though. i had some matcha.

>and got popeyes
i don't think we have that chain here. what did you get?

>saw a horse
what did it do?

>walked on a bridg and then security caught me x3
only a matter of time. :p glad you didn't get into trouble. ^^

>some random guy needed his bike tire inflated
luckily he ran into you. you can do anything bike related blind and with a hand tied to your back at this point.

>that's kinda all that happened
sounds like an eventful day to me. how's your evening?

>>82228399
>stretched, but a bit tired.
at least no headaches :>
>had some matcha
thank goodness
>what did you get?
just some fries and strips and drink
their fries are very nice, they're crunchy and have some spice on them
>what did it do?
horsed :0
>glad you didn't get into trouble. ^^
yeah
thanks
if we left two three minutes earlier we would've gotten away with it >:3
oh and also I almost lost my knife
>with a hand tied to your back at this point.
hehe thank you^^
>eventful day to me.
definitely:D
>how's your evening?
now I'm in bed chilling watching some barotrauma stream vod
are you watching anything?

>>82228590
>at least no headaches :>
oh yeah... that was a thing yesterday. i already forgot. ^^'

>thank goodness
yeah. it was nice.

>just some fries and strips and drink
sounds good. especially the fries. plain is good, but sometimes you just want something a bit more extra.

>horsed :0
typical... (-_-;) the place where i go for hikes has some routes for riders as well. i try my best to stay out of kicking distance from those things. nothing has happened so far, but you never know. especially with dogs also being around.

>if we left two three minutes earlier we would've gotten away with it >:3
guess you need to somewhat improve the timing on you trespassing stunts. ^^

>I almost lost my knife
that would have been bad. just lost or taken away buy security?

>you watching anything?
my usual guy playing q remastered. not the most thrilling content, but good enough background noise.

>>82228812
>. i already forgot. ^^'
that's good, probably
but now that you remember you can at least appreciate not having one
>something a bit more extra.
yep probably best fastfood fries I'd say
>typical... (-_-;)
yeh, why can't they dog for once
>best to stay out of kicking distance
apparently if you see the ears go back that means it's in kicking mode
>somewhat improve the timing
or on hiding
>just lost or taken away buy security?
just fell out randomly, glad I noticed
>the most thrilling content, but good enough
that's.. good enough c:
and how was your night? did you sleep well?

>>82227641
>irredeemable asshole you can just get rid off at the end of a movie?
they have to make the villains atleast a bit likeable, if they're to live up to the previous movies.
>gotta give 'em that.
yep, but that's the only thing I'll give modern hollywood.
>they only have to deliver the bare minimum and can't even manage that.
there also has been such a creative drought and half baked shit the past couple of years. I was thinking of buying starfield, since the whole ship combat and building really appeals to me but I won't spend 70euro on a game that outside of that is empty as fuck, maybe I'll get it on sale but for the rest I'll just look for something that's better at doing those things.
>that was released a while ago. wasn't it?
2008? I'm not sure actually, it was one of the first games I ever really played and I had a blast doing it. snipers were so fucking overpowered since they had the whole wounded mechanic for enemies, so you could daisy chain an entire outpost into the open and pick them off one by one.
>fallout is nothing more
pretty much, the only thing I really like about fallout 4 was the base building and weapon customization, but all of those went to the expense of other critical things. guess that's a trend with bethesda games nowadays. Skyrim was the last game that felt truly immersive and alive.
>gamescom night live tomorrow! :D
what's that? I think I heard of a friend going to gamescom but idk if that's the same thing.
>dark without relying on the gross-factor
I also like that they didn't get rid of the gross stuff, but instead made efforts to incorporate it into the further setting instead of relying on it.
>too much sexual violence for me.
if done well it's usually not a dealbreaker for me, but most of the time it's either a thinly veiled fetish or just handled terribly
>needs people who don't hate your culture and history to make stuff like that.
probably, I wonder where all those people went here in the west.

>>82227079 (OP)
aaaaa i wanna cut but i don't want to have scars

>>82228915
>now that you remember you can at least appreciate not having one
true. i'm not complaining.

>probably best fastfood fries I'd say
that's a huge endorsement. now i wanna try some. :0

>why can't they dog for once
well, yesterday some girls were actually walking some little horsies like dogs, so i guess those horses did, in fact, dog for once. ^^

>if you see the ears go back that means it's in kicking mode
thanks for the info. i'll be looking out for that.

>hiding
or disguising

>just fell out randomly, glad I noticed
lucky you did. can you fasten it to yourself somehow?

>how was your night? did you sleep well?
yup. went to bed, put something on, fell asleep and woke up. pretty good, can recommend. did you?

>>82229091
>have to make the villains atleast a bit likeable, if they're to live up to the previous movies.
i'd argue you have to make them amusing. as long as your entertained by their evilness, they don't have to be likeable or very complex. palpatine is one of my favorite villains and man did he earn himself that trip done the chute. :p

>that's the only thing I'll give modern hollywood.
word.

>I won't spend 70euro on a game that outside of that is empty as fuck
that's how you vote with your wallet. well done. o7 i will 70+ euro when they make games worth that much.

>I'll just look for something that's better at doing those things.
gotta dig through a mountain of trash for those few, precious gems.

>snipers were so fucking overpowered since they had the whole wounded mechanic for enemies, so you could daisy chain an entire outpost into the open and pick them off one by one.
you know, i was pretty sure i played 2 as well, but i'm not that convinced anymore. guess i just played the first one or completely forgot 2, which would be strange. sounds fun, though.

>guess that's a trend with bethesda games nowadays. Skyrim was the last game that felt truly immersive and alive.
yeah, i don't know if it's just me, but i don't feel like there's a lot of games that really draw you into the world anymore. or that there are many worlds worth getting into. whenever i watch these game reveal shows all the games look the same to me. nothing stands out anymore. :/

>what's that? I think I heard of a friend going to gamescom but idk if that's the same thing.
they always do a trailer show before the event now. should be 8:00 pm cest. maybe they'll show something new.

>made efforts to incorporate it into the further setting instead of relying on it.
true. there's some areas that lean into it more than others, but never too much. dragon butt hell was a bit strange, though.

>>82229091
>if done well it's usually not a dealbreaker for me, but most of the time it's either a thinly veiled fetish or just handled terribly
sure. it all depends on the execution, but i'm too tired of it to give it any benefit of the doubt anymore.

>I wonder where all those people went here in the west.
it's unfashionable to care for that stuff these days. to be fair, i don't care much either, but i also don't actively despise it.

>>82229098
hm. maybe check out the alternatives in this post >>82227084 or do some mobility routine. those usually hurt pretty bad as a beginner.

>>82220517
pretty but too much

>>82227656
well my family thinks im not fat enough to limit my food. its not their responsibility of course but they keep buying it for me. its better to throw it out instead of eating it all so quickly. there used to be an illusion that I could resist it but now I know I just have to live alone to properly regulate my intake. they buy it because they want me happy. Im more happy when im thin. thanks for trying to help out.

>maybe oneitis, maybe just figured out that for himself the juice isn't worth the squeeze.
yeah im not him for sure. If I could repeat my experience, I would. life had colors, even if some of them were dark. im 21 and this is deep xDDD

im not asking for pats for being single, because it was not a choice for me. im like an incel but on a different level. imagine being on a buffet but all of the food is tasteless. so you search the whole place and find something tasty for once, only to have an allergic reaction and vomit it out some time later. not the best metaphor but you get it, you know me

some uplifting post I saw today. 28k likes, it is written by a girl whos sad she doesnt have a femboy bf. great comments section as well. god bless fujoshies

>>82227079 (OP)
hey cat! sorry forgot to reply to you too
I'm doing well, just watching some gameplay of mgs2 since im way too lazy to install my ps3 again
>>82229478
>palpatine is one of my favorite villains
hmm, I never watched any of the star wars movies (my dad kinda abhorred scifi and I did too for a long time) but he does seem very iconic
>i will 70+ euro when they make games worth that much.
I think the only game I ever paid full price for was mount and blade 2 bannerlord, cus at the time I thought it was worth the money. I was considering getting it for pc cus the mods are pretty awesome, but no way in hell im gonna pay full price for it this time, the devs dgaf anymore.
>gotta dig through a mountain of trash for those few, precious gems.
hmm, it'll take a while, I should probably just look on fucking reddit or something for a good spaceship game, I want something extensive tho (possibly managing your own mercenary fleet?) as well as hands on in that the ships are detailed and whatever
>nothing stands out anymore. :/
it's hard to do right nowadays, since that genre has a lot to live up to. people told me dragon age and baldurs gate was pretty good tho, atleast had more immersive companions
>maybe they'll show something new.
ah gotcha, I'd rather not see the modern gaming industry if i'm being honest
>i'm too tired of it to give it any benefit of the doubt anymore.
valid, I have that with a lot of things nowadays, especially anything anime/manga. I guess my weeb days might be fully over.
>it's unfashionable to care for that stuff these days.
Ig it depends on where you're from. my area seems to kinda have turned into nationalist hell (atleast my friends/family), I like the attention for history and culture from that, but I don't like the bias and revisionism. I want it captured realistically, in all the beauty and gloom associated with it

>>82229091
hello
how are you today?

>>82229098
Hey anon
why do you wanna cut?
maybe you could take quick cold shower to distract yourself from waiting to cut?

>>82229240
>now i wanna try some. :0
hope you get to one day
>guess those horses did, in fact, dog for once. ^^
fascinating
what about catting? can they cat?
>or disguising
maybe but sounds hard
>you fasten it to yourself somehow?
it actually it but i un attached it when carrying my bike accidentally
>pretty good, can recommend.
that's good, hope you get a nice one tonight too
> did you?
yep the weather's cooler now so I'm not too hot
Anyway decided to watch some crazy conspiracy video that popped up, apparently some dude doesn't because and old building was built by humans because it's too "perfect' because it has brick archways and we have no evidence humans could be this perfect and so he believes it was built by giants and the building is not form 1830 but centuries old instead
I tried to leave a comment but just couldn't

>>82227079 (OP)
One of my biggest problems is powerlessness which I believe leads to my paranoia, anger and depression

>>82229596
>my family thinks im not fat enough to limit my food.
in the end it's your decision anyway, but i doubt you're anywhere near fat. i'd understand you aren't happy with your body composition, though. i've never been happy with myself at any weight.

>there used to be an illusion that I could resist it but now I know I just have to live alone to properly regulate my intake.
yeah. hard to eat like you want to with others around. maybe you should check out the carnivore diet. no cravings, no need to resist anything and you can adjust how much you eat quite easily. only thing you have to watch out for is quality.

>they buy it because they want me happy. Im more happy when im thin.
it's a vicious circle. hope you can break out of it at some point.

>If I could repeat my experience, I would. life had colors, even if some of them were dark. im 21 and this is deep xDDD
makes sense to me. and i don't know if it's deep, but you know what you're talking about. that's worth something.

>im not asking for pats for being single, because it was not a choice for me.
wasn't a choice for the guy i were talking about either, was it?

>not the best metaphor but you get it
i do. a bit graphic, but it fits quite well, i think.

>you know me
and consider myself lucky that i do.

>god bless fujoshies
word.

>>82229606
>>82229641
i'll reply to you guys tomorrow. too tired now. (~.~)

>>82229699
hey bib!

>powerlessness which I believe leads to my paranoia, anger and depression
could be. for me it's definitely anger.

good night, everyone!

>>82229641
I'm alright I suppose, gonna explore the metal gear games a bit more, I played mgs1 and 2 but never really any of them after that.

>>82230281
omg the metal gear solid games are genuinely the best things to ever bless this earth

>>82230487
i enjoyed the ones i played a lot, but apparently some (4 or 5?) had like some online gameplay shit, which confused the fuck outta me. i thought they're all like just normal campaigns?

it may seem contrary as to the meaning of this board but a lot of us find refugee in being Neets or shut ins, if you're in your late 20s/early 30s admittedly you gotta have some income stream, other than siphoning cash from in laws and parents what are some robot friendly jobs or you've tried,

>shilling fiverr pahjeet jobs discouraged
>crypto ok

suggestions welcome

>>82230556
yea 5 mixed online and main game a lot it's not too bad but i do understand it is definitely not a positive change don't know why they did it that way

>>82230587
work in manufacturing