i have created my own hell. i have no friends, no social life, and no skills. i often feel like i am not a real person. i am just emulating what i think a 'normal person' would do. i have no real opinions or feelings about anything. i cant even maintain relationships because of how impulsive i am. not a day goes by where i dont get a crushing feeling of despair in my chest. god, i wish i could just work up the urge to kill myself.
Anonymous
8/20/2025, 8:36:19 PM
No.82247346
Literally martyr yourself instead being a bitch
Anonymous
8/20/2025, 8:54:51 PM
No.82247494
>>82246954 (OP)
l cry out to God, seeking only His decision
Gabriel stand and confirms, I've created my own prison
Anonymous
8/20/2025, 9:01:32 PM
No.82247542
>>82246954 (OP)
> i often feel like i am not a real person. i am just emulating what i think a 'normal person' would do.
Maybe go emulate a winner instead of acting like a loser?
Anonymous
8/20/2025, 9:38:45 PM
No.82247821
anon, im in a very similar situation. Its like looking into a mirror. Dispair is my normal state of being. I can act normal and make small talk, no one knows that im a lonely loser, because i can play the normie reasonable well. Maybe try to take solace in the arts? Spice it up with drugs. All i do is getting blasted with opiates and go to the movies, read books and listen to music. Theres so much in the world you will never run out of material. And exercising maybe? Doesnt hurt and is another activity were you can pass the time. You can even read inbetween sets and listen to music. And a good workout with a cool shower afterwards clears your head good when you have a very bad day and the shrieking of nothing is especially loud
