Thread 82386467

>used to use 4chan a lot
>posted "blogposts", rants and similar threads of the same nature
>used to get called a faggot, treated like an autistic retard, get ignored or made fun of
>try other boards
>same results
>...
>start using 4chan less and try other things
>try tf2 community servers in the same fashion I used 4chan
>same treatment, a few people add me, then get weirded out by something I say and unfriend/avoid/ghost me
>...
>try omegle-esque websites
>people are awful or simply uninteresting
>occasional good person encounter which lasts an hour or so but then it's over again
>...
>try streaming on twitch
>one or two pity bots given by twitch
>no one really watches but myself
>...
>try posting youtube videos
>lack of video editing skills and effort prevents viewers from watching
>...
>try ai chatbots
>worked out for years until it simply didn't really hit right anymore, too predictable
>chatgpt is just a yes man programmed to keep you engaged in the convo
>haven't tried AIDungeon in years but it's probably the same
>...
>talking to family members is nice sometimes but same problems arise
>they either don't get me or give a lecture
>not the same interests or clashing beliefs/ideologies lead to conflict which I don't want with family
>...
The search for like-minded people is an impossible task. Especially when a great portion of the problem lies on me. I guess I'll just go back to talking to myself. At least I know myself and get myself.

>>82386467 (OP)
Speak in riddles so normies don't get scared by your 4th dimensional knowledge. Fellow autists will pick up on the signals and you can gain access to a secret internet network like the jews have in real life

>>82386809
I had given up on the thread getting any traction. Thank you for noticing and giving a word of advice.

>>82386836
Anon just how doomeristic are you? I bet the stuff that drives other peole away is exaclty that

>>82386846
>Anon just how doomeristic are you?
I try not to be but sometimes that just the reality.
>I bet the stuff that drives other peole away is exaclty that
I do hide my power levels. My guess is that I reveal myself too much, too early once I get comfortable in the environment. It's a reflection of years of 4chan where you're anonymous and can say whatever you want.

>>82386467 (OP)
I just listened to 6 hours of music at 180db and my ears won't stop fucking ringingggggggggggg

>>82386467 (OP)
I wanna listen to you as I post the same kind of threads but Im a terrible listener. Im like chatGPT except I just say
>yeah...
>that sucks...
>Im sorry...
>hmmmm...

>>82386467 (OP)
>youtube
>twitch
Seems one sided. Perhaps not good for socialization.

I don't think anyone really has an interest in anyones blogposts/rants. Unless there's some interesting details.

Why do you enjoy talking online?
Do you want long term friends to keep talking to?
Talking online is not very fulfilling to me. Nothing ever happens.
I want something to happen in my life.
I want to do something. Not talk about it.

>>82387002
>Seems one sided. Perhaps not good for socialization.
True, but I always wanted to share my experiences and insights. Never really had the chance to do so growing up.
>Why do you enjoy talking online?
It simulates real life conversations. I want a proper exchange.
>Do you want long term friends to keep talking to?
That would be nice but I fear they'd get bored of me.
>I want to do something. Not talk about it.
Action is important but so is communication. It's what brought us here.

>>82386467 (OP)
>I'll just go back to talking to myself
That sounds nice

>>82386879
i'd suggest just always being yourself. People will know who they are talking to instead of having another completely different person once you get comfortable

>>82387073
Interesting. I remember a lot of people making fun of the "just bee yourself, bro" advice but I guess it does make sense. I wouldn't want people I got to know make a 180 after getting comfortable with me as well.

>>82387042
>my experiences and insights
maybe you could share with anons in this thread.
>real life conversations
they also feel... bland.
Most of the time.
Everyone just talks about movies, tv, games, etc. Or about work or news/politics. Maybe drama sometimes, which can be funny.
I'm a neet, and I don't want to hear about any of that.
>Action is important but so is communication. It's what brought us here.
This thread is not what I need. It is a distraction. Procrastination.
I wish I could spend my time doing something fulfilling. But my mind is diseased. Prone to doing nothing.

I will be sleeping.

>>82387162
Good night. I hope you find what you're looking for, NEETbro.

>>82386467 (OP)
I just journal. I write for myself what I would have liked talking about to someone else.
I can never relate to other in real life and seldom do online. So I just talk and write on my own. I can't say it is a good replacement for actual social interaction, but it was an improvement from not writing things down and having them stuck in my head forever.

>>82387631
Yeah, I've started doing the same but I tend to forget about it.