Thread 82398498

Hi everyone, I'm a girl, I'm 20 years old. I've been living with depression for many years, I tried to go to a therapist several times, but it didn't work. It seems that everything I take on just falls out of my hands. I have no desire to do anything, I study in a good place, but my relatives tell me that this is not my thing and I will not achieve anything. I begin to doubt myself and that this is really what I want, but I'm really not good for anything else. I often have suicidal thoughts, but to be honest, I'm more waiting for something bad to happen to me and I'll die. I'm pathetic lol I'm ashamed of myself and that I'm even writing this
P.S. I am writing this through a translator

you wont add me on discord and let me bark for you so why do i give a shit about your problems

>>82398498 (OP)
What language do you speak? You expected therapy to help you? Why?

>>82398498 (OP)
>I'm a girl
>depression
into the trash it goes, git gud nigger

who gives a shit what your relatives think

they probably shit in an outhouse and wiped their ass with their bare hands when they were your age

>>82398536
is that you in the picture? you look amazing! and thank you. i try not to think about their words, but sometimes it's hard

>>82398514
I speak Russian. It's not like I expected my problems to suddenly disappear after going to the doctor. I went to psychologists and psychotherapists, took pills. Talking to a psychologist sometimes helped me, pushed me to think about my problems and I dealt with it myself for a while. But every fucking time something happened, because of which I quit therapy and pills. Either more shit happened, or my mother pushed it into my head that for me it was a waste of money and nothing would help me.

>>82398768
Damn, I think that's starting to happen me, minus taking pills.

>>82398498 (OP)
You'll only get sympathy because you have a vagina and you're a woman. What do you want to be told or to hear? You either allow your relatives to have that much influence and say so over your life or decide to carve your own path and everything that comes with that. Your relatives won't live your life for you.

>>82398817
I'm sorry this is happening to you bro :(
I hope you get better

>>82398498 (OP)
Your relatives sound bitter and unloving, unfortunately. You don't deserve that. Don't forget that you are made in the image and likeness of God. You have within you an infinite potential ... life can be quite long and filled with many different things. You may not have the time or the resources to do the things you want to, but you can make some small difference in the lives of the people around you.

>>82398831
lol no, i didn't say i was a girl to get sympathy, i was just introducing myself. i think every person deserves help and sympathy. but yeah, you're right. i'm trying to resist them, i'm studying now and looking for a job at the same time so i can pay for my own therapy. i really want to get out of this state, but i wanted to share this here

>>82398853
I forgot to add, despite your relatives' shortcomings, forgive them, for their bitterness likely comes from some lack in their own lives. Overcome their doubt and show them what's true and good. I believe you can, anon. Peace be with you.

>>82398853
aww thank you very much :( this sounds very inspiring
And no, it's not that I don't think my relatives don't love me. They were brought up differently and they don't understand my condition. They think that I'm lazy and good for nothing. Maybe I really am lazy in some way, but the diagnosis was made by a doctor and the state of apathy is still there, on a permanent basis.

>>82398768
>Russian
RUSSIA NUMBA WON
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GCOwpnQq4rg

>>82398854
I'm not implying you were, but because you mentioned it I am saying that because you mentioned it the only reason you'll get sympathy is because you are a woman with a vagina. We're anons, i'm just keeping it real because if you were a dude you probably wouldn't get much engagement.
Depression is a bitch. Your brain is fucking with you and fucking with itself.
https://youtu.be/6f7ocVO65Uc?si=Ui6HE6b-KFot_qY6

https://youtu.be/ZtcfEMf3NxU?si=HADU6I_gTFnwBQw4

https://youtu.be/PCpmmVtwHCA?si=SHAYtW6oCQCqwNte

>>82398768
Im interested in learning Russian so maybe you can help me out my disc is sw6514

>>82398926
Sorry, I didn't think about it when I mentioned that I'm a girl. I used to only look at posts here, I didn't write anything myself, so I don't really understand. Yeah, depression is a bitch. I hope I can solve my problems and those who are facing it can do it too.

>>82398498 (OP)
Shut the fuck up you attention seeking whore. Kys

>>82398957
I'm not trying to be rude, but perhaps you should try a change of scenery?

>>82399010
She needs to be shat on by a Saudi Prince like the Slav whore she is

>>82399010
AHMZIZMZHVZH
it's not rude everything is ok. I wouldn't mind leaving here, but first I want to finish my studies at the university and earn money

>>82399023
I think it is for the best that you establish that springboard first, yes, despite the objections of the people around you.
When you say "this is really what I want" you're referring to your specific studies? In that case I'd say that your concern about "not [being] good [enough] for anything else" is borne out of the situation you find yourself in and your experiences, situation and depression.
I believe in you and love you.

>>82398498 (OP)
And your solution was to come to a board that notoriously hates women and think they all have it easy in life? I genuinely hope things get better for you, but good first step would probably be to get out of a toxic environment such as this.

>>82399068
oh my god your comment touched me dude :(
i meant i like what i do but because of the pressure i sometimes start thinking that this is not something i can succeed in either. if i dont succeed in what i am trying to succeed in i think i wont succeed in anything else.
thank you so much love you 2 bro <3

>>82399093
it's actually funny to watch insults from such people, they don't offend me and I just ignore them. But there are also good people here who supported me right now, for which I am very grateful. I wanted to share here, where people speak out about their problems, I did it and I don't regret it. Thank you, friend <3

>>82398498 (OP)
>>82398754
>>82398768
>>82398838
>>82398854
>russian
>female
another case of obviously well-doing woman getting bored of her discord e-kittens and moving to this board full of cucked (female) attention-starved faggots, you are white and female, you will not complain and leave this board now, i don't care if you're not offended, it's what you must do

>>82399255
yeah i'm definitely leaving this board right now, my mister misogynist. bro no i don't care at all, it doesn't offend me. if you don't like something, there are a lot of other threads here, just ignore ;)

>>82399114
>if i dont succeed in what i am trying to succeed in i think i wont succeed in anything else.
Yes, I understand. But that's just the anxiety and depression talking. It could be the case that you do fail, and the trick is that you can just do something else, or change it. It's not the end of the world.
You can think of depression as a mechanism to prevent over-investment in tactics or behaviors that did not yield any benefit.
Either way, I think you're on the right path. If something goes wrong you have to remember that there's so many different changes you can make. Re-evaluate, re-examine and ask yourself if it's truly hopeless. If you feel you are stuck or have failed, there's so many different paths you can take.
I wouldn't have some measure of success even in the relatively small victory of having a mediocre comfortable life without leaning on someone else in some respect and having support from someone down the line. Even if horrible things have happened, even if I'm lonely, I still have some measure of success, and I count myself lucky in that respect.

>>82399282
just leave, this is not just a board to talk about your life it's about lonely men with real problems, you have a good life (aside from being russian) you're in university, have food to eat, you haven't been drafted to war like many of your countrymen and you have good health, you've got it better than millions of people including most men here, you simply don't belong here and i'm not saying it in a bad way, your life is simply too good for this board.
you also don't seem to understand board rules/culture, the main goal of this website is anonymous posting, having a nickname just shows you want attention instead of real help same thing with telling everyone you're a girl, nobody needs to know that, you could have just not wrote that and i'd have no problem helping a fellow robot.

>>82399282
Pochemu ti bezhish na inostrannoyu incel dosku zhalovatsa na svoyu zhizn? Idi na 2ch v zhenskii razdel, ebanutaya attention whore. Tipo v chem prikol na anonim imageboard'e rasskazivat privat informatsiyu pro sebya? Ya znayu ti ishesh inostrantsa cuckolda chtob dengi platil tebe

>>82398498 (OP)
Therapy and psychiatry are nothing but a racket for the Jews

Depression sucks. Hang in there Op.

AKHAHPHPHZAKHVEU
thanks for specially translating your message into Russian for me, bro. That's very cute

>>82399407
Thank brooo <3

>>82399311
thank you very much, I will try. And I am glad if everything is ok with you, anon

oh hi hello 20F fembot, can you please post a vocaroo of you writhing in pain while you autistically squirm. please, thxU

well, i can kinda relate. i don't even have the will to try and achieve good things anymore, because in the very end ill still feel empty. therapy doesn't work when you overthink about your feelings
what are you studying?

>>82398498 (OP)
>my relatives tell me that this is not my thing and I will not achieve anything.
"depression" is the body's natural response to bad circumstances. your relatives are jerks, and if theyre jerks in this big way, they are probably also jerks in small ways. move somewhere else when youre able, and you may feel completely different.

>>82399599
I'm so sorry you're in the same situation. Don't lose hope, try to get out of this state, don't give up therapy and maybe someday you'll feel really good. I believe in you!
I'm a theater student, an actress, second year.

>>82399616
In the future I will do the same, I will definitely move away from here. Thank you very much

>>82399560
Do you spend all your free time online? On your phone?

Watch this video and tell us what you think
youtu.be/orQKfIXMiA8

>>82399537
Mnogo chesti ne beri na sebya, ya native Russian speaker. Udachi naiti loxa kotoryi pozhaleet i skinet 100$ bednoi devochke =(

>>82399675
spasibo, ya ne nuzhdayus v dengah or ranbomov, but esli ti nuzhdayeshsya, to nadeyus kto-to skinet 100$ bednomu malchiku, kotori nenavidit zhenshchin :(((

>>82398498 (OP)
You a femcel or a worthless whore?

>>82399772
none of these, but if I had to choose, then probably the second lol

>>82398498 (OP)
randomized reddit username ahh name

>>82399799
bodycount? it's gotta be something high

>>82399707
https://voca.ro/1bVrfW8pirht

>>82399805
nooo this nickname is connected to one character

>>82399799
You still a virgin? If yes then you are not a worthless whore.

>>82398768
Oh, I didn't expect to find one of our people here. Forget about other people's opinions, you can do anything. And learn some English, comrade

>>82399827
I'm not broke though and I'm a stupid American
Will you be my mail order wife?

>>82398498 (OP)
ZDRAWSTWUJTE prekrasnye russkie dewoczki!!!!!
Ja pol'ski pan i rycar' i choczu by wy nie zabyli szto my SLAWJANI i slawjani mogut wydjurzit' wsjo. Bud' silnaja, dewoczka! Bud' silnee czem etot urzasnyj mir!
>celuju wasze sladkie ruczki

>53 replies
The person said I'm a girl" come on guys, do better than that.

>>82398498 (OP)
>im a girl

Lost me there bud