Since I was 8, I was molested by my childhood friend, whom I considered an older brother. He is 4 years older than me. At first, just talk about sex, he instilled in me some fetishes that I still have. At 11, he groped me for the first time, at 12 he kissed me with tongue. I was a traumatized child who was bullied at school and my friends did not protect me, at home there was no special support from my relatives, but I am a pretty girl, so I enjoyed deplorable popularity with such bastards. I regularly saw this guy 1-2 times a year and he always touched me, kissed me while I was too little to understand that it was wrong. He cheated on all his girlfriends with me, with a little girl. And then I developed some kind of Stockholm syndrome or whatever it is, I don’t know, but I was afraid of him and at the same time felt some kind of affection, forgiving him for what he did to me. At 16, I tried to defend my boundaries, said no, but that didn't stop him. At 17, he held me down and fingered me. That day, he couldn't fuck me, but he wrote to me later that he wanted to "finish what he started" and after that, we didn't see each other. It's been 3 years since then, and I recently crossed paths with him again after so much time. Now I have an increased libido, hypersexuality, and self-loathing.

Hi everyone, I'm a girl, I'm 20 years old. I've been living with depression for many years, I tried to go to a therapist several times, but it didn't work. It seems that everything I take on just falls out of my hands. I have no desire to do anything, I study in a good place, but my relatives tell me that this is not my thing and I will not achieve anything. I begin to doubt myself and that this is really what I want, but I'm really not good for anything else. I often have suicidal thoughts, but to be honest, I'm more waiting for something bad to happen to me and I'll die. I'm pathetic lol I'm ashamed of myself and that I'm even writing this
P.S. I am writing this through a translator