Thread 82403164

The only two emotions I feel are anger and powerlessness.

I constantly daydream of taking out people in power and those who support them.

I never feel safe, even when I'm sleeping.
I hate it when I end up in pointless internet debates, not because it's a waste of time but because I know the other guy still has threatening views.

I'll lose sleep over what other people support.

I hate living, it feels like a waste of time.
I often have waves of misanthropy because of how retarded and violent people are.

I'm tired constantly feeling threatened.
I'm tired of it all

>>82403164 (OP)
Im violent as hell. I killed over a dozen dogs before I left highschool, I would whack them in the head with a shovel or kick them off cliffs, I picked one dog up by its back legs and swung its head into a big truck on the highway. My favorite hobby is to go to the park and to kill birds in front of people and then stare at them and say WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? Haha, they incel walk away.

>>82403164 (OP)

Ayy, yo, heart gone cold like Palmer, bro still shot like Bennett
She wanna question me, ayy don't ask me bae, go ask Reddit
I was drunk and high on my face, I sent that text and then unsent it
I feel like Vini, I been up front but kinda more on the left wing
Plan B, we ain't doin' no labor and it's still fuck Brexit
Yo, I feel like Hus, cah' this money made me sexy
She gave me head on the balcony, happy ending
Yo, happy ending, yo, happy ending
On my life I'm grabbin' the woosh and hittin' a lick if I get evicted
I told you man this year my time, I guess you say it's predicted
It's hard to avoid this drama, bitin' my tongue just tryna resist it
If bro can't get it inside then best know that he's bringin' the flicky
I just Dior'd this one but trust me G, don't spend on a bitch
Me, I got too much bread so I don't even care if she's tryin' her ting
That shit gonna catch up to you and when it does, don't run, don't trip
Don't run, don't trip, ayy, ayy (don't run, don't trip)
Heart gone cold like Palmer, bro still shot like Bennett
She wanna question me, ayy don't ask me bae, go ask Reddit
I was drunk and high on my face, I sent that text and then unsent it
I feel like Vini, I been up front but kinda more on the left wing
Plan B, we ain't doin' no labor and it's still fuck Brexit
Yo, I feel like Hus, cah' this money made me sexy
She gave me head on the balcony, happy ending
Yo, happy ending, yo, happy ending
I don't want no crazy gyal cah' me I just send her mad
I just counted a healthy stack and gave that straight to my dad
Move mumsy out of the hood, one way so we can't go back
We the ones who runnin' it up, real life, not just on Snap
Somehow just don't feel pressure, heard them sayin' I changed like weather
Friends been sayin', "You could do better"
You stay 'round me 'cause I know you better
Grindin' so I can't put my feet up, I used to slide 'round there tryna clean up
You man fake and my bro's realer, they get to the bag as well

That is a very bad state to be in, and not one that you should follow, at all, it's not one that is good.

Are you on meds by any chance? Ever been on any? What brought you to this point? Was there a time you never felt such a thing? Whatever the case it's not good, it's possibly demonic. If you feel lead by this, if you feel it's something that could lead you to carrying something out, you must know you are being deceived and that is probably not you talking.

Now maybe that's not you, in fact I suspect it's not and that you are just tired, which is a whole different thing and not as threatening, in which case, I think you just need to chill and stop taking things too seriously. What kinds of things in particular do this to you?

>>82403248
>Are you on meds by any chance?
Take a cocktail every night
>Ever been on any?
Many
>What brought you to this point?
Various mental illnesses and childhood trauma

>Was there a time you never felt such a thing?
Not that I can remember

>think you just need to chill and stop taking things too seriously.
Maybe

>What kinds of things in particular do this to you?
Politics, religion, any type of extremist that want to force what they believe on you

>>82403248
>it's possibly demonic.
I've thought about this for a while
>If you feel lead by this, if you feel it's something that could lead you to carrying something out,
I have no intent to hurt anyone

>>82403369
Well, I don't know much about how it works personally, but I can tell you meds absolutely fuck people up. Every mass shooter has been on all sorts of meds. Not suggesting you would do that kind of thing, I just know there are examples of such people, and I know that some of the meds shut off peoples natural responses to things, but don't really solve the problem. I've heard it stirs up their brain chemistry. Not something to worry you about, just a consideration.
>Various mental illnesses and childhood trauma
Childhood trauma will definitely do things. Mind elaborating? I don't know if I can be any help but maybe there's something I can offer.
>Politics, religion, any type of extremist that want to force what they believe on you
I think you'd have to be more specific for me to offer my thoughts on it.
Speaking generally though, and maybe it doesn't pertain to you, there are many people that take the internet WAY too seriously. Lots of stuff on the internet is literally intended to stir you up, like ragebait, there are a lot of bots (although it shouldn't just be assumed political positions or things are purely that). A lot of people also don't see the nuances or things that lead up to certain rhetoric, so to them it seems utterly outrageous in the face of their worldview. My sister has been distressed before about political things on the internet, I know first hand how these things work and how pointless it is to take a lot of things seriously. One must consider that on the internet, people are going to say things and appear to have views that won't really have a serious manifestation irl, and a lot of them aren't serious people. To them it's just nonchalant banter. It's not wise to let yourself be offset by it, you'd be better off praying for them (and yourself).
>I've thought about this for a while
If you really think it is, consider the value of confession. Confession has been a part of churches for a reason. cont'd-

>>82403466
It takes off the weight of sin, and I've seen it called a kind of exorcism. As far as Christianity goes I'm honestly still figuring that out myself, I find the Orthodox Church to have a lot of wisdom, and seems incredibly authentic. It is called a hospital of souls. I truly think there are a great many problems of out day that are spiritual in nature and need adressed with a spiritual framework, and the lack of resolution for many people stems for the wide abandonment of it and secularism. I've had problems in my life that were ONLY finally helped when I sought out God, and began the journey of repentence. I came out of a dark place, and in the process, I began to feel like I was also overcoming traumas. I still fall often, I don't know if I'm in the best spiritual state, but it certainly has helped me.

>>82403508
*from the wide abandonment

Also, like I said, just don't let yourself be stirred by it. If it's demonic (or your brain or whatever), it's not you. To the extent that it's not you, identify it, and reject it. You don't have to be lead by it. I don't know if that's helpful or not. Sorry if it's not, but I hope there's been something of value in what I've said. Also I'm realing from too much caffeine lol.

Do you have a purpose in life? Things to look forward to?
It just seems to me that you are stuck in a cycle of hating people, then they respond to your hate, then it makes you hate them.
None of this shit is serious. Is just words on a screen. Go outside. The world is a fantastic place. You should stop consuming politics for one and search for stuff that brings positivity into your life. Funny content creators, wholesome videos, pet videos. No doubt you feel like shit when all you look foward to is negative things.
Also your paranoia? Wtf.
Go get some intimacy. Get friends, get a boyfriend. Leave this vacinity immediately

>>82403466
>Mind elaborating?
I had an abusive sister and grew up in borderline poverty

>I think you'd have to be more specific for me to offer my thoughts on it.
I'm afraid of people using legislation against my family and me
I hate all politicians, parties, movements etc they all advocate for bullshit laws that fuck everyone over
My biggest fear is totalitarianism, akin to the nazi regime or stalin's USSR

>>82403641
>I'm afraid of people using legislation against my family and me
What are you and why would they do that?

>>82403650
>What are you
Queer, autistic, irreligious upon many other things
>why would they do that?
because people are dicks

>>82403629
>Do you have a purpose in life?
I have kids I'm help raising

>You should stop consuming politics for one and search for stuff that brings positivity into your life
You're probably right

>Get friends, get a boyfriend
I'm trying

>>82403768
>I have kids I'm help raising
What? That's awesome! How are you in this state then? You should buy waterguns and play with them. You should play the deaf, mute and blind cooking challenge (example: https://youtube.com/shorts/zqQR6QLj0Xo?si=oEDnaA5PXatupWrH) you could take them to a waterpark, a cat cafe, a petting zoo, you could play fun games like trivia, bowling, pictonary, finishing a puzzle together, fishing. Think about all the wholesome fun memories you could be making right now!
>they are babies
Well, I hate babies, but think about all the cute outfits all the cool gifs you can give them.

>>82403164 (OP)
are you gonna let those feeling fuck you in the ass forever or are you gonna do something about it, pussy

>>82403835
I'll take those ideas into consideration

Thank you

>>82403747
I think you'll be fine. There's a lot of fear mongering like the whole thing of trannies thinking they will be genocided, and it's not realistic. Such people of course tend to be of a left wing bent and are in left wing echochambers, and get a very limited scope of reality. There's been arguments about these things for a long time and after years of "wokeness" and increasingly obviously absurd to downright eggregious. The preaching of tolerence extended to things even on the level of weimar with nobody but the right wing pointing it out and acknowledging it as an issue has pushed people in a certain direction, or rather, defined them in the face of it. Because of this there's been a societal correction, a change in rhetoric in the government, and too some extent, in corperations too. This is merely a necessary problem management issue, as perceived by the government. I do not beleive the fear of genocide people have is realistic.

To put it simply, it's sort of a "hey you've had your fun, but things are getting out of hand and the jig is up, time to get serious" kind of thing. There's another element to it all, that we culturally, are moving away from liberalism. It's shown itself to be impotent and dysfuntional, and you may start seeing actions taken, in accordance with the movement of the overton window, to be more serious in a way that is I guess you could say "pro-civilization". We are right now living in a case study.

All that being said, again, I don't think you'll have anything to worry about, certainly not with regard to autism or religiosity. Are you male or female by the way? I presume female but just being sure.

Another bit of advice by the way, I think it really may be good for you to use the internet less. If you have almost formed a personality on here (you are a namefag afterall), that may have an almost artifice like affect, that isn't really you, and I suspect it can lead to a self refferential mental loop of illusory-

>>82403990
-problems. I don't know if you are an example of that, but I think I've observed this before, in others, and to some degree, in myself at times. Just saying it's a thing that happens. That book I posted an image of by the way >>82403248
, might be helpful to you.
https://youtu.be/Bq63tz6T8uE&t=111

>>82403990
and by the way, just to be clear, when I say "limited scope" or "echochambers" that's not to pooh pooh those things or suggest those people are just dumb or ignorant or whatever. That's not the point, it's not a judgement or downplaying, it's a full and loving acknowledgemment of it in a greater context, so please, if that happened to seem sort of uncharitable and disinterested or something like that, don't take it that way. Just felt I should clarify that.

>>82403990
I'm male

>>82404020
>might be helpful to you.
Nice, I'll check it out later