Thread 82404304

hey there anon!
good day?
r u taking it easy?

>>82402482
>well suuuuure but i'd rather have a nice economy.
well we don't rly have either so count ur lucky stars!
>well its like leveling up a skill after all
so true! I wish i had moar potential tho...
>>82402834
> I wish I was normal.
me 2, but it is what it is anon...
>But God knows I'm going to keep trying until I cannot even breathe anymore.
i think that's a good mindset 2 have
have u done anything kewl 2day?
>>82403175
>Truly tragic... Born to honk shoo, forced to go through (with school)...
yeah... I'm a honk mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-masster!
>I've had some crazy energy spikes and dips today in particular. I can't really get involved in anything I like because as soon as I get going, I want to lay down and take a break/fall asleep. Which isn't to say that it's been bad, just kinda uneventful.
sounds like me desu
whenever i get up 2 do something i'm always like
"hey mayb i'll take a break first and do it lator!"
>What about yours?
i spent my day in school drawing databases diagrams... Gonna do moar of thatt 2day probably...

>>82404304 (OP)
awful day today, trying to pull thru but it's almost gonna be 1 am and the bad thoughts & feelings just get more intense the later it is for some reason

>>82404391
what happened, anon? R u gonna b okay?

>>82404304 (OP)
sorta, halfway through my senior year of highschool and im already very sure i dont want to go to college. All my friends are, and are making me feel insane for not wanting to go. To add on to that i just cant shake feeling like theres no reason to try in anything i do since the world is falling to shit

>>82404405
>sorta, halfway through my senior year of highschool and im already very sure i dont want to go to college
i think u should go. If not 4 the studying itself, then go for the social opportunities. I've sort of wasted mine and i regret it 2 this day
>world is falling to shit
It's probably not as bad as u think it is.
>All my friends are
if u do decide not 2 go, at least try 2 keep ur friendships. It's really easy 2 lose contact with the hs ppl u kno.

>>82404398
i hope so, the last days of the month that just went by were just godawful, lots of issues with how i attach to people and how lonely i truly am if i'm not constantly reaching out for them.

decided to go offline for a while 3 days ago, it's like no one ever noticed i was gone.

>>82404457
>i hope so, the last days of the month that just went by were just godawful, lots of issues with how i attach to people and how lonely i truly am if i'm not constantly reaching out for them.
I am the same way
>decided to go offline for a while 3 days ago, it's like no one ever noticed i was gone.
how do u know that?

Definitely not taking it easy. It's an awful day, and this year and probably the next couple will remain awful. Since people can't stop themselves for acting awful.

>>82404304 (OP)
It's a pretty good day! I'm really starting to like the weather, though the weather doesn't like me, it makes me hurt more the colder it gets... But summer was the worst, I hate the heat! I'm taking it nice and easy with the window open, listening to all the crickets. Very comfy.

>>82404351
>I'm a honk mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-masster!
>"hey mayb i'll take a break first and do it lator!"
Truly the master of taking it easy!

>>82404391
>>82404457
>how lonely i truly am if i'm not constantly reaching out for them
Have you talked to them about it? I'm the other person in these scenarios, where I often forget. But whenever people have asked me or mentioned the issue to me, I absolutely make a more conscious effort. It's usually not that I dislike talking to them or find them boring or anything like that, I'm really just a ditz that forgets to message people, even whenever I think about them for some reason or another.

>>82404405
>i dont want to go to college
Well, you don't have to go right away. A lot of people take a year or two before they go, though a lot of people fall into the trap of planning that and then never going. I think it would be good to have some kind of plan. Trade schools are an option, too, or like apprenticeships for certain positions.
>To add on to that i just cant shake feeling like theres no reason to try in anything i do since the world is falling to shit
Very understandable feeling right now. But other than this, why don't you want to go to college, btw?

>>82404979
>Since people can't stop themselves for acting awful.
What have they been doing?

so tired. im not looking forward to the friday rush at work tomorrow. goodnight easy takers

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>>82400591
i missed you too and everyone else! i hope i didn't miss anything important while i was gone, it makes me wish i had home wifi but there aren't any services that are available in my area
>spoiler
aaa sorry about that. i didn't mean to freak anyone out
>How have u been?
i've been alright. i didn't do anything exciting while i was gone, mostly worked. it was also very hot, i tried my best to keep cool. i hope you did too
some good news is that my dad has been sober for 47 days! he's even began to go to aa meetings. isn't that great?
how was your summer? did you end up getting a summer job? how hot does it get where you live? your pasta looked tasty btw
>>82401089
>I've been so attached to refreshing lately
haha tell me about it, i get exactly what you mean. these threads are very addictive
>>82402482
i hope you did too! have you started classes again yet?
>>82395709
oh no the flu already, we just started fall. take care yuyu and get plenty of rest if you can. nice drawing
>>82398186
>pic
you found them! do they taste like the ones you get in the uk? i've never had a catepillar cake before, or have seen them in person. i wonder if they're hard to make

>>82405031
2/2
>>82384613
hope you feel better junas and that you can manage to enjoy your alone time. let me know how your new job is going for you when you're back! although i suppose it's not so new anymore, huh?
>>82382731
a super late happy birthday, i hope you had a good one. my calendar had it marked for july 17th but that doesn't sound right, can you please let me know if it is? it's nice to see that you're back!
>>82404391
you should go to bed if you haven't already. it won't fix your problems, sure, but don't try not to lose sleep over ruminating. it's one of the few joys of life you know. i hope things turn around for you so that you can finally put the awful days behind you sooner than later!

Trying my hardest to take it easy while enduring what is probably the worst day of my life.
I might be gone for a while. I'll try to reply to everyone when I can.

>>82404304 (OP)
i took 250mg of benedryl and tons of melatonin imntaking jt easy

Can't take it easy in this heat...

>>82403175
>learn how to yell
i dont think my voice is suited to be yelling at all! besides i get shy just for singing normally, screaming and yelling is too much... i can only do it when im driving alone in my car.
>Kaiju
oh that's the opening of Orb, right? i really liked that anime! how's your japanese pronunciation? have you studied it?
>doing anything impressive
but still, you've been at it for long! it's not easy to keep playing an instrument for long periods of time. right now i kinda lack the motivation to do anything, so i haven't been playing much. but usually i just find a song i really like and i try to play it. i know i should be doing exercises and whatnot, but it's so boring...
>theramin
most of the stuff you're mentioning i've never heard of before... how would you even play that thing?
>now I worry about food
ha...ha... me too. i have to buy the cheapest things always, and it's really making it hard to follow the diet i'd like to follow... at least when school starts im going to have a good "free" meal at least once a week, since we eat what we cook there. did you have a nice paying job or something like that in the past?
>It's nice until you have to deal with it
yeah i guess you're right. it's really annoying to defrost my car's windscreen. but, i really want to make a snowman...
>>82404351
>count ur lucky stars
i am trying, it's just difficult to see the good when you're surrounded by only bad
>moar potential
sadly us puny "normal" humans can only do our best to try and stay alive. i like to think that determination is better than potential/talent though. (cope)
>>82404457
>i attach to people
it's okay anon, i also am like you. we just have to find the right people that can give us the attention we need. i hope you manage to get a good night's sleep!
>>82405031
>hope you did too!
haha... yeah...
>classes again yet?
next week, im partly scared, partly excited. im so tired of my current routine
>>82405107
ganbare eiki, we'll be waiting for you here!

>>82405107
A lot of people having a rough day it seems... Hope everyone feels better soon.

>>82405118
Doesn't taking more melatonin make it less effective?

>>82405939
>i get shy
Oh, you're still baby. At some point I just went through some weird ego death and it felt like I went ultra instinct, suddenly unlocking my real voice. Playing the kazoo all the time prior to that honestly helped, because it trained my vocal cords and all the muscles and whatnot while letting me just shrug off any self-cringe or shyness by saying "lol it's just a kazoo who cares."
>i dont think my voice i suited to be yelling
You would be surprised what practice can do! I sound like a relatively high pitched gay when talking, but then I start singing the guilty gear strive soundtrack and I sound like a demon.
>Orb
Yeah, apparently. I've not seen it. I've just been following the band for like... a decade now. I'm old...
>how's your japanese
I mean I've been a weeb for 15 years now, Japanese is kinda like... Ingrained in my brain, at least in terms of hearing it, so the pronunciation comes pretty naturally to me at this point. I can do most songs as long as the lyrics aren't too fast. If anything I think sometimes I sing better in nihongo because the phonetics are simpler once you know them.
>i know i should be doing exercises
Guitar is a lot more involved than my silly instruments! I don't blame you, I never had the dedication for traditional instruments.
>how would you even play that
You kinda just hover your hands in front of its antennas and it goes weeooeooee. Very spooky sounding, you've probably heard it in horror stuff before!
>did you have a nice paying job
Yeah, I was programming for a while, but now I can't really keep up with deadlines because of my hands + pain while sitting.
>diet
Yeah... I would really benefit from a mediterranean diet but between not being able to stand to cook and cost it's just not happening.
>snowman
The real fun is igloos!

>>82405939
I didn't have room in my post but I wanted to ask what kinda style your singing is, by the way!! Is it the soft, goes-with-acoustic-guitar type for example? Deep and cool? What kind of songs do you sing, for example?

Been feeling like ass since last Friday, all thanks to my dad being an unwashed animal with no manners and spreading viruses everywhere

>>82404351
>drawing databases diagrams
I still find it hard to believe you went from a chemist wannabe to an aspiring pajeet, you sure are gonna love that underpaid 9 to 5 backend Java developer job
>>82404405
>making me feel insane
Judging by your last sentence you're likely already insane, and you don't wanna be stuck in school again in a bad mental state. I'd advise to take a break
>>82404457
>3 days
Most people aren't gonna process your absence in such a short time, unless they have bpd like you do
>>82405031
>i hope i didn't miss anything important while i was gone
You missed the allegations
>>82405107
Worst is a big word, I hope you'll be fine

>>82405031
>i missed you too and everyone else! i hope i didn't miss anything important while i was gone, it makes me wish i had home wifi but there aren't any services that are available in my area
wut about starlink? Doesn't that work anywhere?
>aaa sorry about that. i didn't mean to freak anyone out
It's oki, i'm just glad ur okay!
>>82405031
>i've been alright. i didn't do anything exciting while i was gone, mostly worked. it was also very hot, i tried my best to keep cool. i hope you did too
well, a boring summer is nise. I hope u took it easy at least a little bit!
it wasn't very hot here though. It was very rainy
>>82405031
>some good news is that my dad has been sober for 47 days! he's even began to go to aa meetings. isn't that great?
that's great, gud 4 him! Hopefully he can stay sober indefinitely!
>how was your summer? did you end up getting a summer job?
it was rather boring. I did not get a summer job unfortunatlely, but i tried. actually i sent u an email when u disappeared and i wrote all about it there
>how hot does it get where you live?
it depends. The summer last year was pretty hot. This year? Not so much. Like i said, it was very rainy and wet and rather cold actually. I enjoy hot summers personally. they make cool drinks very enjoyable and i like bathing in the sun
ironically today has been hotter than most summer dayss
>your pasta looked tasty btw
Thank u! I wanted 2 use red wine 4 the sauce, but i didn't have any, so i had 2 settle 4 wine vinegar...
>>82405107
hang in there eiki! Everything's gonna be oki!
>>82405118
what does benderyl do?
r u snoozin rn?
>>82405752
i like the heat. It's pretty hot rn. If only i didn't sweat so much though...
all my clothes are wet!
>>82405939
>i am trying, it's just difficult to see the good when you're surrounded by only bad
but it's not all bad, is it?
(cont)

>>82405939
>sadly us puny "normal" humans can only do our best to try and stay alive. i like to think that determination is better than potential/talent though. (cope)
my dad says i'm talented because school was ez 4 me, but idk. In uni i folded really quickly...
>>82404998
>It's a pretty good day! I'm really starting to like the weather, though the weather doesn't like me, it makes me hurt more the colder it gets... But summer was the worst, I hate the heat! I'm taking it nice and easy with the window open, listening to all the crickets. Very comfy.
i am the opposite! I am like a lizard. I lob the heat!. I think imma go nap in the sun after i eat
>Truly the master of taking it easy!
hehe
>>82406172
>Been feeling like ass since last Friday, all thanks to my dad being an unwashed animal with no manners and spreading viruses everywhere
eburynyan is getting sick it seems. I hope u all get better soon!
>I still find it hard to believe you went from a chemist wannabe to an aspiring pajeet, you sure are gonna love that underpaid 9 to 5 backend Java developer job
technically i am still a chemist wannabe, cause once i'm done with this course i am going right back 2 chemistry 2 finish my degree. The only reason i am doing this course is 2 appease my relatives so that they may spsonsor my attempt 2 return 2 chemistry. Being a scientist is my dream job after all!

>>82405118
but that's going to make you feel perennially sleepy!
>>82406131
>suddenly unlocking my real voice
hmm, sometimes i do feel like i have some hidden voice too, but i really dont know how to bring it out. it's like, my brain automatically lowers the volume of my voice and changes it without me thinking.
>the kazoo
huh, never thought they could be so powerful... i used to play the flute back in middle school and i hated every single second of it. but in retrospect, i really wish i went to a music school when i was a teenager. now it's a little too late
>guilty gear strive soundtrack
no way you like that too??! heheh I love it! it's so nice that they give you a free game with the album too. what's your favourite song? i adore find your one way! i hope i can also play the guitar as good as they do in their songs.
>I've not seen it
well i highly recommend! honestly one of the few good animes that came out recently.
>a decade
i admire your dedication anon! i've been listening to foo fighters ever since i was 13 or so if not sooner.
>traditional instruments
what about an ukulele? i think it's a good mix between silly and traditional instrument. i've played it a few times and it's fun
>it in horror stuff before
i never watch or play horror stuff so perhaps not, though i've seen some videos about making scary sounds and the equipment they use always looks so strange...
>I can't really keep up
oh, that sucks anon. if i may ask, for how long have you been dealing with these pains?
>it's just not happening
mhhh, well if you ever happen to pass by here i'll make you something really tasty!
>is igloos
that... might just be a little outside of my capabilities. have you ever made one?
>what kinda style
hm, i can't really singly softly unless im whispering, due to how my voice sounds. i wish i could... perhaps with enough training ill be able to. but for now i always sound kind of deep and when i try to go higher my voice just goes all weird...

cont.

>>82406686
cont.
>>82406142
>What kind of songs
they vary a lot. i go from metal (linkin park, anthrax, etc) to punk (mcr, green day, etc) to rock (foo fighters, radiohead, etc) but i also really like twenty one pilots and i sing a lot of their songs too. so uhm, it's kind of all over the place! lately, i've been singing a lot of "quieter" stuff to train my voice at sounding a bit softer. im very good at making deeper voices though, i think. when i was in school people would always ask me to make impressions of other people/characters.
>>82406540
>but it's not all bad, is it?
it's about 90% i'd say
>>82406555
trips checked
>because school was ez 4 me
the so called genius kid that ends up burning out eh? i've always been bad at school so at least no one was disappointed when i eventually dropped out

>>82406691
>it's about 90% i'd say
but italy is so pretty! does its beauty only take up 10%?
>>82406691
>the so called genius kid that ends up burning out eh? i've always been bad at school so at least no one was disappointed when i eventually dropped out
ur doing pretty well in school now. Don't sell urself short!

Fuck you Watta, all you do is break my heart while telling me to take it easy

I feel like a permasedated zoo animal nowadays and I'm not even on antidepressants.

>>82407462
who's watta?

>>82406555
>nap in the sun
Craziness... I'm always sleeping with no blankets with a fan blasting on me to get all the heat away!

>>82406686
Okay I'm gonna ignore a few of our talking points because our posts are getting so long we're gonna end up needing continued posts just to talk to each other lol
>dont know how to bring it out
Eventually I got fed up feeling like I was holding back so I kept trying to go ham. I would get embarrassed at first and fall back into quiet mode, but eventually when I would go hard and hit the notes real well, it really built my confidence! And confidence is the real key
>what's your favourite song?
Either Necessary Discrepancy or The Gravity, which are both very Dream Theater, apparently. I like all the time signature changes in both.
>hope i can also play the guitar as good as they do
That's a great goal!! Though it seems like a pretty hard one? I'm not too sure.
>ukulele
Honestly that instrument has been burned into my head as the generic woman playing+singing combo instrument... If you know what I mean at all. Even my ex used to play and sing with it
>pains?
About 2 years now, with a lot of ups and downs in severity. I'm not sure if my hands could even play a ukulele honestly.
>igloos
Yeah, I made a few as a kid! I'm not talking like super good ones made with snow blocks and stuff, just enough for a little hidey hole! But then I'd get bored cuz I had nothing to do in them...
>i can't really sing softly
Neither can I, I've been really trying to work on it specifically lately actually! It seems really hard? I dunno how some people just do that
>punk
>mcr
Based... I love singing MCR stuff! Even though I never listened when I was younger. It's just right at that really fun range for me.
>im very good at making deeper voices
I sound like a freak when I sing or talk deeply...

>>82407583
Do you sleep a ton?

>>82408249
watta burger...

>>82408249
WattaFak is the guy who's making those threads every day

I've only been away from webdev for a few months and I already feel like a total fraud again. I'm never gonna get a job at this rate...
Time to work on a new frontend for my local booru instance since the default one is trash and I'm tired of pretending it isn't. This should get me updooted again so I don't act like a clueless drooling retard on my next interview

>>82406555
>i am going right back 2 chemistry
Nuh uh, you're going to work that 9 to 5 job in the wagie cage where you belong, lil chud. Your parents didn't raise you to slack off in college, you gotta bring da monies home like a good son!

>>82407462
>>82408578
u have me confused for someone else nonny
>>82407583
wut's wrong anon?
>>82408449
the only downside 2 the heat is that i get soaking wet from all the sweat! A price 2 pay 4 sum warm comfyness
>>82408720
wut happened in ur last interview?
>Nuh uh, you're going to work that 9 to 5 job in the wagie cage where you belong, lil chud. Your parents didn't raise you to slack off in college, you gotta bring da monies home like a good son!
nuh!
The only way i wanna make bread is by doing le basedence!

>>82405939
>ganbare eiki, we'll be waiting for you here!
Thanks.

>>82406131
>Hope everyone feels better soon.
Thank you, me too.

>>82406172
>Worst is a big word, I hope you'll be fine
Thanks.
I've been filled with anguish and stress from start to finish, paralysed and completely unable to focus on anything. I've barely eaten today and cried more than I think I ever have. It's definitely a strong contender for the worst.
I think I'll be fine eventually. I just hope it doesn't take 18 months to move on like it did last time.

>>82406540
>hang in there eiki! Everything's gonna be oki!
I'm trying my best. I hope it will be.

>>82408753
>wut happened in ur last interview?
Nothing, they never called me back
>>82409087
I'm sorry...

>>82409087
*hug*
it will all be okay!
>>82409502
did u fumble it somehow?

>>82407416
>does its beauty only take up 10%?
no, but i never get to see any of it
>ur doing pretty well in school
eh... we'll see how it goes...
>>82408449
>back so I kept trying to go ham
i guess i just gotta keep embarrassing myself then...
>Either Necessary Discrepancy or The Gravity
those are nice. do you play the game too? if so who'se your fav character?
>Dream Theater
oh i know a few songs from them! i like dream sweet in sea major a lot
>it seems like a pretty hard one?
yeah it is. guitar always kinda seems easy on the outside, and sometimes it is, but most of the time it's more complicated than it sounds.
>generic woman playing+singing
well you're right cause the person who introduced me to it was that kind of woman lole. i guess they just dont have a lot of originality.
>About 2 years now
mhhh im sorry anon i hope you can find a way to not hurt so much anymore.
>just enough for a little hidey hole
i mean that's pretty cool still! i don't think i could make anything that doesn't fall apart within minutes even if i tried
>>82408449
>I dunno how some people just do that
i guess they just have the talent or the right voice for that.
>Even though I never listened when I was younger
never too old to be a punk heheh. i love singing their songs too, i can bring out all the emotions i have whenever i do!
>when I sing or talk deeply...
naaahh im sure you sound fine. or at worst kind of funny.

finally friday, although i wish i could make my body sleep more on weekdays instead of waking up after 6 hours of sleep every time... it's some sort of mental problem (light stress or smth) because i was doing fine in holidays so at least i know i don't have any sort of illness. we'll see if it gets better, i think i can get more motivated if i end up doing more interesting stuff.
for now i'm gonna watch a movie while having dinner and then i'll sleep

>>82405031
>i hope i didn't miss anything important while i was gone
eiki got a nazrin fumo that was a very important event

>>82408753
love picrel

>>82409087
>I just hope it doesn't take 18 months to move on like it did last time.
seems like you're going through a lot... must be hard for you.
obviously i don't know you or the circumstances but if you feel like you can and that your situation is fitting, you could talk to your superior/responsible for the phd so you can take a short break. it won't be remotely close to 18 months but the last thing you need to worry about now is work. alternatively, there's also the route of temporary disability for really severe circumstances that greatly affect your mental health, but i hope you won't have to take that option.

>>82404304 (OP)
Way too easy. Wfm and taking excess naps and scrolls

I should try to get some sleep. I've been up for 20 hours now but I'm not tired.
Please take care everyone.

>>82409502
>I'm sorry...
It's okay. I'll be alright again one day.

>>82409730
>it will all be okay!
I hope so.

>>82409973
>you could talk to your superior/responsible for the phd so you can take a short break.
I'll see what I can do. I might be able to get my probation pushed back a month or two if a shrink at the university signs off on it. The only therapy I've had any success with was for bereavement the last time this happened so it shouldn't be too burdensome.

>>82408753
>i get soaking wet from all the sweat!
A price much too high... If I drip one drop of sweat, I am ready to jump in the shower!

>>82409815
>i guess i just gotta keep embarrassing myself...
Unironically yes! And eventually you'll get it just right and go "wait I'm epic"
>do you play the game too?
I have about 50 hours on Strive, I haven't touched any of the other games. Almost all of it is with Ram, she just really clicked with me. Fighting games make me mad so fast though... What about you, do you play?
>more complicated than it sounds
Guitar is already more complicated than I can handle... It's kinda crazy how popular it is, like why don't people do something easier?
>i hope you can find a way to not hurt so much anymore.
I have an appointment on Monday that I'm hoping to get some pain pills or something... I've tried the way the doctors want to go about it and it's not working so I'm hoping now they'll actually listen to me and give me something, even just for the really bad days.
>i don't think i could make anything that doesn't fall apart within minutes
Nah if you get a nice wet snow that stuff sticks together like glue! It's mostly just do you have enough snow.
>i guess they just have the talent or the right voice for that.
I want it! Sometimes... Usually I'm happy being my loud self, though.
>i can bring out all the emotions
That is the true joy of singing! I really love getting into that full zen state where it feels like my body is just acting on its own, like I start making funny faces, moving my arms/hands around without thinking, like I'm just channeling the song through me... I love singing!!!!!!!

>>82404304 (OP)
yes hello
its an okay day. kind of slow. i make lentils, rice and veggies again
it was yummy. turns out fresh lime juice makes everything much tastier

and yes i am taking it easy. im just relaxing, listening to premium cutie korean asmr and taking it easy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyfWg6NYopg

gotta wake up at 6:30 am tmrw to taxi a friend to the train station. ugh, i hope i don't crash into something...

>>82410672
>and go "wait I'm epic"
woah... am i really epic if i suck at everything i do?
>Almost all of it is with Ram
holy based. ram is awesome, she's my second main! i also play, i have around 100 hours, though i haven't touched the game in a good while. i play ky mainly!
>make me mad so fast though
honestly, i literally never get mad at anything, but fighting games somehow manage to make me angry. i guess it's just something they do no matter who'se playing them..
>how popular it is
meh, not really, especially now. in the past it was rarer since you not only needed to get a guitar, but also pay for lessons. plus it's not uncommon for people to drop hobbies like that after like a year or so. nowdays, you've got pretty much everything you want to learn readily, and guitars have gotten cheaper. (if you don't care about quality sound that is) so the instrument is way more accessible. plus since everyone wants to be unique now more than ever, they all just decided to start playing guitar to be cool and different from others, but only ended up doing the opposite. kinda like how going to the gym is basically the norm for every guy now.
>something easier?
because to the average guy that would make them inferior.
>I'm hoping now they'll actually listen to me
i hope so too anon! you deserve to feel okay too. also, i think you mentioned having a car, how do you manage to drive if you're always in pain when you move?
>do you have enough snow
we get none even when it's december... wahhh
>I start making funny faces, moving my arms/hands around without thinking
heheh i know what you mean! it happens to me too, whenever i get really emotional with a song! it's the best feeling ever. it's almost as if im on the stage singing the song! i try to feel that way too whenver i play my guitar, and really immerse myself in the song im playing.
man im writing way too much...

oioioioioi

been listening to the dbz falconer score and working out a lot
as i've gotten older i've found it easier to put on muscle
starting uni again soon, miss the NEET days but can't go back to that life at my age

>>82404304 (OP)
I'm not taking it easy
Retards of this board make like the neet life is good but isn't it

I'm always worried about my life and I'm tired of being a neet WITHOUT NEETBUX, but at the same time I'm tired of being ghosted in countless interviews and this is the kind of shit that made me give up completely in getting a job, I just can't stand wasting money in going in interviews that will ghost me no matter what

I don't know what else to do with my life

My mom and my cats are doing fine

>>82404304 (OP)
Usual Friday earlier out from work. The weird guy I go on route with kept his mouth shut the entire ride along. For once, it was peaceful. When to grocery store to get usual orange juice and lotto tickets for tomorrows drawing, been home ever since I even made lunch and being lazy.