Thread 82439977

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

600th edition!!!!!!!!!

wooo!
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

eyo
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

woot, first poster here too. Happy 600 all

>>82439977 (OP)
And welcome back cat! Been so tired last few days. Tried to post here a few times in the slow threads but just couldn't get to it.

last 100 threads were like 20 replies only, 10 of which was op
When are mods going to kill this crap

THREAD SIX HUNDRED!
GIVE IT UP FOR THREAD SIXHUNDRED!

wooo!! happy 600th everyone!!! i don't have much to tell. i'm tired. sick, food poisoning, i think?? after vomiting all morning, i've been able to keep some soup down so that's cool.
>>82440258
hello officeanon! how have you been lately??? i hope that well.
>>82440404
THAT'S THE SPIRIT!!!

>>82440258
Heya :>
>first poster here too. Happy 600 all
:0
happy 600th too you too !!
>welcome back cat!
hey ^^
>so tired last few days
man I feel sorry for you
work is hell
are you able to get any rest today or last weekend?
>but just couldn't get to it.
that's okay

>>82440404
:DD
hello how are ya doing?
happy 600

>>82440523
eyo :3
happy 600th!!
>food poisoning
that's sounds awful
what bad food did you eat?
>been able to keep some soup down so that's cool.
hope you get better soon
and that you can rest now and recover
do you have some school or work to worry about?

happy 600, cut!!

celebrations :]

>>82440404
good to see you bibbit

>>82440523
Hey lavender! Good to see you again. Feels like it's been a very long time
> i'm tired.
me too. Way too overworked these days. just going through the motions until I make it to December at this point
>food poisoning, i think??
always the absolute worst :/ Hope it passes soon and take care of yourself and drinkl plenty, all that.
> how have you been lately??? i hope that well.
no complaints other than burning out

>>82440595
>hey
how was your trip? Saw you posted once or twice, but hopefully a nice break from everything
>work is hell
necessary hell, but agreed :/
>are you able to get any rest today or last weekend?
definitely not today, but the weekend was okay. Think I'm pushing too hard because I'm reading more. Even when doing it for fun, still a little mentally draining, combined with everything just leaves me exhausted.

>>82440623
hey drifter, hope you've been doing well too!

>>82440623
Helo happy 600
how's it going?

>>82440747
>how was your trip?
it was okay
ate some fish, saw some beach and walked around a lot c:
>nice break from everything
in some ways
but I'm weird, like I'm back home now and I don't feel like I've ever left, I have a similar thing with school when I get back I don't feel like any summer vacations happened, I do remember that those things happening but I don't feel it, it's just another day
>necessary hell,
I guess
wish it wasn't
>when doing it for fun, still a little mentally draining
makes sense
you should dedicate some days to just doing nothing and letting your brain rest a bit

>>82439977 (OP)
yippee! exciting day !!! hope everyone is doing well

>>82441191
> saw some beach
Haven't physically gone onto a beach in quite a few years now. By the gulf here over last trip, but not any beaches
> walked around a lot
as always with any good trip!
>it's just another day
i hear you on that. When you're gone it feel like it's been forever, when you're back it feels insignificant. How it was with my big trip over summer. Fun stuff passes too quickly
>wish it wasn't
me too. Especially since they make it harder to harder to get/keep jobs, then blame regular people for the decisions of billionaires
>letting your brain rest a bit
agreed. maybe it's a good thing I'm back into a gatcha game again still since that's just mindless time killing that's probably doing me some good.

>>82441548
hey gator! Hope you're doing well too, thanks!

>>82441548
yayyaya :D
heyo ali
how's it goin??

>>82439977 (OP)
It's time to retire this dying general.

>>82439977 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Really sad, seeing other people living happily and my friends enjoying without me, while even the ones I cared about told me to kms casually.
>Any plans for today?
No, I'm too tired rn
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Yesterday. Frank some bleach mixed with water trying to harmful my internals
>Why did you hurt yourself?
I felt empty and I have been trying to kms slightly each day
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Not really, alone rn, atleast I can play silksong for some time and enjoy my time without any bothers

>>82441734
It's actually my first time replying to these threads.
Anyways... thanks for doing this anon

>>82441734
sorry you're having such a tough time anon
any "friend" who talks to you like that isn't a friend at all and not someone you should put so much trust in. Know it probably hurts, but try to keep your head up. Just little things like your game for now.
> harmful my internals
would advise not to do that. These kinds of things can really mess you up and cause horrible pain. Almost any other outlet to dealing with it is better than that.

>>82439977 (OP)
i'm a bit late today. happy 600th thread everyone!

>>82440623
hey drifter, good to see you. how's it going?

>>82441578
hey officanon thanks good to see you.

>>82441586
heya cat im okay lot of stuff with school. how's it going with you?

>>82441824
good to see you

hello hello hello

im glad i made it just on time for the 600th one
yesterday i got some coveralls, coveralls in flecktarn camo
gonna use it for stupid shit probably but also wear outside like some weirdo
such a stupid purchase yet it kinda made me happy to get them
>>82441734
>and my friends enjoying without me
eh yeah happens
friends should stick together but oh well

>>82441977
hey gator! good to see you, too. (^-^) how are you today?

>>82441982
hi sisyphus! what have you been up to?

>gonna use it for stupid shit probably but also wear outside like some weirdo
what stupid shit do you have in mind?

>such a stupid purchase yet it kinda made me happy to get them
i get you. it's the little things. :>

hows everyone?

>>82442173
hey yuanon
>what stupid shit do you have in mind?
well, theyre coveralls and meant to be USED, yknow, get dirty sooooooo i was thinking whenever i do silly and totally legal stuff, like tresspassing on private property thats been abandoned, wear them there so that most my body is protected and i dont ruin nice clothes (literally everything else)
i also intended on going hiking more up on the mountains and going to nature more so im definitely going to use them there
and also the actually stupid stuff is well, hide and seek
i somehow convinded my friends to play it one day in a rather small area and i climbed on a tree as much as i could to hide
im hoping to try and convince them to do it in a much larger area and hopefully that area in question being in nature
im going to have a great advantage lol

also just wear them casually like some weirdo

hru anyway?

>>82441982
hi hi hi
good it makes you happy

>>82442173
im okay how are you?

>>82442352
>hows everyone?
i'm good. played a lot of games the past couple of days. i need to catch up on some stuff.

>whenever i do silly and totally legal stuff
sounds reasonable so far...

>wear them there so that most my body is protected and i dont ruin nice clothes
good thinking, but don't get shot or something. people in camo sneaking around where they shouldn't be might be seen as suspicious these days. ^^'

>going hiking more up on the mountains
will you be on your own? if so, make sure to get some gps tracker, too. you never know.

>i somehow convinded my friends to play it one day in a rather small area and i climbed on a tree as much as i could to hide
cool they went with it. did you guys have fun?

>also just wear them casually like some weirdo
classy ;D

>hru anyway?
i'm good. i just got a new pc and had some nice workouts last weekend, so maybe a bit drained. for one of the workouts i halved the weight i use now and it was really nice to be able to do way more of the exercises and be way faster while also being able to keep a good form. work is work. that's about it. what about you?

>>82442422
>im okay
glad to hear it. btw, sorry for skipping stretching again. maybe we can do some tomorrow?

>how are you?
pretty good, but a bit exhausted. you can read about it above. :>

>>82442422
heya gator
how has school been so far?

>>82442505
>played a lot of games the past couple of days
ive been meaning to do that for a while now
>sneaking around where they shouldn't be might be seen as suspicious
good point but its highly unlikely i get shot inside a city, morel ikely ill get scared away but junkies
as we all know junkies have infinite stamina and no reaction at all to physical damage, theyre quite dangerous
maybe homeless people too but oh well i know where i go (usually)
>will you be on your own?
nope thats boring, i intend on going with 2 good friends of mine
i believe you have more fun when you share it with someone so thats why i dont want to be alone
good idea though
>did you guys have fun
sure we did
i was the last to hide so when they found me half way up a tree (i couldnt go further otherwise id be unable to get down) it was quite the surprise and highlight of our night
im still surprised i convinced them to my silly idea but theyre glad they listened to me as they had fun too

enjoy your computer my guy, i hope it runs the games you enjoy well
for me exams are coming up and im worried cause i havent studied but at the same time i continue not studying so yeahhhhhhhhhhhh not great

>>82442565
>ive been meaning to do that for a while now
what's on your list?

>as we all know junkies have infinite stamina and no reaction at all to physical damage, theyre quite dangerous
i suppose. hope you're at least faster.

>i know where i go (usually)
whatever you do and wherever you go; stay save.

>i intend on going with 2 good friends of mine
always good to be in a group when you're out and about, i'd say. at least when there's not many other people around.

>im still surprised i convinced them to my silly idea but theyre glad they listened to me as they had fun too
great it turned out that way. they should listen to you more.

>i hope it runs the games you enjoy well
i hope so, too. most taxing i've tried must have been brotato, though. i think space marine 2 will be the real test.

>for me exams are coming up and im worried cause i havent studied but at the same time i continue not studying so
hm... starting to study might help with that.

>>82442505
it's okay my fault as well.
sure thing
well glad things been good

>>82442565
it's been great actually, did a presentation recently was a lot of fun

>>82442929
>it's okay my fault as well.
i suppose we both have other things on our minds right now.

>sure thing
looking forward to it.

>well glad things been good
thank you. <3 but what about you?

>>82443263
seems like it
same.
im ok

>>82443989
alright. i think i should call it a day. it's quite late. see you tomorrow.

>>82439977 (OP)
hello /cut/
pretty late to the party but had to come back when i figured it was thread 600

>>How are you doing today?
quite well, i have a bunch of demos i wanted to unload so i could get some opinions
https://vocaroo.com/15yZ39comCo3 and https://vocaroo.com/19ku8J6XLZHe
this 2nd demo is actually shittier imo cause i used a glitchbox on parts of the song and i really dont think it sounds good, those melodies i made with a bunch of note steppers so theyre pretty random
think its cool

>>82444611
hello pink!

>pretty late to the party but had to come back when i figured it was thread 600
thanks for stopping by. i was quite late myself, though. can't sleep right now.

>quite well, i have a bunch of demos i wanted to unload so i could get some opinions
i'll check them out tomorrow. i need to try to catch some sleep, but i'll listen to them and report back to you in this or the next thread. whatever comes first. how have you been?

good morning, now the question is if i'm early or late. didn't post earlier cus i was asleep

Hi /cut/ :3
I am so glad to see so many familiar names here. Happy 600th thread, everyone!

>stop cutting yourselves
problem solved!

SIX HUNDRED!!!!
finally! i wanted to talk here so bad yesterday but the last thread was archived..


>How are you doing today?
a bit chill
>Any plans for today?
not really
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
yesterday
>Why did you hurt yourself?
something about my bestfriend, i'll talk about it down there _
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
i'm overthinking about my bestfriend that just became cold and barely texts me *now* when i need him the most, i want to vent to him and know what exactly is happening with him.
days ago when he started being cold he told me that he's going through the worst times in his life, but that was weeks ago, i dont know what are his reasons now it makes me feel like he hates me. i know he's probably suffering too just like me or even worse but i just need him to talk to me perhaps we could make each other happier.
i will still do whatever i can to cherish him, but i dont know if he still want to make me happy again like before. i dont know what to do it's just killing me everyday.

>>82441548
hi gator!! hope you're doing okay too

>>82441824
hi yuanon!!! i hope you're happy today!

>>82439977 (OP)
the the
th party hat hooner :D

>>82439977 (OP)
question for cutters.

How do you explain this stuff to intimate partners and what do you expect them to say/do or not?

goob morning !

>>82441824
Hey Yuanon
did get to talk to u yesterday
How are youu??

>>82441977
hello again
>lot of stuff with school
do u enjoy it like that presentation?
>how's it going with you?
Came back from a few day trip last sunday, now I'm just chilling and getting ready to work on some projects
idk if I'll manage to complete them

>>82441982
Hey hey hey
>but also wear outside like some weirdo
I don't think anyone will notice you so dw ;3
>kinda made me happy to get them
that's nice ^^
and besides that, how have you been?
I'm doing okay, came back from a vacation trip, it was nice

>>82444611
Eya pink
>pretty late to the party but had to come back when
that's okay, it's nice to see you !
>have a bunch of demos
you were busy i see
I'll check them out
Okay I listened to them and I like them
I don't know what else to say because I don't know how to describe things about music but they seem like they would fit in some fast paced fps game
Good job :D

>>82445145
Helloo ^^
good morning to you too
how are you?
>earlier cus i was asleep
had a nice sleep?

>>82445410
Heya anon :3
happy 600!
how's your day going?

>>82446208
Hii
>SIX HUNDRED!!!
woo !!
>bit chill
nice
>yesterday
unfortunate
>will still do whatever i can to cherish him, but i dont know if he still want to make me happy again like before.
it's really hard to say maybe he really does like you or he feels your don't like him for some reason or maybe he just needs a break from people for a while and doesn't want to tell you because he's afraid it'll make you sad or angry
There's a lot of possibilities and I feel the best thing to do is ask

>>82446874
hey cat!!
>how are you?
I'm doing pretty good actually, trying to be productive so i've been mainly taking care of my cats and cleaning up around the house. also my coffee machine is being annoying.
>had a nice sleep?
it wasn't terrible desu

>>82446874
yep. you're right. but it just hurts and i can't ask because we did talk about that before and it ended up by him saying that he's going through bad time, but that was weeks ago and he didn't give me any updates about his feelings after that so i don't know if he's still going through the same thing or just got sick of me. i just miss him so i hate feeling like he hates me.

but thank you so much ^^ i actually feel kinda better maybe he's just afraid it will make me sad or angry as u said :>

>>82446791
*<:D

>>82446853
hello
I don't think I'll ever have any intimate partners
but I think most cutters would like the other person to just ignore the injuries or at least not bring a lot of attention to them and leave worrying about them for some other time
>what do you expect them to say/do or not
honestly I don't know how normal people would react but it would probably depend a lot on the context, is it like a one night stand or are you in a relationship and so on