>>82967291
It is quite disheartening, indeed. I am now just a wagie and I do nothing meaningful nor productive in life.
I always wanted to die violently in war.
I do have infantry combat training from when I was conscripted in the army, but I never left for a wartorn country to kill and die in because I had obligations to stay alive and provide for my woman.
But since she left me.. I have nothing left keeping me here. I could go and die, no one would stop me.
Yet I am too cowardly to do it.
