Hello poIice

I have never had a girlfriend at age 21 and I have not had friends since the age of 8. I am ugly, fat, balding, short, poor, weak, aggressive and dumb. It is all on me, really, there is no denying that. No Jews or black or women involved, just plain old me.

I just want to know how I can best live with myself. I do not want self improvement, as I do not have much of a desire in life to have a girlfriend or even a friend, or anything apart from work and sleep. I just want something that helps me know that someplace, somewhere, somebody thinks that I am useful.

Any advice on finding a way to make sure that I know that someone is appreciative of me? Imagine you are trying to make a downie feel useful. I am not a downie just a tard who spent his childhood and adolescence as a sped.