Thread 82991057

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

catday! nya nya

hey
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>How are you spending this halloween?

hiii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82991057 (OP)
Hey /cat/

>How are you spending this halloween?
You left the Halloween question x3

I'm doing alright, and I hope you are too.

The autumn leaves are so pretty where I am. I don't have any plans for today at the moment. How about you?

i wish i could show a cutter some love. no need for sex, just telling them they dont need to harm themselves and that they are appreciated

hello
>>82991057 (OP)
helo cat hru
how was your day?
>How are you doing today?
so bad

>>82982676
>do you have a lot to study?
didn't have alot to study
>good buddies
sometimes yeah, it's strange
the mother used to hit her son
>I appreciate it
:]
>we don't really even get snow in winter
i hate global warming
i think the last time i saw snow was maybe 2 years ago or so

>I can only really see if if I focus
mhm i see that's better

>I don't immediately believe everything I see
>paranormal stuff
oh those are good sides really no?

>a bit afraid of dogs
saying " a bit " is brave
so i can imagine how hard it is to think there is a stray dog when you're alone in a street, sigh

i was walking to school once when i found a big white dog, a really big one
i freezed but tried get away by walking slowly
and it turned out it didn't even care that i was there i guess, ig it didn't bother looking at me even

>but it disappears as soon as I focus mr eyes on it
>it takes maybe half a second if not less
oh so that's not harmful actually
glad to hear that!

>>82982710
>but never saw till found an arcade skewed towards Japanese stuff.
that's interesting, i don't remember finding any figures, maybe only for super famous characters

>still won't care and not really an ideal time to try to start something new
as long as you can get the money you need i don't think it matters right?

>but is the team of 12 it used to take needed anymore?
ouch
i really hope there can be a solution somehow cuz the situation really seems helpless

>>82985346
>hello
hey gator, nice to see you back here again, how's everything going?

>>82991178
that's nice, anon. thanks.

>>82991158
hey anon
>The autumn leaves are so pretty where I am.
you like autumn?

Hey gamers, it's me again. I promise I'll not stay here too long.

>How are you doing today?
Sad and worried. Mostly consumed by worry.
>Any plans for today?
I need to leave for some food in a bit. But only 7-Eleven and McDonalds are open at this hour. Otherwise I've just spent it in bed.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Guilt that I could have done more.

>>82991178
I'm sure some will appreciate it. I'm not sure how much mine did.

>>82991158
Heyo
>left the Halloween question x3
CRAP i forgot to remove it again!! lol
well halloween is not done, a at least not for me
I'm still watching scary movies ^^
>doing alright
that's great :>
anything nice happened today?
>and I hope you are too.
I'm good too
>leaves are so pretty
maybe you should go on a walk?
>How about you?
I'm watching a movie called Mammoth from 2006
I picked it because I remember watching it as a kid pretty often for some reason, probably because I really really like prehistoric animals and there isn't a lot of movies about those, but the movie is kinda crap, I'm having fun laughing at it and seeing how much of it i remember

>>82991178
that's very sweet of you anon
many people could use some nice words and a hug

>>82991244
Heya
>how was your day?
pretty good
I'm watching a movie called Mammoth from 2006
I picked it because I remember watching it as a kid pretty often for some reason, probably because I really really like prehistoric animals and there isn't a lot of movies about those, but the movie is kinda crap, I'm having fun laughing at it and seeing how much of it i remember
>so bad
why? because school? :<
>hate global warming
and it's probably not going to stop any time soon
>those are good sides really no?
yep it is
>saying " a bit " is brave
it wasn't that bad
and I'm not afraid anymore but I still would not pet a random dog I don't know and without asking the owner
>turned out it didn't even care
phew
are you uneasy around dogs?

>>82991271
Hello
>promise I'll not stay here too long.
oh it's okay you don't have to go anywhere if you don't wanna
>Sad and worried
sorry to hear that
>need to leave for some food
have a nice meal anon
>could have done more.
honestly you'd feel that no matter how much you've done
but you did a lot
more than you realize now, like contacting all those people to find out is she's alright after her attempt, you care but she doesn't want your care, it seems
It is sad

>>82991178
How sweet of you, anon!

>>82991251
I totally do! For the most part, I like all the seasons!

>>82991244
>so bad
What happened?

>>82991271
>Sad and worried. Mostly consumed by worry.
What's got you so sad? I hope you'll feel a little better if you go outside.

>>82991271
hey anon
>I'll not stay here too long.
why anon? it's nice to see you here

>>82991436
>pretty good
nice to hear that!
>probably because I really really like prehistoric animals
>I'm having fun laughing at it and seeing how much of it i remember
lol it's interesting how you can deal with how bad it is by laughing at it. also i like prehistoric animals, i liked it more when i was a kid i guess. but i don't know if i would've watched a whole movie about a prehistoric animal
the mammoth and the saber tooth tiger (i think that's how it's called) were so cool to see
i remember watching a video saying that, maybe, by genetic engineering and by using the dna of these extinct animals we might see them again somehow

>and it's probably not going to stop any time soon
so sad to be honest, gonna miss the snow

>would not pet a random dog I don't know and without asking the owner
but like you won't be scared if you saw a random one? that's nice really
>uneasy around dogs?
i don't know if it's like that everywhere but the place i live in has some scary dogs
i left the house once and saw 2 dogs or so, nearby the building, standing firmly as if they were ready to attack

>why?
after all studying i did, i made a super stupid mistake in the exam
i was literally aware of it like 10 or 20 minutes before the exam and then forgot about it
and boom, 3 marks are gone unless if the test grader decided to help me by giving me 1 mark or 2 for the formula i wrote

there "could" be more mistakes but i just hope there isn't. it broke me in the morning. it just feels like i can never be good again and get the grades i should get, no matter what i do. i've been stuck like this for like 6 years.
i'll probably relapse if the grade bothers me tomorrow
but uh well i used a chance to isolate myself in the class and sit in the last seat, finally

>>82991627
>What happened?
had an exam and made a stupid mistake, and there might be another mistakes, not sure
i talked more about it in my previous reply
thanks for asking anon. :)

>>82991057 (OP)

>hey
hii cat ^^

>How are you doing today?
okayy, last day of break before school tho

>Is there anything bothering you right now?
school mainly, I've fallen behind a bit

>How are you spending this halloween?
I spent halloween not doing much, met a friend or two, was with my family. Played videogames

>>82991436
>oh it's okay you don't have to go anywhere if you don't wanna
Thank you for allowing me to stick around.
>have a nice meal anon
Thank you, I did.
>honestly you'd feel that no matter how much you've done
You're probably right about that. Still, I can't help but wonder.
>but you did a lot
I wonder if that drove her away in the end. I think there might have been some guilt over me putting in a lot of effort for her. But I did it because I wanted to, not because she made me. If anything I felt like I never did enough to warrant how happy she made me.
>It is sad
Yeah...

>>82991627
>What's got you so sad?
My gf broke up with me out of nowhere a couple of days ago and I'm still moping about it.
>I hope you'll feel a little better if you go outside.
I did. I like going out after midnight.

>>82991716
>why anon?
I don't self-harm, and I only recently started posting here out of concern for my BPD gf who did. Now she's gone I don't really have any reason to be here.
>it's nice to see you here
I'm glad to hear that. It's nice seeing the same names every time I drop by.

>>82991716
>there "could" be more mistakes but i just hope there isn't. it broke me in the morning. it just feels like i can never be good again and get the grades i should get, no matter what i do. i've been stuck like this for like 6 years.
I've definitely been there before, and it's so frustrating. It feels like there's always just some stupid mistake, no matter what. It's even worse when it's a mistake you've made before, or something you specifically practiced. I don't really have any advice to offer with this one, but look: don't beat yourself up over it, it's not worth it at all.

>good again and get the grades i should get, no matter what i do. i've been stuck like this for like 6 years
I've felt that way in the past, and it is a totally a crappy feeling. You can still do better, though, I'm sure you can. Whenever I feel like that, I always tell myself that instead feeling really defeated, I should focus on things I can do to prevent such mistakes from happening in the future. But of course, it's still perfectly valid to feel like crap when it happens. And mistake just happen, you know? We're only human, after all.

Anyway, I kinda went on a rant there, huh? I hope you feel better soon, rememberme :3

>>82991723
>thanks for asking anon
No problemo

>>82991716
>nice to hear that!
thanks ^^
>deal with how bad it is by laughing at it
have you heard of "so bad it's good" movies?
>don't know if i would've watched a whole movie
hehe I was a little bit of a strange kid
>using the dna of these extinct animals we might see them again somehow
maybe but I don't think it's a good idea
>gonna miss the snow
:<
though it might actually makes winters more snowy in some parts
>be scared if you saw a random one?
no though if it was barking at me I'd get spooked
I don't see them all that often, mostly on my bikerides but I've never been attacked and I actually carry some weapons with me and I'm thinking about buying a small pepper spray
>left the house once and saw 2 dogs
spooky
but nothing happened right?
>made a super stupid mistake in the exam
happens to all of us fren
but I get if it's hard to get over it
I failed a class because of something like that
>been stuck like this for like 6 years.
it's not your fault fren
it's the way exams work that are stupid
>grade bothers me tomorrow
hopefully it not that bad

>>82991790
hey :DD
>last day of break before school tho
noo :<
that's sucks
how long was your break? did you have fun during it?
>fallen behind a bit
same
are you going to be in trouble?
>a friend or two, was with my family. Played
sorry I accidentally left that question in
But it sounds like a well spent halloween fren^^
I just watched some scarry movies

>>82992114
>My gf broke up with me out of nowhere a couple of days ago and I'm still moping about it.
Oh no Anon, I'm so sorry to hear that. If recalling it doesn't make you too sad, what happened? Did she say anything? I've never been in a relationship, so I can only imagine how hard it is for you.

I really hope you feel better. Don't forget to take care of yourself.

>>82991251
>>82991271
>>82991436
>>82991627
i wonder where i could find cutters irl to give them some love. im not a cutter myself but i know what its like to lack that sort of affection. maybe they could reciprocate one day.

>>82992114
>Thank you for allowing me
oh no problem ^^
> I did
what did you eat?
>I can't help but wonder.
they not to overthink it anon, it won't help with anything
but I know it's easy to say
>wonder if that drove her away in the end
hard to say :/

>>82992182
>how long was your break? did you have fun during it?
it was a week and a weekend so 9 days, it was, okay. I slept a lot and stuff, but i had some fun too

>are you going to be in trouble?
i already am, but ill be okay

>I just watched some scarry movies
how were they? ^^

>>82992243
>what happened?
She had a setback in life and her response was to block me. I'm not really sure what the logic was, but my best guess is she was worried about hurting me or being a burden in the future so decided to discard me before she could do that.
>Did she say anything?
She left me a short audio message to say what had happened and that she was breaking up with me. She also told me not to contact anyone in her life and threatened to hurt/kill herself if I did.
>I've never been in a relationship, so I can only imagine how hard it is for you
It was my first, so it's been pretty difficult. To be honest it's been a lot easier than her suicide attempt. Though I worry she's made another.
>I really hope you feel better. Don't forget to take care of yourself.
Thank you. Thankfully it's not been debilitating but it's taking up a lot of my headspace.

>>82992261
>what did you eat?
Some slop from McDonald's. I don't feel too great after eating it but I almost forgot to eat today so it's better than nothing.
>they not to overthink it anon, it won't help with anything but I know it's easy to say
I know. I'm sure with time I'll stop worrying about it. Hopefully sooner than later.

>>82991057 (OP)
I wanted to start cutting again but with working out it's kinda annoying. T
high cuts are really ugly, and save for my chest everything else is visible with the clothes I wear nowadays. How do I make good cuts in my chest?

>How are you doing today?
Pretty eh. Woke up early today to catch the gym while its empty but I felt tired, even with 6 hours of sleep. Just studied instead.
>Any plans for today?
To cut myself and go to the gym. Better a bad workout than no workout. Also, listening to new music.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Sometime in November of last year.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
Frustration with my lack of direction in life. Not an issue anymore
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Nothing bothering me, but I feel I should be a lot more bothered.
>How are you spending this Halloween?
Halloween was over by the time I posted. I spent it watching the L.A Dodgers and Blue Jay's game.

>>82992557
>How do I make good cuts in my chest?
give yourself cuts that look like the ftm trannies get when they get their tiddies lopped off
then you can claim to be ftm and get clout\
maybe one of them will even fuck you

>>82992557
Why are you cutting now anon?

>>82992660
>give yourself cuts that look like the ftm trannies get when they get their tiddies lopped off
I've seen pictures and I don't really like the look. Also I'm not into them.
>Why are you cutting now anon?
Superstition and nostalgia
When I cut myself last year from that point on everything starting going right. I don't want to divulge details but saying my life did a 360 for the better would be understating things. That's the more "sensible" purpose I came to after thinking about it.
The initial reason was waking up the past couple mornings wanting to cut for whatever reason. Not prompted by seeing anything related to self harm or being in a rut, just a desire to do as such. Guess I just miss it?

>>82992756
>>82992919
Forgot the (You)
Captcha: TP8HT

>>82992919
Ah. So a 'wake up call' of sorts I presume? That's interesting. Whats your wake up call if my assumption is correct? As a person who Indulges in self harm in non physical ways, I'd say my equivalent would be destroying/throwing away my belongings. I connect bad juju or events/people with belongings. I'll throw away all clothes except for a few pairs for example.

hey, everyone! what's up?

>>82993097
Now that that thoughts on my mind I may be doing this soon aswell. I only need a few pairs and the pros outway the cons. I live with a pwOCPD and laundry tends to be a trigger.

>>82993099
Hello anon nothing much. Winding down for the night and enjoying the extra hour of sleep. Yourself?

evening people, having a hard time rn that i'm incapable of even trying to explain.
>>82993099
hey dude, i'll be fine
hbu?

>>82993161
pretty much the same here. just lying on the couch curled up in a blanket, listening to some guys commenting on a review of lord of the rings. hope i won't fall asleep before i make it to bed. ^^

>enjoying the extra hour of sleep.
just got out of daylight savings time or just going to bed earlier?

>>82993234
hi chev! :D

>having a hard time rn that i'm incapable of even trying to explain.
sounds intense. hope it's nothing too bad. :<

>i'll be fine
hm, alright. i'll take your word for it.

>hbu?
just tired, so i tried to just relax today. watched some tv, ate, played some games and now i'm just chilling.

>>82993099
hiii yuanon!! :D
hru?

>>82993307
hey, meowster! (^-^)

>hru?
could be better, but at least i'm pretty comfy right now. i've just felt very drained and exhausted lately. sorry for not staying in touch. what about you?

>>82992250
a lot of time with people who hurt themselves hide it so you wouldn't know
Just been nice to people whether they fut on not

>>82992312
>okay. I slept a lot and stuff, but i had some fun too
glad you had a well deserved break
>already am, but ill be okay
that's good
I have some school troubles too
>how were they? ^^
okay, entertaining though not very scary but it's hard to make me scared so it's okay

>>82992490
>don't feel too great after eating it
it's okay anon just don't make eating it a habbit and you'll be fine
and btw how are you going to spend the rest of your day?
>I'll stop worrying about it. Hopefully sooner than later.
best of luck o7

>>82992557
Hey anon
>wanted to start cutting again
why?
>good cuts in my chest?
I don't know desu, what does good mean?
it'll probably be best to not cut
If you want the pain maybe you could try getting a tattoo?
it'll hurt and you won't end up with a scar
>Just studied instead
sounds productive
good job
>Also, listening to new music.
whatcha listening to?
>last year.
so it's been a while
nice job
>Not an issue anymore
really? why?
>>82992557
>Halloween was over
yeah I forgot to remove that question
>spent it watching the
sounds nice

>>82993099
hey yuanon hey hey
how are you??
I chilled and watched a crappy movie lol

>>82993234
Hey
hope it gets better fren :<
sounds like you're super overwhelmed

>>82993288
>hope it's nothing too bad. :<
eh it's not really. I think I'm just being delusional.
>watched some tv, ate, played some games
what didya watch and play?

>>82993479
hey cat
>sounds like you're super overwhelmed
i'm not sure, I'm just thinking about things I never thought I would ever think about ig. shit like identity and whatifs ig

>>82993097
>What's your wakeup call?
I can't recall what my wakeup call was when I cut myself a year prior, a million things going wrong could have prompted it. This time around I can't really find anything of that sort beyond anything I've already mentioned.
If I had to guess it'd be my dissatisfaction with my weightlifting. I looked at my records of weights lifted and I've been stagnant for many, many months. Looking at my logs was the last time I felt any real disappointment with myself (as I am now). Anything before that's just miscellaneous rumination thst doesn't really move me. Did I read your definition of wakeup call right?

>I connect bad juju or events/people with belongings. I'll throw away all clothes except for a few pairs for example
This seems relatively common as an occurrence itself since I've heard it with others, but normally I've only seen it under very emotionally stressing circumstances (betrayals, breakups, etc). How frequent is it for you?

>>82993119
Good luck with it, out with the old and in with the new.

>>82993099
Nothing much. Just ate so I'm going to the gym after I'm done replying, might post off my phone on the way if 4chan isn't annoying about captcha.

>>82993479
>why?
Superstition and because I felt a want to cut myself the past couple days.
>I don't know desu, what does good mean?
Something that stings and won't bleed too long. My first cut was a fluke so I dunno how to do it right.
>it'll probably be best to not cut
Yeah, but I still want to.
>If you want the pain maybe you could try getting a tattoo?
A little too permanent for something I'm doing on a whim. Tattoos mostly suck anyway, not my thing.
>whatcha listening to?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTiqn79n2Rc
>really? why?
I found out what I wanna do with myself.

>>82993643
You did. I apologize for not understanding your initial message clearly. I reread it again and understood clearer. Weight lifting is amazing for the mind and body. I used to not like it because I was lazy and didn't like it hurt but now I understand why people find it addictive. It's all about the rush after. Any progress is good progress.

>>82993703
I reread this aswell and realized this could emphasize cutting in a way I don't want it to be interpreted. I was talking about hypertrophy and don't want my words screwed wrongly. I'm sorry if it comes off that way and cutting is a negative coping mechanism.

>>82992114
>don't really have any reason to be here
no anon, you can stay here, you don't have to self-harm to be here, you can also notice how most of our conversations aren't always about self-harm. it's okay you can stay :]


>>82992119
>not worth it at all
thank you anon, but i cant help but thinking :/
let's just hope everything gets better

>I'm sure you can
i need to be confident too, like it's making me just feel like i'm just unable to get better. maybe i needed more time to study
>We're only human
you're right anon. thank you for your kind words.

>on a rant
no worries at all! it's okay :]
>hope you feel better soon
thanks! i hope you too fix whatever is wrong :]

>>82992182
>so bad it's good
well i guess i know one now xd

>strange kid
that's not strange desu it's rather like an investigator kid lol

>I don't think it's a good idea
lol imagine seeing dangerous extinct predators in the zoo, that's strange

>more snowy in some parts
i think i heard something like that before
i dont really know alot about global warming

>weapons and pepper spray
oh that's it then, I've always thought about having a weapon just in case, but i think the best thing i can have is a stick lol
i heard there is a tool that distracts dogs somehow i dont know alot about it

>nothing happened
yup nothing happened

>failed a class because of something like that
i know that it hurts really, i hope you don't think about it nowadays

>the way exams work
maybe also

i just want to be alone and study by myself without having to enter this disgusting competion with other students that make me feel stupid

i was an A+ kid i remember being the best one in my class for years, it kinda became a huge part of my personality that if i lose it i will just feel like i lost a part of me
that's why i really hate it

pardon the rant :[

>>82993479
>how are you??
drained, but comfy. just have to do some laundry and then i can completely call it a day. will be hard getting out of my comfy blanket, though. (~.~)

>I chilled and watched a crappy movie lol
what movie was it? i watched gremlins yesterday. still pretty good, but not exactly a scary movie. ^^

>>82993606
>I think I'm just being delusional.
about what?

>what didya watch and play?
just some episodes of an older season of some german survival show, then i fished a bit in wow and beat brotato with a character i hadn't beaten it with before. also made some tepache and kombucha because i had the stuff for it lying around.

>>82993643
>Just ate so I'm going to the gym after I'm done replying
hope you have a good session. i wasn't able to motivate myself today. hope i can get over myself next week. :/

>might post off my phone on the way if 4chan isn't annoying about captcha.
looking forward to it. :>

>>82992250
that's so nice of you anon, i hope you get everything good
>wonder where i could find cutters irl
i think it's a bit difficult since it's not easy to mention that in public

>>82993099
hey yuanon!
how are you?

>>82992114 #
>don't really have any reason to be here
no anon, you can stay here, you don't have to self-harm to be here, you can also notice how most of our conversations aren't always about self-harm. it's okay you can stay :]


>>82992119 #
>not worth it at all
thank you anon, but i cant help but thinking :/
let's just hope everything gets better

>I'm sure you can
i need to be confident too, like it's making me just feel like i'm just unable to get better. maybe i needed more time to study
>We're only human
you're right anon. thank you for your kind words.

>on a rant
no worries at all! it's okay :]
>hope you feel better soon
thanks! i hope you too fix whatever is wrong :]

>>82992182 #
>so bad it's good
well i guess i know one now xd

>strange kid
that's not strange desu it's rather like an investigator kid lol

>I don't think it's a good idea
lol imagine seeing dangerous extinct predators in the zoo, that's strange

>more snowy in some parts
i think i heard something like that before
i dont really know alot about global warming

>weapons and pepper spray
oh that's it then, I've always thought about having a weapon just in case, but i think the best thing i can have is a stick lol
i heard there is a tool that distracts dogs somehow i dont know alot about it

>nothing happened
yup nothing happened

>failed a class because of something like that
i know that it hurts really, i hope you don't think about it nowadays

>the way exams work
maybe also

i just want to be alone and study by myself without having to enter this disgusting competition with other students that make me feel stupid

i was an A+ kid i remember being the best one in my class for years, it kinda became a huge part of my personality that if i lose it i will just feel like i lost a part of me
that's why i really hate it

pardon the rant :[

>>82993755
hi rm!

>how are you?
right now i'm rather comfy on my couch, watching a very long vid. what about you? exams still giving you a hard time?

>>82993874
>comfy on my couch, watching a very long vid
mhm sounds cozy! expecially if you were tired and that's how you decide to relax :]

>exams still giving you a hard time?
yup, but tomorrow's exam is easy it feels like a break so it's okay.
tuesday's exam gonna be a problem. i hope it goes well

>>82993606
>just thinking about things I never thought
sounds tough
>shit like identity and whatifs ig
wanna explain more?
maybe you could use a therapists help? though I am a little bit sceptical about those

>>82993643
>Superstition
oh that's interesting, what kind?
>stings and won't bleed too long
you do it just for the pain?
maybe you shouldn't cut, instead try some hot sauce? or a weak tazer maybe though this could be dangerous
>link
sounds cool d-_-b
>found out what I wanna do with myself.
what do you wanna do?

>>82993732
>guess i know one now xd
not really
this one is just bad bad heh
>investigator kid lol
thanks^^
I liked dinosaur toys and when I got one I would search for pictures or dinosaurs similar to it on the internet and encyclopedias lol
>extinct predators in the zoo, that's strange
and also a bit sad because then they would exist just for entertainment
just like some messed up dog breeds, they would have a terrible life
>heard something like that
it's because the warmer it is the more water evaporates making more clouds and therefore more rain and snow in some places
>can have is a stick lol
I guess you'd have to look at what's legal where you live, maybe you could buy something?
I think pepper spray is the best because you can just spray it and run away without having to fight
and I also carry a small expendable baton and knife on my bikerides because sometimes you can't run although hopefully none of us every get into a situation like that
>tool that distracts dogs
I think there are like some noise making thingies but they don't really work
>nothing happened
good
>hope you don't think about it nowadays
I was very angry but now I don't care
>became a huge part of my personality
honestly I feel like you should change that, I don't mean it in like a mean way, but no one can be always the best so it'll just make you feel like you're always not good enough
>pardon the rant :[
it's okay ^^
don't worry about sharing ur thoughts and opinions

>>82993786
whoops I meant to reply to u here >>82993983

>>82993734
>about what?
eh mainly just who i am and what my place is in the world. I keep losing my sense of self.
>older season of some german survival show
was it fun alteast? I tend to not really watch tv a lot
>beat brotato with a character i hadn't beaten it with before
ey good job man
>tepache and kombucha
don't think I've ever eaten that before.

>>82993983
>wanna explain more?
not something I feel like I should openly share on 4chan.
>maybe you could use a therapists help?
I don't think I should desu, they might get the wrong idea

>>82993734
>drained, but comfy
I'm very glad you are, comfy that is
>will be hard getting out of my comfy blanket, though. (~.~)
^^
maybe sure you have a glass of water next to you so you don't have to get up and have a good time
>what movie was it?
Mammoth, from 2006
when I was a kid for some reason I would watch it often
maybe because I didn't have other movies with prehistoric animals back them
It's a crappy horror and comedy movie it's not scary or good but it was nice to rewatch it after many many years

>>82993983
>bad bad
oh lol
>on the internet and encyclopedias
that's cool dude did you memorise any interesting fact you learned while searching back then??

>just for entertainment
oh yup, didn't think of that too
>dog breeds
there is also the problem of scottish fold cats breed, it's honestly annoying how some people don't care about that

>more rain and snow in some places
oh, how about other places?

>they don't really work
guess it's excluded now if i was ever going to buy something for dogs

>small expendable baton and knife
you know what? that's really good i think it can work not just for dogs
like if there was a maniac that wanna attack by any chance, that can help really
and yes, hope none of us get into that situation

>now I don't care
that's good :]

>no one can be always the best
it's not really all about not being the "best", hmmm how can i say it
it's like building your personality on being a baseball player for years, then you stop playing it and feel like "who am i now?" as if there is nothing else you know about yourself but the baseball thing
i think it can be fixed by finding new interests tho, but it's a bit different in my case
thanks for your words btw! :]

>don't worry about sharing your thoughts
thank you so much cat :]

bed time, see ya all!

>>82993933
>sounds cozy! expecially if you were tired and that's how you decide to relax :]
can confirm: it is! ;D i think i just needed it after the last few weeks.

>tomorrow's exam is easy it feels like a break so it's okay.
that's good. you've definitely earned one, but you do need a real one at some point, too.

>tuesday's exam gonna be a problem. i hope it goes well
wish i could support you in any meaningful way, but all i can do is wish you good luck and tell you that i'm rooting for you.

>>82993983
>mainly just who i am and what my place is in the world
i see. sometimes i feel like people are placing to much importance on this stuff. you're you and you are where you are. not like you have to be someone or somewhere anyways. you're good enough as you are, at least to me.

>was it fun alteast? I tend to not really watch tv a lot
it's basically a youtube format that became so popular it got picked up by tv and is also available on amazon prime and yeah, it's fun. ^^

>good job man
thanks. gotta be patient with that game for the good runs.

>don't think I've ever eaten that before.
both are fermented drinks. tepache is made from pineapple, sugar and spices like cinnamon, cloves and ginger and kombucha is sugared tea that's fermented by bacteria and yeast. both can be pretty good and are very easy to make, though you need a starter for kombucha. the ingredients for tepache you can just get at the store.

>>82994045
>I'm very glad you are, comfy that is
thanks. i feel like you need to be tired to really appreciate being comfy, so it kinda goes hand in hand.

>maybe sure you have a glass of water next to you so you don't have to get up and have a good time
have a bottle next to me, but i think i'll need another one. had some rather salty and spicy food.

>Mammoth, from 2006
i don't think i ever heard of that one before. the trailer looks like they tried to put in some men-in-black characters.

>>82993703
>>82993728
Your writing was fine for this and your initial posts, I was just checking my own understanding because of my own habit of misreading. Gym is a good cope. Jogging and sprinting achieve similarly good feelings for me but with gym the progress is much more visible (to myself and others) Also, I know cutting is a negative coping mechanism but I don't see myself doing more than once every blue moon at most. I like it to kickstart myself in a way I won't soon forget.

>>82993734
Gym was closed so I ended up doing basic calisthenics stuff at home instead. Push-ups, planks, neck raises and the like. Good enough, I'll just go early tomorrow.
You and /cat/ seem familiar, years ago when I was a regular here I recall you. How long have you been posting to /cut/?

>>82993983
>oh that's interesting, what kind?
The idea I need to cut myself for the reminder to do better, for myself initially, but now that I've grown, for others. Not regularly, just the rare time I lose sight of it. Like now.
>maybe you shouldn't cut
I do it so I don't forget, I don't have a tazer and it defeats the purpose. Besides, I woke up thinking about cutting myself, not self harm as a concept. If you got any tips on how to cut it'd be appreciated, I don't want to fuck myself up and look retarded.
>sounds cool d-_-b
Thanks, what've you been listening to?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tgn2q_OKJwM
>what do you wanna do?
Too revealing for my liking. Suffice to say I am satisfied with it, for now at least.

>>82994045
>It's a crappy horror and comedy movie it's not scary or good but it was nice to rewatch it after many many years
it's nice to be nostalgic about things like that sometimes. ^^

>>82994222
good night, sleep tight and good luck with your exams!

>>82994358
>can confirm: it is
i knew it!! :D
>needed it after the last few weeks
enjoy it as most as you can!
happy for you :]

>a real one at some point
yup, gotta wait

>wish i could support you
>rooting for you
thank you so much that's enough support really, i actually felt better after reading this. thanks yuanon :D

now it's bed time again, have nice dreams!

>>82994222
nice trips
>oh lol
yeah it's not a good movie but if you want a good bad movie "the room" is a popular one
>memorise any interesting fact
not really :<
well I probably did but I don't remember any now
>scottish fold cats breed
yep yep or the cats with super short legs
it's very infuriating
>annoying how some people don't care about that
they don't just not care, a lot of the time they prefer it, like they like it when their pet struggles to breathe or walk because they think it's cute
>how about other places?
I'm not an expert but other places would probably get less water and there'd be droughts
>guess it's excluded now
yep, it's not a very good option
there are better stuff like small sprays with a clip so you can have it on your belt under your clothes and they're small and don't weight much
>like if there was a maniac that wanna attack
yep especially that I'm on a bike and my phone is usually in my bike bag and I can't for example hide in a car and call someone
>there is nothing else you know
I think I get it, you just want to have something you're good at to feel good
>finding new interests
are you thinking about doing that?
>thanks for your words btw! :]
you are welcome ^^
>bed time, see ya all!
eep well!

>>82994358
>like you need to be tired to really appreciate being comfy
yep it's like the horrible cold storm outside makes sitting inside extra nice
you watching something btw?
>some rather salty and spicy food.
what was it?
oh that reminds me, I somehow got a hole in my tongue today and it stings when eating salty or spicr stuff lol, I think I bit my tongue really hard when I was sleeping
>don't think i ever heard of that one before
it was sorta difficult to find because they usual websites didn't have it
Luckily someone uploaded it all on yt :D

>>82994369
>Not regularly, just the rare time I lose sight of it. Like now.
I see it sounds interesting like it's a ritual for you now
>got any tips on how to cut it'd be appreciated
hm if you do a bunch of light cuts, just enough to draw blood, they shouldn't leave any long term or super visible scars
Though scarring is a pretty personal thing, I think some people get them easier than others
I don't really know what other tips I could give
>Thanks
thank you! for the musik :>
> what've you been listening to?
lately stuff sorta like this
https://m.soundcloud.com/goyfriendisraelfart/blurredoutlicenseplate-3
>Suffice to say I am satisfied with it, for now at least.
that's all that matters
glad you have something like that, hope you keep feeling that way about it for a little while because finding a new thing might be difficult

>>82994369
>I ended up doing basic calisthenics stuff at home instead. Push-ups, planks, neck raises and the like. Good enough, I'll just go early tomorrow.
well done! :D don't push yourself too hard, though. haven't heard about neck raises before, but i thought about including some neck exercises for a while now. thanks for reminding me.

>years ago when I was a regular here I recall you. How long have you been posting to /cut/?
hm. must have been over 3 years now, but who's counting. good to see you again. ^^ tried to look up when the stuff that made me so mad i started to post on 4chan to get it out of my system happened to pinpoint when i started posting, but i got so mad again that i had to stop. man some stuff really fucks you up.

>>82994410
>it's bed time again, have nice dreams!
talk to you soon! :>

>>82994477
>you watching something btw?
yup. efap guys commenting on doug walker's (nostalgia critic's) latest take on lord of the rings. it was nice background noise. you?

>what was it?
some grilled meats from a nearby greek place.

>I somehow got a hole in my tongue today and it stings when eating salty or spicr stuff lol
ouch. (>~<) that's always the worst.

>I think I bit my tongue really hard when I was sleeping
must be. guess you dreamed some cat dreams that night. ^^'

>it was sorta difficult to find because they usual websites didn't have it Luckily someone uploaded it all on yt :D
nice. maybe i'll give it a watch myself.

>>82994028
messed up my reply to you here >>82994358. sorry. :<

>>82994551
>I see it sounds interesting like it's a ritual for you now
Could become that.
>Light cuts
Thanks for the tips, I'll update tomorrow morning about it.
>Musik
Lil Watermark is pretty good, I need to listen to him more, here's my favorite track of his, R.I.P
https://soundcloud.com/goyfriendisraelfart/you-really-think-it-shouldnt-matter-but-it-does-a-lot
If you're into incelcore you've gotta check out scabzone and all his other projects. Best in the genre imo, severely underrated. He posted here too I think, 4chan not /cut/ specifically.
https://rateyourmusic.com/artist/scabzone
https://soundcloud.com/scabzone/dnr
>finding a new thing might be difficult
I don't have much choice desu, if it doesn't work out I'm just gonna be leeching or destitute forever. C'est la vie.

>>82994704
>haven't heard about neck raises before, but i thought about including some neck exercises for a while now.
A thicker neck really pleasing aesthetically and of particular advantage in combat sports. Apparently it lowers your voice pitch too, if you care about that sort of thing. Towel bite neck extensions are also good apparently, but I haven't tried those. Also, if you don't push yourself hard, wheres the fun?
>Good to see you again.
Nice to see you as well.

I'm getting very sleepy so goodnight

>>82994028
>not something I feel
that's okay I just best of luck friend

>>82994704
>some cat dreams that night. ^^'
must've been something good if I didn't wake up when biting lol
>give it a watch myself
it's not a good movie but you have fun :>

>>82994949
>I'll update tomorrow morning about it.
hopefully those are enough to satisfy you and you won't have to do it again anytime soon
also if cuts on hands heal very well and don't leave scars unless they're very deep
and ooa thank you thank you for the recommendation ^^

>>82994949
>if you care about that sort of thing
i'm not sure if any of those things would be applicable or of any use to me, but as long as there's some functionality to it, i'm sure that's reason enough to include them.

>Towel bite neck extensions are also good apparently
i'll look those up, too. thanks, again. :>

>if you don't push yourself hard, wheres the fun?
i'm more of a slow and steady guy, but i tend to get burned out on things quickly. if you can give it your all every time, go for it.

>>82995061
sleep tight.

>must've been something good if I didn't wake up when biting lol
either that or you bit very slowly. i slept against a cold radiator once and it turned on during the night, giving me a really nasty burn on my elbow.

>it's not a good movie but you have fun :>
i'll put it on my pile of potential for now.

time to call it a day. good night, everyone!