Thread 82992939

If you think about killing yourself, if you are at this point where nothing matters anymore, and you have nothing else to lose. I want to ask you one thing, and please really think about this:

Why not go to your local church?

If you are already at a point where you want to throw your life away, what have you got to lose? What if, just IF there actually is something to this whole God thing? What IF there actually is something to Christianity? Just what IF? What have you got to lose? Time? Effort? That's not worth much to you, is it? If you want to throw all your time and effort away forever?

Why not try it? Why not give Jesus a chance? What IF he truly can transform you and your life?

I guarantee you, your local church will be thrilled to see you there. I promise you this, if you seek God, he will let himself be found.

Do not throw your life away, please just give him a chance.

fuck god and his son jesus fuck them to death

>>82992939 (OP)
>Why not go to your local church?
because i fundamentally disagree with their ideology and dont get along with the people there , i went to church sunday school, i didnt like it, waste of time

>>82992939 (OP)
Jesus was the first transwoman. He trooned out so hard that Satan got angry and forced the Romans to crucify Him. God is also a trans person but He's a transman. Jesus was also a big homosexual prior to transitioning. He once fucked all his disciples in a giant orgy and there was so much cum it flooded the streets. Jesus's favorite food was cum. The Bible mistranslated the part about the fish and bread. Jesus was actually just cumming in everyone's mouth and they cummed in His in an infinite loop until everyone was full of cum.
>>82993030
Jesus comes to me at night and makes me fuck His asshole until it gapes enough to stick my head in. Jesus is the best fucktoy ever made. God blesses my dick when we fuck so I can cum constantly with no refractory period. Jesus is a painslut bottom bitchboy. He loves getting gaped hard.

>>82993030
>>82993078
>t. Basement dwellers angry that they had to go to Sunday school.

You guys really are edgy and I'm like suuuuuuper offended. I might cry.

Satisfied? Can you fuck off to r/atheism and talk about how you "le totally owned the Christcucks" now?

>>82993208
you don't know me faggot

>>82992939 (OP)
went to church until 21. it didn't help. it feels far to preachy/moral masturbation.

>>82993236
>you don't know me
I've seen a million people like you. Hating my religion doesn't make you special. You're as boring as blase as anyone I've ever met. Quite possibly moreso, as the edgy tryhards that say the kinda shit you do tend to do it as a compensation for having no real personality and nothing of note to say.

Go back to your little Atheist circlejerk and let the grownups talk.

>>82993208
Jesus's gaping asshole leaks cum and shit. I get on my knees and press my mouth to it, tongue lapping up the Holy mixture. My hard cock leaks cum uncontrollably, thanks God. He moans and begs for my 9 inch nail to penetrate him again but I'm transfixed by the taste of his ass. I reach around and grasp his little member, he shrieks in pleasure. Jesus starts moving his hips and his cock rubs my hand until it finally explodes in cum. I lap it up and shove my entire arm up his ass. He cums again.

>>82993030
ever notice how "atheists" actually believe in Christianity, they just side with demons? they worship evil because their soul is so corrupted they can't help but respect Satan.

and then, they will argue online that the eternal punishment of hell is unfair. that was their own active choice. more often than not they will be trans as well.

>>82993283
Demons are cool as fuck retard. What did God ever do? Everything he made sucks shit. Demons want cool shit like hellfire and war. God is a fucking faggot who gets pissy when people use his name in vain. Satan is the best.

>>82992939 (OP)
lot of suicide threads today. what's the deal

>>82993266
>>82993272
epic read

>>82993293
Christcucks are out in force recruiting the dregs of society to be slaves to the Church

>>82992939 (OP)
I don't believe a god exists. Because if he was real why did he curse me with a debilitatingly low IQ and an ugly ass face. I want out of this world

>>82993388
God actually hates everyone that's why the world is so bad. The real good guy is Satan but God wrote the Bible and pretended he was good. Satan preaches freedom and equality while God demands subservience. Christians are all slaves but Satan wants to free them. Also demons are sexy as fuck and being on Satan's team guarantees you as many hot demon girls as you want in Hell.

>>82992939 (OP)
Not sure if I can say that I will an hero for sure because I bitched out in the last time, but I'll answer this anyway.
>Why not go to your local church?
And then what? Will God send me some kind of subliminal secret message if I go to "his house"? I've lost years of my childhood going there and my life is still shit. Furthermore, there are dozens of different churches, how am I supposed to know which one is the right one?
>If you want to throw all your time and effort away forever?
I don't like that "if you're suicidal then you have nothing left to lose" perspective. Like, speaking about myself, for example, I still care about many things, such as the image I might end up projecting (an idea that made me discard the thought of jumping from a high place, making me think about another way of dying).

you're trying to exploit vulnerable people to get more members in your fucked up cult

>>82993293
any good ones? only see this one and another one on the catalog

>>82993527
>Will God send me some kind of subliminal secret message if I go to "his house"?
In my experience, finding the right church took a lot of searching. But it's a small community you can go to and be around other people who all share some basic values. I like mine, I like the people and I like the sermons. It's helped me out a lot over the past year.

You can't go in expecting it to fix everything and you can't ever expect that God will simply remove all suffering from you. Nonetheless He can give you the strength to get through whatever is happening. Just barely, sometimes, but you will get through.

>>82993629
God is the source of all suffering. He created it all. If you're suffering, it's God's fault. Why should you crawl to your abuser and beg for release when you can instead join the opposition? Satan is the true path to freedom and release from suffering.

>>82993660
>nah dude you don't understand her's good because he said so
>just look at what he says no at what he does
> just stop questioning it, besides it's your fault bad things happened to you, free will dude
>It's never gods fault unless something good happened, then it's obviously his doing

I was born in a buddhist family so I simply cannot accept the church or christianity because I know it's not the ultimate truth, just a kind of culture or something. Fuck you anon, and do like the rest of us and go kys eventually.

>>82993629
>share some basic values
In my experience, I only saw 2 christians in my life (aside from pastors) who read more than 3 books of the bible. Every other christian would fuck before marriage, lose their minds on alcohol and act just like your average normie.
>expect that God will simply remove all suffering from you
I don't, I just think that in the same way that I went to church dozens of times and felt absolutely nothing, there's nothing different this time that makes me believe that now, finally, I'm going to feel something.

>>82993981
>only saw 2 christians in my life (aside from pastors) who read more than 3 books
That's a shame. Some places are like that, I try and avoid them. Most of the folks where I go seem like good people, but I also hang out with the volunteer crowd so it could be a biased sample.

>nothing different this time that makes me believe that now, finally, I'm going to feel something
And I can't promise you will. It took me a long time before I started to "feel" church. Didn't even get baptized until late last year. And honestly there are still times I don't really feel it. But that's what the church is for, to find other people who have been where you are, felt how you felt, and to encourage you when things don't seem right. The whole point is to have that community. If you don't find one at the church you're at all you can really do is move on and try again.

>>82994150
>if you spend enough time in the cult you can really feel it
>brainwashing? no of course not it's god!
Religious nutsos are so cucked

>>82992939 (OP)
>Why not go to your local church?
I would not feel comfortable or accepted in one genuinely. I've already tried this. I also feel like a lot of church people are judgemental. Which Denomination would be most accepting of a neurodivergent, depressed nonwhite woman?

>>82994189
>Which Denomination
Various sects of Satanism. Racism and sexism are not tolerated. All are equal in the eyes of Satan.

I've been to church. People there are nice, but I never saw or experienced anything to make me think that God is real.

>>82992939 (OP)
I think about it everyday, but I've thought about it everyday for many years so it's clear that I'll never do it.
I do think about going to the church sometimes, but I just don't want to be weird about it all, I was never baptized or went through confirmation or any of those steps.

>>82994165
>spend enough time in the cult
Tell me you have no sense of community without saying it outright

>>82994749
>go to cult
>disagree on minor detail
>everyone hates you
>condemned to hell eternally
>go to suburbs
>disagree on minor detail
>no one cares, still invited to the annual party
hmm

>>82994767
Man I have disagreements with a lot of the folks at church. We'll bicker for a moment and then go back to what we were doing.

Most that's ever happened was me and another guy combing through Bible verses for a week debating something. I don't even remember what it was now.

>>82994802
If your disagreement is whether god is awesome or super awesome that doesn't count

>>82992939 (OP)
Went to church every week as a kid. I am now an agnostic atheist.

>>82994150
>Most of the folks where I go seem like good people
Like people from any other group, I've met many christians who were also good people. The problem I was trying to point out is that even among the good people (that I personally knew) most didn't follow the rules of the Bible when it would prevent them from doing something they wanted.
>all you can really do is move on and try again
That's something hard to do. Another thing that would be nice to have in mind is that both I and a lot of other suicidal anons are neurodivergent, leaving aside how uncomfortable it is to be around strangers, it would also take a lot of mental energy to break those ties if one realized that the wrong doctrine had been followed.
I appreciate your intentions, anon, my goal here is simply to demonstrate why people who think like me find it redundant to try one of the many possibilities that has a small chance of having any effect. For example: "what if magic is actually real?", "what if I can change my life with the law of attraction?", "what if the next therapist is the one who will understand me?", and etc. Faced with so many possibilities, any attempt to find out if there is something more in this world becomes redundant for someone tired of living. I would say that this is my perspective on this subject.

>>82994813
Usually it's interpretations of biblical events, whether certain stories are allegorical, the lesson to be taken from parables, etc...

Not everything turns into the Hussite wars. Just like not every neighborhood squabble turns into shooting your neighbor.

>>82995109
>most didn't follow the rules of the Bible when it would prevent them from doing something
I speak for a small group when I say that we try in earnest. I had a conversation with a brother today who relapsed into alcoholism. But that was an exception and not a pattern.

Some people do wear the faith like a set of fashionable clothes. Even Christ said "Not all who call me Lord, Lord will see the kingdom of heaven." It is a distressing thing, but the truly faithful are somewhat few in number. All we can do is to try our best to find one another, and build others up to follow Christ.

>hard to do
I know it is much easier said than done. Many things are. Unfortunately there's no foolproof solution to faith or community.

>I and a lot of other suicidal anons are neurodivergent
For what it's worth, I was suicidal for a long time and I do have a mild form of autism. I miss a lot of social cues and have trouble reading people. I also fixate easily. But nonetheless I have found people that care about me and enjoy my presence.

>Faced with so many possibilities, any attempt to find out if there is something more in this world becomes redundant for someone tired of living
I understand. It's overwhelming and exhausting. I have the same problem with a lot of things. But as I said earlier there isn't really a foolproof solution. All you can do is get up and try again, and hope it works this time. After a very long time of doing so I finally have a few things worked out. I know it can happen for you too, I just wish I could tell you how and when.

>>82992939 (OP)
I used to pray a lot as a kid. I'd pray for God to take me. I've always hated it here. He took my younger brother instead.