>>82992939
Not sure if I can say that I will an hero for sure because I bitched out in the last time, but I'll answer this anyway.
>Why not go to your local church?
And then what? Will God send me some kind of subliminal secret message if I go to "his house"? I've lost years of my childhood going there and my life is still shit. Furthermore, there are dozens of different churches, how am I supposed to know which one is the right one?
>If you want to throw all your time and effort away forever?
I don't like that "if you're suicidal then you have nothing left to lose" perspective. Like, speaking about myself, for example, I still care about many things, such as the image I might end up projecting (an idea that made me discard the thought of jumping from a high place, making me think about another way of dying).

I don't remember if I already took my meds and I'm afraid of taking them twice. I hate my brain AHAHHAHAHAHA

>>82479889
What exactly did you do for them? Like, did you carry their backpack or share your snacks with them?