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>Fun when your into it, forced when you arent really.
Hmmm, seems less like an issue of getting off on call and more an issue of mismatched libido, plus your partner being too demanding/not letting you take a break. I think the same dynamic happens with sex in real life, too.
>and I felt i was destroying them to an extent. I felt staying around would only break them further and I didnt want to hurt them anymore.
Isn't this one of those fallacious thoughts that anxious minds come up with? I also have a few avoidant tendencies, and I've thought things like that before. Maybe I've also done some avoidant things but possibly not to your extent.
Regardless, those thoughts are self-fulfilling prophecies, and if there's even one thing you can do about it, it's to ignore those thoughts as much as possible and do the exact opposite. However, it takes a lot of time and attempts to work on it... I think I can empathize with how hard it is to not act on those thoughts and impulses. It almost feels like something else is controlling me when I have thoughts like that.
>I found though in the end it felt incredibly terminally online to always be playing VRChat and cuddling. In the end I felt like an idiot every other time I got on, and more lonely since there were days where I couldnt really connect with anyone, friends or otherwise.
I also feel incredibly lonely on VRChat sometimes. It's hard to talk to strangers, and often I don't want to bother anyone on my friends list especially if I don't know them that well.
And yeah VRChat has a lot of terminally online mentally ill people who use it as their coping mechanism (or their place to enact their toxic desires).
I don't think I'd quit VRChat. I really enjoy some of the communities and events there. Just like with real life, your experience depends on the people you surround yourself with, I think.
Gosh, that reminds me of the VRChat group on this board, I'd hang out with them more often if I had the time.
